You stare out the window at the world outside, the lush green trees, the flowers beginning to bloom for spring, and the grass you have not touched for so long. The cult members walk through the mountain hideaway they call home, dressed in their long yellow robes and living inside small cottages. They all look so happy, and you wonder if any of them even know about you. You've been here for several weeks, living as a pet for their leader whom they call Father, and not once have you been happy during that time. You've mostly just been scared and homesick.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrP0YU976d5
Your life as a pet is very degrading. You aren't allowed on furniture, you're not allowed to speak unless spoken to, and you're not allowed to do anything without the permission of Father, whom you are forced to address as Master. You aren't even called by your name. Instead, you are simply called Pet. Right now you're sitting on the ground inside Father's study, which is in a building known as the Community Center, staring out of the window.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3bqEadcffr
The study is large and furnished with a desk and chair, some bookshelves with many old books, and that's about it. The door to the room creaks open and Father steps inside, his golden hair and eyes sparking in the sunlight. He walks over to his desk and sees you staring out the window.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNhBdkhzCvV
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He sighs and sits down in his chair. "What is it, child?" he asks, with a tone that makes me feel like he is disappointed in me. "Why are you looking out the window?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt2KNadDVub
"I just want to go home," I say.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDxXEkeG8pJ
Father sighs again. "Child, I know you miss your home, but we're not going anywhere for a while." He sits back in his chair. I start to cry, and Father stares at me.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIzzM2lPRFd
"Why are you crying?" he asks, with a small amount of anger in his voice. I cry even harder.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvcO6PuglG6
Father sighs.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiAKgEwmhdI
I say "I don't want to stay here!"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM9bXVs1rmB
Father gets up from his chair and walks over to me and kneels down in front of me. I look at the ground and Father grabs my chin and forces me to look at him. I look into his eyes. His eyes are cold, like stone. He stares at me with no emotion whatsoever.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYFWlkfQ4A5
There's no compassion, no sympathy. I'm just a thing to be used. He will use me for his own benefit, and then he will get rid of me. I need to get out of here. I stand up quickly and bolt for the door.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO45n1U67lx
"Stop!" he shouts, but I already hear his footsteps behind me. I open the door and run out. I run past the cult members, who only stare at me in awe, some whispering among themselves. I run until I come to a large oak tree. I climb the tree, which is only a few feet away from the ground. I find a branch that I think is strong enough to hold me, and climb up.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ75EjNpj0Y3
I can hear Father's footsteps getting closer. I hide myself in the branches of the tree.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡphPA7R2gcE
Father comes to the tree, his footsteps getting closer and closer to the tree. He stops, staring at the tree.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW8tykimNVV
"Pet, come down from the tree."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtjz88zWw79
I stay silent.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJjCeB6icVx
"Pet, I know you're in there. Come down from the tree right now or else I won't only punish you, I'll make your siblings suffer too. Do you want that to happen?" I come down from the tree and land on the ground with a thud. Father grabs me, and I struggle against his grip, but I can't escape.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaYGAMFoaqD
"Come with me, child." I am dragged along by Father.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9AKwhqCSr8
I struggle as I walk with him, but I can't get away. We walk for what seems like forever, and then we finally come to a large, circular room. I look around the room. The room is circular, with no windows, and only two doors. One door is at the very center of the room, while the other is at the very edge.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtBFHETjIDX
I struggle against Father, who only laughs at me. I struggle against him for what seems like an eternity, but he keeps a firm grip on me, and I can't get away. I sigh and decide it's best to just give up.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSn0xpmwrao
Father grabs my chin, and I look at him.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKencY5xwF3
"Don't make me have to punish you, child."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡviYr6413rI
I say, "What are you going to do to me?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfC9k6Ayo4P
Father smiles. "I'm going to punish you in a way that you'll enjoy." He releases me. I drop to the ground, exhausted..126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0uoykHSm2x
I say, "Please don't hurt me."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvCO6jWxcfH
Father laughs. "I'm not going to hurt you, child. I'm going to make you scream. I'm going to make you wish you were dead."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMEVNw0Apkm
I say, "Please don't!"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLPw7mHPFmW
Father laughs. "Don't worry, I won't kill you. But I will make you wish you were dead, child."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeq1QKzt1w5
I say, "What does that mean?" Father laughs. He picks me up and throws me on the bed.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlEhj2fV1PN
"You'll find out soon enough, child."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS71giWd7ZK
Then he leaves the room, closing the door behind him. I wait.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdnx062JJfW
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It's the last day of the school year. Finally... I've been waiting for summer vacation since the first day of the school year. I'm almost halfway between the school and my house, feeling happier than ever. Suddenly... darkness. I would have never thought that the last day of my sophomore year would be the last normal day of my life..126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgDBUNoXbqe
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I wait for what seems like forever, but he eventually comes back. He sits on the chair by the door. He looks at me.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaGoYpCPzHM
"Are you ready, child?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn3VjPN17Ze
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I nod and say, "Y-yes."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH4Uj3qXNRq
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"Good. Here's what's going to happen. I'm going to bind your hands together. Then I'm going to blindfold you. Then, I'm going to have you stand in the middle of the circle."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdMbfkx3FKv
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I say, "Okay.."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYJY4YAlPul
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I stand there, and Father ties my hands together, then blindfolds me. Father takes out the blindfold and places it over my eyes. I feel his hands on my shoulders, and start to feel uncomfortable.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡonspOreELQ
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I hear him say, "Bend your knees and keep your eyes forward." I do as I'm told.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVxuOhuz4dA
He says "Now, walk forward, slowly."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5BIfAsly04
I feel his hands on my lower back and begin walking. I walk forward, and my feet move, taking me forward. My legs continue walking, taking me further and further away from Father. My heart is pounding in my ears. Then, I reach the center of the circle.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgcVwwYzNhM
Father says "Good. Stay there."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCECCkdCGCy
I feel his hands on my shoulders. I hear him say, "Don't look back, child. It'll make things much worse." I stay there. Then, I hear Father's footsteps. I hear his footsteps stop. I stand perfectly still. Father says, "Well, well, well. Look at you." I wonder what's going on. I don't move, even though I can't see. I wait. I stand perfectly still and wait. I hear his footsteps walking toward me. I wait.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPsoBPjNoRl
I stand perfectly still. His footsteps stop. His hands grab my shoulders, and I tense up. His hands push me down. I fall to the ground, and my head smacks into the cold, hard ground. I wince. I lie there, waiting. I wait for a long time, but then I hear his footsteps. They get louder... closer. My heart rate goes up. I wait. I tense up. I stay still. His footsteps stop.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkwC1TrXuVG
He must be right next to me. I hold my breath. I wait. I stay still.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn3Hxc4LVLu
His hands touch my face. I tense up even more. His hands slide down my body, and my knees get weak. He unbuttons my blouse. His hands slide up my bra. I want to scream. He unzips my pants. His hands slide down my panties. I scream,"Stop!"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYCWyZeRIze
"Please!" I whisper.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDwTanx6rW3
He pulls down my underwear, and he takes his time. His fingers slide inside of me.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiFJJpY090J
I scream loudly.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkYeNxlZBVM
My scream echoes throughout the room.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeS4WTw4Lkb
"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" he shouts.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡanX1l0JQ5L
His fingers slide faster. I scream louder.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5bAtNMDFuX
"I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU!" he shouts. I try not to moan.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbEIETj6f4v
My body shakes. My legs shake. I can't control it. My body gives in to the pleasure. I moan and shake--my body trembles. My moans get louder and louder.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgq0qvrFQp0
I say "P-please s-stop.."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKJDakRk8gX
He stops for a moment, before sliding his fingers inside of me again. I stay still, and soon, I begin to come down from my orgasm. I lie there, panting. My hands are tied tightly together. I start sobbing.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡErJh8ysNo6
He pulls his fingers out of me. I wince and groan. I'm sore from the orgasm. I lie there, sobbing. I feel him sit down next to me. He unties my hands. I cry harder.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt8t2p8q7d4
He pulls the blindfold off of me, and I see that there are several men standing around, staring at me. I try to cover myself, but one of the men pulls the blanket off of me.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡngMiKmQeDm
"What's the matter, huh?" one of the men says.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtAVpsHtNeI
"Look at her," another says,126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoDVGMCnRvP
I say "Please leave me alone."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD1LAWNu5kG
"Let's see if she's a virgin," another says.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiw3SlZVxAR
"I'm a virgin," I say, trying to cover myself.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCrOjQVL00J
"We'll see. Let's see."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpY2q5Vfgmy
I say "No no no.." They laugh.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkK4VMoWW7g
"Look at her. She's a dirty little slut," one of them says.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxTVYrVteHW
"Let's see if she's a filthy little cocksucker," another says. I say "Please leave me alone!" They laugh. They grab me. They forcefully violate me. I start sobbing. I'm crying, and I can't stop. My tears are falling down my face.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKRX2CBu0RW
They untie me.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPSHKRzA9VH
I lie there, naked and sobbing. I'm sore, and my butt is sore. I keep crying harder. After a while, I hear a voice.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM4PN51C5CJ
"Ah... you're up," Father says.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhdRaL7tGqQ
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"Huh?" I say, confused. I slowly get up.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpM0xQZlH9n
"Where were you?" he asks,126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpjCBDzz8nf
I say, "T-they were hurting me...."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTs4EDTc8lz
"I know. We were worried about you. We thought you might be a virgin. You were."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5rPzMRABsW
Father smiles.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmh514Oep3l
"Get dressed. We have work to do," he says.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCL1gRx3Ktk
I say, "I can't handle this anymore. I can't stay here any longer. This is too much."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ay9ItSiJa
"I know," Father says. "But you have to. You're my favorite. You can't run away."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQabqjxqYyx
"I can't stand it anymore," I say, trying to get up.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkKR1oo930M
I say, "I don't want to be abused anymore."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaIZBoxFa0Q
"I know. But you need to do this. It's for the good of the cult."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMO0eW3FGhq
"I'm leaving," I say, trying to walk away.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd9ZHjMmQEI
Father grabs my arm. I struggle.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKWksb6ygHS
"Look, I know you're upset, but you're going to have to get over it. You need to stop struggling. I won't let you leave."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb0JRsqfx9b
I say, "Please let me go!"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiL2AXg3ukG
"I'm not letting you go. We need you. I need you. I'm your master, and you're my pet. I own you, and you obey me," Father says. I say, "I will not stay here any longer."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn9wzVGTzZ3
"You will," Father says.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYNI5cN6c1i
"I said I won't!" I say. Father gets angry. He pulls me to my feet. He slaps me hard across the face.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX58JbSZdGT
"You WILL!" I start crying hard. I cry as hard as I can, and Father laughs.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1aW5EvLAQJ
"I own you," he says, "You obey me."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRtWcYVHl34
I cry and sob hard. I sob for a long time before Father comes up behind me and slaps me hard.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmF6WCbHTbL
"Stop crying," he says.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm5UAX1F2uh
"I can't!"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡohZzASNZFm
Father grabs me and hits me hard across the face again.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡumajxmTRll
"Stop it!" I cry.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRzpX9kKaPo
"I said stop it!" he yells,126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTWoPMdwzxf
"I can't," I say.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJCAOGU1YTz
I say, "I want to kill myself!!!"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU0NmSHjwam
"NO!" Father screams.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrtBMvtzCZ8
"I'm not going to hit you anymore. I'm not going to hit you anymore. But you need to stop crying. You need to stop being so pathetic." I slowly stop crying. "You're going to stay here with us. You're going to learn. You're going to obey. You're going to be a good member of the cult. And you're going to love it here."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZd6gmTU915
I say, "I would rather kill myself than be here."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJrPK3fCQJv
"NO, you wouldn't," Father says,126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpGzaAPBWlj
"I would. I really would."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMF8d8Gkxdv
"If you really loved me you would put me out of my misery," I say with tears in my eyes.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4S3mciUM1j
"I do love you. I do. I'd never hurt you. I'd never hurt a single one of my children. You have to believe me."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUV79zBQQM7
I say, "At this point, I have zero trust in you. I'm not going to listen to you. I'm going to leave. I'm going to get help."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7aBNimXMWJ
"You're not leaving. You're staying here and you're going to obey."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡraGfCNQk0J
I say, "No I'm not!"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdOKE93uoD3
Father grabs my arm. I shake him off.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡokmwLxPKio
"You WILL listen to me!" he screams.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAnP0VXS0Vl
I say "No I won't!!!"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjPRYvxsXlL
"You will!"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCmDgwEyk2z
"I said NO!!!"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDLolac7SRe
"I'm going to count to three, and if you don't listen, I'm going to beat you like a dog!"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrbOUyNOC7g
I say, "I'm sorry! I'll obey and be a good girl!"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLiHt7qkmRH
"I know you will," Father says.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl0GianZh5K
Father reaches for the whip he keeps behind the door. He cracks it. I flinch, but don't cry.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxelkl4sps7
He says "One."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFFphrFreHO
I say, "I'll do anything.."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJAStxSVy0w
"Two."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLVwxhSxKnj
"I'll stay here. I'll do anything," I say.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhsApQ0ptbF
"Three."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRcmTXtVhMn
I see a gun on the floor. I grab it and put it to my head.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdJoSG9NfO2
"No, don't do it," Father says.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWymmLD33l7
I say, "If you promise to not hurt me anymore, I promise to do anything you want."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGgUtkYRth7
"Fine," Father says. He gets up from the chair and walks over to me. He removes the gun from my head and puts it on the bed. I'm relieved. I put my hands behind my back.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRGYIXckKLa
I let him tie my hands together. I look at him, and he looks at me.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsQlca1qAf2
"You're going to be good now, aren't you?" he says,126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzD1C0IoaHB
I say "Yes."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs2gT0KVNlt
"I don't want you to fail. I need you. I need you to stay here and obey."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFX4wotbdCg
"Yes," I say.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5HyP9HMFI7
"Good girl," he says.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ61TOtjyGi2
I say, "Just.. please don't violate my body."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiRWJCfwXAW
"I won't," he says.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB7PK7gr4Do
I stay tied up.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKYe5uyLREU
"Now," he says,126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ShML2QCaB
"Kneel."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5BAlTSxubz
"Please," I say.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIJeAkYACSi
I kneel. I do as he says. He steps closer to me, and I feel his breath on my neck.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAqtmwPf6xs
I anticipate that he's going to violate my body.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdEkw8Pts2g
I just know it.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl5WK2KpwV8
And then, he doesn't. He whispers in my ear.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW9xwmNy8PH
"I have someone coming who will do a better job than me."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp9sQuQHP2A
I stand up, and he turns around. I wonder who he's talking about. I try to block out the image of his penis, but I can't. He walks over to the door and disappears.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuiFFLgzp4O
I'm all alone in the room.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4dEAwCJEc7
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I hear the door open. I look up.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSNrZ1pnCUc
"Hello," a man says.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLBDlYin58b
I recognize him. It's the man who came into my room the first night I was here. I saw him before he abducted me. He walks towards me, and I back up.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV1UraA1NQi
"Hands behind your back," he says,126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAnvXpKtKbv
I do as he says. I hear the zip ties being undone.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAFRP4EbA7Y
"On your knees," he says. I get on my knees.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUwB94BAHcs
"Stay there," he says,126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrzWXaWaQcG
I stay on my knees.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfe8f6ejbb0
He comes up to me, and I can feel him unbutton my shirt. He removes my shirt and he puts his hand on my stomach. I gasp. I can feel his fingers on my skin. I can feel his breath on my skin. He puts his other hand on my head and he pushes my head toward his penis.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSYnkragEpo
I say "No no no."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKWtVH0tdXg
"Do it," he says.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9pp7f6zloK
I say no. He pushes harder.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFC0lepzicw
"Do it!" he says.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPdDDHrOwyD
I comply. I hear the zip tie undone.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjdJqGjNBQI
He unzips his pants. I watch as he pulls his pants down. I can see his penis, it's about an inch and a half long.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnFRBttYZTl
"Stay there," he says.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW0SFjKXy2M
I stay on my knees.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnOI9P8Pf5J
He steps up to me and shoves his penis in my throat. I gag and try to get away.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZxPFSkcExM
"Stop moving."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6BWpTQSmwi
I struggle and gag on his penis. He shoves it in deeper. I try to gulp it down.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGzSbhNKkBD
He pulls it out of my throat.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO8os6uLi0W
"What's wrong?" he says.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTxsNxli0Sd
I can't answer. I'm coughing. I cough and gag.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2AJS3ZPyiU
"What?" he says,126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTWmZ1NEVaY
I try to get air. I inhale. I try to get air out.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhva5bejObR
He shoves it back in my throat and I gag on his penis. I cough and vomit. I continue to struggle. He pushes it in even deeper. I have no strength left. My vision goes black. He shoves it out again.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjWeBp2RDEO
"Is this too big for you?" he says.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9TmZCpwSLy
I nod.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGQS1oJiZh8
"I understand," he says, "If you need to vomit, go ahead. I know how to treat a child who vomited before."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4rIWYIYpLE
I retch. I heave. I vomit again. I finally gain composure.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKyhMtSlSFV
He shoves it back in.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5SV8hQZwi7
I decide that vomiting once is enough.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMOpA5HEj1g
He shoves it in deeper.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDLBUIK3ILi
I struggle and fight.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfkTcYJQnR7
"Stop fighting me," he says.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡntu2SECz5a
He cums in my mouth and I spit it out.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWiz5e5IgIL
"Get dressed," he says.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMlhWuzPxhY
I get dressed. He pushes me out the door and shoves me out the door. He closes it behind me. I take the chance to run away. I run away from the cultists as they try to catch me. They shout at me to stop, but I keep running. I manage to escape them and run away. I run all the way back home. I'm safe at last.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9TxlcO0rkK
I say, "Mom? I'm home!"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNugajnXOU7
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My mother comes running out of the kitchen.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGJexdZwOWP
"Allie! I can't believe it's you. You're home! Come here, I've got something special for you." I run into my mom's arms and hug her. I've been away for so long.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0uzJu0sZMl
"I missed you so much, I was worried about you!" she says.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDbE4aAYFYc
"I missed you, too." My mother leads me into the kitchen.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡujUACylG3p
I say, "Where's dad?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf40gujwxa8
"He's in the living room." I go to the living room. My father is watching television.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkvKrV6JtqL
"Dad, I'm home!" I say. My father turns around and looks at me. I run up and hug my dad.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0zpjXls6Yl
"I missed you so much," he says. My mother hands me a glass of water. I sit down at the table.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbYmnqSfy4I
My father says, "Where have you been?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtSFa10Lu61
I say, "I was kidnapped by a cult."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFjJlvn1Kho
"Did they hurt you?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHirauVGAgI
"Yeah," I say.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7N4krwHNNo
"I'm sorry."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4T4PD2LrzX
"It's not your fault." I hear a knock on the front door.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6xBhtPcL7s
"Who could that be?" my mother says. My father gets up and walks over to the door. He opens it. Two policemen walk in.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgrsXYdzJdK
"Is Allie in here?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo2zWFTf3x9
My dad says, "Yes, why?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcNR8QV0Bk7
"We have some questions for her regarding the kidnapping of a young girl earlier this week," one of the policemen says. "Is she willing to answer some questions?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCPM2QcTUZr
"Of course she is." I walk towards the cops.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyncP9FozxM
"Do you have any weapons on you?" one of the cops asks.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO6lHsb7AQr
"No." I respond,126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPcVePdrd0s
"Can we come in?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ36JEMPeGQe
"Sure," I say. The cops follow me into the kitchen. They walk past my dad and sit down at the table. They motion for me to sit down, too.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS1qkL1NhSu
"Okay, why were you kidnapped?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmbmAL9CEA1
I say, "I don't know."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa2YXpSfQH3
"We know that the man you encountered on the road called you by name. Did he tell you his name?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjaPTQBBOYD
"No." I say,126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡePoQ8MtLMo
"Are you sure?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7w8F8Y382s
"Yes."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXIkB6kRHq9
I say, "He referred to himself as 'Father'.''126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFT7Q1IauFX
"Did he give you any food or water?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNXi32D3X6O
"No." I respond.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJRMBIrWSKe
"Did he give you any kind of drugs?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZi1mTnFYzk
"No."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYCtOz9eOvd
"What did he do to you?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Ed89AC2dh
I say, "He... he sexually assaulted me."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxYQ3YgKWsZ
"Did you fight him?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI3Hs9YoyGX
"I tried."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV6TUcgoHOm
"What happened?" I pause, trying to think of an answer.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjg82nD58Ql
"I think I blacked out."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVFM0BpWajV
"I see."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjlnXNnzS9L
I say, "He severely beat me numerous times.."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXIfWOhozPN
"And how long were you with him?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ60Vww0o4h2
"I think about ten hours."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHtA5yF5rIm
"And you only just managed to escape?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2vXVYnWL4P
"Yeah."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIEh8rl1lAF
"Do you know where you were?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIV7luN87X1
I say "No."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCtJ7dJ6D0Y
"What is the last thing you remember?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIAzhJcEU7J
"I remember walking down the road."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRmnmQHgg3x
"And then?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZbOS2tyx0t
"I don't remember."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFiUbqbBhL2
"Do you know how you got away?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Rlr0J79oV
I say, "I just ran,"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlWaJ837x6r
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened, from the beginning."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxG30zgdZ2d
I explain what happened to me, starting with the encounter on the road, ending with running away from the cultists.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQg7sCh2Qjo
I say, "So that's how it all happened."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6NMWnqxDnM
"What do you mean?" one of the cops asks. "I say you blacked out, and then you woke up and ran away. So did he drug you or something?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNchkDsbOir
"I don't know." Suddenly I hear gunshots outside the house.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgyPipH9hnM
"What was that?" one of the cops asks,126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlt6ujOdbXW
"Stay here, we're going to check it out." my dad says, and heads outside. I run outside with my dad. He tells me to hide behind a bush.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVKPNUrFJta
"Go hide over there," my father points to a bush about thirty feet from the house.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUYhrm6hnOd
I hide behind the bush and watch the house.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSKHudJW3Xi
I see a man who I recognize as the person who kidnapped me.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb2bEHV4phL
He has a gun and is shooting at my dad. I watch with tears in my eyes as my dad falls to the ground.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡumAvu4giyC
"You fucking son of a bitch!" I yell as I charge at my kidnapper. I push him down, and beat him repeatedly in the head with my fist. I then take his gun and shoot him in the head with it.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFvmmmOuEbI
I drop to my knees over his body and sob.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7mv3DEWLLr
After a few minutes the police officers arrive at the house. They rush towards me and place handcuffs on me.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡguXvbVN34D
I say, "He was my kidnapper! Please, trust me!"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIMR5rd17xA
"We'll take care of everything, don't worry." one of the officers says,126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfIQyuMW5If
"I'm sorry, but we need to take you with us, it's for your own safety." I'm thrown in the back of the cop car.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqGv3Sw4X5W
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I try to open the door to get out, but the cops slam it shut. I try to bang on the window, but no one seems to notice me, except my mom, standing on the front porch looking at me with tears in her eyes.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD3FmtflMUs
I sob in the back of the cop car. I am being taken to the police station, and I don't know what to expect.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqOWIZZIvH7
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At the police station, I am strip searched and placed in a cell.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI4Au7pYq0k
I say, "Please, the man I killed was the one who kidnapped me and murdered my father!"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH1SSJ9RVO9
"Calm down, we'll get you a lawyer and he'll take care of everything."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDCnUb4LTrA
"But I didn't do anything wrong!" I collapse on the cell floor and start crying.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpGrXtmp6bY
"I'm sorry, we'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4kSmTDUOtt
I don't really know how much time passes, but I am released from the cell after some time.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1JEaXVPNIT
"We'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge, I promise." I am taken to a different cell and left alone. I sob and cry for what seems like hours. I cry about what I did, cry about being in prison, cry about being a murderer. Eventually, I stop crying and just sit there on the bed, surrounded by concrete walls. I fall asleep on the jail bed.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7aP44XL1Qw
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I am woken up by a man in a suit.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqnnD9m9eOp
"Get up." he says,126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9boXVQo8nb
"Why am I here?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRqXssTnUrk
"Because you murdered a man, and you tried to murder another."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMDHeOxC2yI
I say, "He fucking kidnapped me for Christ's sake!"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfoAwSh5PuE
"Shut the fuck up." He says, "Get dressed. We're getting you a lawyer."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG5OyUVj1eV
I am taken to a holding area, a small room with a table in it. A man sits behind the desk.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVHL5VFLWtv
I sit down.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDGnd4bL9or
"Okay, how can I help you?" he asks.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡePeWFEMzX1
"I was kidnapped and assaulted, and I killed someone while trying to escape."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcfHr75nfw1
"I see. Do you have a lawyer?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDPCI8gox1x
I say, "No."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKs5ypegyuZ
"I see. Would you like one appointed to you?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr282gaJFnR
I respond, "Yes."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡce6ZsnJnJK
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone. I'll have them call you. A lawyer will be there in a moment." A few moments later, a middle aged woman wearing a dress walks in. I look up.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH88sPHkzCl
"Hello, Miss, do you need a lawyer?" the woman asks.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ81DQQyFmRe
"Yes."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1JPaI0IsJo
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone for you, let's just wait a moment."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8xWHPlFJZL
I sit down, and wait a few minutes. Then, a man in a suit walks in,126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY64IOs4kBH
I say, "Hi."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHvTJ8hpBTl
The man looks at me, and then walks up to the woman.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkMJFMJNKV8
"Yes, Judge?" the woman asks.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKqFG60pUFr
"Get me a lawyer for this 15 year old girl." the man says.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfJyALXpqxV
"Right away," says the woman.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoV98xzfVOv
She turns to me, "Okay, we'll get you a lawyer. He should be here in a moment. He'll explain everything to you, and he'll help you with your story. You just wait here."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHALlJhd7VV
I say, "Okay."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8GrFipMfy3
A few moments later, a man walks in. He says,126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdBOC6T8oN1
"Hello. I'm your lawyer. Now, you can wait here, or you can come with me." I follow the man.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfRC6NyMbbR
I am led down a set of stairs, and into a basement. There, I see a large table. I sit at one of the chairs.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9e8efJbiwW
The man walks into the room, and says, "Okay, why did you murder a man?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGN0oc0MvlH
"He kidnapped me."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbLtsZhrdyu
"Okay, why did you try to murder another?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO8tin5i29Y
I say, "He tried to stab me."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ35TgxkZ4DS
"Who was he?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj7BpxnGbf4
"I don't know."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjW3JCpWpFB
"Where did you get the knife?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxcWYRWZ3uG
"He had it in his pocket."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDVhYsgxc2T
"Did he threaten you in any way?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5mwCr8i4ox
I say "Yes. He frequently beat me and sexually assaulted me."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyZ3eHBo2pN
"Okay, now, that's a new one. Anything else?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpcqnNYg5zq
"No."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0zh3NKDeF1
"You sure? Think hard."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG2Gq0K41lt
I think for a few moments, trying to remember anything else the man said or did.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFOdUAgp5Ju
I say, "He killed my father."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqDSBoh6ALX
"What?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr5TgYhWlnE
I say, "When I ran away and made it back home, the man tracked where I ran to and shot my father."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB65R22QJ1A
"Your father? I'm very sorry to hear that. You know, I don't think that you're a murderer. I think that you were kidnapped and forced to do what you did." I try to hold back tears. "I'm going to get you a doctor to examine you. I think you might be experiencing some emotional trauma and it's affecting you. Would you like to see a doctor?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJR4jm456C1
"Y-yes.." I say shakily.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlSbbeGOw04
The man nods, and a man in a suit walks into the room.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4tkneFZsfP
"Ah, there you are." he says, "I have Doctor Dershian here. He wants to examine you."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKFCBWFV3cf
I say, "Okay.."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1RiYtbbUu9
The man in the suit leaves the room, and another man enters the room. He is wearing a lab coat.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdtrsIAHLQz
He says, "Hello. Why don't you come with me?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdnYGH8ky31
I follow him.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJcBqln3MCP
He leads me up the stairs, and into a room. He says,126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuBwoW4nVtp
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡitKClNlnNg
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I say, "A-a man kidnapped me and abused and sexually assaulted m-me..."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr0lXNngMPu
"Alright. Take a seat."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0XAsdl2dm3
The man is Doctor Dershian. He asks me a few questions about the events leading up to the murder, and about my emotional state now.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2M43MRvd54
I say, "More than a few times the man made me think about killing myself.."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU3kd1l8qFY
"Really? You tried to kill yourself?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuIvJJUqMlD
"Yes.."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Y9xN78UgG
"I see. Do you feel suicidal now?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF01WzDnvXc
I say, "Not really. I'm just really emotionally shattered."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE7rRyp6z55
"Okay, I'll get someone to take you to a counselor. You just wait here," Doctor Dershian says, and walks out of the room.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSiWPOTDxt7
I feel like the whole situation is about to make me explode.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡipulCHRVWC
A few minutes later, Doctor Dershian returns.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJlsDUO7wN5
I say, "D-doctor.. I-I feel suicidal right n-now..."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPjEsDdMYde
"Suicidal?" Doctor Dershian asks, "What makes you say that?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQXkLKsRBI4
I say, "The situation is just too much for me to handle."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPs28dIQs3E
"I see. Would you like to go to a counselor?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU9S0q2vVo8
"Y-yes, please." Doctor Dershian is about to say something, but is interrupted by the door opening. I look up. In walks a man in a white, long, lab coat. He looks very serious. He says,126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCOy08FizjO
"I'm Doctor Kessel. I'm here to evaluate you." I try to stand up but collapse to the floor. Doctor Kessel immediately calls for a nurse. The nurse walks in, and says,126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgoLaXbX1Uc
"What is it?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj4O7ScLg5p
Doctor Kessel says,126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU3oSwtPm6h
"This patient is suicidal." I lie on the floor sobbing.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX4J9lFo28G
A few minutes later, a nurse walks back into the room and helps me to my feet. She holds my hand and helps me to a chair. I sit down, and try to stop crying.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuqOjkNoCEK
I say, "Why me??? Why does this all have to happen to ME??" The nurse looks at me with sympathy, and says,126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc7wIWABewA
"I'm sorry, but that's part of the evaluation. We need to find out why you're suicidal. We want to help you."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdcfYMxuXPT
I say, "Why did I have to get kidnapped? Why was I the one to be abused? Why did I have to become a murderer? WHY ME??"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE7y9SUvwIc
The nurse shakes her head, and says,126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGw9MfslRbo
"I'm sorry. We'll talk about this after we finish the evaluation. Right now, we need to do some tests." I try to not cry.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0eFoQtD5Ll
I feel so helpless. I feel so out of control, and I can't do anything to change this. I go over to a table, and the nurse helps me remove my clothes. I feel like I'm slowly dying inside. I don't even care.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwB6RNncsOs
The nurse helps me into a gown, and I lie down on the examination table. She cleans and checks my inner and outer thighs, my genitalia, and my breasts. I try to calm down and breathe normally. The nurse says,126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQp3OVSo0jf
"I need to do a blood draw, and a urine sample. I need your help with this." I comply, and the nurse takes my blood. At this point, I don't even feel the pain. I just want to die.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa6wZbns1XG
After a few minutes, the nurse comes back and says,126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh9tltEr3sY
"Okay, come with me." I get up and follow the nurse into a different room. I try to maintain my composure. The nurse says, "I need to check your blood pressure. I need you to lay down on the table and get on all fours." I lay down and get on all fours. Suddenly, I start having horrific flashbacks about the kidnapping. My heart rate goes up.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ3VVL6MrSX
The nurse says, "Okay, your BP is a little high. I need to do an ultrasound to check your kidneys, and a CAT scan to check your brain." I start to shake and cry. I feel like the world is weighing down on me. I want to give up. The nurse tries to console me, and she says,126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡct5DSuguKA
"Everything is going to be okay. You'll see your family soon." I slowly calm down. I start to feel a little more at ease. I breathe deeply and start to fall asleep on the table.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZuUU0twew5
A few minutes later, I wake up. The nurse is there, and she is smiling at me.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHxEJBVYXbe
I say "Where am I?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM4Si7v1HuD
"You're in a hospital room. We moved you to a private room because you were so hysterical and it was so crowded. You were also vomiting blood. It's going to be okay."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGe0iriaL7D
I say, "Am I diagnosed with insanity?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZEVCsKNJSB
The nurse smiles sadly, "No, but they're still determining that. It's going to be a few days before they give you a diagnosis. In the meantime, you'll be monitored, and you can have visitors."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXQsgrEKtoZ
I say, "I want to see my mom..."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoODv7OyEwy
The nurse interrupts me and says,126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvAw4TSGB6Q
"I'm sorry, but I need to do some tests. I'm going to be back to let you know when you can have visitors."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgfYAhm66Jw
"O-okay.." I say as I feel the tears welling up again. The nurse leaves the room, and I cry for a few minutes. I feel so helpless. I can't do anything to help myself.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxBvV2Kbo7p
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A few hours later, my mom comes to visit.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEiXdkQfcXR
"M-mom.."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJIHdbnacKD
My mom walks into the room, and gives me a big hug.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoLKrt5A08J
"I'm so glad to see you, baby! I've been so worried."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZTvMXuh2hz
I say, "I feel like I'm going crazy mom. Why did life have to do this to me?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgsapSuKkoR
"I know honey. I've been thinking the same thing. They said they're going to keep you here for a few more days, and they're going to keep an eye on you."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXbnQIA5LjU
"I-I love you mom," I say as I start crying.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNiBL3oSTVu
"I love you too, sweetie. I want to be there with you. I want to do something to make you feel better. Do you think you could pray with me?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXube6wLbph
"Yes.." I say quietly.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC0iiwtAgcW
I say a prayer with my mom, and I feel calm and at ease.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeLZ79v20RI
After we pray, my mom asks if I want to talk about what happened.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt9B4kKuNbl
I say, "If I start talking about that, I'm going to start sobbing and I won't be able to control myself.."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6fZ8YGZW77
"I know honey, but you need to get it out. Get everything out. Don't hold anything in. It's eating at you, and it's making you sick."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI11PhpSNlT
I say, "Why did that man kidnap me?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZGoHLnT6Rz
"I don't know honey. We'll find out soon. I'll talk to the doctor when he comes in, and I'll find out what's going on. I promise."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSNT8lEks5f
I say, "Once this is all resolved, are the cult members gonna be thrown in prison?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6MX4rrQFpv
"I don't know, honey. I hope so. I don't think there's a jury that would convict them. I'll do what I can to make sure that happens."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDjjHvUieFR
I say, "Okay.."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCAxIze1tjs
My mom spends the rest of my visit in the hospital room, and we don't say another word to each other. After my visit is over, I spend a couple of hours in the empty hospital room. I start crying again. I feel so helpless, and I can't do anything to help myself. I don't know when I will get another visit, or if I'll ever get out of this hospital. I cry myself to sleep. I wake up, wishing this was all just a bad dream. I hope that when I get out of the hospital, everything will be back to normal, and I'll just live my life with no problems. The nurse walks into the hospital room.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVN9CY5h5RB
"I'm so sorry to wake you, but I need to speak with you. It's very important."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6uq8vC9UEG
I wipe the tears off my face.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT0kAK16pNW
I say, "What is it? What's wrong?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpEaaMRuPcx
"Your tests came back, and you tested positive for.."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR709WT61YB
I say, "What? What did I test positive for?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTf2QR63XMf
"I'm so, so sorry. I wish I could tell you. I really do. You tested positive for.."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYbaEfzRSiU
I say, "Tell me!"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡacNYhCiAbn
"A sexually transmitted disease. I'm so, so sorry, dear."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGOvoKCPxQB
My heart drops.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6xRE2RTokR
I feel so ashamed. I cry myself to sleep again.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHUtyZkuuPj
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In the morning, I get my visitors.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMcYrJBeuA5
My sister, Charlotte, visits me. She asks me what's wrong. I can't even answer her. I just cry. I feel so ashamed of myself. Charlotte starts to leave the room.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnbmzPgiXDj
I say, "Wait!" She stops.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMyvuNiUDgd
"What is it?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr3Rszk1eVr
I say, "I need a hug.." Charlotte wraps her arms around me, and I cry.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWyvDuQWqh0
I eventually gather the strength to tell my sister what the doctor said.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOXcMM3Q57q
I say, "The doctor said I have a.. Std..."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo1iXUus3h8
"I know, sis. I'm so, so sorry."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Ct3ZDwOU5
I cry myself to sleep.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMDmGHEe8Rd
The next day, I get another visit from my mom.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAWvhbIQp5L
"How are you doing, honey?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnsQbTxaH42
I say, "Horrible.."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4F8U83wUcP
She walks over and sits next to me on the bed.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZsBHwlWsCD
"I heard about you testing positive for a sexually transmitted disease. I'm so sorry."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKCEC2LnME6
I say, "I'm so ashamed..."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡidvJXAYIu1
"It's not your fault, honey."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbpW49Q17m4
I start crying again.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhGsFL69GWx
"I'll get you some tissues, honey. You can cry on them. Cry your heart out."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKscgsiWT1g
I cry myself to sleep in my mother's arms. I wake up the next morning. I'm not as tired as I was yesterday. Maybe the doctor gave me some new medication, or maybe I'm just getting used to being here. I don't feel any emotions. I feel empty and dead inside. I don't care about anything. I don't feel any guilt or shame.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFsHS8d86P8
Maybe I'm dead after all.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU7rUgjmGK6
Maybe this is what it feels like to be nothing. I get a visit from my lawyer.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYqzcv4WyHu
"I heard the test results, and I'm here to ask you if you would like to pursue this case. You tested positive for a sexually transmitted disease, so the chances of us winning are pretty slim."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6L0cOSFfQQ
"I don't even know anymore," I say as I shed a tear.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡumPYkdABjr
"I understand. If you don't want to pursue this case, then I'll get someone who will."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0oJtYkAlq3
I say, "I still want to win this."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJTuHgHYfyA
"Well, it's up to you, then. I'll go get our legal team, and we can get started."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTIjBREmgla
I spend the next few weeks resting in my hospital room. I don't have any visitors. I have forgotten what life is like outside the hospital. I don't even want to leave my hospital room. I spend my days watching reruns of Friends and crying. One day the nurse comes into the room and says, "I've got good news."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Iy5K8iceY
"Really?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT0Li5RgS0t
"Yeah, your doctor says you can go home today."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjHvEkxTxO7
I start crying, and I can't stop.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡexFIjKx8Ww
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I spend my time at home resting. I don't do anything. One day I decide to walk outside.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7QAGysvQZM
I get out my patio door, and I don't turn around and go back inside. I don't know why, but I just have this urge to walk outside.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2qzSwq1fs3
I stand in the middle of my lawn.The smell of fresh air makes me emotional. I start crying happy tears. I walk over to my flower bed and pick a few flowers to smell. I smell them, and then throw them in the air and watch them float away. They are so pretty, and they smell so good.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZLN9SjoUSb
My mom opens the front door and says, "What are you doing?" I turn around to see her standing there.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjGkQLsHCEH
"I wanted to see the flowers."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWNFLWBLkIv
"Why are you out of your room?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkQOt1Tb026
"I don't know. I just felt like walking outside."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv7QfJxSrJi
I say, "I've been cooped up in a room for way too long."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡunrGTGwLc4
"Yeah, I know what you mean," my mom says. She picks me up and gives me a big hug.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzz07Ip8wUu
"Thank you for being you."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmhGEvVK319
"You don't have to thank me." I see the next-door neighbor's son walk out to get the mail. I look at him fascinated. He has no fear. He doesn't know what it's like to be scared. He doesn't know what it feels like to live in a nightmare.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsXW7zKnl7S
I make a decision.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBBGBxqvMu8
I walk up to the neighbor's boy and say, "Hi!"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ45RBjAIWd7
"What's your name?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDWOtuWCAgV
"Allisa," I say, smiling.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkFHwwGpwD7
"I'm Carter. What are you doing out of your room?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzRBhskPQJS
I say, "I just wanted to get some fresh air."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIMLMYLlEgi
"Yeah, I know what you mean. I had this urge to walk outside too." He laughs.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRjKbaXMyaj
I say, "Well I gotta go back inside.." I go back inside and go to bed. I don't know why I feel so empty. I want to fill this void. I want to find something to fill all of this space.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1axfZ4hnAc
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Your life as a pet is very degrading. You aren't allowed on furniture, you're not allowed to speak unless spoken to, and you're not allowed to do anything without the permission of Father, whom you are forced to address as Master. You aren't even called by your name. Instead, you are simply called Pet. Right now you're sitting on the ground inside Father's study, which is in a building known as the Community Center, staring out of the window.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3bqEadcffr
The study is large and furnished with a desk and chair, some bookshelves with many old books, and that's about it. The door to the room creaks open and Father steps inside, his golden hair and eyes sparking in the sunlight. He walks over to his desk and sees you staring out the window.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNhBdkhzCvV
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He sighs and sits down in his chair. "What is it, child?" he asks, with a tone that makes me feel like he is disappointed in me. "Why are you looking out the window?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt2KNadDVub
"I just want to go home," I say.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDxXEkeG8pJ
Father sighs again. "Child, I know you miss your home, but we're not going anywhere for a while." He sits back in his chair. I start to cry, and Father stares at me.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIzzM2lPRFd
"Why are you crying?" he asks, with a small amount of anger in his voice. I cry even harder.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvcO6PuglG6
Father sighs.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiAKgEwmhdI
I say "I don't want to stay here!"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM9bXVs1rmB
Father gets up from his chair and walks over to me and kneels down in front of me. I look at the ground and Father grabs my chin and forces me to look at him. I look into his eyes. His eyes are cold, like stone. He stares at me with no emotion whatsoever.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYFWlkfQ4A5
There's no compassion, no sympathy. I'm just a thing to be used. He will use me for his own benefit, and then he will get rid of me. I need to get out of here. I stand up quickly and bolt for the door.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO45n1U67lx
"Stop!" he shouts, but I already hear his footsteps behind me. I open the door and run out. I run past the cult members, who only stare at me in awe, some whispering among themselves. I run until I come to a large oak tree. I climb the tree, which is only a few feet away from the ground. I find a branch that I think is strong enough to hold me, and climb up.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ75EjNpj0Y3
I can hear Father's footsteps getting closer. I hide myself in the branches of the tree.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡphPA7R2gcE
Father comes to the tree, his footsteps getting closer and closer to the tree. He stops, staring at the tree.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW8tykimNVV
"Pet, come down from the tree."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtjz88zWw79
I stay silent.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJjCeB6icVx
"Pet, I know you're in there. Come down from the tree right now or else I won't only punish you, I'll make your siblings suffer too. Do you want that to happen?" I come down from the tree and land on the ground with a thud. Father grabs me, and I struggle against his grip, but I can't escape.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaYGAMFoaqD
"Come with me, child." I am dragged along by Father.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9AKwhqCSr8
I struggle as I walk with him, but I can't get away. We walk for what seems like forever, and then we finally come to a large, circular room. I look around the room. The room is circular, with no windows, and only two doors. One door is at the very center of the room, while the other is at the very edge.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtBFHETjIDX
I struggle against Father, who only laughs at me. I struggle against him for what seems like an eternity, but he keeps a firm grip on me, and I can't get away. I sigh and decide it's best to just give up.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSn0xpmwrao
Father grabs my chin, and I look at him.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKencY5xwF3
"Don't make me have to punish you, child."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡviYr6413rI
I say, "What are you going to do to me?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfC9k6Ayo4P
Father smiles. "I'm going to punish you in a way that you'll enjoy." He releases me. I drop to the ground, exhausted..126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0uoykHSm2x
I say, "Please don't hurt me."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvCO6jWxcfH
Father laughs. "I'm not going to hurt you, child. I'm going to make you scream. I'm going to make you wish you were dead."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMEVNw0Apkm
I say, "Please don't!"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLPw7mHPFmW
Father laughs. "Don't worry, I won't kill you. But I will make you wish you were dead, child."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeq1QKzt1w5
I say, "What does that mean?" Father laughs. He picks me up and throws me on the bed.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlEhj2fV1PN
"You'll find out soon enough, child."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS71giWd7ZK
Then he leaves the room, closing the door behind him. I wait.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdnx062JJfW
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It's the last day of the school year. Finally... I've been waiting for summer vacation since the first day of the school year. I'm almost halfway between the school and my house, feeling happier than ever. Suddenly... darkness. I would have never thought that the last day of my sophomore year would be the last normal day of my life..126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgDBUNoXbqe
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126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNmH7dyjghOI wait for what seems like forever, but he eventually comes back. He sits on the chair by the door. He looks at me.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaGoYpCPzHM
"Are you ready, child?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn3VjPN17Ze
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I nod and say, "Y-yes."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH4Uj3qXNRq
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"Good. Here's what's going to happen. I'm going to bind your hands together. Then I'm going to blindfold you. Then, I'm going to have you stand in the middle of the circle."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdMbfkx3FKv
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I say, "Okay.."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYJY4YAlPul
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I stand there, and Father ties my hands together, then blindfolds me. Father takes out the blindfold and places it over my eyes. I feel his hands on my shoulders, and start to feel uncomfortable.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡonspOreELQ
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I hear him say, "Bend your knees and keep your eyes forward." I do as I'm told.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVxuOhuz4dA
He says "Now, walk forward, slowly."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5BIfAsly04
I feel his hands on my lower back and begin walking. I walk forward, and my feet move, taking me forward. My legs continue walking, taking me further and further away from Father. My heart is pounding in my ears. Then, I reach the center of the circle.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgcVwwYzNhM
Father says "Good. Stay there."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCECCkdCGCy
I feel his hands on my shoulders. I hear him say, "Don't look back, child. It'll make things much worse." I stay there. Then, I hear Father's footsteps. I hear his footsteps stop. I stand perfectly still. Father says, "Well, well, well. Look at you." I wonder what's going on. I don't move, even though I can't see. I wait. I stand perfectly still and wait. I hear his footsteps walking toward me. I wait.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPsoBPjNoRl
I stand perfectly still. His footsteps stop. His hands grab my shoulders, and I tense up. His hands push me down. I fall to the ground, and my head smacks into the cold, hard ground. I wince. I lie there, waiting. I wait for a long time, but then I hear his footsteps. They get louder... closer. My heart rate goes up. I wait. I tense up. I stay still. His footsteps stop.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkwC1TrXuVG
He must be right next to me. I hold my breath. I wait. I stay still.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn3Hxc4LVLu
His hands touch my face. I tense up even more. His hands slide down my body, and my knees get weak. He unbuttons my blouse. His hands slide up my bra. I want to scream. He unzips my pants. His hands slide down my panties. I scream,"Stop!"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYCWyZeRIze
"Please!" I whisper.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDwTanx6rW3
He pulls down my underwear, and he takes his time. His fingers slide inside of me.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiFJJpY090J
I scream loudly.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkYeNxlZBVM
My scream echoes throughout the room.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeS4WTw4Lkb
"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" he shouts.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡanX1l0JQ5L
His fingers slide faster. I scream louder.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5bAtNMDFuX
"I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU!" he shouts. I try not to moan.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbEIETj6f4v
My body shakes. My legs shake. I can't control it. My body gives in to the pleasure. I moan and shake--my body trembles. My moans get louder and louder.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgq0qvrFQp0
I say "P-please s-stop.."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKJDakRk8gX
He stops for a moment, before sliding his fingers inside of me again. I stay still, and soon, I begin to come down from my orgasm. I lie there, panting. My hands are tied tightly together. I start sobbing.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡErJh8ysNo6
He pulls his fingers out of me. I wince and groan. I'm sore from the orgasm. I lie there, sobbing. I feel him sit down next to me. He unties my hands. I cry harder.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt8t2p8q7d4
He pulls the blindfold off of me, and I see that there are several men standing around, staring at me. I try to cover myself, but one of the men pulls the blanket off of me.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡngMiKmQeDm
"What's the matter, huh?" one of the men says.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtAVpsHtNeI
"Look at her," another says,126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoDVGMCnRvP
I say "Please leave me alone."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD1LAWNu5kG
"Let's see if she's a virgin," another says.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiw3SlZVxAR
"I'm a virgin," I say, trying to cover myself.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCrOjQVL00J
"We'll see. Let's see."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpY2q5Vfgmy
I say "No no no.." They laugh.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkK4VMoWW7g
"Look at her. She's a dirty little slut," one of them says.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxTVYrVteHW
"Let's see if she's a filthy little cocksucker," another says. I say "Please leave me alone!" They laugh. They grab me. They forcefully violate me. I start sobbing. I'm crying, and I can't stop. My tears are falling down my face.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKRX2CBu0RW
They untie me.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPSHKRzA9VH
I lie there, naked and sobbing. I'm sore, and my butt is sore. I keep crying harder. After a while, I hear a voice.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM4PN51C5CJ
"Ah... you're up," Father says.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhdRaL7tGqQ
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126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡke9tcZLxoX"Huh?" I say, confused. I slowly get up.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpM0xQZlH9n
"Where were you?" he asks,126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpjCBDzz8nf
I say, "T-they were hurting me...."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTs4EDTc8lz
"I know. We were worried about you. We thought you might be a virgin. You were."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5rPzMRABsW
Father smiles.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmh514Oep3l
"Get dressed. We have work to do," he says.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCL1gRx3Ktk
I say, "I can't handle this anymore. I can't stay here any longer. This is too much."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ay9ItSiJa
"I know," Father says. "But you have to. You're my favorite. You can't run away."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQabqjxqYyx
"I can't stand it anymore," I say, trying to get up.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkKR1oo930M
I say, "I don't want to be abused anymore."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaIZBoxFa0Q
"I know. But you need to do this. It's for the good of the cult."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMO0eW3FGhq
"I'm leaving," I say, trying to walk away.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd9ZHjMmQEI
Father grabs my arm. I struggle.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKWksb6ygHS
"Look, I know you're upset, but you're going to have to get over it. You need to stop struggling. I won't let you leave."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb0JRsqfx9b
I say, "Please let me go!"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiL2AXg3ukG
"I'm not letting you go. We need you. I need you. I'm your master, and you're my pet. I own you, and you obey me," Father says. I say, "I will not stay here any longer."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn9wzVGTzZ3
"You will," Father says.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYNI5cN6c1i
"I said I won't!" I say. Father gets angry. He pulls me to my feet. He slaps me hard across the face.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX58JbSZdGT
"You WILL!" I start crying hard. I cry as hard as I can, and Father laughs.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1aW5EvLAQJ
"I own you," he says, "You obey me."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRtWcYVHl34
I cry and sob hard. I sob for a long time before Father comes up behind me and slaps me hard.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmF6WCbHTbL
"Stop crying," he says.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm5UAX1F2uh
"I can't!"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡohZzASNZFm
Father grabs me and hits me hard across the face again.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡumajxmTRll
"Stop it!" I cry.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRzpX9kKaPo
"I said stop it!" he yells,126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTWoPMdwzxf
"I can't," I say.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJCAOGU1YTz
I say, "I want to kill myself!!!"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU0NmSHjwam
"NO!" Father screams.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrtBMvtzCZ8
"I'm not going to hit you anymore. I'm not going to hit you anymore. But you need to stop crying. You need to stop being so pathetic." I slowly stop crying. "You're going to stay here with us. You're going to learn. You're going to obey. You're going to be a good member of the cult. And you're going to love it here."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZd6gmTU915
I say, "I would rather kill myself than be here."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJrPK3fCQJv
"NO, you wouldn't," Father says,126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpGzaAPBWlj
"I would. I really would."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMF8d8Gkxdv
"If you really loved me you would put me out of my misery," I say with tears in my eyes.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4S3mciUM1j
"I do love you. I do. I'd never hurt you. I'd never hurt a single one of my children. You have to believe me."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUV79zBQQM7
I say, "At this point, I have zero trust in you. I'm not going to listen to you. I'm going to leave. I'm going to get help."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7aBNimXMWJ
"You're not leaving. You're staying here and you're going to obey."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡraGfCNQk0J
I say, "No I'm not!"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdOKE93uoD3
Father grabs my arm. I shake him off.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡokmwLxPKio
"You WILL listen to me!" he screams.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAnP0VXS0Vl
I say "No I won't!!!"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjPRYvxsXlL
"You will!"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCmDgwEyk2z
"I said NO!!!"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDLolac7SRe
"I'm going to count to three, and if you don't listen, I'm going to beat you like a dog!"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrbOUyNOC7g
I say, "I'm sorry! I'll obey and be a good girl!"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLiHt7qkmRH
"I know you will," Father says.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl0GianZh5K
Father reaches for the whip he keeps behind the door. He cracks it. I flinch, but don't cry.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxelkl4sps7
He says "One."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFFphrFreHO
I say, "I'll do anything.."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJAStxSVy0w
"Two."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLVwxhSxKnj
"I'll stay here. I'll do anything," I say.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhsApQ0ptbF
"Three."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRcmTXtVhMn
I see a gun on the floor. I grab it and put it to my head.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdJoSG9NfO2
"No, don't do it," Father says.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWymmLD33l7
I say, "If you promise to not hurt me anymore, I promise to do anything you want."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGgUtkYRth7
"Fine," Father says. He gets up from the chair and walks over to me. He removes the gun from my head and puts it on the bed. I'm relieved. I put my hands behind my back.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRGYIXckKLa
I let him tie my hands together. I look at him, and he looks at me.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsQlca1qAf2
"You're going to be good now, aren't you?" he says,126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzD1C0IoaHB
I say "Yes."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs2gT0KVNlt
"I don't want you to fail. I need you. I need you to stay here and obey."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFX4wotbdCg
"Yes," I say.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5HyP9HMFI7
"Good girl," he says.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ61TOtjyGi2
I say, "Just.. please don't violate my body."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiRWJCfwXAW
"I won't," he says.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB7PK7gr4Do
I stay tied up.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKYe5uyLREU
"Now," he says,126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ShML2QCaB
"Kneel."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5BAlTSxubz
"Please," I say.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIJeAkYACSi
I kneel. I do as he says. He steps closer to me, and I feel his breath on my neck.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAqtmwPf6xs
I anticipate that he's going to violate my body.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdEkw8Pts2g
I just know it.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl5WK2KpwV8
And then, he doesn't. He whispers in my ear.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW9xwmNy8PH
"I have someone coming who will do a better job than me."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp9sQuQHP2A
I stand up, and he turns around. I wonder who he's talking about. I try to block out the image of his penis, but I can't. He walks over to the door and disappears.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuiFFLgzp4O
I'm all alone in the room.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4dEAwCJEc7
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126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCmByaMqROjI hear the door open. I look up.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSNrZ1pnCUc
"Hello," a man says.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLBDlYin58b
I recognize him. It's the man who came into my room the first night I was here. I saw him before he abducted me. He walks towards me, and I back up.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV1UraA1NQi
"Hands behind your back," he says,126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAnvXpKtKbv
I do as he says. I hear the zip ties being undone.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAFRP4EbA7Y
"On your knees," he says. I get on my knees.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUwB94BAHcs
"Stay there," he says,126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrzWXaWaQcG
I stay on my knees.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfe8f6ejbb0
He comes up to me, and I can feel him unbutton my shirt. He removes my shirt and he puts his hand on my stomach. I gasp. I can feel his fingers on my skin. I can feel his breath on my skin. He puts his other hand on my head and he pushes my head toward his penis.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSYnkragEpo
I say "No no no."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKWtVH0tdXg
"Do it," he says.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9pp7f6zloK
I say no. He pushes harder.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFC0lepzicw
"Do it!" he says.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPdDDHrOwyD
I comply. I hear the zip tie undone.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjdJqGjNBQI
He unzips his pants. I watch as he pulls his pants down. I can see his penis, it's about an inch and a half long.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnFRBttYZTl
"Stay there," he says.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW0SFjKXy2M
I stay on my knees.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnOI9P8Pf5J
He steps up to me and shoves his penis in my throat. I gag and try to get away.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZxPFSkcExM
"Stop moving."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6BWpTQSmwi
I struggle and gag on his penis. He shoves it in deeper. I try to gulp it down.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGzSbhNKkBD
He pulls it out of my throat.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO8os6uLi0W
"What's wrong?" he says.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTxsNxli0Sd
I can't answer. I'm coughing. I cough and gag.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2AJS3ZPyiU
"What?" he says,126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTWmZ1NEVaY
I try to get air. I inhale. I try to get air out.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhva5bejObR
He shoves it back in my throat and I gag on his penis. I cough and vomit. I continue to struggle. He pushes it in even deeper. I have no strength left. My vision goes black. He shoves it out again.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjWeBp2RDEO
"Is this too big for you?" he says.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9TmZCpwSLy
I nod.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGQS1oJiZh8
"I understand," he says, "If you need to vomit, go ahead. I know how to treat a child who vomited before."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4rIWYIYpLE
I retch. I heave. I vomit again. I finally gain composure.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKyhMtSlSFV
He shoves it back in.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5SV8hQZwi7
I decide that vomiting once is enough.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMOpA5HEj1g
He shoves it in deeper.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDLBUIK3ILi
I struggle and fight.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfkTcYJQnR7
"Stop fighting me," he says.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡntu2SECz5a
He cums in my mouth and I spit it out.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWiz5e5IgIL
"Get dressed," he says.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMlhWuzPxhY
I get dressed. He pushes me out the door and shoves me out the door. He closes it behind me. I take the chance to run away. I run away from the cultists as they try to catch me. They shout at me to stop, but I keep running. I manage to escape them and run away. I run all the way back home. I'm safe at last.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9TxlcO0rkK
I say, "Mom? I'm home!"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNugajnXOU7
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My mother comes running out of the kitchen.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGJexdZwOWP
"Allie! I can't believe it's you. You're home! Come here, I've got something special for you." I run into my mom's arms and hug her. I've been away for so long.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0uzJu0sZMl
"I missed you so much, I was worried about you!" she says.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDbE4aAYFYc
"I missed you, too." My mother leads me into the kitchen.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡujUACylG3p
I say, "Where's dad?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf40gujwxa8
"He's in the living room." I go to the living room. My father is watching television.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkvKrV6JtqL
"Dad, I'm home!" I say. My father turns around and looks at me. I run up and hug my dad.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0zpjXls6Yl
"I missed you so much," he says. My mother hands me a glass of water. I sit down at the table.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbYmnqSfy4I
My father says, "Where have you been?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtSFa10Lu61
I say, "I was kidnapped by a cult."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFjJlvn1Kho
"Did they hurt you?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHirauVGAgI
"Yeah," I say.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7N4krwHNNo
"I'm sorry."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4T4PD2LrzX
"It's not your fault." I hear a knock on the front door.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6xBhtPcL7s
"Who could that be?" my mother says. My father gets up and walks over to the door. He opens it. Two policemen walk in.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgrsXYdzJdK
"Is Allie in here?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo2zWFTf3x9
My dad says, "Yes, why?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcNR8QV0Bk7
"We have some questions for her regarding the kidnapping of a young girl earlier this week," one of the policemen says. "Is she willing to answer some questions?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCPM2QcTUZr
"Of course she is." I walk towards the cops.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyncP9FozxM
"Do you have any weapons on you?" one of the cops asks.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO6lHsb7AQr
"No." I respond,126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPcVePdrd0s
"Can we come in?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ36JEMPeGQe
"Sure," I say. The cops follow me into the kitchen. They walk past my dad and sit down at the table. They motion for me to sit down, too.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS1qkL1NhSu
"Okay, why were you kidnapped?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmbmAL9CEA1
I say, "I don't know."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa2YXpSfQH3
"We know that the man you encountered on the road called you by name. Did he tell you his name?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjaPTQBBOYD
"No." I say,126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡePoQ8MtLMo
"Are you sure?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7w8F8Y382s
"Yes."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXIkB6kRHq9
I say, "He referred to himself as 'Father'.''126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFT7Q1IauFX
"Did he give you any food or water?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNXi32D3X6O
"No." I respond.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJRMBIrWSKe
"Did he give you any kind of drugs?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZi1mTnFYzk
"No."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYCtOz9eOvd
"What did he do to you?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Ed89AC2dh
I say, "He... he sexually assaulted me."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxYQ3YgKWsZ
"Did you fight him?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI3Hs9YoyGX
"I tried."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV6TUcgoHOm
"What happened?" I pause, trying to think of an answer.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjg82nD58Ql
"I think I blacked out."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVFM0BpWajV
"I see."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjlnXNnzS9L
I say, "He severely beat me numerous times.."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXIfWOhozPN
"And how long were you with him?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ60Vww0o4h2
"I think about ten hours."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHtA5yF5rIm
"And you only just managed to escape?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2vXVYnWL4P
"Yeah."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIEh8rl1lAF
"Do you know where you were?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIV7luN87X1
I say "No."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCtJ7dJ6D0Y
"What is the last thing you remember?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIAzhJcEU7J
"I remember walking down the road."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRmnmQHgg3x
"And then?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZbOS2tyx0t
"I don't remember."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFiUbqbBhL2
"Do you know how you got away?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Rlr0J79oV
I say, "I just ran,"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlWaJ837x6r
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened, from the beginning."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxG30zgdZ2d
I explain what happened to me, starting with the encounter on the road, ending with running away from the cultists.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQg7sCh2Qjo
I say, "So that's how it all happened."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6NMWnqxDnM
"What do you mean?" one of the cops asks. "I say you blacked out, and then you woke up and ran away. So did he drug you or something?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNchkDsbOir
"I don't know." Suddenly I hear gunshots outside the house.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgyPipH9hnM
"What was that?" one of the cops asks,126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlt6ujOdbXW
"Stay here, we're going to check it out." my dad says, and heads outside. I run outside with my dad. He tells me to hide behind a bush.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVKPNUrFJta
"Go hide over there," my father points to a bush about thirty feet from the house.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUYhrm6hnOd
I hide behind the bush and watch the house.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSKHudJW3Xi
I see a man who I recognize as the person who kidnapped me.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb2bEHV4phL
He has a gun and is shooting at my dad. I watch with tears in my eyes as my dad falls to the ground.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡumAvu4giyC
"You fucking son of a bitch!" I yell as I charge at my kidnapper. I push him down, and beat him repeatedly in the head with my fist. I then take his gun and shoot him in the head with it.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFvmmmOuEbI
I drop to my knees over his body and sob.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7mv3DEWLLr
After a few minutes the police officers arrive at the house. They rush towards me and place handcuffs on me.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡguXvbVN34D
I say, "He was my kidnapper! Please, trust me!"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIMR5rd17xA
"We'll take care of everything, don't worry." one of the officers says,126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfIQyuMW5If
"I'm sorry, but we need to take you with us, it's for your own safety." I'm thrown in the back of the cop car.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqGv3Sw4X5W
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I try to open the door to get out, but the cops slam it shut. I try to bang on the window, but no one seems to notice me, except my mom, standing on the front porch looking at me with tears in her eyes.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD3FmtflMUs
I sob in the back of the cop car. I am being taken to the police station, and I don't know what to expect.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqOWIZZIvH7
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126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2XST81Dka5At the police station, I am strip searched and placed in a cell.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI4Au7pYq0k
I say, "Please, the man I killed was the one who kidnapped me and murdered my father!"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH1SSJ9RVO9
"Calm down, we'll get you a lawyer and he'll take care of everything."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDCnUb4LTrA
"But I didn't do anything wrong!" I collapse on the cell floor and start crying.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpGrXtmp6bY
"I'm sorry, we'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4kSmTDUOtt
I don't really know how much time passes, but I am released from the cell after some time.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1JEaXVPNIT
"We'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge, I promise." I am taken to a different cell and left alone. I sob and cry for what seems like hours. I cry about what I did, cry about being in prison, cry about being a murderer. Eventually, I stop crying and just sit there on the bed, surrounded by concrete walls. I fall asleep on the jail bed.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7aP44XL1Qw
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I am woken up by a man in a suit.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqnnD9m9eOp
"Get up." he says,126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9boXVQo8nb
"Why am I here?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRqXssTnUrk
"Because you murdered a man, and you tried to murder another."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMDHeOxC2yI
I say, "He fucking kidnapped me for Christ's sake!"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfoAwSh5PuE
"Shut the fuck up." He says, "Get dressed. We're getting you a lawyer."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG5OyUVj1eV
I am taken to a holding area, a small room with a table in it. A man sits behind the desk.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVHL5VFLWtv
I sit down.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDGnd4bL9or
"Okay, how can I help you?" he asks.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡePeWFEMzX1
"I was kidnapped and assaulted, and I killed someone while trying to escape."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcfHr75nfw1
"I see. Do you have a lawyer?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDPCI8gox1x
I say, "No."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKs5ypegyuZ
"I see. Would you like one appointed to you?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr282gaJFnR
I respond, "Yes."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡce6ZsnJnJK
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone. I'll have them call you. A lawyer will be there in a moment." A few moments later, a middle aged woman wearing a dress walks in. I look up.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH88sPHkzCl
"Hello, Miss, do you need a lawyer?" the woman asks.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ81DQQyFmRe
"Yes."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1JPaI0IsJo
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone for you, let's just wait a moment."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8xWHPlFJZL
I sit down, and wait a few minutes. Then, a man in a suit walks in,126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY64IOs4kBH
I say, "Hi."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHvTJ8hpBTl
The man looks at me, and then walks up to the woman.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkMJFMJNKV8
"Yes, Judge?" the woman asks.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKqFG60pUFr
"Get me a lawyer for this 15 year old girl." the man says.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfJyALXpqxV
"Right away," says the woman.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoV98xzfVOv
She turns to me, "Okay, we'll get you a lawyer. He should be here in a moment. He'll explain everything to you, and he'll help you with your story. You just wait here."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHALlJhd7VV
I say, "Okay."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8GrFipMfy3
A few moments later, a man walks in. He says,126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdBOC6T8oN1
"Hello. I'm your lawyer. Now, you can wait here, or you can come with me." I follow the man.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfRC6NyMbbR
I am led down a set of stairs, and into a basement. There, I see a large table. I sit at one of the chairs.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9e8efJbiwW
The man walks into the room, and says, "Okay, why did you murder a man?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGN0oc0MvlH
"He kidnapped me."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbLtsZhrdyu
"Okay, why did you try to murder another?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO8tin5i29Y
I say, "He tried to stab me."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ35TgxkZ4DS
"Who was he?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj7BpxnGbf4
"I don't know."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjW3JCpWpFB
"Where did you get the knife?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxcWYRWZ3uG
"He had it in his pocket."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDVhYsgxc2T
"Did he threaten you in any way?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5mwCr8i4ox
I say "Yes. He frequently beat me and sexually assaulted me."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyZ3eHBo2pN
"Okay, now, that's a new one. Anything else?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpcqnNYg5zq
"No."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0zh3NKDeF1
"You sure? Think hard."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG2Gq0K41lt
I think for a few moments, trying to remember anything else the man said or did.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFOdUAgp5Ju
I say, "He killed my father."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqDSBoh6ALX
"What?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr5TgYhWlnE
I say, "When I ran away and made it back home, the man tracked where I ran to and shot my father."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB65R22QJ1A
"Your father? I'm very sorry to hear that. You know, I don't think that you're a murderer. I think that you were kidnapped and forced to do what you did." I try to hold back tears. "I'm going to get you a doctor to examine you. I think you might be experiencing some emotional trauma and it's affecting you. Would you like to see a doctor?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJR4jm456C1
"Y-yes.." I say shakily.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlSbbeGOw04
The man nods, and a man in a suit walks into the room.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4tkneFZsfP
"Ah, there you are." he says, "I have Doctor Dershian here. He wants to examine you."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKFCBWFV3cf
I say, "Okay.."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1RiYtbbUu9
The man in the suit leaves the room, and another man enters the room. He is wearing a lab coat.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdtrsIAHLQz
He says, "Hello. Why don't you come with me?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdnYGH8ky31
I follow him.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJcBqln3MCP
He leads me up the stairs, and into a room. He says,126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuBwoW4nVtp
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡitKClNlnNg
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I say, "A-a man kidnapped me and abused and sexually assaulted m-me..."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr0lXNngMPu
"Alright. Take a seat."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0XAsdl2dm3
The man is Doctor Dershian. He asks me a few questions about the events leading up to the murder, and about my emotional state now.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2M43MRvd54
I say, "More than a few times the man made me think about killing myself.."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU3kd1l8qFY
"Really? You tried to kill yourself?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuIvJJUqMlD
"Yes.."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Y9xN78UgG
"I see. Do you feel suicidal now?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF01WzDnvXc
I say, "Not really. I'm just really emotionally shattered."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE7rRyp6z55
"Okay, I'll get someone to take you to a counselor. You just wait here," Doctor Dershian says, and walks out of the room.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSiWPOTDxt7
I feel like the whole situation is about to make me explode.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡipulCHRVWC
A few minutes later, Doctor Dershian returns.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJlsDUO7wN5
I say, "D-doctor.. I-I feel suicidal right n-now..."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPjEsDdMYde
"Suicidal?" Doctor Dershian asks, "What makes you say that?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQXkLKsRBI4
I say, "The situation is just too much for me to handle."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPs28dIQs3E
"I see. Would you like to go to a counselor?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU9S0q2vVo8
"Y-yes, please." Doctor Dershian is about to say something, but is interrupted by the door opening. I look up. In walks a man in a white, long, lab coat. He looks very serious. He says,126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCOy08FizjO
"I'm Doctor Kessel. I'm here to evaluate you." I try to stand up but collapse to the floor. Doctor Kessel immediately calls for a nurse. The nurse walks in, and says,126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgoLaXbX1Uc
"What is it?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj4O7ScLg5p
Doctor Kessel says,126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU3oSwtPm6h
"This patient is suicidal." I lie on the floor sobbing.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX4J9lFo28G
A few minutes later, a nurse walks back into the room and helps me to my feet. She holds my hand and helps me to a chair. I sit down, and try to stop crying.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuqOjkNoCEK
I say, "Why me??? Why does this all have to happen to ME??" The nurse looks at me with sympathy, and says,126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc7wIWABewA
"I'm sorry, but that's part of the evaluation. We need to find out why you're suicidal. We want to help you."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdcfYMxuXPT
I say, "Why did I have to get kidnapped? Why was I the one to be abused? Why did I have to become a murderer? WHY ME??"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE7y9SUvwIc
The nurse shakes her head, and says,126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGw9MfslRbo
"I'm sorry. We'll talk about this after we finish the evaluation. Right now, we need to do some tests." I try to not cry.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0eFoQtD5Ll
I feel so helpless. I feel so out of control, and I can't do anything to change this. I go over to a table, and the nurse helps me remove my clothes. I feel like I'm slowly dying inside. I don't even care.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwB6RNncsOs
The nurse helps me into a gown, and I lie down on the examination table. She cleans and checks my inner and outer thighs, my genitalia, and my breasts. I try to calm down and breathe normally. The nurse says,126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQp3OVSo0jf
"I need to do a blood draw, and a urine sample. I need your help with this." I comply, and the nurse takes my blood. At this point, I don't even feel the pain. I just want to die.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa6wZbns1XG
After a few minutes, the nurse comes back and says,126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh9tltEr3sY
"Okay, come with me." I get up and follow the nurse into a different room. I try to maintain my composure. The nurse says, "I need to check your blood pressure. I need you to lay down on the table and get on all fours." I lay down and get on all fours. Suddenly, I start having horrific flashbacks about the kidnapping. My heart rate goes up.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ3VVL6MrSX
The nurse says, "Okay, your BP is a little high. I need to do an ultrasound to check your kidneys, and a CAT scan to check your brain." I start to shake and cry. I feel like the world is weighing down on me. I want to give up. The nurse tries to console me, and she says,126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡct5DSuguKA
"Everything is going to be okay. You'll see your family soon." I slowly calm down. I start to feel a little more at ease. I breathe deeply and start to fall asleep on the table.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZuUU0twew5
A few minutes later, I wake up. The nurse is there, and she is smiling at me.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHxEJBVYXbe
I say "Where am I?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM4Si7v1HuD
"You're in a hospital room. We moved you to a private room because you were so hysterical and it was so crowded. You were also vomiting blood. It's going to be okay."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGe0iriaL7D
I say, "Am I diagnosed with insanity?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZEVCsKNJSB
The nurse smiles sadly, "No, but they're still determining that. It's going to be a few days before they give you a diagnosis. In the meantime, you'll be monitored, and you can have visitors."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXQsgrEKtoZ
I say, "I want to see my mom..."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoODv7OyEwy
The nurse interrupts me and says,126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvAw4TSGB6Q
"I'm sorry, but I need to do some tests. I'm going to be back to let you know when you can have visitors."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgfYAhm66Jw
"O-okay.." I say as I feel the tears welling up again. The nurse leaves the room, and I cry for a few minutes. I feel so helpless. I can't do anything to help myself.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxBvV2Kbo7p
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126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWB6iWNKTvYA few hours later, my mom comes to visit.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEiXdkQfcXR
"M-mom.."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJIHdbnacKD
My mom walks into the room, and gives me a big hug.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoLKrt5A08J
"I'm so glad to see you, baby! I've been so worried."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZTvMXuh2hz
I say, "I feel like I'm going crazy mom. Why did life have to do this to me?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgsapSuKkoR
"I know honey. I've been thinking the same thing. They said they're going to keep you here for a few more days, and they're going to keep an eye on you."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXbnQIA5LjU
"I-I love you mom," I say as I start crying.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNiBL3oSTVu
"I love you too, sweetie. I want to be there with you. I want to do something to make you feel better. Do you think you could pray with me?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXube6wLbph
"Yes.." I say quietly.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC0iiwtAgcW
I say a prayer with my mom, and I feel calm and at ease.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeLZ79v20RI
After we pray, my mom asks if I want to talk about what happened.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt9B4kKuNbl
I say, "If I start talking about that, I'm going to start sobbing and I won't be able to control myself.."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6fZ8YGZW77
"I know honey, but you need to get it out. Get everything out. Don't hold anything in. It's eating at you, and it's making you sick."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI11PhpSNlT
I say, "Why did that man kidnap me?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZGoHLnT6Rz
"I don't know honey. We'll find out soon. I'll talk to the doctor when he comes in, and I'll find out what's going on. I promise."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSNT8lEks5f
I say, "Once this is all resolved, are the cult members gonna be thrown in prison?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6MX4rrQFpv
"I don't know, honey. I hope so. I don't think there's a jury that would convict them. I'll do what I can to make sure that happens."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDjjHvUieFR
I say, "Okay.."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCAxIze1tjs
My mom spends the rest of my visit in the hospital room, and we don't say another word to each other. After my visit is over, I spend a couple of hours in the empty hospital room. I start crying again. I feel so helpless, and I can't do anything to help myself. I don't know when I will get another visit, or if I'll ever get out of this hospital. I cry myself to sleep. I wake up, wishing this was all just a bad dream. I hope that when I get out of the hospital, everything will be back to normal, and I'll just live my life with no problems. The nurse walks into the hospital room.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVN9CY5h5RB
"I'm so sorry to wake you, but I need to speak with you. It's very important."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6uq8vC9UEG
I wipe the tears off my face.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT0kAK16pNW
I say, "What is it? What's wrong?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpEaaMRuPcx
"Your tests came back, and you tested positive for.."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR709WT61YB
I say, "What? What did I test positive for?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTf2QR63XMf
"I'm so, so sorry. I wish I could tell you. I really do. You tested positive for.."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYbaEfzRSiU
I say, "Tell me!"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡacNYhCiAbn
"A sexually transmitted disease. I'm so, so sorry, dear."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGOvoKCPxQB
My heart drops.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6xRE2RTokR
I feel so ashamed. I cry myself to sleep again.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHUtyZkuuPj
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126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqvNOI9CvoEIn the morning, I get my visitors.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMcYrJBeuA5
My sister, Charlotte, visits me. She asks me what's wrong. I can't even answer her. I just cry. I feel so ashamed of myself. Charlotte starts to leave the room.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnbmzPgiXDj
I say, "Wait!" She stops.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMyvuNiUDgd
"What is it?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr3Rszk1eVr
I say, "I need a hug.." Charlotte wraps her arms around me, and I cry.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWyvDuQWqh0
I eventually gather the strength to tell my sister what the doctor said.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOXcMM3Q57q
I say, "The doctor said I have a.. Std..."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo1iXUus3h8
"I know, sis. I'm so, so sorry."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Ct3ZDwOU5
I cry myself to sleep.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMDmGHEe8Rd
The next day, I get another visit from my mom.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAWvhbIQp5L
"How are you doing, honey?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnsQbTxaH42
I say, "Horrible.."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4F8U83wUcP
She walks over and sits next to me on the bed.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZsBHwlWsCD
"I heard about you testing positive for a sexually transmitted disease. I'm so sorry."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKCEC2LnME6
I say, "I'm so ashamed..."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡidvJXAYIu1
"It's not your fault, honey."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbpW49Q17m4
I start crying again.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhGsFL69GWx
"I'll get you some tissues, honey. You can cry on them. Cry your heart out."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKscgsiWT1g
I cry myself to sleep in my mother's arms. I wake up the next morning. I'm not as tired as I was yesterday. Maybe the doctor gave me some new medication, or maybe I'm just getting used to being here. I don't feel any emotions. I feel empty and dead inside. I don't care about anything. I don't feel any guilt or shame.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFsHS8d86P8
Maybe I'm dead after all.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU7rUgjmGK6
Maybe this is what it feels like to be nothing. I get a visit from my lawyer.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYqzcv4WyHu
"I heard the test results, and I'm here to ask you if you would like to pursue this case. You tested positive for a sexually transmitted disease, so the chances of us winning are pretty slim."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6L0cOSFfQQ
"I don't even know anymore," I say as I shed a tear.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡumPYkdABjr
"I understand. If you don't want to pursue this case, then I'll get someone who will."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0oJtYkAlq3
I say, "I still want to win this."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJTuHgHYfyA
"Well, it's up to you, then. I'll go get our legal team, and we can get started."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTIjBREmgla
I spend the next few weeks resting in my hospital room. I don't have any visitors. I have forgotten what life is like outside the hospital. I don't even want to leave my hospital room. I spend my days watching reruns of Friends and crying. One day the nurse comes into the room and says, "I've got good news."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Iy5K8iceY
"Really?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT0Li5RgS0t
"Yeah, your doctor says you can go home today."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjHvEkxTxO7
I start crying, and I can't stop.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡexFIjKx8Ww
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I spend my time at home resting. I don't do anything. One day I decide to walk outside.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7QAGysvQZM
I get out my patio door, and I don't turn around and go back inside. I don't know why, but I just have this urge to walk outside.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2qzSwq1fs3
I stand in the middle of my lawn.The smell of fresh air makes me emotional. I start crying happy tears. I walk over to my flower bed and pick a few flowers to smell. I smell them, and then throw them in the air and watch them float away. They are so pretty, and they smell so good.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZLN9SjoUSb
My mom opens the front door and says, "What are you doing?" I turn around to see her standing there.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjGkQLsHCEH
"I wanted to see the flowers."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWNFLWBLkIv
"Why are you out of your room?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkQOt1Tb026
"I don't know. I just felt like walking outside."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv7QfJxSrJi
I say, "I've been cooped up in a room for way too long."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡunrGTGwLc4
"Yeah, I know what you mean," my mom says. She picks me up and gives me a big hug.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzz07Ip8wUu
"Thank you for being you."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmhGEvVK319
"You don't have to thank me." I see the next-door neighbor's son walk out to get the mail. I look at him fascinated. He has no fear. He doesn't know what it's like to be scared. He doesn't know what it feels like to live in a nightmare.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsXW7zKnl7S
I make a decision.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBBGBxqvMu8
I walk up to the neighbor's boy and say, "Hi!"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ45RBjAIWd7
"What's your name?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDWOtuWCAgV
"Allisa," I say, smiling.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkFHwwGpwD7
"I'm Carter. What are you doing out of your room?"126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzRBhskPQJS
I say, "I just wanted to get some fresh air."126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIMLMYLlEgi
"Yeah, I know what you mean. I had this urge to walk outside too." He laughs.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRjKbaXMyaj
I say, "Well I gotta go back inside.." I go back inside and go to bed. I don't know why I feel so empty. I want to fill this void. I want to find something to fill all of this space.126Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1axfZ4hnAc
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