You stare out the window at the world outside, the lush green trees, the flowers beginning to bloom for spring, and the grass you have not touched for so long. The cult members walk through the mountain hideaway they call home, dressed in their long yellow robes and living inside small cottages. They all look so happy, and you wonder if any of them even know about you. You've been here for several weeks, living as a pet for their leader whom they call Father, and not once have you been happy during that time. You've mostly just been scared and homesick.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXzkhBpOjT3
Your life as a pet is very degrading. You aren't allowed on furniture, you're not allowed to speak unless spoken to, and you're not allowed to do anything without the permission of Father, whom you are forced to address as Master. You aren't even called by your name. Instead, you are simply called Pet. Right now you're sitting on the ground inside Father's study, which is in a building known as the Community Center, staring out of the window.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo7SYeAnruH
The study is large and furnished with a desk and chair, some bookshelves with many old books, and that's about it. The door to the room creaks open and Father steps inside, his golden hair and eyes sparking in the sunlight. He walks over to his desk and sees you staring out the window.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmJEPU3cLac
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He sighs and sits down in his chair. "What is it, child?" he asks, with a tone that makes me feel like he is disappointed in me. "Why are you looking out the window?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLSspuddzeB
"I just want to go home," I say.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Ran0DtRjR
Father sighs again. "Child, I know you miss your home, but we're not going anywhere for a while." He sits back in his chair. I start to cry, and Father stares at me.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMooaAAXhzQ
"Why are you crying?" he asks, with a small amount of anger in his voice. I cry even harder.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoVoTl8ZkIC
Father sighs.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8hExQOfDXt
I say "I don't want to stay here!"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9nB3Yp3aBE
Father gets up from his chair and walks over to me and kneels down in front of me. I look at the ground and Father grabs my chin and forces me to look at him. I look into his eyes. His eyes are cold, like stone. He stares at me with no emotion whatsoever.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFfyjKIL4IJ
There's no compassion, no sympathy. I'm just a thing to be used. He will use me for his own benefit, and then he will get rid of me. I need to get out of here. I stand up quickly and bolt for the door.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWwoC1W0mtk
"Stop!" he shouts, but I already hear his footsteps behind me. I open the door and run out. I run past the cult members, who only stare at me in awe, some whispering among themselves. I run until I come to a large oak tree. I climb the tree, which is only a few feet away from the ground. I find a branch that I think is strong enough to hold me, and climb up.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS0NBf0B979
I can hear Father's footsteps getting closer. I hide myself in the branches of the tree.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡspsACJOjnq
Father comes to the tree, his footsteps getting closer and closer to the tree. He stops, staring at the tree.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl1SUuZOj8m
"Pet, come down from the tree."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzidwU6ldrp
I stay silent.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPoWgSPLbOL
"Pet, I know you're in there. Come down from the tree right now or else I won't only punish you, I'll make your siblings suffer too. Do you want that to happen?" I come down from the tree and land on the ground with a thud. Father grabs me, and I struggle against his grip, but I can't escape.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3jQnOOy0wN
"Come with me, child." I am dragged along by Father.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFnGnlQP209
I struggle as I walk with him, but I can't get away. We walk for what seems like forever, and then we finally come to a large, circular room. I look around the room. The room is circular, with no windows, and only two doors. One door is at the very center of the room, while the other is at the very edge.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡub147RNzed
I struggle against Father, who only laughs at me. I struggle against him for what seems like an eternity, but he keeps a firm grip on me, and I can't get away. I sigh and decide it's best to just give up.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡETBIcbHITA
Father grabs my chin, and I look at him.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZA6TZ74apa
"Don't make me have to punish you, child."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGOiOVsKiHH
I say, "What are you going to do to me?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2zFNR1ywSU
Father smiles. "I'm going to punish you in a way that you'll enjoy." He releases me. I drop to the ground, exhausted..152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTeYz1JOrit
I say, "Please don't hurt me."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNV8EUGTuEm
Father laughs. "I'm not going to hurt you, child. I'm going to make you scream. I'm going to make you wish you were dead."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA5p6h8NJAi
I say, "Please don't!"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRDna7pHgQM
Father laughs. "Don't worry, I won't kill you. But I will make you wish you were dead, child."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYMn2b5UGhq
I say, "What does that mean?" Father laughs. He picks me up and throws me on the bed.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsVV8i0g0Zt
"You'll find out soon enough, child."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyie4VeSUdw
Then he leaves the room, closing the door behind him. I wait.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmoxndBQrdy
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It's the last day of the school year. Finally... I've been waiting for summer vacation since the first day of the school year. I'm almost halfway between the school and my house, feeling happier than ever. Suddenly... darkness. I would have never thought that the last day of my sophomore year would be the last normal day of my life..152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu9o7LT8Rok
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I wait for what seems like forever, but he eventually comes back. He sits on the chair by the door. He looks at me.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoX51KZt2o6
"Are you ready, child?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkdwtOhOCQ8
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I nod and say, "Y-yes."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAZNpFsTMJd
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"Good. Here's what's going to happen. I'm going to bind your hands together. Then I'm going to blindfold you. Then, I'm going to have you stand in the middle of the circle."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy9Y4zYM1B6
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I say, "Okay.."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy4l4RUiiH5
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I stand there, and Father ties my hands together, then blindfolds me. Father takes out the blindfold and places it over my eyes. I feel his hands on my shoulders, and start to feel uncomfortable.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9TKYEAERBU
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I hear him say, "Bend your knees and keep your eyes forward." I do as I'm told.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6OGIoUoCPZ
He says "Now, walk forward, slowly."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2nH8UUoPox
I feel his hands on my lower back and begin walking. I walk forward, and my feet move, taking me forward. My legs continue walking, taking me further and further away from Father. My heart is pounding in my ears. Then, I reach the center of the circle.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwA8ECCOXep
Father says "Good. Stay there."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnLDwybewfl
I feel his hands on my shoulders. I hear him say, "Don't look back, child. It'll make things much worse." I stay there. Then, I hear Father's footsteps. I hear his footsteps stop. I stand perfectly still. Father says, "Well, well, well. Look at you." I wonder what's going on. I don't move, even though I can't see. I wait. I stand perfectly still and wait. I hear his footsteps walking toward me. I wait.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPwtwAeecmB
I stand perfectly still. His footsteps stop. His hands grab my shoulders, and I tense up. His hands push me down. I fall to the ground, and my head smacks into the cold, hard ground. I wince. I lie there, waiting. I wait for a long time, but then I hear his footsteps. They get louder... closer. My heart rate goes up. I wait. I tense up. I stay still. His footsteps stop.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7zg4ohPNrg
He must be right next to me. I hold my breath. I wait. I stay still.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdEHjpiOQv5
His hands touch my face. I tense up even more. His hands slide down my body, and my knees get weak. He unbuttons my blouse. His hands slide up my bra. I want to scream. He unzips my pants. His hands slide down my panties. I scream,"Stop!"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfrvdgXQqYv
"Please!" I whisper.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgUMPXoRbLN
He pulls down my underwear, and he takes his time. His fingers slide inside of me.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7DuJJ7PoRm
I scream loudly.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUAy6XI7bIc
My scream echoes throughout the room.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm77QdKrpMK
"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" he shouts.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEkXxb3nFYm
His fingers slide faster. I scream louder.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZKvGrxPugM
"I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU!" he shouts. I try not to moan.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHJjqPOv4nt
My body shakes. My legs shake. I can't control it. My body gives in to the pleasure. I moan and shake--my body trembles. My moans get louder and louder.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiqeAld130e
I say "P-please s-stop.."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVCuac92Rex
He stops for a moment, before sliding his fingers inside of me again. I stay still, and soon, I begin to come down from my orgasm. I lie there, panting. My hands are tied tightly together. I start sobbing.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoCf6uvc3l6
He pulls his fingers out of me. I wince and groan. I'm sore from the orgasm. I lie there, sobbing. I feel him sit down next to me. He unties my hands. I cry harder.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCtxIu0TvdT
He pulls the blindfold off of me, and I see that there are several men standing around, staring at me. I try to cover myself, but one of the men pulls the blanket off of me.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX67tAAzsrq
"What's the matter, huh?" one of the men says.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTqMHkByXEf
"Look at her," another says,152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7BS0LBIdL0
I say "Please leave me alone."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrFUOIdY3T9
"Let's see if she's a virgin," another says.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDCH4tK74mj
"I'm a virgin," I say, trying to cover myself.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmQJAEnjAdW
"We'll see. Let's see."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcr6QhEFQ9D
I say "No no no.." They laugh.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3JZHv0gEDc
"Look at her. She's a dirty little slut," one of them says.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡknApyGPavS
"Let's see if she's a filthy little cocksucker," another says. I say "Please leave me alone!" They laugh. They grab me. They forcefully violate me. I start sobbing. I'm crying, and I can't stop. My tears are falling down my face.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYbLs510pTe
They untie me.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbLPrUHI9SG
I lie there, naked and sobbing. I'm sore, and my butt is sore. I keep crying harder. After a while, I hear a voice.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSWKsxW6qx9
"Ah... you're up," Father says.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHl35pnUi4e
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"Huh?" I say, confused. I slowly get up.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx5fOhrJiYz
"Where were you?" he asks,152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi1kZq5ciFv
I say, "T-they were hurting me...."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUajjlE7jA8
"I know. We were worried about you. We thought you might be a virgin. You were."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2DXLRMKr3V
Father smiles.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrmLIXul1Jh
"Get dressed. We have work to do," he says.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5FNbm6xmIN
I say, "I can't handle this anymore. I can't stay here any longer. This is too much."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡekx621lAst
"I know," Father says. "But you have to. You're my favorite. You can't run away."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgcC2K2jDNZ
"I can't stand it anymore," I say, trying to get up.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqJxxzmILlF
I say, "I don't want to be abused anymore."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJVWfnBGIGH
"I know. But you need to do this. It's for the good of the cult."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLc3wHdfw6S
"I'm leaving," I say, trying to walk away.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf0Boc5Wv7C
Father grabs my arm. I struggle.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdzMTGJ5cS3
"Look, I know you're upset, but you're going to have to get over it. You need to stop struggling. I won't let you leave."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtkyWiFnkQE
I say, "Please let me go!"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡurWIR4x5mI
"I'm not letting you go. We need you. I need you. I'm your master, and you're my pet. I own you, and you obey me," Father says. I say, "I will not stay here any longer."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYfwmu3MBu9
"You will," Father says.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6d40GYFk49
"I said I won't!" I say. Father gets angry. He pulls me to my feet. He slaps me hard across the face.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpleLDWJd7R
"You WILL!" I start crying hard. I cry as hard as I can, and Father laughs.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJE7hqyRIGx
"I own you," he says, "You obey me."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI5kqvWJ2fa
I cry and sob hard. I sob for a long time before Father comes up behind me and slaps me hard.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa1FkKqKSZC
"Stop crying," he says.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG7SRi9qi5b
"I can't!"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsZS9htv2lV
Father grabs me and hits me hard across the face again.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm47OJ1N7Ij
"Stop it!" I cry.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt9dHhBL5MS
"I said stop it!" he yells,152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNo784fCsZm
"I can't," I say.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxvKpIqAzLM
I say, "I want to kill myself!!!"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡULTHXm2Wty
"NO!" Father screams.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD24b5IiAWQ
"I'm not going to hit you anymore. I'm not going to hit you anymore. But you need to stop crying. You need to stop being so pathetic." I slowly stop crying. "You're going to stay here with us. You're going to learn. You're going to obey. You're going to be a good member of the cult. And you're going to love it here."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlJdamfPev1
I say, "I would rather kill myself than be here."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtZUJPX0a3j
"NO, you wouldn't," Father says,152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtfP2ONj5Kd
"I would. I really would."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBxkxct143N
"If you really loved me you would put me out of my misery," I say with tears in my eyes.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQSxFzJzdTu
"I do love you. I do. I'd never hurt you. I'd never hurt a single one of my children. You have to believe me."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN5HMJb12yk
I say, "At this point, I have zero trust in you. I'm not going to listen to you. I'm going to leave. I'm going to get help."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYmXj1MrQWW
"You're not leaving. You're staying here and you're going to obey."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHum6epPUo9
I say, "No I'm not!"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW2nhgCpl11
Father grabs my arm. I shake him off.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3S1krHEBL7
"You WILL listen to me!" he screams.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwK5UZmhbBs
I say "No I won't!!!"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzCT2fnTziH
"You will!"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2OnlNqBNHw
"I said NO!!!"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS6UYSFBSVh
"I'm going to count to three, and if you don't listen, I'm going to beat you like a dog!"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6DrgzTYYsB
I say, "I'm sorry! I'll obey and be a good girl!"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkDjv1yC66M
"I know you will," Father says.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTtVSREKFhw
Father reaches for the whip he keeps behind the door. He cracks it. I flinch, but don't cry.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY2QNae3H4C
He says "One."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbB1sNtPq9W
I say, "I'll do anything.."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKxqt1IAWul
"Two."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtgFVK3enwR
"I'll stay here. I'll do anything," I say.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡptXVbKJD1l
"Three."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7oqe4THKdm
I see a gun on the floor. I grab it and put it to my head.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmBm50LoR15
"No, don't do it," Father says.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWr2JocG5VR
I say, "If you promise to not hurt me anymore, I promise to do anything you want."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAPTEx9aqHb
"Fine," Father says. He gets up from the chair and walks over to me. He removes the gun from my head and puts it on the bed. I'm relieved. I put my hands behind my back.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7onKAXwwTb
I let him tie my hands together. I look at him, and he looks at me.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg6Nl1tRGIw
"You're going to be good now, aren't you?" he says,152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuGedgLlDUB
I say "Yes."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgMimZIoId7
"I don't want you to fail. I need you. I need you to stay here and obey."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwJQY24hQgQ
"Yes," I say.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1q73yiK3gI
"Good girl," he says.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF3WxflgPfK
I say, "Just.. please don't violate my body."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9C7tJLqHDG
"I won't," he says.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCOEB90Hqvy
I stay tied up.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPjTZpw8kMb
"Now," he says,152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz07uaHRMzG
"Kneel."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡreYrOvn0xb
"Please," I say.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvr42RKhVOD
I kneel. I do as he says. He steps closer to me, and I feel his breath on my neck.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1OTh4ucr15
I anticipate that he's going to violate my body.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr2cSWYBD9i
I just know it.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Uzq3lPTJv
And then, he doesn't. He whispers in my ear.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwsoiKaOYCC
"I have someone coming who will do a better job than me."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡokXO2q3y5p
I stand up, and he turns around. I wonder who he's talking about. I try to block out the image of his penis, but I can't. He walks over to the door and disappears.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqsB60XSdtN
I'm all alone in the room.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoaryO94jjD
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I hear the door open. I look up.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxF5FHNllvt
"Hello," a man says.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfFiFLFhbqe
I recognize him. It's the man who came into my room the first night I was here. I saw him before he abducted me. He walks towards me, and I back up.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZekkF0m5LP
"Hands behind your back," he says,152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI1FtsaKhGd
I do as he says. I hear the zip ties being undone.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiuIIcM9MEX
"On your knees," he says. I get on my knees.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlpMm04F1jI
"Stay there," he says,152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPb16RSp7z5
I stay on my knees.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqvhoJQItzR
He comes up to me, and I can feel him unbutton my shirt. He removes my shirt and he puts his hand on my stomach. I gasp. I can feel his fingers on my skin. I can feel his breath on my skin. He puts his other hand on my head and he pushes my head toward his penis.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLLORtsAC3Y
I say "No no no."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbRvOKLJrWS
"Do it," he says.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6T5I4IPW3k
I say no. He pushes harder.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKhuAqwwd11
"Do it!" he says.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhIYPqDeViM
I comply. I hear the zip tie undone.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh91Fcl46pR
He unzips his pants. I watch as he pulls his pants down. I can see his penis, it's about an inch and a half long.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZk80FWwfm3
"Stay there," he says.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhPnTfZxdeK
I stay on my knees.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuZ5qJ1igEV
He steps up to me and shoves his penis in my throat. I gag and try to get away.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAy4vTmzBSh
"Stop moving."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoOSfcuMj43
I struggle and gag on his penis. He shoves it in deeper. I try to gulp it down.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhWGub4xBgG
He pulls it out of my throat.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCohUTGiycU
"What's wrong?" he says.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Uj4JYAnNK
I can't answer. I'm coughing. I cough and gag.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmV4gkhpUHn
"What?" he says,152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNQHlrouaDT
I try to get air. I inhale. I try to get air out.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPKlxIc4PUK
He shoves it back in my throat and I gag on his penis. I cough and vomit. I continue to struggle. He pushes it in even deeper. I have no strength left. My vision goes black. He shoves it out again.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa0K6yY2wKI
"Is this too big for you?" he says.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi4se0M9K8M
I nod.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡst8aYzS3SC
"I understand," he says, "If you need to vomit, go ahead. I know how to treat a child who vomited before."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5g6ykPIo2s
I retch. I heave. I vomit again. I finally gain composure.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcUabyAdp5K
He shoves it back in.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡer8p4dGWKN
I decide that vomiting once is enough.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7t2dU2uE9L
He shoves it in deeper.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡggmvYCzDEB
I struggle and fight.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtbK81VH9Ik
"Stop fighting me," he says.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM9fAR4qSZS
He cums in my mouth and I spit it out.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7kHorZuOKh
"Get dressed," he says.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTDvSISVquz
I get dressed. He pushes me out the door and shoves me out the door. He closes it behind me. I take the chance to run away. I run away from the cultists as they try to catch me. They shout at me to stop, but I keep running. I manage to escape them and run away. I run all the way back home. I'm safe at last.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe5BBNn2Jww
I say, "Mom? I'm home!"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZcl99eEdhI
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My mother comes running out of the kitchen.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoLkYYAKBCS
"Allie! I can't believe it's you. You're home! Come here, I've got something special for you." I run into my mom's arms and hug her. I've been away for so long.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7gmrYZ8uHN
"I missed you so much, I was worried about you!" she says.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdvd59fUYnz
"I missed you, too." My mother leads me into the kitchen.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyP3XAgIqFf
I say, "Where's dad?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQLqAFQdAdV
"He's in the living room." I go to the living room. My father is watching television.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwuCpV8TDJB
"Dad, I'm home!" I say. My father turns around and looks at me. I run up and hug my dad.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTAoIwLUYMy
"I missed you so much," he says. My mother hands me a glass of water. I sit down at the table.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu6dnPEasDL
My father says, "Where have you been?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ94XMEfL6q2
I say, "I was kidnapped by a cult."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3XIhzZsfmw
"Did they hurt you?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh0OPFNVgf2
"Yeah," I say.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Oqz6QpXFS
"I'm sorry."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn5EiRslAEG
"It's not your fault." I hear a knock on the front door.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHtWmA0pXXR
"Who could that be?" my mother says. My father gets up and walks over to the door. He opens it. Two policemen walk in.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiWJjeBlBn6
"Is Allie in here?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoL5m2VwuNt
My dad says, "Yes, why?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSaZFAXCGKg
"We have some questions for her regarding the kidnapping of a young girl earlier this week," one of the policemen says. "Is she willing to answer some questions?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLjUva04Vh4
"Of course she is." I walk towards the cops.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUoYUZMGfBf
"Do you have any weapons on you?" one of the cops asks.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7HLvgUvbiz
"No." I respond,152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡefrWYFsUzQ
"Can we come in?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFmMejFRXfu
"Sure," I say. The cops follow me into the kitchen. They walk past my dad and sit down at the table. They motion for me to sit down, too.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzhgG8Kp6U5
"Okay, why were you kidnapped?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjyTnX8JNL6
I say, "I don't know."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWuGdoK6j93
"We know that the man you encountered on the road called you by name. Did he tell you his name?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCYxIvzmGmX
"No." I say,152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQKje5Nrk56
"Are you sure?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtZsbdjzcp1
"Yes."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCZbOKCxwtM
I say, "He referred to himself as 'Father'.''152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVZ0nWZnJJz
"Did he give you any food or water?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVkBOxgveUd
"No." I respond.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ93WD3Mci4s
"Did he give you any kind of drugs?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5bhSm8nlKr
"No."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcN9Mkc2DDj
"What did he do to you?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg9xCcpjkkH
I say, "He... he sexually assaulted me."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ124DjYXndX
"Did you fight him?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4RTTFecufA
"I tried."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrAkILPMcml
"What happened?" I pause, trying to think of an answer.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNEzh03Q4vX
"I think I blacked out."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ01f4U0XJCp
"I see."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ruHYWmicv
I say, "He severely beat me numerous times.."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCv8MQHojyR
"And how long were you with him?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiaUMSA4WGI
"I think about ten hours."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmPz7koM2wG
"And you only just managed to escape?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD79nl5qBMA
"Yeah."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfvrE3MF77H
"Do you know where you were?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeeUxqNuo1d
I say "No."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaZYlFfo0J8
"What is the last thing you remember?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0L72aBPkZc
"I remember walking down the road."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsEZdtGsivn
"And then?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZJ7ivmAPPA
"I don't remember."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpL3bkBmlci
"Do you know how you got away?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9uNij8Ahjt
I say, "I just ran,"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkM5uclcAqH
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened, from the beginning."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRlYtUM6nRc
I explain what happened to me, starting with the encounter on the road, ending with running away from the cultists.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaHbyV2wMnS
I say, "So that's how it all happened."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxsAsJQAsFH
"What do you mean?" one of the cops asks. "I say you blacked out, and then you woke up and ran away. So did he drug you or something?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk3D8UVACEU
"I don't know." Suddenly I hear gunshots outside the house.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3PkNmEe166
"What was that?" one of the cops asks,152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHOSC6wXqhF
"Stay here, we're going to check it out." my dad says, and heads outside. I run outside with my dad. He tells me to hide behind a bush.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmXYHIXdMeV
"Go hide over there," my father points to a bush about thirty feet from the house.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLOFGlxTnY2
I hide behind the bush and watch the house.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWC2nfhrVP9
I see a man who I recognize as the person who kidnapped me.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOOjbumyVzh
He has a gun and is shooting at my dad. I watch with tears in my eyes as my dad falls to the ground.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpUp5EP5Gs4
"You fucking son of a bitch!" I yell as I charge at my kidnapper. I push him down, and beat him repeatedly in the head with my fist. I then take his gun and shoot him in the head with it.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD2hJj9Akhw
I drop to my knees over his body and sob.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEIQq6LQ6dP
After a few minutes the police officers arrive at the house. They rush towards me and place handcuffs on me.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgwIgJfnucm
I say, "He was my kidnapper! Please, trust me!"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ylxrWPKDN
"We'll take care of everything, don't worry." one of the officers says,152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSw2gnj1V3V
"I'm sorry, but we need to take you with us, it's for your own safety." I'm thrown in the back of the cop car.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ67oQyTrnVT
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I try to open the door to get out, but the cops slam it shut. I try to bang on the window, but no one seems to notice me, except my mom, standing on the front porch looking at me with tears in her eyes.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn71dTx4Q3r
I sob in the back of the cop car. I am being taken to the police station, and I don't know what to expect.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp059lhXKGA
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At the police station, I am strip searched and placed in a cell.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOpqASWitnq
I say, "Please, the man I killed was the one who kidnapped me and murdered my father!"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡssIWirsbVW
"Calm down, we'll get you a lawyer and he'll take care of everything."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBpaH9Z8tF3
"But I didn't do anything wrong!" I collapse on the cell floor and start crying.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡppz1DC73LR
"I'm sorry, we'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyfqfzXoCGa
I don't really know how much time passes, but I am released from the cell after some time.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCcFd89FQ8U
"We'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge, I promise." I am taken to a different cell and left alone. I sob and cry for what seems like hours. I cry about what I did, cry about being in prison, cry about being a murderer. Eventually, I stop crying and just sit there on the bed, surrounded by concrete walls. I fall asleep on the jail bed.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuQ8Kd3KMRP
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I am woken up by a man in a suit.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN2auTjtak9
"Get up." he says,152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3M5ciXVJ8Y
"Why am I here?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiUFOc074cC
"Because you murdered a man, and you tried to murder another."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAjPSdU5SlT
I say, "He fucking kidnapped me for Christ's sake!"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0lOqXTodzT
"Shut the fuck up." He says, "Get dressed. We're getting you a lawyer."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK1zbctsrFP
I am taken to a holding area, a small room with a table in it. A man sits behind the desk.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyNos3r1SOl
I sit down.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgOpHCLA5jt
"Okay, how can I help you?" he asks.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPOpy88lECJ
"I was kidnapped and assaulted, and I killed someone while trying to escape."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfVcGRa7r5D
"I see. Do you have a lawyer?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzvjjrKwYHf
I say, "No."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLlJiLNW3X0
"I see. Would you like one appointed to you?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqI0bSVxr5J
I respond, "Yes."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQGtonnBi5O
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone. I'll have them call you. A lawyer will be there in a moment." A few moments later, a middle aged woman wearing a dress walks in. I look up.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcLmCqpESam
"Hello, Miss, do you need a lawyer?" the woman asks.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBV0hcNoCkq
"Yes."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡquUzoVUzmm
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone for you, let's just wait a moment."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhF0AXnENIa
I sit down, and wait a few minutes. Then, a man in a suit walks in,152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0yuULAd1jS
I say, "Hi."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAlnVVzf4Mu
The man looks at me, and then walks up to the woman.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVSNaHn5xLL
"Yes, Judge?" the woman asks.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdx2Ce7HFM8
"Get me a lawyer for this 15 year old girl." the man says.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoK0BqtDRSM
"Right away," says the woman.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiDTDsoBwIT
She turns to me, "Okay, we'll get you a lawyer. He should be here in a moment. He'll explain everything to you, and he'll help you with your story. You just wait here."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKzMYluGEOM
I say, "Okay."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOmZHye6jvP
A few moments later, a man walks in. He says,152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQpNUD4g8c2
"Hello. I'm your lawyer. Now, you can wait here, or you can come with me." I follow the man.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeFZd0jhVap
I am led down a set of stairs, and into a basement. There, I see a large table. I sit at one of the chairs.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCq6AakQ3Dx
The man walks into the room, and says, "Okay, why did you murder a man?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEg69dwgTnp
"He kidnapped me."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNPa9JKuQXE
"Okay, why did you try to murder another?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0hMWaXlXqk
I say, "He tried to stab me."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdHxMrAlNVB
"Who was he?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNoXukPHb2K
"I don't know."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd9Kp4SCevX
"Where did you get the knife?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4WmD0JCACo
"He had it in his pocket."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeuz41kdFLQ
"Did he threaten you in any way?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlSvSmhpGDE
I say "Yes. He frequently beat me and sexually assaulted me."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRoJPVFioxV
"Okay, now, that's a new one. Anything else?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVZMqIrkpop
"No."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡldFj5uMcdp
"You sure? Think hard."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbm5F7FNCxU
I think for a few moments, trying to remember anything else the man said or did.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzTnLhAlS8P
I say, "He killed my father."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ51mahG6zyR
"What?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡscDhQFKoCn
I say, "When I ran away and made it back home, the man tracked where I ran to and shot my father."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBdyZgX6FmM
"Your father? I'm very sorry to hear that. You know, I don't think that you're a murderer. I think that you were kidnapped and forced to do what you did." I try to hold back tears. "I'm going to get you a doctor to examine you. I think you might be experiencing some emotional trauma and it's affecting you. Would you like to see a doctor?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcRjVV3jyjW
"Y-yes.." I say shakily.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVHqo9jNDC2
The man nods, and a man in a suit walks into the room.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlXXYt1L9aQ
"Ah, there you are." he says, "I have Doctor Dershian here. He wants to examine you."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx5BuanE4D1
I say, "Okay.."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN5ZKw9ZxAT
The man in the suit leaves the room, and another man enters the room. He is wearing a lab coat.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVjMkoBN3YF
He says, "Hello. Why don't you come with me?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeuvqN5cfQg
I follow him.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbUi2H5smuz
He leads me up the stairs, and into a room. He says,152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpS8F6DrgGl
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpTjuhF87bw
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I say, "A-a man kidnapped me and abused and sexually assaulted m-me..."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡICMGFDojGL
"Alright. Take a seat."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV0GoFfVehy
The man is Doctor Dershian. He asks me a few questions about the events leading up to the murder, and about my emotional state now.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf6voXgqyN4
I say, "More than a few times the man made me think about killing myself.."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwNVwR7QPfP
"Really? You tried to kill yourself?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7YzOLLUKdT
"Yes.."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8bUz2DlsYj
"I see. Do you feel suicidal now?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1owqef104Z
I say, "Not really. I'm just really emotionally shattered."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx8pMRkTCJD
"Okay, I'll get someone to take you to a counselor. You just wait here," Doctor Dershian says, and walks out of the room.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEkMwYFbtQt
I feel like the whole situation is about to make me explode.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3mzKDZlTha
A few minutes later, Doctor Dershian returns.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK4NTklJrlX
I say, "D-doctor.. I-I feel suicidal right n-now..."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡozEUQ4EqsJ
"Suicidal?" Doctor Dershian asks, "What makes you say that?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ1Q5TCUvw6
I say, "The situation is just too much for me to handle."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmNVEeppqsz
"I see. Would you like to go to a counselor?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi7rPqf1E1h
"Y-yes, please." Doctor Dershian is about to say something, but is interrupted by the door opening. I look up. In walks a man in a white, long, lab coat. He looks very serious. He says,152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdeMYu3Ad9P
"I'm Doctor Kessel. I'm here to evaluate you." I try to stand up but collapse to the floor. Doctor Kessel immediately calls for a nurse. The nurse walks in, and says,152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtIgXlGWrLg
"What is it?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg9DtjGyT9V
Doctor Kessel says,152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHYJNHFPZVR
"This patient is suicidal." I lie on the floor sobbing.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLWDvA1EPHg
A few minutes later, a nurse walks back into the room and helps me to my feet. She holds my hand and helps me to a chair. I sit down, and try to stop crying.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtTHrtk7Xp4
I say, "Why me??? Why does this all have to happen to ME??" The nurse looks at me with sympathy, and says,152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8SogerQxaW
"I'm sorry, but that's part of the evaluation. We need to find out why you're suicidal. We want to help you."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmKxIgtlpQg
I say, "Why did I have to get kidnapped? Why was I the one to be abused? Why did I have to become a murderer? WHY ME??"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdbSCXPzWg3
The nurse shakes her head, and says,152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv2UGzf39GR
"I'm sorry. We'll talk about this after we finish the evaluation. Right now, we need to do some tests." I try to not cry.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtwaaX0Kl4H
I feel so helpless. I feel so out of control, and I can't do anything to change this. I go over to a table, and the nurse helps me remove my clothes. I feel like I'm slowly dying inside. I don't even care.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡme127NFInn
The nurse helps me into a gown, and I lie down on the examination table. She cleans and checks my inner and outer thighs, my genitalia, and my breasts. I try to calm down and breathe normally. The nurse says,152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqSX3fJLLy9
"I need to do a blood draw, and a urine sample. I need your help with this." I comply, and the nurse takes my blood. At this point, I don't even feel the pain. I just want to die.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoLG85KE0aM
After a few minutes, the nurse comes back and says,152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu04DBdBaa6
"Okay, come with me." I get up and follow the nurse into a different room. I try to maintain my composure. The nurse says, "I need to check your blood pressure. I need you to lay down on the table and get on all fours." I lay down and get on all fours. Suddenly, I start having horrific flashbacks about the kidnapping. My heart rate goes up.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd2z2rYTHmi
The nurse says, "Okay, your BP is a little high. I need to do an ultrasound to check your kidneys, and a CAT scan to check your brain." I start to shake and cry. I feel like the world is weighing down on me. I want to give up. The nurse tries to console me, and she says,152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRpkrOa675e
"Everything is going to be okay. You'll see your family soon." I slowly calm down. I start to feel a little more at ease. I breathe deeply and start to fall asleep on the table.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLzzcJZpWZZ
A few minutes later, I wake up. The nurse is there, and she is smiling at me.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ouWfCumX9
I say "Where am I?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgRG4bTeseF
"You're in a hospital room. We moved you to a private room because you were so hysterical and it was so crowded. You were also vomiting blood. It's going to be okay."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuSxXRbfhB5
I say, "Am I diagnosed with insanity?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzeFHaeu2pM
The nurse smiles sadly, "No, but they're still determining that. It's going to be a few days before they give you a diagnosis. In the meantime, you'll be monitored, and you can have visitors."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4GiYPka22b
I say, "I want to see my mom..."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIr9fgAMpKZ
The nurse interrupts me and says,152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYWl9eTud3u
"I'm sorry, but I need to do some tests. I'm going to be back to let you know when you can have visitors."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRK10WEMrBP
"O-okay.." I say as I feel the tears welling up again. The nurse leaves the room, and I cry for a few minutes. I feel so helpless. I can't do anything to help myself.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtfrRYyDcV7
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A few hours later, my mom comes to visit.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVarhIh5DeL
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My mom walks into the room, and gives me a big hug.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEZL8huzUuk
"I'm so glad to see you, baby! I've been so worried."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡORcqgPxBiZ
I say, "I feel like I'm going crazy mom. Why did life have to do this to me?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWmy5CftrL7
"I know honey. I've been thinking the same thing. They said they're going to keep you here for a few more days, and they're going to keep an eye on you."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqZiiJN5H2U
"I-I love you mom," I say as I start crying.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA7pQwWNQH7
"I love you too, sweetie. I want to be there with you. I want to do something to make you feel better. Do you think you could pray with me?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvDFZTUbEKq
"Yes.." I say quietly.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNadc8bgB83
I say a prayer with my mom, and I feel calm and at ease.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlaJRxpEy1o
After we pray, my mom asks if I want to talk about what happened.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqr6V5bfd3c
I say, "If I start talking about that, I'm going to start sobbing and I won't be able to control myself.."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa57bDyNBXs
"I know honey, but you need to get it out. Get everything out. Don't hold anything in. It's eating at you, and it's making you sick."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuIc3w4I5ty
I say, "Why did that man kidnap me?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOLUoZ7JVFR
"I don't know honey. We'll find out soon. I'll talk to the doctor when he comes in, and I'll find out what's going on. I promise."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ67yVTO4ldt
I say, "Once this is all resolved, are the cult members gonna be thrown in prison?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg7FqNF1IZr
"I don't know, honey. I hope so. I don't think there's a jury that would convict them. I'll do what I can to make sure that happens."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWq8R59B044
I say, "Okay.."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAHpOPOigqo
My mom spends the rest of my visit in the hospital room, and we don't say another word to each other. After my visit is over, I spend a couple of hours in the empty hospital room. I start crying again. I feel so helpless, and I can't do anything to help myself. I don't know when I will get another visit, or if I'll ever get out of this hospital. I cry myself to sleep. I wake up, wishing this was all just a bad dream. I hope that when I get out of the hospital, everything will be back to normal, and I'll just live my life with no problems. The nurse walks into the hospital room.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0tb4yzgPrH
"I'm so sorry to wake you, but I need to speak with you. It's very important."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmYPKlCoYhS
I wipe the tears off my face.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxhmTeHZMDx
I say, "What is it? What's wrong?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn10FuhO1uW
"Your tests came back, and you tested positive for.."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOPbCqcDaLa
I say, "What? What did I test positive for?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCHzgpXKpLz
"I'm so, so sorry. I wish I could tell you. I really do. You tested positive for.."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1qiHMWFv8p
I say, "Tell me!"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOK2XVozrSx
"A sexually transmitted disease. I'm so, so sorry, dear."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWdlxl9nMji
My heart drops.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmdeQa3Fznq
I feel so ashamed. I cry myself to sleep again.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOtK6L10T4D
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In the morning, I get my visitors.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgbw2inoMcz
My sister, Charlotte, visits me. She asks me what's wrong. I can't even answer her. I just cry. I feel so ashamed of myself. Charlotte starts to leave the room.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc5BeCfYwZF
I say, "Wait!" She stops.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRwtNrlbnBj
"What is it?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAlN4P8sT5v
I say, "I need a hug.." Charlotte wraps her arms around me, and I cry.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj8rCgTNGFT
I eventually gather the strength to tell my sister what the doctor said.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkYW66iStLN
I say, "The doctor said I have a.. Std..."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU7An5B2Lbg
"I know, sis. I'm so, so sorry."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbgNf5zzZCC
I cry myself to sleep.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg4OczOHj09
The next day, I get another visit from my mom.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeqjvaohw8N
"How are you doing, honey?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3PD6PNUCUY
I say, "Horrible.."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlZXmTW4VuF
She walks over and sits next to me on the bed.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTJmYd5XJOQ
"I heard about you testing positive for a sexually transmitted disease. I'm so sorry."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEb87E9fJFG
I say, "I'm so ashamed..."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeb4avghZlc
"It's not your fault, honey."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKcEgFPpmu2
I start crying again.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJGo03sMnY2
"I'll get you some tissues, honey. You can cry on them. Cry your heart out."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrmLDX46GLn
I cry myself to sleep in my mother's arms. I wake up the next morning. I'm not as tired as I was yesterday. Maybe the doctor gave me some new medication, or maybe I'm just getting used to being here. I don't feel any emotions. I feel empty and dead inside. I don't care about anything. I don't feel any guilt or shame.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwZPeVKnGSk
Maybe I'm dead after all.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtrPgwjB3Os
Maybe this is what it feels like to be nothing. I get a visit from my lawyer.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGK4gwZyYUX
"I heard the test results, and I'm here to ask you if you would like to pursue this case. You tested positive for a sexually transmitted disease, so the chances of us winning are pretty slim."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe3GvHOgmWp
"I don't even know anymore," I say as I shed a tear.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJDczl4yD05
"I understand. If you don't want to pursue this case, then I'll get someone who will."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡde8m7lJYK7
I say, "I still want to win this."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUY2r6zd7Ya
"Well, it's up to you, then. I'll go get our legal team, and we can get started."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm58PbS8kOx
I spend the next few weeks resting in my hospital room. I don't have any visitors. I have forgotten what life is like outside the hospital. I don't even want to leave my hospital room. I spend my days watching reruns of Friends and crying. One day the nurse comes into the room and says, "I've got good news."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgfOv07dz8Z
"Really?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgEtFMvOylA
"Yeah, your doctor says you can go home today."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXq0BooosSr
I start crying, and I can't stop.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmh7YGZyMpE
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I spend my time at home resting. I don't do anything. One day I decide to walk outside.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGK2BywqUc5
I get out my patio door, and I don't turn around and go back inside. I don't know why, but I just have this urge to walk outside.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUr9u6NmWbw
I stand in the middle of my lawn.The smell of fresh air makes me emotional. I start crying happy tears. I walk over to my flower bed and pick a few flowers to smell. I smell them, and then throw them in the air and watch them float away. They are so pretty, and they smell so good.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡppsm2JaO2Y
My mom opens the front door and says, "What are you doing?" I turn around to see her standing there.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt4x74aT2BG
"I wanted to see the flowers."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRSyQbWm7b6
"Why are you out of your room?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0uGXSkR9fo
"I don't know. I just felt like walking outside."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5bV5lYd67J
I say, "I've been cooped up in a room for way too long."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3CNmwtceMY
"Yeah, I know what you mean," my mom says. She picks me up and gives me a big hug.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUPxqj64FMb
"Thank you for being you."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Dsyl49qrc
"You don't have to thank me." I see the next-door neighbor's son walk out to get the mail. I look at him fascinated. He has no fear. He doesn't know what it's like to be scared. He doesn't know what it feels like to live in a nightmare.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLgtt6O0wFq
I make a decision.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuZzevWiIeF
I walk up to the neighbor's boy and say, "Hi!"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ39LtwkCgK
"What's your name?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUpkU63yY78
"Allisa," I say, smiling.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL5lSMCwDs4
"I'm Carter. What are you doing out of your room?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmG3sisis8A
I say, "I just wanted to get some fresh air."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEoELk3NxN9
"Yeah, I know what you mean. I had this urge to walk outside too." He laughs.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnVNRpHsTxU
I say, "Well I gotta go back inside.." I go back inside and go to bed. I don't know why I feel so empty. I want to fill this void. I want to find something to fill all of this space.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxx91eaSERv
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Your life as a pet is very degrading. You aren't allowed on furniture, you're not allowed to speak unless spoken to, and you're not allowed to do anything without the permission of Father, whom you are forced to address as Master. You aren't even called by your name. Instead, you are simply called Pet. Right now you're sitting on the ground inside Father's study, which is in a building known as the Community Center, staring out of the window.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo7SYeAnruH
The study is large and furnished with a desk and chair, some bookshelves with many old books, and that's about it. The door to the room creaks open and Father steps inside, his golden hair and eyes sparking in the sunlight. He walks over to his desk and sees you staring out the window.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmJEPU3cLac
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He sighs and sits down in his chair. "What is it, child?" he asks, with a tone that makes me feel like he is disappointed in me. "Why are you looking out the window?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLSspuddzeB
"I just want to go home," I say.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Ran0DtRjR
Father sighs again. "Child, I know you miss your home, but we're not going anywhere for a while." He sits back in his chair. I start to cry, and Father stares at me.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMooaAAXhzQ
"Why are you crying?" he asks, with a small amount of anger in his voice. I cry even harder.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoVoTl8ZkIC
Father sighs.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8hExQOfDXt
I say "I don't want to stay here!"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9nB3Yp3aBE
Father gets up from his chair and walks over to me and kneels down in front of me. I look at the ground and Father grabs my chin and forces me to look at him. I look into his eyes. His eyes are cold, like stone. He stares at me with no emotion whatsoever.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFfyjKIL4IJ
There's no compassion, no sympathy. I'm just a thing to be used. He will use me for his own benefit, and then he will get rid of me. I need to get out of here. I stand up quickly and bolt for the door.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWwoC1W0mtk
"Stop!" he shouts, but I already hear his footsteps behind me. I open the door and run out. I run past the cult members, who only stare at me in awe, some whispering among themselves. I run until I come to a large oak tree. I climb the tree, which is only a few feet away from the ground. I find a branch that I think is strong enough to hold me, and climb up.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS0NBf0B979
I can hear Father's footsteps getting closer. I hide myself in the branches of the tree.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡspsACJOjnq
Father comes to the tree, his footsteps getting closer and closer to the tree. He stops, staring at the tree.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl1SUuZOj8m
"Pet, come down from the tree."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzidwU6ldrp
I stay silent.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPoWgSPLbOL
"Pet, I know you're in there. Come down from the tree right now or else I won't only punish you, I'll make your siblings suffer too. Do you want that to happen?" I come down from the tree and land on the ground with a thud. Father grabs me, and I struggle against his grip, but I can't escape.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3jQnOOy0wN
"Come with me, child." I am dragged along by Father.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFnGnlQP209
I struggle as I walk with him, but I can't get away. We walk for what seems like forever, and then we finally come to a large, circular room. I look around the room. The room is circular, with no windows, and only two doors. One door is at the very center of the room, while the other is at the very edge.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡub147RNzed
I struggle against Father, who only laughs at me. I struggle against him for what seems like an eternity, but he keeps a firm grip on me, and I can't get away. I sigh and decide it's best to just give up.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡETBIcbHITA
Father grabs my chin, and I look at him.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZA6TZ74apa
"Don't make me have to punish you, child."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGOiOVsKiHH
I say, "What are you going to do to me?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2zFNR1ywSU
Father smiles. "I'm going to punish you in a way that you'll enjoy." He releases me. I drop to the ground, exhausted..152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTeYz1JOrit
I say, "Please don't hurt me."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNV8EUGTuEm
Father laughs. "I'm not going to hurt you, child. I'm going to make you scream. I'm going to make you wish you were dead."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA5p6h8NJAi
I say, "Please don't!"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRDna7pHgQM
Father laughs. "Don't worry, I won't kill you. But I will make you wish you were dead, child."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYMn2b5UGhq
I say, "What does that mean?" Father laughs. He picks me up and throws me on the bed.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsVV8i0g0Zt
"You'll find out soon enough, child."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyie4VeSUdw
Then he leaves the room, closing the door behind him. I wait.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmoxndBQrdy
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It's the last day of the school year. Finally... I've been waiting for summer vacation since the first day of the school year. I'm almost halfway between the school and my house, feeling happier than ever. Suddenly... darkness. I would have never thought that the last day of my sophomore year would be the last normal day of my life..152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu9o7LT8Rok
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"Are you ready, child?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkdwtOhOCQ8
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I nod and say, "Y-yes."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAZNpFsTMJd
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"Good. Here's what's going to happen. I'm going to bind your hands together. Then I'm going to blindfold you. Then, I'm going to have you stand in the middle of the circle."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy9Y4zYM1B6
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I say, "Okay.."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy4l4RUiiH5
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I stand there, and Father ties my hands together, then blindfolds me. Father takes out the blindfold and places it over my eyes. I feel his hands on my shoulders, and start to feel uncomfortable.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9TKYEAERBU
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I hear him say, "Bend your knees and keep your eyes forward." I do as I'm told.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6OGIoUoCPZ
He says "Now, walk forward, slowly."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2nH8UUoPox
I feel his hands on my lower back and begin walking. I walk forward, and my feet move, taking me forward. My legs continue walking, taking me further and further away from Father. My heart is pounding in my ears. Then, I reach the center of the circle.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwA8ECCOXep
Father says "Good. Stay there."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnLDwybewfl
I feel his hands on my shoulders. I hear him say, "Don't look back, child. It'll make things much worse." I stay there. Then, I hear Father's footsteps. I hear his footsteps stop. I stand perfectly still. Father says, "Well, well, well. Look at you." I wonder what's going on. I don't move, even though I can't see. I wait. I stand perfectly still and wait. I hear his footsteps walking toward me. I wait.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPwtwAeecmB
I stand perfectly still. His footsteps stop. His hands grab my shoulders, and I tense up. His hands push me down. I fall to the ground, and my head smacks into the cold, hard ground. I wince. I lie there, waiting. I wait for a long time, but then I hear his footsteps. They get louder... closer. My heart rate goes up. I wait. I tense up. I stay still. His footsteps stop.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7zg4ohPNrg
He must be right next to me. I hold my breath. I wait. I stay still.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdEHjpiOQv5
His hands touch my face. I tense up even more. His hands slide down my body, and my knees get weak. He unbuttons my blouse. His hands slide up my bra. I want to scream. He unzips my pants. His hands slide down my panties. I scream,"Stop!"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfrvdgXQqYv
"Please!" I whisper.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgUMPXoRbLN
He pulls down my underwear, and he takes his time. His fingers slide inside of me.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7DuJJ7PoRm
I scream loudly.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUAy6XI7bIc
My scream echoes throughout the room.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm77QdKrpMK
"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" he shouts.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEkXxb3nFYm
His fingers slide faster. I scream louder.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZKvGrxPugM
"I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU!" he shouts. I try not to moan.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHJjqPOv4nt
My body shakes. My legs shake. I can't control it. My body gives in to the pleasure. I moan and shake--my body trembles. My moans get louder and louder.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiqeAld130e
I say "P-please s-stop.."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVCuac92Rex
He stops for a moment, before sliding his fingers inside of me again. I stay still, and soon, I begin to come down from my orgasm. I lie there, panting. My hands are tied tightly together. I start sobbing.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoCf6uvc3l6
He pulls his fingers out of me. I wince and groan. I'm sore from the orgasm. I lie there, sobbing. I feel him sit down next to me. He unties my hands. I cry harder.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCtxIu0TvdT
He pulls the blindfold off of me, and I see that there are several men standing around, staring at me. I try to cover myself, but one of the men pulls the blanket off of me.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX67tAAzsrq
"What's the matter, huh?" one of the men says.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTqMHkByXEf
"Look at her," another says,152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7BS0LBIdL0
I say "Please leave me alone."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrFUOIdY3T9
"Let's see if she's a virgin," another says.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDCH4tK74mj
"I'm a virgin," I say, trying to cover myself.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmQJAEnjAdW
"We'll see. Let's see."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcr6QhEFQ9D
I say "No no no.." They laugh.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3JZHv0gEDc
"Look at her. She's a dirty little slut," one of them says.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡknApyGPavS
"Let's see if she's a filthy little cocksucker," another says. I say "Please leave me alone!" They laugh. They grab me. They forcefully violate me. I start sobbing. I'm crying, and I can't stop. My tears are falling down my face.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYbLs510pTe
They untie me.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbLPrUHI9SG
I lie there, naked and sobbing. I'm sore, and my butt is sore. I keep crying harder. After a while, I hear a voice.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSWKsxW6qx9
"Ah... you're up," Father says.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHl35pnUi4e
152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPnWVBat2zm
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152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIP0Q4ges6k"Huh?" I say, confused. I slowly get up.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx5fOhrJiYz
"Where were you?" he asks,152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi1kZq5ciFv
I say, "T-they were hurting me...."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUajjlE7jA8
"I know. We were worried about you. We thought you might be a virgin. You were."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2DXLRMKr3V
Father smiles.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrmLIXul1Jh
"Get dressed. We have work to do," he says.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5FNbm6xmIN
I say, "I can't handle this anymore. I can't stay here any longer. This is too much."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡekx621lAst
"I know," Father says. "But you have to. You're my favorite. You can't run away."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgcC2K2jDNZ
"I can't stand it anymore," I say, trying to get up.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqJxxzmILlF
I say, "I don't want to be abused anymore."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJVWfnBGIGH
"I know. But you need to do this. It's for the good of the cult."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLc3wHdfw6S
"I'm leaving," I say, trying to walk away.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf0Boc5Wv7C
Father grabs my arm. I struggle.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdzMTGJ5cS3
"Look, I know you're upset, but you're going to have to get over it. You need to stop struggling. I won't let you leave."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtkyWiFnkQE
I say, "Please let me go!"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡurWIR4x5mI
"I'm not letting you go. We need you. I need you. I'm your master, and you're my pet. I own you, and you obey me," Father says. I say, "I will not stay here any longer."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYfwmu3MBu9
"You will," Father says.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6d40GYFk49
"I said I won't!" I say. Father gets angry. He pulls me to my feet. He slaps me hard across the face.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpleLDWJd7R
"You WILL!" I start crying hard. I cry as hard as I can, and Father laughs.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJE7hqyRIGx
"I own you," he says, "You obey me."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI5kqvWJ2fa
I cry and sob hard. I sob for a long time before Father comes up behind me and slaps me hard.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa1FkKqKSZC
"Stop crying," he says.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG7SRi9qi5b
"I can't!"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsZS9htv2lV
Father grabs me and hits me hard across the face again.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm47OJ1N7Ij
"Stop it!" I cry.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt9dHhBL5MS
"I said stop it!" he yells,152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNo784fCsZm
"I can't," I say.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxvKpIqAzLM
I say, "I want to kill myself!!!"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡULTHXm2Wty
"NO!" Father screams.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD24b5IiAWQ
"I'm not going to hit you anymore. I'm not going to hit you anymore. But you need to stop crying. You need to stop being so pathetic." I slowly stop crying. "You're going to stay here with us. You're going to learn. You're going to obey. You're going to be a good member of the cult. And you're going to love it here."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlJdamfPev1
I say, "I would rather kill myself than be here."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtZUJPX0a3j
"NO, you wouldn't," Father says,152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtfP2ONj5Kd
"I would. I really would."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBxkxct143N
"If you really loved me you would put me out of my misery," I say with tears in my eyes.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQSxFzJzdTu
"I do love you. I do. I'd never hurt you. I'd never hurt a single one of my children. You have to believe me."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN5HMJb12yk
I say, "At this point, I have zero trust in you. I'm not going to listen to you. I'm going to leave. I'm going to get help."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYmXj1MrQWW
"You're not leaving. You're staying here and you're going to obey."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHum6epPUo9
I say, "No I'm not!"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW2nhgCpl11
Father grabs my arm. I shake him off.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3S1krHEBL7
"You WILL listen to me!" he screams.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwK5UZmhbBs
I say "No I won't!!!"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzCT2fnTziH
"You will!"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2OnlNqBNHw
"I said NO!!!"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS6UYSFBSVh
"I'm going to count to three, and if you don't listen, I'm going to beat you like a dog!"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6DrgzTYYsB
I say, "I'm sorry! I'll obey and be a good girl!"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkDjv1yC66M
"I know you will," Father says.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTtVSREKFhw
Father reaches for the whip he keeps behind the door. He cracks it. I flinch, but don't cry.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY2QNae3H4C
He says "One."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbB1sNtPq9W
I say, "I'll do anything.."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKxqt1IAWul
"Two."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtgFVK3enwR
"I'll stay here. I'll do anything," I say.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡptXVbKJD1l
"Three."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7oqe4THKdm
I see a gun on the floor. I grab it and put it to my head.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmBm50LoR15
"No, don't do it," Father says.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWr2JocG5VR
I say, "If you promise to not hurt me anymore, I promise to do anything you want."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAPTEx9aqHb
"Fine," Father says. He gets up from the chair and walks over to me. He removes the gun from my head and puts it on the bed. I'm relieved. I put my hands behind my back.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7onKAXwwTb
I let him tie my hands together. I look at him, and he looks at me.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg6Nl1tRGIw
"You're going to be good now, aren't you?" he says,152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuGedgLlDUB
I say "Yes."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgMimZIoId7
"I don't want you to fail. I need you. I need you to stay here and obey."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwJQY24hQgQ
"Yes," I say.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1q73yiK3gI
"Good girl," he says.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF3WxflgPfK
I say, "Just.. please don't violate my body."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9C7tJLqHDG
"I won't," he says.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCOEB90Hqvy
I stay tied up.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPjTZpw8kMb
"Now," he says,152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz07uaHRMzG
"Kneel."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡreYrOvn0xb
"Please," I say.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvr42RKhVOD
I kneel. I do as he says. He steps closer to me, and I feel his breath on my neck.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1OTh4ucr15
I anticipate that he's going to violate my body.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr2cSWYBD9i
I just know it.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Uzq3lPTJv
And then, he doesn't. He whispers in my ear.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwsoiKaOYCC
"I have someone coming who will do a better job than me."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡokXO2q3y5p
I stand up, and he turns around. I wonder who he's talking about. I try to block out the image of his penis, but I can't. He walks over to the door and disappears.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqsB60XSdtN
I'm all alone in the room.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoaryO94jjD
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152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv4icf4D4QYI hear the door open. I look up.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxF5FHNllvt
"Hello," a man says.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfFiFLFhbqe
I recognize him. It's the man who came into my room the first night I was here. I saw him before he abducted me. He walks towards me, and I back up.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZekkF0m5LP
"Hands behind your back," he says,152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI1FtsaKhGd
I do as he says. I hear the zip ties being undone.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiuIIcM9MEX
"On your knees," he says. I get on my knees.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlpMm04F1jI
"Stay there," he says,152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPb16RSp7z5
I stay on my knees.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqvhoJQItzR
He comes up to me, and I can feel him unbutton my shirt. He removes my shirt and he puts his hand on my stomach. I gasp. I can feel his fingers on my skin. I can feel his breath on my skin. He puts his other hand on my head and he pushes my head toward his penis.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLLORtsAC3Y
I say "No no no."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbRvOKLJrWS
"Do it," he says.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6T5I4IPW3k
I say no. He pushes harder.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKhuAqwwd11
"Do it!" he says.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhIYPqDeViM
I comply. I hear the zip tie undone.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh91Fcl46pR
He unzips his pants. I watch as he pulls his pants down. I can see his penis, it's about an inch and a half long.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZk80FWwfm3
"Stay there," he says.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhPnTfZxdeK
I stay on my knees.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuZ5qJ1igEV
He steps up to me and shoves his penis in my throat. I gag and try to get away.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAy4vTmzBSh
"Stop moving."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoOSfcuMj43
I struggle and gag on his penis. He shoves it in deeper. I try to gulp it down.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhWGub4xBgG
He pulls it out of my throat.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCohUTGiycU
"What's wrong?" he says.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Uj4JYAnNK
I can't answer. I'm coughing. I cough and gag.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmV4gkhpUHn
"What?" he says,152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNQHlrouaDT
I try to get air. I inhale. I try to get air out.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPKlxIc4PUK
He shoves it back in my throat and I gag on his penis. I cough and vomit. I continue to struggle. He pushes it in even deeper. I have no strength left. My vision goes black. He shoves it out again.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa0K6yY2wKI
"Is this too big for you?" he says.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi4se0M9K8M
I nod.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡst8aYzS3SC
"I understand," he says, "If you need to vomit, go ahead. I know how to treat a child who vomited before."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5g6ykPIo2s
I retch. I heave. I vomit again. I finally gain composure.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcUabyAdp5K
He shoves it back in.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡer8p4dGWKN
I decide that vomiting once is enough.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7t2dU2uE9L
He shoves it in deeper.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡggmvYCzDEB
I struggle and fight.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtbK81VH9Ik
"Stop fighting me," he says.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM9fAR4qSZS
He cums in my mouth and I spit it out.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7kHorZuOKh
"Get dressed," he says.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTDvSISVquz
I get dressed. He pushes me out the door and shoves me out the door. He closes it behind me. I take the chance to run away. I run away from the cultists as they try to catch me. They shout at me to stop, but I keep running. I manage to escape them and run away. I run all the way back home. I'm safe at last.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe5BBNn2Jww
I say, "Mom? I'm home!"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZcl99eEdhI
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152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyb8xS6K7Sq152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQbVahYq2b4
My mother comes running out of the kitchen.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoLkYYAKBCS
"Allie! I can't believe it's you. You're home! Come here, I've got something special for you." I run into my mom's arms and hug her. I've been away for so long.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7gmrYZ8uHN
"I missed you so much, I was worried about you!" she says.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdvd59fUYnz
"I missed you, too." My mother leads me into the kitchen.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyP3XAgIqFf
I say, "Where's dad?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQLqAFQdAdV
"He's in the living room." I go to the living room. My father is watching television.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwuCpV8TDJB
"Dad, I'm home!" I say. My father turns around and looks at me. I run up and hug my dad.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTAoIwLUYMy
"I missed you so much," he says. My mother hands me a glass of water. I sit down at the table.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu6dnPEasDL
My father says, "Where have you been?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ94XMEfL6q2
I say, "I was kidnapped by a cult."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3XIhzZsfmw
"Did they hurt you?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh0OPFNVgf2
"Yeah," I say.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Oqz6QpXFS
"I'm sorry."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn5EiRslAEG
"It's not your fault." I hear a knock on the front door.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHtWmA0pXXR
"Who could that be?" my mother says. My father gets up and walks over to the door. He opens it. Two policemen walk in.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiWJjeBlBn6
"Is Allie in here?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoL5m2VwuNt
My dad says, "Yes, why?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSaZFAXCGKg
"We have some questions for her regarding the kidnapping of a young girl earlier this week," one of the policemen says. "Is she willing to answer some questions?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLjUva04Vh4
"Of course she is." I walk towards the cops.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUoYUZMGfBf
"Do you have any weapons on you?" one of the cops asks.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7HLvgUvbiz
"No." I respond,152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡefrWYFsUzQ
"Can we come in?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFmMejFRXfu
"Sure," I say. The cops follow me into the kitchen. They walk past my dad and sit down at the table. They motion for me to sit down, too.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzhgG8Kp6U5
"Okay, why were you kidnapped?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjyTnX8JNL6
I say, "I don't know."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWuGdoK6j93
"We know that the man you encountered on the road called you by name. Did he tell you his name?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCYxIvzmGmX
"No." I say,152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQKje5Nrk56
"Are you sure?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtZsbdjzcp1
"Yes."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCZbOKCxwtM
I say, "He referred to himself as 'Father'.''152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVZ0nWZnJJz
"Did he give you any food or water?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVkBOxgveUd
"No." I respond.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ93WD3Mci4s
"Did he give you any kind of drugs?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5bhSm8nlKr
"No."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcN9Mkc2DDj
"What did he do to you?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg9xCcpjkkH
I say, "He... he sexually assaulted me."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ124DjYXndX
"Did you fight him?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4RTTFecufA
"I tried."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrAkILPMcml
"What happened?" I pause, trying to think of an answer.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNEzh03Q4vX
"I think I blacked out."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ01f4U0XJCp
"I see."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ruHYWmicv
I say, "He severely beat me numerous times.."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCv8MQHojyR
"And how long were you with him?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiaUMSA4WGI
"I think about ten hours."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmPz7koM2wG
"And you only just managed to escape?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD79nl5qBMA
"Yeah."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfvrE3MF77H
"Do you know where you were?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeeUxqNuo1d
I say "No."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaZYlFfo0J8
"What is the last thing you remember?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0L72aBPkZc
"I remember walking down the road."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsEZdtGsivn
"And then?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZJ7ivmAPPA
"I don't remember."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpL3bkBmlci
"Do you know how you got away?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9uNij8Ahjt
I say, "I just ran,"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkM5uclcAqH
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened, from the beginning."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRlYtUM6nRc
I explain what happened to me, starting with the encounter on the road, ending with running away from the cultists.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaHbyV2wMnS
I say, "So that's how it all happened."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxsAsJQAsFH
"What do you mean?" one of the cops asks. "I say you blacked out, and then you woke up and ran away. So did he drug you or something?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk3D8UVACEU
"I don't know." Suddenly I hear gunshots outside the house.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3PkNmEe166
"What was that?" one of the cops asks,152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHOSC6wXqhF
"Stay here, we're going to check it out." my dad says, and heads outside. I run outside with my dad. He tells me to hide behind a bush.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmXYHIXdMeV
"Go hide over there," my father points to a bush about thirty feet from the house.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLOFGlxTnY2
I hide behind the bush and watch the house.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWC2nfhrVP9
I see a man who I recognize as the person who kidnapped me.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOOjbumyVzh
He has a gun and is shooting at my dad. I watch with tears in my eyes as my dad falls to the ground.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpUp5EP5Gs4
"You fucking son of a bitch!" I yell as I charge at my kidnapper. I push him down, and beat him repeatedly in the head with my fist. I then take his gun and shoot him in the head with it.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD2hJj9Akhw
I drop to my knees over his body and sob.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEIQq6LQ6dP
After a few minutes the police officers arrive at the house. They rush towards me and place handcuffs on me.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgwIgJfnucm
I say, "He was my kidnapper! Please, trust me!"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ylxrWPKDN
"We'll take care of everything, don't worry." one of the officers says,152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSw2gnj1V3V
"I'm sorry, but we need to take you with us, it's for your own safety." I'm thrown in the back of the cop car.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ67oQyTrnVT
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I try to open the door to get out, but the cops slam it shut. I try to bang on the window, but no one seems to notice me, except my mom, standing on the front porch looking at me with tears in her eyes.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn71dTx4Q3r
I sob in the back of the cop car. I am being taken to the police station, and I don't know what to expect.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp059lhXKGA
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152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6f9kQubUXUAt the police station, I am strip searched and placed in a cell.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOpqASWitnq
I say, "Please, the man I killed was the one who kidnapped me and murdered my father!"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡssIWirsbVW
"Calm down, we'll get you a lawyer and he'll take care of everything."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBpaH9Z8tF3
"But I didn't do anything wrong!" I collapse on the cell floor and start crying.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡppz1DC73LR
"I'm sorry, we'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyfqfzXoCGa
I don't really know how much time passes, but I am released from the cell after some time.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCcFd89FQ8U
"We'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge, I promise." I am taken to a different cell and left alone. I sob and cry for what seems like hours. I cry about what I did, cry about being in prison, cry about being a murderer. Eventually, I stop crying and just sit there on the bed, surrounded by concrete walls. I fall asleep on the jail bed.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuQ8Kd3KMRP
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I am woken up by a man in a suit.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN2auTjtak9
"Get up." he says,152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3M5ciXVJ8Y
"Why am I here?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiUFOc074cC
"Because you murdered a man, and you tried to murder another."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAjPSdU5SlT
I say, "He fucking kidnapped me for Christ's sake!"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0lOqXTodzT
"Shut the fuck up." He says, "Get dressed. We're getting you a lawyer."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK1zbctsrFP
I am taken to a holding area, a small room with a table in it. A man sits behind the desk.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyNos3r1SOl
I sit down.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgOpHCLA5jt
"Okay, how can I help you?" he asks.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPOpy88lECJ
"I was kidnapped and assaulted, and I killed someone while trying to escape."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfVcGRa7r5D
"I see. Do you have a lawyer?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzvjjrKwYHf
I say, "No."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLlJiLNW3X0
"I see. Would you like one appointed to you?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqI0bSVxr5J
I respond, "Yes."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQGtonnBi5O
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone. I'll have them call you. A lawyer will be there in a moment." A few moments later, a middle aged woman wearing a dress walks in. I look up.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcLmCqpESam
"Hello, Miss, do you need a lawyer?" the woman asks.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBV0hcNoCkq
"Yes."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡquUzoVUzmm
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone for you, let's just wait a moment."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhF0AXnENIa
I sit down, and wait a few minutes. Then, a man in a suit walks in,152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0yuULAd1jS
I say, "Hi."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAlnVVzf4Mu
The man looks at me, and then walks up to the woman.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVSNaHn5xLL
"Yes, Judge?" the woman asks.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdx2Ce7HFM8
"Get me a lawyer for this 15 year old girl." the man says.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoK0BqtDRSM
"Right away," says the woman.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiDTDsoBwIT
She turns to me, "Okay, we'll get you a lawyer. He should be here in a moment. He'll explain everything to you, and he'll help you with your story. You just wait here."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKzMYluGEOM
I say, "Okay."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOmZHye6jvP
A few moments later, a man walks in. He says,152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQpNUD4g8c2
"Hello. I'm your lawyer. Now, you can wait here, or you can come with me." I follow the man.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeFZd0jhVap
I am led down a set of stairs, and into a basement. There, I see a large table. I sit at one of the chairs.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCq6AakQ3Dx
The man walks into the room, and says, "Okay, why did you murder a man?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEg69dwgTnp
"He kidnapped me."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNPa9JKuQXE
"Okay, why did you try to murder another?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0hMWaXlXqk
I say, "He tried to stab me."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdHxMrAlNVB
"Who was he?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNoXukPHb2K
"I don't know."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd9Kp4SCevX
"Where did you get the knife?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4WmD0JCACo
"He had it in his pocket."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeuz41kdFLQ
"Did he threaten you in any way?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlSvSmhpGDE
I say "Yes. He frequently beat me and sexually assaulted me."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRoJPVFioxV
"Okay, now, that's a new one. Anything else?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVZMqIrkpop
"No."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡldFj5uMcdp
"You sure? Think hard."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbm5F7FNCxU
I think for a few moments, trying to remember anything else the man said or did.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzTnLhAlS8P
I say, "He killed my father."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ51mahG6zyR
"What?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡscDhQFKoCn
I say, "When I ran away and made it back home, the man tracked where I ran to and shot my father."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBdyZgX6FmM
"Your father? I'm very sorry to hear that. You know, I don't think that you're a murderer. I think that you were kidnapped and forced to do what you did." I try to hold back tears. "I'm going to get you a doctor to examine you. I think you might be experiencing some emotional trauma and it's affecting you. Would you like to see a doctor?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcRjVV3jyjW
"Y-yes.." I say shakily.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVHqo9jNDC2
The man nods, and a man in a suit walks into the room.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlXXYt1L9aQ
"Ah, there you are." he says, "I have Doctor Dershian here. He wants to examine you."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx5BuanE4D1
I say, "Okay.."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN5ZKw9ZxAT
The man in the suit leaves the room, and another man enters the room. He is wearing a lab coat.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVjMkoBN3YF
He says, "Hello. Why don't you come with me?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeuvqN5cfQg
I follow him.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbUi2H5smuz
He leads me up the stairs, and into a room. He says,152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpS8F6DrgGl
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpTjuhF87bw
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I say, "A-a man kidnapped me and abused and sexually assaulted m-me..."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡICMGFDojGL
"Alright. Take a seat."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV0GoFfVehy
The man is Doctor Dershian. He asks me a few questions about the events leading up to the murder, and about my emotional state now.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf6voXgqyN4
I say, "More than a few times the man made me think about killing myself.."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwNVwR7QPfP
"Really? You tried to kill yourself?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7YzOLLUKdT
"Yes.."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8bUz2DlsYj
"I see. Do you feel suicidal now?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1owqef104Z
I say, "Not really. I'm just really emotionally shattered."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx8pMRkTCJD
"Okay, I'll get someone to take you to a counselor. You just wait here," Doctor Dershian says, and walks out of the room.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEkMwYFbtQt
I feel like the whole situation is about to make me explode.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3mzKDZlTha
A few minutes later, Doctor Dershian returns.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK4NTklJrlX
I say, "D-doctor.. I-I feel suicidal right n-now..."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡozEUQ4EqsJ
"Suicidal?" Doctor Dershian asks, "What makes you say that?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ1Q5TCUvw6
I say, "The situation is just too much for me to handle."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmNVEeppqsz
"I see. Would you like to go to a counselor?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi7rPqf1E1h
"Y-yes, please." Doctor Dershian is about to say something, but is interrupted by the door opening. I look up. In walks a man in a white, long, lab coat. He looks very serious. He says,152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdeMYu3Ad9P
"I'm Doctor Kessel. I'm here to evaluate you." I try to stand up but collapse to the floor. Doctor Kessel immediately calls for a nurse. The nurse walks in, and says,152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtIgXlGWrLg
"What is it?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg9DtjGyT9V
Doctor Kessel says,152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHYJNHFPZVR
"This patient is suicidal." I lie on the floor sobbing.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLWDvA1EPHg
A few minutes later, a nurse walks back into the room and helps me to my feet. She holds my hand and helps me to a chair. I sit down, and try to stop crying.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtTHrtk7Xp4
I say, "Why me??? Why does this all have to happen to ME??" The nurse looks at me with sympathy, and says,152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8SogerQxaW
"I'm sorry, but that's part of the evaluation. We need to find out why you're suicidal. We want to help you."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmKxIgtlpQg
I say, "Why did I have to get kidnapped? Why was I the one to be abused? Why did I have to become a murderer? WHY ME??"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdbSCXPzWg3
The nurse shakes her head, and says,152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv2UGzf39GR
"I'm sorry. We'll talk about this after we finish the evaluation. Right now, we need to do some tests." I try to not cry.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtwaaX0Kl4H
I feel so helpless. I feel so out of control, and I can't do anything to change this. I go over to a table, and the nurse helps me remove my clothes. I feel like I'm slowly dying inside. I don't even care.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡme127NFInn
The nurse helps me into a gown, and I lie down on the examination table. She cleans and checks my inner and outer thighs, my genitalia, and my breasts. I try to calm down and breathe normally. The nurse says,152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqSX3fJLLy9
"I need to do a blood draw, and a urine sample. I need your help with this." I comply, and the nurse takes my blood. At this point, I don't even feel the pain. I just want to die.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoLG85KE0aM
After a few minutes, the nurse comes back and says,152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu04DBdBaa6
"Okay, come with me." I get up and follow the nurse into a different room. I try to maintain my composure. The nurse says, "I need to check your blood pressure. I need you to lay down on the table and get on all fours." I lay down and get on all fours. Suddenly, I start having horrific flashbacks about the kidnapping. My heart rate goes up.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd2z2rYTHmi
The nurse says, "Okay, your BP is a little high. I need to do an ultrasound to check your kidneys, and a CAT scan to check your brain." I start to shake and cry. I feel like the world is weighing down on me. I want to give up. The nurse tries to console me, and she says,152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRpkrOa675e
"Everything is going to be okay. You'll see your family soon." I slowly calm down. I start to feel a little more at ease. I breathe deeply and start to fall asleep on the table.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLzzcJZpWZZ
A few minutes later, I wake up. The nurse is there, and she is smiling at me.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ouWfCumX9
I say "Where am I?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgRG4bTeseF
"You're in a hospital room. We moved you to a private room because you were so hysterical and it was so crowded. You were also vomiting blood. It's going to be okay."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuSxXRbfhB5
I say, "Am I diagnosed with insanity?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzeFHaeu2pM
The nurse smiles sadly, "No, but they're still determining that. It's going to be a few days before they give you a diagnosis. In the meantime, you'll be monitored, and you can have visitors."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4GiYPka22b
I say, "I want to see my mom..."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIr9fgAMpKZ
The nurse interrupts me and says,152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYWl9eTud3u
"I'm sorry, but I need to do some tests. I'm going to be back to let you know when you can have visitors."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRK10WEMrBP
"O-okay.." I say as I feel the tears welling up again. The nurse leaves the room, and I cry for a few minutes. I feel so helpless. I can't do anything to help myself.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtfrRYyDcV7
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152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeT3nAljtiTA few hours later, my mom comes to visit.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVarhIh5DeL
"M-mom.."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHDtsvn4MXG
My mom walks into the room, and gives me a big hug.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEZL8huzUuk
"I'm so glad to see you, baby! I've been so worried."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡORcqgPxBiZ
I say, "I feel like I'm going crazy mom. Why did life have to do this to me?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWmy5CftrL7
"I know honey. I've been thinking the same thing. They said they're going to keep you here for a few more days, and they're going to keep an eye on you."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqZiiJN5H2U
"I-I love you mom," I say as I start crying.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA7pQwWNQH7
"I love you too, sweetie. I want to be there with you. I want to do something to make you feel better. Do you think you could pray with me?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvDFZTUbEKq
"Yes.." I say quietly.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNadc8bgB83
I say a prayer with my mom, and I feel calm and at ease.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlaJRxpEy1o
After we pray, my mom asks if I want to talk about what happened.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqr6V5bfd3c
I say, "If I start talking about that, I'm going to start sobbing and I won't be able to control myself.."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa57bDyNBXs
"I know honey, but you need to get it out. Get everything out. Don't hold anything in. It's eating at you, and it's making you sick."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuIc3w4I5ty
I say, "Why did that man kidnap me?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOLUoZ7JVFR
"I don't know honey. We'll find out soon. I'll talk to the doctor when he comes in, and I'll find out what's going on. I promise."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ67yVTO4ldt
I say, "Once this is all resolved, are the cult members gonna be thrown in prison?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg7FqNF1IZr
"I don't know, honey. I hope so. I don't think there's a jury that would convict them. I'll do what I can to make sure that happens."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWq8R59B044
I say, "Okay.."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAHpOPOigqo
My mom spends the rest of my visit in the hospital room, and we don't say another word to each other. After my visit is over, I spend a couple of hours in the empty hospital room. I start crying again. I feel so helpless, and I can't do anything to help myself. I don't know when I will get another visit, or if I'll ever get out of this hospital. I cry myself to sleep. I wake up, wishing this was all just a bad dream. I hope that when I get out of the hospital, everything will be back to normal, and I'll just live my life with no problems. The nurse walks into the hospital room.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0tb4yzgPrH
"I'm so sorry to wake you, but I need to speak with you. It's very important."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmYPKlCoYhS
I wipe the tears off my face.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxhmTeHZMDx
I say, "What is it? What's wrong?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn10FuhO1uW
"Your tests came back, and you tested positive for.."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOPbCqcDaLa
I say, "What? What did I test positive for?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCHzgpXKpLz
"I'm so, so sorry. I wish I could tell you. I really do. You tested positive for.."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1qiHMWFv8p
I say, "Tell me!"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOK2XVozrSx
"A sexually transmitted disease. I'm so, so sorry, dear."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWdlxl9nMji
My heart drops.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmdeQa3Fznq
I feel so ashamed. I cry myself to sleep again.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOtK6L10T4D
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152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn62cVpEN1SIn the morning, I get my visitors.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgbw2inoMcz
My sister, Charlotte, visits me. She asks me what's wrong. I can't even answer her. I just cry. I feel so ashamed of myself. Charlotte starts to leave the room.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc5BeCfYwZF
I say, "Wait!" She stops.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRwtNrlbnBj
"What is it?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAlN4P8sT5v
I say, "I need a hug.." Charlotte wraps her arms around me, and I cry.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj8rCgTNGFT
I eventually gather the strength to tell my sister what the doctor said.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkYW66iStLN
I say, "The doctor said I have a.. Std..."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU7An5B2Lbg
"I know, sis. I'm so, so sorry."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbgNf5zzZCC
I cry myself to sleep.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg4OczOHj09
The next day, I get another visit from my mom.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeqjvaohw8N
"How are you doing, honey?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3PD6PNUCUY
I say, "Horrible.."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlZXmTW4VuF
She walks over and sits next to me on the bed.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTJmYd5XJOQ
"I heard about you testing positive for a sexually transmitted disease. I'm so sorry."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEb87E9fJFG
I say, "I'm so ashamed..."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeb4avghZlc
"It's not your fault, honey."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKcEgFPpmu2
I start crying again.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJGo03sMnY2
"I'll get you some tissues, honey. You can cry on them. Cry your heart out."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrmLDX46GLn
I cry myself to sleep in my mother's arms. I wake up the next morning. I'm not as tired as I was yesterday. Maybe the doctor gave me some new medication, or maybe I'm just getting used to being here. I don't feel any emotions. I feel empty and dead inside. I don't care about anything. I don't feel any guilt or shame.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwZPeVKnGSk
Maybe I'm dead after all.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtrPgwjB3Os
Maybe this is what it feels like to be nothing. I get a visit from my lawyer.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGK4gwZyYUX
"I heard the test results, and I'm here to ask you if you would like to pursue this case. You tested positive for a sexually transmitted disease, so the chances of us winning are pretty slim."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe3GvHOgmWp
"I don't even know anymore," I say as I shed a tear.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJDczl4yD05
"I understand. If you don't want to pursue this case, then I'll get someone who will."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡde8m7lJYK7
I say, "I still want to win this."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUY2r6zd7Ya
"Well, it's up to you, then. I'll go get our legal team, and we can get started."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm58PbS8kOx
I spend the next few weeks resting in my hospital room. I don't have any visitors. I have forgotten what life is like outside the hospital. I don't even want to leave my hospital room. I spend my days watching reruns of Friends and crying. One day the nurse comes into the room and says, "I've got good news."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgfOv07dz8Z
"Really?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgEtFMvOylA
"Yeah, your doctor says you can go home today."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXq0BooosSr
I start crying, and I can't stop.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmh7YGZyMpE
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I spend my time at home resting. I don't do anything. One day I decide to walk outside.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGK2BywqUc5
I get out my patio door, and I don't turn around and go back inside. I don't know why, but I just have this urge to walk outside.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUr9u6NmWbw
I stand in the middle of my lawn.The smell of fresh air makes me emotional. I start crying happy tears. I walk over to my flower bed and pick a few flowers to smell. I smell them, and then throw them in the air and watch them float away. They are so pretty, and they smell so good.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡppsm2JaO2Y
My mom opens the front door and says, "What are you doing?" I turn around to see her standing there.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt4x74aT2BG
"I wanted to see the flowers."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRSyQbWm7b6
"Why are you out of your room?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0uGXSkR9fo
"I don't know. I just felt like walking outside."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5bV5lYd67J
I say, "I've been cooped up in a room for way too long."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3CNmwtceMY
"Yeah, I know what you mean," my mom says. She picks me up and gives me a big hug.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUPxqj64FMb
"Thank you for being you."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Dsyl49qrc
"You don't have to thank me." I see the next-door neighbor's son walk out to get the mail. I look at him fascinated. He has no fear. He doesn't know what it's like to be scared. He doesn't know what it feels like to live in a nightmare.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLgtt6O0wFq
I make a decision.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuZzevWiIeF
I walk up to the neighbor's boy and say, "Hi!"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ39LtwkCgK
"What's your name?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUpkU63yY78
"Allisa," I say, smiling.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL5lSMCwDs4
"I'm Carter. What are you doing out of your room?"152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmG3sisis8A
I say, "I just wanted to get some fresh air."152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEoELk3NxN9
"Yeah, I know what you mean. I had this urge to walk outside too." He laughs.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnVNRpHsTxU
I say, "Well I gotta go back inside.." I go back inside and go to bed. I don't know why I feel so empty. I want to fill this void. I want to find something to fill all of this space.152Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxx91eaSERv
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