You stare out the window at the world outside, the lush green trees, the flowers beginning to bloom for spring, and the grass you have not touched for so long. The cult members walk through the mountain hideaway they call home, dressed in their long yellow robes and living inside small cottages. They all look so happy, and you wonder if any of them even know about you. You've been here for several weeks, living as a pet for their leader whom they call Father, and not once have you been happy during that time. You've mostly just been scared and homesick.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDfHTKgXe2D
Your life as a pet is very degrading. You aren't allowed on furniture, you're not allowed to speak unless spoken to, and you're not allowed to do anything without the permission of Father, whom you are forced to address as Master. You aren't even called by your name. Instead, you are simply called Pet. Right now you're sitting on the ground inside Father's study, which is in a building known as the Community Center, staring out of the window.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ08NvKUuM3g
The study is large and furnished with a desk and chair, some bookshelves with many old books, and that's about it. The door to the room creaks open and Father steps inside, his golden hair and eyes sparking in the sunlight. He walks over to his desk and sees you staring out the window.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqkE5kN1Eep
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He sighs and sits down in his chair. "What is it, child?" he asks, with a tone that makes me feel like he is disappointed in me. "Why are you looking out the window?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGeOoZmZuGT
"I just want to go home," I say.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkNS0S0AUyR
Father sighs again. "Child, I know you miss your home, but we're not going anywhere for a while." He sits back in his chair. I start to cry, and Father stares at me.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIWbAxKTGG4
"Why are you crying?" he asks, with a small amount of anger in his voice. I cry even harder.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD4cXORi1y4
Father sighs.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFcx5IzqcRT
I say "I don't want to stay here!"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1PxUTw7hrl
Father gets up from his chair and walks over to me and kneels down in front of me. I look at the ground and Father grabs my chin and forces me to look at him. I look into his eyes. His eyes are cold, like stone. He stares at me with no emotion whatsoever.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaIKK4YxBLG
There's no compassion, no sympathy. I'm just a thing to be used. He will use me for his own benefit, and then he will get rid of me. I need to get out of here. I stand up quickly and bolt for the door.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4HeZo4y1en
"Stop!" he shouts, but I already hear his footsteps behind me. I open the door and run out. I run past the cult members, who only stare at me in awe, some whispering among themselves. I run until I come to a large oak tree. I climb the tree, which is only a few feet away from the ground. I find a branch that I think is strong enough to hold me, and climb up.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAf5a8WZud9
I can hear Father's footsteps getting closer. I hide myself in the branches of the tree.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhRjV0bNzW2
Father comes to the tree, his footsteps getting closer and closer to the tree. He stops, staring at the tree.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZYU1Jm5305
"Pet, come down from the tree."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL1ZkMbdA5i
I stay silent.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFOituvY8U5
"Pet, I know you're in there. Come down from the tree right now or else I won't only punish you, I'll make your siblings suffer too. Do you want that to happen?" I come down from the tree and land on the ground with a thud. Father grabs me, and I struggle against his grip, but I can't escape.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcdUajc3G0n
"Come with me, child." I am dragged along by Father.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtVkiaqXwdV
I struggle as I walk with him, but I can't get away. We walk for what seems like forever, and then we finally come to a large, circular room. I look around the room. The room is circular, with no windows, and only two doors. One door is at the very center of the room, while the other is at the very edge.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuJaAY5xcGY
I struggle against Father, who only laughs at me. I struggle against him for what seems like an eternity, but he keeps a firm grip on me, and I can't get away. I sigh and decide it's best to just give up.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYLtNzOWesD
Father grabs my chin, and I look at him.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuGexEqqJf6
"Don't make me have to punish you, child."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcCBZOnXgJW
I say, "What are you going to do to me?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD9yXBaOrIQ
Father smiles. "I'm going to punish you in a way that you'll enjoy." He releases me. I drop to the ground, exhausted..127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz59zlPwspc
I say, "Please don't hurt me."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK8GycU8SpM
Father laughs. "I'm not going to hurt you, child. I'm going to make you scream. I'm going to make you wish you were dead."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg40n1jvwl4
I say, "Please don't!"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSOw1361KmX
Father laughs. "Don't worry, I won't kill you. But I will make you wish you were dead, child."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5XRcvTCKuK
I say, "What does that mean?" Father laughs. He picks me up and throws me on the bed.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHyEpdZmG2o
"You'll find out soon enough, child."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqm05Y0f9Gi
Then he leaves the room, closing the door behind him. I wait.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ029pztWI8X
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It's the last day of the school year. Finally... I've been waiting for summer vacation since the first day of the school year. I'm almost halfway between the school and my house, feeling happier than ever. Suddenly... darkness. I would have never thought that the last day of my sophomore year would be the last normal day of my life..127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0yJK84Ry9p
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I wait for what seems like forever, but he eventually comes back. He sits on the chair by the door. He looks at me.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNDBc07I9Al
"Are you ready, child?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBvprsCSJJV
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I nod and say, "Y-yes."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1b1nP84ygv
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"Good. Here's what's going to happen. I'm going to bind your hands together. Then I'm going to blindfold you. Then, I'm going to have you stand in the middle of the circle."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIggiubHCVw
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I say, "Okay.."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJi6w4zAbzN
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I stand there, and Father ties my hands together, then blindfolds me. Father takes out the blindfold and places it over my eyes. I feel his hands on my shoulders, and start to feel uncomfortable.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhHgciZBJmn
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I hear him say, "Bend your knees and keep your eyes forward." I do as I'm told.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVfOVccbpO4
He says "Now, walk forward, slowly."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBnJfUCoYso
I feel his hands on my lower back and begin walking. I walk forward, and my feet move, taking me forward. My legs continue walking, taking me further and further away from Father. My heart is pounding in my ears. Then, I reach the center of the circle.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUN0B0EVkze
Father says "Good. Stay there."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVgUg1qdhzM
I feel his hands on my shoulders. I hear him say, "Don't look back, child. It'll make things much worse." I stay there. Then, I hear Father's footsteps. I hear his footsteps stop. I stand perfectly still. Father says, "Well, well, well. Look at you." I wonder what's going on. I don't move, even though I can't see. I wait. I stand perfectly still and wait. I hear his footsteps walking toward me. I wait.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkBu2PBQwoQ
I stand perfectly still. His footsteps stop. His hands grab my shoulders, and I tense up. His hands push me down. I fall to the ground, and my head smacks into the cold, hard ground. I wince. I lie there, waiting. I wait for a long time, but then I hear his footsteps. They get louder... closer. My heart rate goes up. I wait. I tense up. I stay still. His footsteps stop.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9MKMzlLCs6
He must be right next to me. I hold my breath. I wait. I stay still.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ5qSiyF8aG
His hands touch my face. I tense up even more. His hands slide down my body, and my knees get weak. He unbuttons my blouse. His hands slide up my bra. I want to scream. He unzips my pants. His hands slide down my panties. I scream,"Stop!"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKqAkZO0QNt
"Please!" I whisper.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaxszef7rCc
He pulls down my underwear, and he takes his time. His fingers slide inside of me.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbgS7xLj0od
I scream loudly.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhAsyTrffS9
My scream echoes throughout the room.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeHMi0dbApS
"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" he shouts.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡREQxcRTdu2
His fingers slide faster. I scream louder.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNte4QgIyt1
"I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU!" he shouts. I try not to moan.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjB9LoJGhus
My body shakes. My legs shake. I can't control it. My body gives in to the pleasure. I moan and shake--my body trembles. My moans get louder and louder.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgeS8XtAtXf
I say "P-please s-stop.."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡynyEftmJU2
He stops for a moment, before sliding his fingers inside of me again. I stay still, and soon, I begin to come down from my orgasm. I lie there, panting. My hands are tied tightly together. I start sobbing.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡemBLjilPHO
He pulls his fingers out of me. I wince and groan. I'm sore from the orgasm. I lie there, sobbing. I feel him sit down next to me. He unties my hands. I cry harder.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHTSnsVJcan
He pulls the blindfold off of me, and I see that there are several men standing around, staring at me. I try to cover myself, but one of the men pulls the blanket off of me.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpW634Msu4T
"What's the matter, huh?" one of the men says.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpEkmX9EFTi
"Look at her," another says,127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJqTLXYM5E6
I say "Please leave me alone."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG54AfChPee
"Let's see if she's a virgin," another says.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpOeKfOb39f
"I'm a virgin," I say, trying to cover myself.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWXXbuyefFg
"We'll see. Let's see."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv74yM3WThv
I say "No no no.." They laugh.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡifiKtAQBQj
"Look at her. She's a dirty little slut," one of them says.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ6Ti8HOgRk
"Let's see if she's a filthy little cocksucker," another says. I say "Please leave me alone!" They laugh. They grab me. They forcefully violate me. I start sobbing. I'm crying, and I can't stop. My tears are falling down my face.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhDyf9jW2Az
They untie me.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMl5s1dzGos
I lie there, naked and sobbing. I'm sore, and my butt is sore. I keep crying harder. After a while, I hear a voice.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC2TnTgspoE
"Ah... you're up," Father says.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCrA2jBuqac
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"Huh?" I say, confused. I slowly get up.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYtDSuIbzEp
"Where were you?" he asks,127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYRLGh7FSWO
I say, "T-they were hurting me...."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHFUHX0sYEa
"I know. We were worried about you. We thought you might be a virgin. You were."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9wtsugLrMu
Father smiles.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSw1bVg8r64
"Get dressed. We have work to do," he says.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG0GwULyKwh
I say, "I can't handle this anymore. I can't stay here any longer. This is too much."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ54uhLq6ZQn
"I know," Father says. "But you have to. You're my favorite. You can't run away."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWFIyLaArNM
"I can't stand it anymore," I say, trying to get up.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ56Sc87Hioc
I say, "I don't want to be abused anymore."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA8KhEqgLYx
"I know. But you need to do this. It's for the good of the cult."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb6deAGU8K4
"I'm leaving," I say, trying to walk away.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAYLZDvzHLS
Father grabs my arm. I struggle.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN9DoLzRZng
"Look, I know you're upset, but you're going to have to get over it. You need to stop struggling. I won't let you leave."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlje7PurmTS
I say, "Please let me go!"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBaIINz06J7
"I'm not letting you go. We need you. I need you. I'm your master, and you're my pet. I own you, and you obey me," Father says. I say, "I will not stay here any longer."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡthbO3MSwAd
"You will," Father says.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSvXD800ROU
"I said I won't!" I say. Father gets angry. He pulls me to my feet. He slaps me hard across the face.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs8RslfMAm0
"You WILL!" I start crying hard. I cry as hard as I can, and Father laughs.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzQCtqce3ik
"I own you," he says, "You obey me."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxMXAYx51sq
I cry and sob hard. I sob for a long time before Father comes up behind me and slaps me hard.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKDG8rBwTvs
"Stop crying," he says.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8FXZWmmSHe
"I can't!"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFqJCaoepd3
Father grabs me and hits me hard across the face again.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB6o4yC7mh4
"Stop it!" I cry.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUkaDCTGFvw
"I said stop it!" he yells,127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNzPXAp8aIP
"I can't," I say.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ33caafhPLZ
I say, "I want to kill myself!!!"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSTfFiBDPhi
"NO!" Father screams.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0T0ikM5Bke
"I'm not going to hit you anymore. I'm not going to hit you anymore. But you need to stop crying. You need to stop being so pathetic." I slowly stop crying. "You're going to stay here with us. You're going to learn. You're going to obey. You're going to be a good member of the cult. And you're going to love it here."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡys8HfxGY4K
I say, "I would rather kill myself than be here."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ92nBp2Aw2p
"NO, you wouldn't," Father says,127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZuMadTvX1V
"I would. I really would."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4PV77pS20c
"If you really loved me you would put me out of my misery," I say with tears in my eyes.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVHp7PvYIzs
"I do love you. I do. I'd never hurt you. I'd never hurt a single one of my children. You have to believe me."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKCpO6xOcsD
I say, "At this point, I have zero trust in you. I'm not going to listen to you. I'm going to leave. I'm going to get help."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMlJ06zMexk
"You're not leaving. You're staying here and you're going to obey."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVWk1lZINwA
I say, "No I'm not!"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡynQGWUfz8t
Father grabs my arm. I shake him off.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEkfaBiUPv2
"You WILL listen to me!" he screams.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7imsZNV0w1
I say "No I won't!!!"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPhU5txAcNc
"You will!"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOA9mefBe2x
"I said NO!!!"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9HX3vLfBww
"I'm going to count to three, and if you don't listen, I'm going to beat you like a dog!"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRvTBOjNY2O
I say, "I'm sorry! I'll obey and be a good girl!"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDpStMz1NuH
"I know you will," Father says.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy2OlWP9Ejy
Father reaches for the whip he keeps behind the door. He cracks it. I flinch, but don't cry.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHD45QI9TdP
He says "One."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLx4ZuKOg32
I say, "I'll do anything.."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdgQpb5mcPH
"Two."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn4CLsdQjcF
"I'll stay here. I'll do anything," I say.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJZfU0beaMa
"Three."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEMkmuRBFcC
I see a gun on the floor. I grab it and put it to my head.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdYit6hkBYK
"No, don't do it," Father says.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJZeNG69X1T
I say, "If you promise to not hurt me anymore, I promise to do anything you want."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdCrKTuia5j
"Fine," Father says. He gets up from the chair and walks over to me. He removes the gun from my head and puts it on the bed. I'm relieved. I put my hands behind my back.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW5ODMp4Spt
I let him tie my hands together. I look at him, and he looks at me.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlZvNMSCEVE
"You're going to be good now, aren't you?" he says,127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlicyJsdPXY
I say "Yes."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYoiizHJKaE
"I don't want you to fail. I need you. I need you to stay here and obey."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRkzBKvK6oT
"Yes," I say.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5uilCQLihN
"Good girl," he says.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNL2uWrZIQv
I say, "Just.. please don't violate my body."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡntGtmYJPh5
"I won't," he says.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVgEHfHHCRS
I stay tied up.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAFlSqK1UyW
"Now," he says,127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrjUDn0C9I1
"Kneel."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUdhuqujIeX
"Please," I say.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvEbaEeEaQQ
I kneel. I do as he says. He steps closer to me, and I feel his breath on my neck.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSXeJE7Uev9
I anticipate that he's going to violate my body.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUF6iGrAgV0
I just know it.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqtZ8d2zIa1
And then, he doesn't. He whispers in my ear.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7NmaKkFsn7
"I have someone coming who will do a better job than me."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiNrb4OPkxv
I stand up, and he turns around. I wonder who he's talking about. I try to block out the image of his penis, but I can't. He walks over to the door and disappears.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlRMAoKH56l
I'm all alone in the room.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBob7qOmrOE
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I hear the door open. I look up.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpqWfI3e1ug
"Hello," a man says.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp97yXcUdng
I recognize him. It's the man who came into my room the first night I was here. I saw him before he abducted me. He walks towards me, and I back up.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTmmxjIAoK5
"Hands behind your back," he says,127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6rOTx8wfNw
I do as he says. I hear the zip ties being undone.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWoItIPAHg0
"On your knees," he says. I get on my knees.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡylDnME9EoB
"Stay there," he says,127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi1uz1LCa5s
I stay on my knees.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSEuWJ33usN
He comes up to me, and I can feel him unbutton my shirt. He removes my shirt and he puts his hand on my stomach. I gasp. I can feel his fingers on my skin. I can feel his breath on my skin. He puts his other hand on my head and he pushes my head toward his penis.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6LSTwJ9TwZ
I say "No no no."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuP1kpIq4is
"Do it," he says.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9SU68xNtiT
I say no. He pushes harder.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡljrxQLJJsp
"Do it!" he says.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFla0aaXU6U
I comply. I hear the zip tie undone.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkRT3oFs96P
He unzips his pants. I watch as he pulls his pants down. I can see his penis, it's about an inch and a half long.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoJc2SicvgS
"Stay there," he says.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMy3nlb2KRT
I stay on my knees.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfPnuYumofF
He steps up to me and shoves his penis in my throat. I gag and try to get away.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU3Cb2CqLAX
"Stop moving."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHNXeePgZ1o
I struggle and gag on his penis. He shoves it in deeper. I try to gulp it down.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGeW6PwNZlq
He pulls it out of my throat.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk3W8X09YpG
"What's wrong?" he says.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3cYPymoo1K
I can't answer. I'm coughing. I cough and gag.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡERbOUkcPWr
"What?" he says,127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9U1C3UxAba
I try to get air. I inhale. I try to get air out.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5u9XpK0a6W
He shoves it back in my throat and I gag on his penis. I cough and vomit. I continue to struggle. He pushes it in even deeper. I have no strength left. My vision goes black. He shoves it out again.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuzxIE7IT6z
"Is this too big for you?" he says.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9HuZehYWL2
I nod.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqneRfzKxSG
"I understand," he says, "If you need to vomit, go ahead. I know how to treat a child who vomited before."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0HV1JXjGqE
I retch. I heave. I vomit again. I finally gain composure.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡicA49Flt1Q
He shoves it back in.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSfQ9Hn8mNl
I decide that vomiting once is enough.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ55eKg65aIu
He shoves it in deeper.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ6Rm7V0QL3
I struggle and fight.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIBLvA5jwAy
"Stop fighting me," he says.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiCu1sWN04t
He cums in my mouth and I spit it out.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZC4m8HexEp
"Get dressed," he says.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV4kGmX9zhb
I get dressed. He pushes me out the door and shoves me out the door. He closes it behind me. I take the chance to run away. I run away from the cultists as they try to catch me. They shout at me to stop, but I keep running. I manage to escape them and run away. I run all the way back home. I'm safe at last.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuBRjaTxegc
I say, "Mom? I'm home!"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXE9fZI7SUk
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My mother comes running out of the kitchen.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUzmA6630cx
"Allie! I can't believe it's you. You're home! Come here, I've got something special for you." I run into my mom's arms and hug her. I've been away for so long.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtfpKLm4JHN
"I missed you so much, I was worried about you!" she says.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1IBdRE4eIb
"I missed you, too." My mother leads me into the kitchen.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1DSQaQdftI
I say, "Where's dad?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuHWKriFM58
"He's in the living room." I go to the living room. My father is watching television.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6giM2irBfn
"Dad, I'm home!" I say. My father turns around and looks at me. I run up and hug my dad.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd9nEbFdyqL
"I missed you so much," he says. My mother hands me a glass of water. I sit down at the table.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfX4F8Fd2VR
My father says, "Where have you been?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNCmRYA9dSK
I say, "I was kidnapped by a cult."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHST3XNQcIm
"Did they hurt you?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Z8SpVFWG7
"Yeah," I say.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR7TWK09E2e
"I'm sorry."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDwXZXJ7goW
"It's not your fault." I hear a knock on the front door.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmocYw1jxxf
"Who could that be?" my mother says. My father gets up and walks over to the door. He opens it. Two policemen walk in.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxU3ezuYuyq
"Is Allie in here?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2mgGqfLxow
My dad says, "Yes, why?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Wt0rdfAUn
"We have some questions for her regarding the kidnapping of a young girl earlier this week," one of the policemen says. "Is she willing to answer some questions?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaBlboIylt2
"Of course she is." I walk towards the cops.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFhVJSv3eoR
"Do you have any weapons on you?" one of the cops asks.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA3HI2enYmq
"No." I respond,127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsn2TbtWnyr
"Can we come in?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Gisbu9Jo2
"Sure," I say. The cops follow me into the kitchen. They walk past my dad and sit down at the table. They motion for me to sit down, too.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW0u9NQwiTc
"Okay, why were you kidnapped?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ28Uhguu2hf
I say, "I don't know."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4QZoBXRqFy
"We know that the man you encountered on the road called you by name. Did he tell you his name?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡITROxrRaKX
"No." I say,127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa3x6FbygPL
"Are you sure?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrZyW83sLJu
"Yes."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcjWApsR3Ed
I say, "He referred to himself as 'Father'.''127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF9DkPb9BBE
"Did he give you any food or water?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvWNG3qcouu
"No." I respond.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEqjhbvPPAB
"Did he give you any kind of drugs?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTLYGNQkFgQ
"No."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWzBNjW7fB2
"What did he do to you?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPTEs3BCQl0
I say, "He... he sexually assaulted me."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo8lOBen4Qh
"Did you fight him?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgEtZkuXoRm
"I tried."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHy4kjz9qyb
"What happened?" I pause, trying to think of an answer.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjkfdS3brhR
"I think I blacked out."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHqEtjgI3Yl
"I see."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1mDHmtiPw0
I say, "He severely beat me numerous times.."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWTXJX2homy
"And how long were you with him?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMndlQxuji6
"I think about ten hours."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcDtCbcYzFS
"And you only just managed to escape?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG6IvSGTTOL
"Yeah."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeubsg0zEHi
"Do you know where you were?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSVYaa2uv1D
I say "No."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsttp93PXhk
"What is the last thing you remember?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4IpbDQMqzF
"I remember walking down the road."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwrXFGQ6Juf
"And then?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGlggLaLgIs
"I don't remember."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6if8l1i8ya
"Do you know how you got away?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsdj0nkrmae
I say, "I just ran,"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBTMrYJoLuZ
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened, from the beginning."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvEseOFanFy
I explain what happened to me, starting with the encounter on the road, ending with running away from the cultists.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrY6Xlpy6lE
I say, "So that's how it all happened."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDB8YN8EDFq
"What do you mean?" one of the cops asks. "I say you blacked out, and then you woke up and ran away. So did he drug you or something?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRY9mGiv6kx
"I don't know." Suddenly I hear gunshots outside the house.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbB6pjzwE4W
"What was that?" one of the cops asks,127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC9IpVWQZkk
"Stay here, we're going to check it out." my dad says, and heads outside. I run outside with my dad. He tells me to hide behind a bush.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ57i1uUbjtQ
"Go hide over there," my father points to a bush about thirty feet from the house.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXwhJkDMunj
I hide behind the bush and watch the house.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhyMBynPam0
I see a man who I recognize as the person who kidnapped me.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlV9nLG4Tql
He has a gun and is shooting at my dad. I watch with tears in my eyes as my dad falls to the ground.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCWr3VGaL5m
"You fucking son of a bitch!" I yell as I charge at my kidnapper. I push him down, and beat him repeatedly in the head with my fist. I then take his gun and shoot him in the head with it.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZfyFZ8L9jY
I drop to my knees over his body and sob.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9UlFYYlsW0
After a few minutes the police officers arrive at the house. They rush towards me and place handcuffs on me.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnGjjh6bi9h
I say, "He was my kidnapper! Please, trust me!"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRspRmHFFIX
"We'll take care of everything, don't worry." one of the officers says,127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbySbvORXbx
"I'm sorry, but we need to take you with us, it's for your own safety." I'm thrown in the back of the cop car.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGN8GO7s7h5
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I try to open the door to get out, but the cops slam it shut. I try to bang on the window, but no one seems to notice me, except my mom, standing on the front porch looking at me with tears in her eyes.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkAg6FmBlWw
I sob in the back of the cop car. I am being taken to the police station, and I don't know what to expect.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3oeujUJYYn
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At the police station, I am strip searched and placed in a cell.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsLkzIp0cYr
I say, "Please, the man I killed was the one who kidnapped me and murdered my father!"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUHuQikK0Kx
"Calm down, we'll get you a lawyer and he'll take care of everything."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoacuAEjQ8i
"But I didn't do anything wrong!" I collapse on the cell floor and start crying.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLiGJYcViR0
"I'm sorry, we'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEqpDwPEpv5
I don't really know how much time passes, but I am released from the cell after some time.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1i3NquAyWu
"We'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge, I promise." I am taken to a different cell and left alone. I sob and cry for what seems like hours. I cry about what I did, cry about being in prison, cry about being a murderer. Eventually, I stop crying and just sit there on the bed, surrounded by concrete walls. I fall asleep on the jail bed.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZpeZHZ2vEd
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I am woken up by a man in a suit.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmnhaoR07OS
"Get up." he says,127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfU5fhw2MaI
"Why am I here?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo79nAlC9UM
"Because you murdered a man, and you tried to murder another."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbtHim5xE1u
I say, "He fucking kidnapped me for Christ's sake!"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIKsfv54rK9
"Shut the fuck up." He says, "Get dressed. We're getting you a lawyer."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq0KKwxAHeD
I am taken to a holding area, a small room with a table in it. A man sits behind the desk.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz291Vz88Qe
I sit down.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGqk0OHgosT
"Okay, how can I help you?" he asks.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡepv9NF0WLG
"I was kidnapped and assaulted, and I killed someone while trying to escape."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn9piOfs4VE
"I see. Do you have a lawyer?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBm64ZRc8lM
I say, "No."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWye2W3u8SY
"I see. Would you like one appointed to you?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKp078IqtIq
I respond, "Yes."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvjuwh0IvtJ
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone. I'll have them call you. A lawyer will be there in a moment." A few moments later, a middle aged woman wearing a dress walks in. I look up.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNb4Vt173wq
"Hello, Miss, do you need a lawyer?" the woman asks.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxXELMA0Fj5
"Yes."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrusYALmcBx
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone for you, let's just wait a moment."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuG59UlT0Y7
I sit down, and wait a few minutes. Then, a man in a suit walks in,127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlPKee7xe5e
I say, "Hi."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZKP9yZnIlb
The man looks at me, and then walks up to the woman.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡku7D1PmR3N
"Yes, Judge?" the woman asks.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2CVDJ1Vi66
"Get me a lawyer for this 15 year old girl." the man says.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPtHjz2JQEZ
"Right away," says the woman.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpOjajV8bv7
She turns to me, "Okay, we'll get you a lawyer. He should be here in a moment. He'll explain everything to you, and he'll help you with your story. You just wait here."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSv7tUZ0rhx
I say, "Okay."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTgAkB4om8c
A few moments later, a man walks in. He says,127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK8j0pFFRWI
"Hello. I'm your lawyer. Now, you can wait here, or you can come with me." I follow the man.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQT7VlVDS2y
I am led down a set of stairs, and into a basement. There, I see a large table. I sit at one of the chairs.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxJDFW0ImY1
The man walks into the room, and says, "Okay, why did you murder a man?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTELM6bck2Q
"He kidnapped me."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6W62pWsjJf
"Okay, why did you try to murder another?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxC3S0tpDEK
I say, "He tried to stab me."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMpUxLxOLAw
"Who was he?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9iH2pCUu2Y
"I don't know."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmyZVRwnZrU
"Where did you get the knife?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBhQOQf2ZBI
"He had it in his pocket."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH4dElU4qhM
"Did he threaten you in any way?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqJWjbLxhLl
I say "Yes. He frequently beat me and sexually assaulted me."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpOcBQrgd5t
"Okay, now, that's a new one. Anything else?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1b6JF2yIZ5
"No."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡefFMKUgzGv
"You sure? Think hard."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXDjICxXpMl
I think for a few moments, trying to remember anything else the man said or did.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4YbaZ6UBzh
I say, "He killed my father."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxPcCVfdxdA
"What?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy1mocb0Ggj
I say, "When I ran away and made it back home, the man tracked where I ran to and shot my father."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9NnPsMYtQR
"Your father? I'm very sorry to hear that. You know, I don't think that you're a murderer. I think that you were kidnapped and forced to do what you did." I try to hold back tears. "I'm going to get you a doctor to examine you. I think you might be experiencing some emotional trauma and it's affecting you. Would you like to see a doctor?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHdgAxLuBm7
"Y-yes.." I say shakily.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKdH7mdDSPG
The man nods, and a man in a suit walks into the room.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn9qdQpOqhl
"Ah, there you are." he says, "I have Doctor Dershian here. He wants to examine you."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8IXDB6VF5R
I say, "Okay.."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡolPg0y5X7E
The man in the suit leaves the room, and another man enters the room. He is wearing a lab coat.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA2CW52fvNA
He says, "Hello. Why don't you come with me?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMH032eZaRf
I follow him.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlmPhDV9K58
He leads me up the stairs, and into a room. He says,127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjkpMxrxjBs
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSo0JlR3sOW
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I say, "A-a man kidnapped me and abused and sexually assaulted m-me..."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVSnvNOpoUg
"Alright. Take a seat."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKqsfsBZZ02
The man is Doctor Dershian. He asks me a few questions about the events leading up to the murder, and about my emotional state now.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzyp1J9FHAX
I say, "More than a few times the man made me think about killing myself.."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHa4m1g5C1U
"Really? You tried to kill yourself?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡko1AdxZusq
"Yes.."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMnoJhYvQrr
"I see. Do you feel suicidal now?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnIagkafzo9
I say, "Not really. I'm just really emotionally shattered."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡckz4QOgQfX
"Okay, I'll get someone to take you to a counselor. You just wait here," Doctor Dershian says, and walks out of the room.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL0nsjTN3M3
I feel like the whole situation is about to make me explode.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXwQGhgYJoE
A few minutes later, Doctor Dershian returns.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYB6hk3AZto
I say, "D-doctor.. I-I feel suicidal right n-now..."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4JXyMreypI
"Suicidal?" Doctor Dershian asks, "What makes you say that?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ68MAWWPxju
I say, "The situation is just too much for me to handle."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYCfkyx4F97
"I see. Would you like to go to a counselor?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs6hfzBaj8h
"Y-yes, please." Doctor Dershian is about to say something, but is interrupted by the door opening. I look up. In walks a man in a white, long, lab coat. He looks very serious. He says,127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6lbrEBt3Zt
"I'm Doctor Kessel. I'm here to evaluate you." I try to stand up but collapse to the floor. Doctor Kessel immediately calls for a nurse. The nurse walks in, and says,127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNUkIFJyllh
"What is it?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUfjlUhWk6I
Doctor Kessel says,127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU1DhHoNYa9
"This patient is suicidal." I lie on the floor sobbing.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIGI2AsiSai
A few minutes later, a nurse walks back into the room and helps me to my feet. She holds my hand and helps me to a chair. I sit down, and try to stop crying.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkMWSKyJ3LD
I say, "Why me??? Why does this all have to happen to ME??" The nurse looks at me with sympathy, and says,127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4zyJJjRpUC
"I'm sorry, but that's part of the evaluation. We need to find out why you're suicidal. We want to help you."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2MOicGuyMc
I say, "Why did I have to get kidnapped? Why was I the one to be abused? Why did I have to become a murderer? WHY ME??"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcwg7Vu0PHZ
The nurse shakes her head, and says,127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ60Hzr19fPn
"I'm sorry. We'll talk about this after we finish the evaluation. Right now, we need to do some tests." I try to not cry.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIhywNow6eF
I feel so helpless. I feel so out of control, and I can't do anything to change this. I go over to a table, and the nurse helps me remove my clothes. I feel like I'm slowly dying inside. I don't even care.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb6gdp1uGGf
The nurse helps me into a gown, and I lie down on the examination table. She cleans and checks my inner and outer thighs, my genitalia, and my breasts. I try to calm down and breathe normally. The nurse says,127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEOhSEZMdnU
"I need to do a blood draw, and a urine sample. I need your help with this." I comply, and the nurse takes my blood. At this point, I don't even feel the pain. I just want to die.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRp671SOs8y
After a few minutes, the nurse comes back and says,127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHIdE6933CF
"Okay, come with me." I get up and follow the nurse into a different room. I try to maintain my composure. The nurse says, "I need to check your blood pressure. I need you to lay down on the table and get on all fours." I lay down and get on all fours. Suddenly, I start having horrific flashbacks about the kidnapping. My heart rate goes up.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpgM40FPNsk
The nurse says, "Okay, your BP is a little high. I need to do an ultrasound to check your kidneys, and a CAT scan to check your brain." I start to shake and cry. I feel like the world is weighing down on me. I want to give up. The nurse tries to console me, and she says,127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYjJ4K0eB5z
"Everything is going to be okay. You'll see your family soon." I slowly calm down. I start to feel a little more at ease. I breathe deeply and start to fall asleep on the table.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3gmdOlEePq
A few minutes later, I wake up. The nurse is there, and she is smiling at me.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoXsFpEgY9a
I say "Where am I?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU5ZqPj7XQB
"You're in a hospital room. We moved you to a private room because you were so hysterical and it was so crowded. You were also vomiting blood. It's going to be okay."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDg5kypm3G2
I say, "Am I diagnosed with insanity?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI0Eeo0byXY
The nurse smiles sadly, "No, but they're still determining that. It's going to be a few days before they give you a diagnosis. In the meantime, you'll be monitored, and you can have visitors."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlNb3vjG0rT
I say, "I want to see my mom..."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDqqecYkKN1
The nurse interrupts me and says,127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5IW7qSMINz
"I'm sorry, but I need to do some tests. I'm going to be back to let you know when you can have visitors."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgQso4wTo55
"O-okay.." I say as I feel the tears welling up again. The nurse leaves the room, and I cry for a few minutes. I feel so helpless. I can't do anything to help myself.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWLok3F9Vxe
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A few hours later, my mom comes to visit.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡptpdyPJ62F
"M-mom.."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkHl5hHFPFT
My mom walks into the room, and gives me a big hug.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm7dX5tBfJr
"I'm so glad to see you, baby! I've been so worried."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9aavUkbyj5
I say, "I feel like I'm going crazy mom. Why did life have to do this to me?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUACeNCzx6Z
"I know honey. I've been thinking the same thing. They said they're going to keep you here for a few more days, and they're going to keep an eye on you."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiDULpz0rb9
"I-I love you mom," I say as I start crying.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7TRexB63js
"I love you too, sweetie. I want to be there with you. I want to do something to make you feel better. Do you think you could pray with me?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxi85EbrVVF
"Yes.." I say quietly.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGLmM4JSwP6
I say a prayer with my mom, and I feel calm and at ease.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsE1OOzHvHM
After we pray, my mom asks if I want to talk about what happened.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVsum348RzG
I say, "If I start talking about that, I'm going to start sobbing and I won't be able to control myself.."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1JutvIDkwG
"I know honey, but you need to get it out. Get everything out. Don't hold anything in. It's eating at you, and it's making you sick."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXHqZHCCA4N
I say, "Why did that man kidnap me?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOUngJ0faoV
"I don't know honey. We'll find out soon. I'll talk to the doctor when he comes in, and I'll find out what's going on. I promise."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmccaPca9wg
I say, "Once this is all resolved, are the cult members gonna be thrown in prison?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQK4YXwfW7w
"I don't know, honey. I hope so. I don't think there's a jury that would convict them. I'll do what I can to make sure that happens."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9q8JJO34S7
I say, "Okay.."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdacykZO0EB
My mom spends the rest of my visit in the hospital room, and we don't say another word to each other. After my visit is over, I spend a couple of hours in the empty hospital room. I start crying again. I feel so helpless, and I can't do anything to help myself. I don't know when I will get another visit, or if I'll ever get out of this hospital. I cry myself to sleep. I wake up, wishing this was all just a bad dream. I hope that when I get out of the hospital, everything will be back to normal, and I'll just live my life with no problems. The nurse walks into the hospital room.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡroXsKvkF8v
"I'm so sorry to wake you, but I need to speak with you. It's very important."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK3WfuAF66w
I wipe the tears off my face.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgzYG25lO7V
I say, "What is it? What's wrong?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoVqWfCoIdu
"Your tests came back, and you tested positive for.."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrM53fs5aiF
I say, "What? What did I test positive for?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxlbPBhOVeV
"I'm so, so sorry. I wish I could tell you. I really do. You tested positive for.."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6KIYjk8r0W
I say, "Tell me!"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpJ9IjzQTdM
"A sexually transmitted disease. I'm so, so sorry, dear."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4IpeFHVI0J
My heart drops.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKB9TD4ZnlL
I feel so ashamed. I cry myself to sleep again.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2sjqh99JdQ
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In the morning, I get my visitors.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu0HffKmXYs
My sister, Charlotte, visits me. She asks me what's wrong. I can't even answer her. I just cry. I feel so ashamed of myself. Charlotte starts to leave the room.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLzz0stO2GM
I say, "Wait!" She stops.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGdGhNhrPuE
"What is it?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNMdovTtaMe
I say, "I need a hug.." Charlotte wraps her arms around me, and I cry.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsiz6xlDbi3
I eventually gather the strength to tell my sister what the doctor said.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf8sELSKj2q
I say, "The doctor said I have a.. Std..."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH169smZZYz
"I know, sis. I'm so, so sorry."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzC1umsHN55
I cry myself to sleep.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzYa2SOdwGi
The next day, I get another visit from my mom.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwRIjuFvGzx
"How are you doing, honey?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIY9UcdUhqr
I say, "Horrible.."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkRKtXbpfW7
She walks over and sits next to me on the bed.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIgp01PhQv3
"I heard about you testing positive for a sexually transmitted disease. I'm so sorry."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ24puX12JN3
I say, "I'm so ashamed..."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPoDtOIEZuk
"It's not your fault, honey."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPrCFQIUkCQ
I start crying again.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBGj3mVfJPM
"I'll get you some tissues, honey. You can cry on them. Cry your heart out."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeYdRslXC34
I cry myself to sleep in my mother's arms. I wake up the next morning. I'm not as tired as I was yesterday. Maybe the doctor gave me some new medication, or maybe I'm just getting used to being here. I don't feel any emotions. I feel empty and dead inside. I don't care about anything. I don't feel any guilt or shame.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtuee2mIf4N
Maybe I'm dead after all.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWnHb6Pc8CH
Maybe this is what it feels like to be nothing. I get a visit from my lawyer.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9G0m0Mpf8t
"I heard the test results, and I'm here to ask you if you would like to pursue this case. You tested positive for a sexually transmitted disease, so the chances of us winning are pretty slim."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlcUI6lR1TT
"I don't even know anymore," I say as I shed a tear.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8J97JY7DQS
"I understand. If you don't want to pursue this case, then I'll get someone who will."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1TQ0eSzziz
I say, "I still want to win this."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgzFRVXUaU6
"Well, it's up to you, then. I'll go get our legal team, and we can get started."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfqlfy4wxaG
I spend the next few weeks resting in my hospital room. I don't have any visitors. I have forgotten what life is like outside the hospital. I don't even want to leave my hospital room. I spend my days watching reruns of Friends and crying. One day the nurse comes into the room and says, "I've got good news."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2KlTlDe1B6
"Really?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqkT9R1XUkT
"Yeah, your doctor says you can go home today."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMA4gaQ7nDK
I start crying, and I can't stop.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfFb5ciHqFe
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I spend my time at home resting. I don't do anything. One day I decide to walk outside.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJmsEJHY55O
I get out my patio door, and I don't turn around and go back inside. I don't know why, but I just have this urge to walk outside.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXJyCKnA164
I stand in the middle of my lawn.The smell of fresh air makes me emotional. I start crying happy tears. I walk over to my flower bed and pick a few flowers to smell. I smell them, and then throw them in the air and watch them float away. They are so pretty, and they smell so good.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0b22OGHrIa
My mom opens the front door and says, "What are you doing?" I turn around to see her standing there.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ZDaMiarEH
"I wanted to see the flowers."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBgwtVgiv5w
"Why are you out of your room?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIyu7HXOByB
"I don't know. I just felt like walking outside."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhAGhDSOdRB
I say, "I've been cooped up in a room for way too long."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7pTl2PUzTt
"Yeah, I know what you mean," my mom says. She picks me up and gives me a big hug.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUH6V1b82tJ
"Thank you for being you."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhTUgdms5bP
"You don't have to thank me." I see the next-door neighbor's son walk out to get the mail. I look at him fascinated. He has no fear. He doesn't know what it's like to be scared. He doesn't know what it feels like to live in a nightmare.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWIEcLIi2rg
I make a decision.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV3JtZttfRl
I walk up to the neighbor's boy and say, "Hi!"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJrCEfUjz3z
"What's your name?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZCbEgNge4O
"Allisa," I say, smiling.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJhjpC6iQcm
"I'm Carter. What are you doing out of your room?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrUWNmCDW4M
I say, "I just wanted to get some fresh air."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0LTBWmENgZ
"Yeah, I know what you mean. I had this urge to walk outside too." He laughs.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8j6ePcoXtv
I say, "Well I gotta go back inside.." I go back inside and go to bed. I don't know why I feel so empty. I want to fill this void. I want to find something to fill all of this space.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHUVKENpDIR
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Your life as a pet is very degrading. You aren't allowed on furniture, you're not allowed to speak unless spoken to, and you're not allowed to do anything without the permission of Father, whom you are forced to address as Master. You aren't even called by your name. Instead, you are simply called Pet. Right now you're sitting on the ground inside Father's study, which is in a building known as the Community Center, staring out of the window.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ08NvKUuM3g
The study is large and furnished with a desk and chair, some bookshelves with many old books, and that's about it. The door to the room creaks open and Father steps inside, his golden hair and eyes sparking in the sunlight. He walks over to his desk and sees you staring out the window.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqkE5kN1Eep
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He sighs and sits down in his chair. "What is it, child?" he asks, with a tone that makes me feel like he is disappointed in me. "Why are you looking out the window?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGeOoZmZuGT
"I just want to go home," I say.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkNS0S0AUyR
Father sighs again. "Child, I know you miss your home, but we're not going anywhere for a while." He sits back in his chair. I start to cry, and Father stares at me.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIWbAxKTGG4
"Why are you crying?" he asks, with a small amount of anger in his voice. I cry even harder.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD4cXORi1y4
Father sighs.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFcx5IzqcRT
I say "I don't want to stay here!"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1PxUTw7hrl
Father gets up from his chair and walks over to me and kneels down in front of me. I look at the ground and Father grabs my chin and forces me to look at him. I look into his eyes. His eyes are cold, like stone. He stares at me with no emotion whatsoever.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaIKK4YxBLG
There's no compassion, no sympathy. I'm just a thing to be used. He will use me for his own benefit, and then he will get rid of me. I need to get out of here. I stand up quickly and bolt for the door.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4HeZo4y1en
"Stop!" he shouts, but I already hear his footsteps behind me. I open the door and run out. I run past the cult members, who only stare at me in awe, some whispering among themselves. I run until I come to a large oak tree. I climb the tree, which is only a few feet away from the ground. I find a branch that I think is strong enough to hold me, and climb up.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAf5a8WZud9
I can hear Father's footsteps getting closer. I hide myself in the branches of the tree.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhRjV0bNzW2
Father comes to the tree, his footsteps getting closer and closer to the tree. He stops, staring at the tree.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZYU1Jm5305
"Pet, come down from the tree."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL1ZkMbdA5i
I stay silent.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFOituvY8U5
"Pet, I know you're in there. Come down from the tree right now or else I won't only punish you, I'll make your siblings suffer too. Do you want that to happen?" I come down from the tree and land on the ground with a thud. Father grabs me, and I struggle against his grip, but I can't escape.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcdUajc3G0n
"Come with me, child." I am dragged along by Father.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtVkiaqXwdV
I struggle as I walk with him, but I can't get away. We walk for what seems like forever, and then we finally come to a large, circular room. I look around the room. The room is circular, with no windows, and only two doors. One door is at the very center of the room, while the other is at the very edge.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuJaAY5xcGY
I struggle against Father, who only laughs at me. I struggle against him for what seems like an eternity, but he keeps a firm grip on me, and I can't get away. I sigh and decide it's best to just give up.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYLtNzOWesD
Father grabs my chin, and I look at him.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuGexEqqJf6
"Don't make me have to punish you, child."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcCBZOnXgJW
I say, "What are you going to do to me?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD9yXBaOrIQ
Father smiles. "I'm going to punish you in a way that you'll enjoy." He releases me. I drop to the ground, exhausted..127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz59zlPwspc
I say, "Please don't hurt me."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK8GycU8SpM
Father laughs. "I'm not going to hurt you, child. I'm going to make you scream. I'm going to make you wish you were dead."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg40n1jvwl4
I say, "Please don't!"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSOw1361KmX
Father laughs. "Don't worry, I won't kill you. But I will make you wish you were dead, child."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5XRcvTCKuK
I say, "What does that mean?" Father laughs. He picks me up and throws me on the bed.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHyEpdZmG2o
"You'll find out soon enough, child."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqm05Y0f9Gi
Then he leaves the room, closing the door behind him. I wait.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ029pztWI8X
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It's the last day of the school year. Finally... I've been waiting for summer vacation since the first day of the school year. I'm almost halfway between the school and my house, feeling happier than ever. Suddenly... darkness. I would have never thought that the last day of my sophomore year would be the last normal day of my life..127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0yJK84Ry9p
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127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwFtySZT4hmI wait for what seems like forever, but he eventually comes back. He sits on the chair by the door. He looks at me.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNDBc07I9Al
"Are you ready, child?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBvprsCSJJV
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I nod and say, "Y-yes."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1b1nP84ygv
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"Good. Here's what's going to happen. I'm going to bind your hands together. Then I'm going to blindfold you. Then, I'm going to have you stand in the middle of the circle."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIggiubHCVw
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I say, "Okay.."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJi6w4zAbzN
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I stand there, and Father ties my hands together, then blindfolds me. Father takes out the blindfold and places it over my eyes. I feel his hands on my shoulders, and start to feel uncomfortable.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhHgciZBJmn
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I hear him say, "Bend your knees and keep your eyes forward." I do as I'm told.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVfOVccbpO4
He says "Now, walk forward, slowly."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBnJfUCoYso
I feel his hands on my lower back and begin walking. I walk forward, and my feet move, taking me forward. My legs continue walking, taking me further and further away from Father. My heart is pounding in my ears. Then, I reach the center of the circle.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUN0B0EVkze
Father says "Good. Stay there."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVgUg1qdhzM
I feel his hands on my shoulders. I hear him say, "Don't look back, child. It'll make things much worse." I stay there. Then, I hear Father's footsteps. I hear his footsteps stop. I stand perfectly still. Father says, "Well, well, well. Look at you." I wonder what's going on. I don't move, even though I can't see. I wait. I stand perfectly still and wait. I hear his footsteps walking toward me. I wait.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkBu2PBQwoQ
I stand perfectly still. His footsteps stop. His hands grab my shoulders, and I tense up. His hands push me down. I fall to the ground, and my head smacks into the cold, hard ground. I wince. I lie there, waiting. I wait for a long time, but then I hear his footsteps. They get louder... closer. My heart rate goes up. I wait. I tense up. I stay still. His footsteps stop.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9MKMzlLCs6
He must be right next to me. I hold my breath. I wait. I stay still.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ5qSiyF8aG
His hands touch my face. I tense up even more. His hands slide down my body, and my knees get weak. He unbuttons my blouse. His hands slide up my bra. I want to scream. He unzips my pants. His hands slide down my panties. I scream,"Stop!"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKqAkZO0QNt
"Please!" I whisper.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaxszef7rCc
He pulls down my underwear, and he takes his time. His fingers slide inside of me.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbgS7xLj0od
I scream loudly.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhAsyTrffS9
My scream echoes throughout the room.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeHMi0dbApS
"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" he shouts.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡREQxcRTdu2
His fingers slide faster. I scream louder.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNte4QgIyt1
"I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU!" he shouts. I try not to moan.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjB9LoJGhus
My body shakes. My legs shake. I can't control it. My body gives in to the pleasure. I moan and shake--my body trembles. My moans get louder and louder.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgeS8XtAtXf
I say "P-please s-stop.."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡynyEftmJU2
He stops for a moment, before sliding his fingers inside of me again. I stay still, and soon, I begin to come down from my orgasm. I lie there, panting. My hands are tied tightly together. I start sobbing.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡemBLjilPHO
He pulls his fingers out of me. I wince and groan. I'm sore from the orgasm. I lie there, sobbing. I feel him sit down next to me. He unties my hands. I cry harder.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHTSnsVJcan
He pulls the blindfold off of me, and I see that there are several men standing around, staring at me. I try to cover myself, but one of the men pulls the blanket off of me.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpW634Msu4T
"What's the matter, huh?" one of the men says.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpEkmX9EFTi
"Look at her," another says,127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJqTLXYM5E6
I say "Please leave me alone."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG54AfChPee
"Let's see if she's a virgin," another says.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpOeKfOb39f
"I'm a virgin," I say, trying to cover myself.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWXXbuyefFg
"We'll see. Let's see."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv74yM3WThv
I say "No no no.." They laugh.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡifiKtAQBQj
"Look at her. She's a dirty little slut," one of them says.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ6Ti8HOgRk
"Let's see if she's a filthy little cocksucker," another says. I say "Please leave me alone!" They laugh. They grab me. They forcefully violate me. I start sobbing. I'm crying, and I can't stop. My tears are falling down my face.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhDyf9jW2Az
They untie me.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMl5s1dzGos
I lie there, naked and sobbing. I'm sore, and my butt is sore. I keep crying harder. After a while, I hear a voice.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC2TnTgspoE
"Ah... you're up," Father says.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCrA2jBuqac
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127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡplY973DCxp"Huh?" I say, confused. I slowly get up.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYtDSuIbzEp
"Where were you?" he asks,127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYRLGh7FSWO
I say, "T-they were hurting me...."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHFUHX0sYEa
"I know. We were worried about you. We thought you might be a virgin. You were."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9wtsugLrMu
Father smiles.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSw1bVg8r64
"Get dressed. We have work to do," he says.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG0GwULyKwh
I say, "I can't handle this anymore. I can't stay here any longer. This is too much."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ54uhLq6ZQn
"I know," Father says. "But you have to. You're my favorite. You can't run away."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWFIyLaArNM
"I can't stand it anymore," I say, trying to get up.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ56Sc87Hioc
I say, "I don't want to be abused anymore."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA8KhEqgLYx
"I know. But you need to do this. It's for the good of the cult."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb6deAGU8K4
"I'm leaving," I say, trying to walk away.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAYLZDvzHLS
Father grabs my arm. I struggle.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN9DoLzRZng
"Look, I know you're upset, but you're going to have to get over it. You need to stop struggling. I won't let you leave."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlje7PurmTS
I say, "Please let me go!"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBaIINz06J7
"I'm not letting you go. We need you. I need you. I'm your master, and you're my pet. I own you, and you obey me," Father says. I say, "I will not stay here any longer."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡthbO3MSwAd
"You will," Father says.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSvXD800ROU
"I said I won't!" I say. Father gets angry. He pulls me to my feet. He slaps me hard across the face.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs8RslfMAm0
"You WILL!" I start crying hard. I cry as hard as I can, and Father laughs.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzQCtqce3ik
"I own you," he says, "You obey me."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxMXAYx51sq
I cry and sob hard. I sob for a long time before Father comes up behind me and slaps me hard.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKDG8rBwTvs
"Stop crying," he says.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8FXZWmmSHe
"I can't!"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFqJCaoepd3
Father grabs me and hits me hard across the face again.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB6o4yC7mh4
"Stop it!" I cry.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUkaDCTGFvw
"I said stop it!" he yells,127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNzPXAp8aIP
"I can't," I say.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ33caafhPLZ
I say, "I want to kill myself!!!"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSTfFiBDPhi
"NO!" Father screams.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0T0ikM5Bke
"I'm not going to hit you anymore. I'm not going to hit you anymore. But you need to stop crying. You need to stop being so pathetic." I slowly stop crying. "You're going to stay here with us. You're going to learn. You're going to obey. You're going to be a good member of the cult. And you're going to love it here."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡys8HfxGY4K
I say, "I would rather kill myself than be here."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ92nBp2Aw2p
"NO, you wouldn't," Father says,127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZuMadTvX1V
"I would. I really would."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4PV77pS20c
"If you really loved me you would put me out of my misery," I say with tears in my eyes.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVHp7PvYIzs
"I do love you. I do. I'd never hurt you. I'd never hurt a single one of my children. You have to believe me."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKCpO6xOcsD
I say, "At this point, I have zero trust in you. I'm not going to listen to you. I'm going to leave. I'm going to get help."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMlJ06zMexk
"You're not leaving. You're staying here and you're going to obey."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVWk1lZINwA
I say, "No I'm not!"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡynQGWUfz8t
Father grabs my arm. I shake him off.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEkfaBiUPv2
"You WILL listen to me!" he screams.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7imsZNV0w1
I say "No I won't!!!"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPhU5txAcNc
"You will!"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOA9mefBe2x
"I said NO!!!"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9HX3vLfBww
"I'm going to count to three, and if you don't listen, I'm going to beat you like a dog!"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRvTBOjNY2O
I say, "I'm sorry! I'll obey and be a good girl!"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDpStMz1NuH
"I know you will," Father says.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy2OlWP9Ejy
Father reaches for the whip he keeps behind the door. He cracks it. I flinch, but don't cry.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHD45QI9TdP
He says "One."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLx4ZuKOg32
I say, "I'll do anything.."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdgQpb5mcPH
"Two."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn4CLsdQjcF
"I'll stay here. I'll do anything," I say.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJZfU0beaMa
"Three."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEMkmuRBFcC
I see a gun on the floor. I grab it and put it to my head.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdYit6hkBYK
"No, don't do it," Father says.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJZeNG69X1T
I say, "If you promise to not hurt me anymore, I promise to do anything you want."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdCrKTuia5j
"Fine," Father says. He gets up from the chair and walks over to me. He removes the gun from my head and puts it on the bed. I'm relieved. I put my hands behind my back.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW5ODMp4Spt
I let him tie my hands together. I look at him, and he looks at me.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlZvNMSCEVE
"You're going to be good now, aren't you?" he says,127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlicyJsdPXY
I say "Yes."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYoiizHJKaE
"I don't want you to fail. I need you. I need you to stay here and obey."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRkzBKvK6oT
"Yes," I say.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5uilCQLihN
"Good girl," he says.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNL2uWrZIQv
I say, "Just.. please don't violate my body."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡntGtmYJPh5
"I won't," he says.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVgEHfHHCRS
I stay tied up.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAFlSqK1UyW
"Now," he says,127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrjUDn0C9I1
"Kneel."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUdhuqujIeX
"Please," I say.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvEbaEeEaQQ
I kneel. I do as he says. He steps closer to me, and I feel his breath on my neck.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSXeJE7Uev9
I anticipate that he's going to violate my body.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUF6iGrAgV0
I just know it.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqtZ8d2zIa1
And then, he doesn't. He whispers in my ear.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7NmaKkFsn7
"I have someone coming who will do a better job than me."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiNrb4OPkxv
I stand up, and he turns around. I wonder who he's talking about. I try to block out the image of his penis, but I can't. He walks over to the door and disappears.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlRMAoKH56l
I'm all alone in the room.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBob7qOmrOE
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127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5TOXaTE67vI hear the door open. I look up.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpqWfI3e1ug
"Hello," a man says.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp97yXcUdng
I recognize him. It's the man who came into my room the first night I was here. I saw him before he abducted me. He walks towards me, and I back up.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTmmxjIAoK5
"Hands behind your back," he says,127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6rOTx8wfNw
I do as he says. I hear the zip ties being undone.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWoItIPAHg0
"On your knees," he says. I get on my knees.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡylDnME9EoB
"Stay there," he says,127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi1uz1LCa5s
I stay on my knees.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSEuWJ33usN
He comes up to me, and I can feel him unbutton my shirt. He removes my shirt and he puts his hand on my stomach. I gasp. I can feel his fingers on my skin. I can feel his breath on my skin. He puts his other hand on my head and he pushes my head toward his penis.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6LSTwJ9TwZ
I say "No no no."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuP1kpIq4is
"Do it," he says.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9SU68xNtiT
I say no. He pushes harder.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡljrxQLJJsp
"Do it!" he says.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFla0aaXU6U
I comply. I hear the zip tie undone.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkRT3oFs96P
He unzips his pants. I watch as he pulls his pants down. I can see his penis, it's about an inch and a half long.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoJc2SicvgS
"Stay there," he says.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMy3nlb2KRT
I stay on my knees.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfPnuYumofF
He steps up to me and shoves his penis in my throat. I gag and try to get away.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU3Cb2CqLAX
"Stop moving."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHNXeePgZ1o
I struggle and gag on his penis. He shoves it in deeper. I try to gulp it down.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGeW6PwNZlq
He pulls it out of my throat.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk3W8X09YpG
"What's wrong?" he says.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3cYPymoo1K
I can't answer. I'm coughing. I cough and gag.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡERbOUkcPWr
"What?" he says,127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9U1C3UxAba
I try to get air. I inhale. I try to get air out.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5u9XpK0a6W
He shoves it back in my throat and I gag on his penis. I cough and vomit. I continue to struggle. He pushes it in even deeper. I have no strength left. My vision goes black. He shoves it out again.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuzxIE7IT6z
"Is this too big for you?" he says.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9HuZehYWL2
I nod.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqneRfzKxSG
"I understand," he says, "If you need to vomit, go ahead. I know how to treat a child who vomited before."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0HV1JXjGqE
I retch. I heave. I vomit again. I finally gain composure.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡicA49Flt1Q
He shoves it back in.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSfQ9Hn8mNl
I decide that vomiting once is enough.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ55eKg65aIu
He shoves it in deeper.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ6Rm7V0QL3
I struggle and fight.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIBLvA5jwAy
"Stop fighting me," he says.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiCu1sWN04t
He cums in my mouth and I spit it out.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZC4m8HexEp
"Get dressed," he says.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV4kGmX9zhb
I get dressed. He pushes me out the door and shoves me out the door. He closes it behind me. I take the chance to run away. I run away from the cultists as they try to catch me. They shout at me to stop, but I keep running. I manage to escape them and run away. I run all the way back home. I'm safe at last.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuBRjaTxegc
I say, "Mom? I'm home!"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXE9fZI7SUk
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My mother comes running out of the kitchen.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUzmA6630cx
"Allie! I can't believe it's you. You're home! Come here, I've got something special for you." I run into my mom's arms and hug her. I've been away for so long.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtfpKLm4JHN
"I missed you so much, I was worried about you!" she says.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1IBdRE4eIb
"I missed you, too." My mother leads me into the kitchen.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1DSQaQdftI
I say, "Where's dad?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuHWKriFM58
"He's in the living room." I go to the living room. My father is watching television.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6giM2irBfn
"Dad, I'm home!" I say. My father turns around and looks at me. I run up and hug my dad.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd9nEbFdyqL
"I missed you so much," he says. My mother hands me a glass of water. I sit down at the table.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfX4F8Fd2VR
My father says, "Where have you been?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNCmRYA9dSK
I say, "I was kidnapped by a cult."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHST3XNQcIm
"Did they hurt you?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Z8SpVFWG7
"Yeah," I say.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR7TWK09E2e
"I'm sorry."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDwXZXJ7goW
"It's not your fault." I hear a knock on the front door.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmocYw1jxxf
"Who could that be?" my mother says. My father gets up and walks over to the door. He opens it. Two policemen walk in.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxU3ezuYuyq
"Is Allie in here?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2mgGqfLxow
My dad says, "Yes, why?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Wt0rdfAUn
"We have some questions for her regarding the kidnapping of a young girl earlier this week," one of the policemen says. "Is she willing to answer some questions?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaBlboIylt2
"Of course she is." I walk towards the cops.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFhVJSv3eoR
"Do you have any weapons on you?" one of the cops asks.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA3HI2enYmq
"No." I respond,127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsn2TbtWnyr
"Can we come in?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Gisbu9Jo2
"Sure," I say. The cops follow me into the kitchen. They walk past my dad and sit down at the table. They motion for me to sit down, too.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW0u9NQwiTc
"Okay, why were you kidnapped?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ28Uhguu2hf
I say, "I don't know."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4QZoBXRqFy
"We know that the man you encountered on the road called you by name. Did he tell you his name?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡITROxrRaKX
"No." I say,127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa3x6FbygPL
"Are you sure?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrZyW83sLJu
"Yes."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcjWApsR3Ed
I say, "He referred to himself as 'Father'.''127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF9DkPb9BBE
"Did he give you any food or water?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvWNG3qcouu
"No." I respond.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEqjhbvPPAB
"Did he give you any kind of drugs?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTLYGNQkFgQ
"No."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWzBNjW7fB2
"What did he do to you?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPTEs3BCQl0
I say, "He... he sexually assaulted me."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo8lOBen4Qh
"Did you fight him?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgEtZkuXoRm
"I tried."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHy4kjz9qyb
"What happened?" I pause, trying to think of an answer.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjkfdS3brhR
"I think I blacked out."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHqEtjgI3Yl
"I see."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1mDHmtiPw0
I say, "He severely beat me numerous times.."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWTXJX2homy
"And how long were you with him?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMndlQxuji6
"I think about ten hours."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcDtCbcYzFS
"And you only just managed to escape?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG6IvSGTTOL
"Yeah."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeubsg0zEHi
"Do you know where you were?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSVYaa2uv1D
I say "No."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsttp93PXhk
"What is the last thing you remember?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4IpbDQMqzF
"I remember walking down the road."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwrXFGQ6Juf
"And then?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGlggLaLgIs
"I don't remember."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6if8l1i8ya
"Do you know how you got away?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsdj0nkrmae
I say, "I just ran,"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBTMrYJoLuZ
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened, from the beginning."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvEseOFanFy
I explain what happened to me, starting with the encounter on the road, ending with running away from the cultists.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrY6Xlpy6lE
I say, "So that's how it all happened."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDB8YN8EDFq
"What do you mean?" one of the cops asks. "I say you blacked out, and then you woke up and ran away. So did he drug you or something?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRY9mGiv6kx
"I don't know." Suddenly I hear gunshots outside the house.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbB6pjzwE4W
"What was that?" one of the cops asks,127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC9IpVWQZkk
"Stay here, we're going to check it out." my dad says, and heads outside. I run outside with my dad. He tells me to hide behind a bush.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ57i1uUbjtQ
"Go hide over there," my father points to a bush about thirty feet from the house.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXwhJkDMunj
I hide behind the bush and watch the house.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhyMBynPam0
I see a man who I recognize as the person who kidnapped me.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlV9nLG4Tql
He has a gun and is shooting at my dad. I watch with tears in my eyes as my dad falls to the ground.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCWr3VGaL5m
"You fucking son of a bitch!" I yell as I charge at my kidnapper. I push him down, and beat him repeatedly in the head with my fist. I then take his gun and shoot him in the head with it.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZfyFZ8L9jY
I drop to my knees over his body and sob.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9UlFYYlsW0
After a few minutes the police officers arrive at the house. They rush towards me and place handcuffs on me.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnGjjh6bi9h
I say, "He was my kidnapper! Please, trust me!"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRspRmHFFIX
"We'll take care of everything, don't worry." one of the officers says,127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbySbvORXbx
"I'm sorry, but we need to take you with us, it's for your own safety." I'm thrown in the back of the cop car.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGN8GO7s7h5
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I try to open the door to get out, but the cops slam it shut. I try to bang on the window, but no one seems to notice me, except my mom, standing on the front porch looking at me with tears in her eyes.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkAg6FmBlWw
I sob in the back of the cop car. I am being taken to the police station, and I don't know what to expect.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3oeujUJYYn
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127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgpDBYXNufcAt the police station, I am strip searched and placed in a cell.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsLkzIp0cYr
I say, "Please, the man I killed was the one who kidnapped me and murdered my father!"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUHuQikK0Kx
"Calm down, we'll get you a lawyer and he'll take care of everything."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoacuAEjQ8i
"But I didn't do anything wrong!" I collapse on the cell floor and start crying.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLiGJYcViR0
"I'm sorry, we'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEqpDwPEpv5
I don't really know how much time passes, but I am released from the cell after some time.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1i3NquAyWu
"We'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge, I promise." I am taken to a different cell and left alone. I sob and cry for what seems like hours. I cry about what I did, cry about being in prison, cry about being a murderer. Eventually, I stop crying and just sit there on the bed, surrounded by concrete walls. I fall asleep on the jail bed.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZpeZHZ2vEd
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I am woken up by a man in a suit.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmnhaoR07OS
"Get up." he says,127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfU5fhw2MaI
"Why am I here?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo79nAlC9UM
"Because you murdered a man, and you tried to murder another."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbtHim5xE1u
I say, "He fucking kidnapped me for Christ's sake!"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIKsfv54rK9
"Shut the fuck up." He says, "Get dressed. We're getting you a lawyer."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq0KKwxAHeD
I am taken to a holding area, a small room with a table in it. A man sits behind the desk.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz291Vz88Qe
I sit down.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGqk0OHgosT
"Okay, how can I help you?" he asks.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡepv9NF0WLG
"I was kidnapped and assaulted, and I killed someone while trying to escape."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn9piOfs4VE
"I see. Do you have a lawyer?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBm64ZRc8lM
I say, "No."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWye2W3u8SY
"I see. Would you like one appointed to you?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKp078IqtIq
I respond, "Yes."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvjuwh0IvtJ
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone. I'll have them call you. A lawyer will be there in a moment." A few moments later, a middle aged woman wearing a dress walks in. I look up.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNb4Vt173wq
"Hello, Miss, do you need a lawyer?" the woman asks.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxXELMA0Fj5
"Yes."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrusYALmcBx
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone for you, let's just wait a moment."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuG59UlT0Y7
I sit down, and wait a few minutes. Then, a man in a suit walks in,127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlPKee7xe5e
I say, "Hi."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZKP9yZnIlb
The man looks at me, and then walks up to the woman.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡku7D1PmR3N
"Yes, Judge?" the woman asks.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2CVDJ1Vi66
"Get me a lawyer for this 15 year old girl." the man says.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPtHjz2JQEZ
"Right away," says the woman.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpOjajV8bv7
She turns to me, "Okay, we'll get you a lawyer. He should be here in a moment. He'll explain everything to you, and he'll help you with your story. You just wait here."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSv7tUZ0rhx
I say, "Okay."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTgAkB4om8c
A few moments later, a man walks in. He says,127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK8j0pFFRWI
"Hello. I'm your lawyer. Now, you can wait here, or you can come with me." I follow the man.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQT7VlVDS2y
I am led down a set of stairs, and into a basement. There, I see a large table. I sit at one of the chairs.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxJDFW0ImY1
The man walks into the room, and says, "Okay, why did you murder a man?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTELM6bck2Q
"He kidnapped me."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6W62pWsjJf
"Okay, why did you try to murder another?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxC3S0tpDEK
I say, "He tried to stab me."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMpUxLxOLAw
"Who was he?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9iH2pCUu2Y
"I don't know."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmyZVRwnZrU
"Where did you get the knife?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBhQOQf2ZBI
"He had it in his pocket."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH4dElU4qhM
"Did he threaten you in any way?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqJWjbLxhLl
I say "Yes. He frequently beat me and sexually assaulted me."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpOcBQrgd5t
"Okay, now, that's a new one. Anything else?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1b6JF2yIZ5
"No."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡefFMKUgzGv
"You sure? Think hard."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXDjICxXpMl
I think for a few moments, trying to remember anything else the man said or did.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4YbaZ6UBzh
I say, "He killed my father."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxPcCVfdxdA
"What?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy1mocb0Ggj
I say, "When I ran away and made it back home, the man tracked where I ran to and shot my father."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9NnPsMYtQR
"Your father? I'm very sorry to hear that. You know, I don't think that you're a murderer. I think that you were kidnapped and forced to do what you did." I try to hold back tears. "I'm going to get you a doctor to examine you. I think you might be experiencing some emotional trauma and it's affecting you. Would you like to see a doctor?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHdgAxLuBm7
"Y-yes.." I say shakily.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKdH7mdDSPG
The man nods, and a man in a suit walks into the room.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn9qdQpOqhl
"Ah, there you are." he says, "I have Doctor Dershian here. He wants to examine you."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8IXDB6VF5R
I say, "Okay.."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡolPg0y5X7E
The man in the suit leaves the room, and another man enters the room. He is wearing a lab coat.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA2CW52fvNA
He says, "Hello. Why don't you come with me?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMH032eZaRf
I follow him.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlmPhDV9K58
He leads me up the stairs, and into a room. He says,127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjkpMxrxjBs
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSo0JlR3sOW
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I say, "A-a man kidnapped me and abused and sexually assaulted m-me..."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVSnvNOpoUg
"Alright. Take a seat."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKqsfsBZZ02
The man is Doctor Dershian. He asks me a few questions about the events leading up to the murder, and about my emotional state now.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzyp1J9FHAX
I say, "More than a few times the man made me think about killing myself.."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHa4m1g5C1U
"Really? You tried to kill yourself?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡko1AdxZusq
"Yes.."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMnoJhYvQrr
"I see. Do you feel suicidal now?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnIagkafzo9
I say, "Not really. I'm just really emotionally shattered."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡckz4QOgQfX
"Okay, I'll get someone to take you to a counselor. You just wait here," Doctor Dershian says, and walks out of the room.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL0nsjTN3M3
I feel like the whole situation is about to make me explode.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXwQGhgYJoE
A few minutes later, Doctor Dershian returns.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYB6hk3AZto
I say, "D-doctor.. I-I feel suicidal right n-now..."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4JXyMreypI
"Suicidal?" Doctor Dershian asks, "What makes you say that?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ68MAWWPxju
I say, "The situation is just too much for me to handle."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYCfkyx4F97
"I see. Would you like to go to a counselor?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs6hfzBaj8h
"Y-yes, please." Doctor Dershian is about to say something, but is interrupted by the door opening. I look up. In walks a man in a white, long, lab coat. He looks very serious. He says,127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6lbrEBt3Zt
"I'm Doctor Kessel. I'm here to evaluate you." I try to stand up but collapse to the floor. Doctor Kessel immediately calls for a nurse. The nurse walks in, and says,127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNUkIFJyllh
"What is it?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUfjlUhWk6I
Doctor Kessel says,127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU1DhHoNYa9
"This patient is suicidal." I lie on the floor sobbing.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIGI2AsiSai
A few minutes later, a nurse walks back into the room and helps me to my feet. She holds my hand and helps me to a chair. I sit down, and try to stop crying.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkMWSKyJ3LD
I say, "Why me??? Why does this all have to happen to ME??" The nurse looks at me with sympathy, and says,127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4zyJJjRpUC
"I'm sorry, but that's part of the evaluation. We need to find out why you're suicidal. We want to help you."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2MOicGuyMc
I say, "Why did I have to get kidnapped? Why was I the one to be abused? Why did I have to become a murderer? WHY ME??"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcwg7Vu0PHZ
The nurse shakes her head, and says,127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ60Hzr19fPn
"I'm sorry. We'll talk about this after we finish the evaluation. Right now, we need to do some tests." I try to not cry.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIhywNow6eF
I feel so helpless. I feel so out of control, and I can't do anything to change this. I go over to a table, and the nurse helps me remove my clothes. I feel like I'm slowly dying inside. I don't even care.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb6gdp1uGGf
The nurse helps me into a gown, and I lie down on the examination table. She cleans and checks my inner and outer thighs, my genitalia, and my breasts. I try to calm down and breathe normally. The nurse says,127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEOhSEZMdnU
"I need to do a blood draw, and a urine sample. I need your help with this." I comply, and the nurse takes my blood. At this point, I don't even feel the pain. I just want to die.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRp671SOs8y
After a few minutes, the nurse comes back and says,127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHIdE6933CF
"Okay, come with me." I get up and follow the nurse into a different room. I try to maintain my composure. The nurse says, "I need to check your blood pressure. I need you to lay down on the table and get on all fours." I lay down and get on all fours. Suddenly, I start having horrific flashbacks about the kidnapping. My heart rate goes up.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpgM40FPNsk
The nurse says, "Okay, your BP is a little high. I need to do an ultrasound to check your kidneys, and a CAT scan to check your brain." I start to shake and cry. I feel like the world is weighing down on me. I want to give up. The nurse tries to console me, and she says,127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYjJ4K0eB5z
"Everything is going to be okay. You'll see your family soon." I slowly calm down. I start to feel a little more at ease. I breathe deeply and start to fall asleep on the table.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3gmdOlEePq
A few minutes later, I wake up. The nurse is there, and she is smiling at me.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoXsFpEgY9a
I say "Where am I?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU5ZqPj7XQB
"You're in a hospital room. We moved you to a private room because you were so hysterical and it was so crowded. You were also vomiting blood. It's going to be okay."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDg5kypm3G2
I say, "Am I diagnosed with insanity?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI0Eeo0byXY
The nurse smiles sadly, "No, but they're still determining that. It's going to be a few days before they give you a diagnosis. In the meantime, you'll be monitored, and you can have visitors."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlNb3vjG0rT
I say, "I want to see my mom..."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDqqecYkKN1
The nurse interrupts me and says,127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5IW7qSMINz
"I'm sorry, but I need to do some tests. I'm going to be back to let you know when you can have visitors."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgQso4wTo55
"O-okay.." I say as I feel the tears welling up again. The nurse leaves the room, and I cry for a few minutes. I feel so helpless. I can't do anything to help myself.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWLok3F9Vxe
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127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKCrF5kEBWTA few hours later, my mom comes to visit.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡptpdyPJ62F
"M-mom.."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkHl5hHFPFT
My mom walks into the room, and gives me a big hug.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm7dX5tBfJr
"I'm so glad to see you, baby! I've been so worried."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9aavUkbyj5
I say, "I feel like I'm going crazy mom. Why did life have to do this to me?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUACeNCzx6Z
"I know honey. I've been thinking the same thing. They said they're going to keep you here for a few more days, and they're going to keep an eye on you."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiDULpz0rb9
"I-I love you mom," I say as I start crying.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7TRexB63js
"I love you too, sweetie. I want to be there with you. I want to do something to make you feel better. Do you think you could pray with me?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxi85EbrVVF
"Yes.." I say quietly.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGLmM4JSwP6
I say a prayer with my mom, and I feel calm and at ease.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsE1OOzHvHM
After we pray, my mom asks if I want to talk about what happened.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVsum348RzG
I say, "If I start talking about that, I'm going to start sobbing and I won't be able to control myself.."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1JutvIDkwG
"I know honey, but you need to get it out. Get everything out. Don't hold anything in. It's eating at you, and it's making you sick."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXHqZHCCA4N
I say, "Why did that man kidnap me?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOUngJ0faoV
"I don't know honey. We'll find out soon. I'll talk to the doctor when he comes in, and I'll find out what's going on. I promise."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmccaPca9wg
I say, "Once this is all resolved, are the cult members gonna be thrown in prison?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQK4YXwfW7w
"I don't know, honey. I hope so. I don't think there's a jury that would convict them. I'll do what I can to make sure that happens."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9q8JJO34S7
I say, "Okay.."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdacykZO0EB
My mom spends the rest of my visit in the hospital room, and we don't say another word to each other. After my visit is over, I spend a couple of hours in the empty hospital room. I start crying again. I feel so helpless, and I can't do anything to help myself. I don't know when I will get another visit, or if I'll ever get out of this hospital. I cry myself to sleep. I wake up, wishing this was all just a bad dream. I hope that when I get out of the hospital, everything will be back to normal, and I'll just live my life with no problems. The nurse walks into the hospital room.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡroXsKvkF8v
"I'm so sorry to wake you, but I need to speak with you. It's very important."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK3WfuAF66w
I wipe the tears off my face.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgzYG25lO7V
I say, "What is it? What's wrong?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoVqWfCoIdu
"Your tests came back, and you tested positive for.."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrM53fs5aiF
I say, "What? What did I test positive for?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxlbPBhOVeV
"I'm so, so sorry. I wish I could tell you. I really do. You tested positive for.."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6KIYjk8r0W
I say, "Tell me!"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpJ9IjzQTdM
"A sexually transmitted disease. I'm so, so sorry, dear."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4IpeFHVI0J
My heart drops.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKB9TD4ZnlL
I feel so ashamed. I cry myself to sleep again.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2sjqh99JdQ
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127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYV2KYIc39PIn the morning, I get my visitors.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu0HffKmXYs
My sister, Charlotte, visits me. She asks me what's wrong. I can't even answer her. I just cry. I feel so ashamed of myself. Charlotte starts to leave the room.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLzz0stO2GM
I say, "Wait!" She stops.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGdGhNhrPuE
"What is it?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNMdovTtaMe
I say, "I need a hug.." Charlotte wraps her arms around me, and I cry.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsiz6xlDbi3
I eventually gather the strength to tell my sister what the doctor said.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf8sELSKj2q
I say, "The doctor said I have a.. Std..."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH169smZZYz
"I know, sis. I'm so, so sorry."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzC1umsHN55
I cry myself to sleep.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzYa2SOdwGi
The next day, I get another visit from my mom.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwRIjuFvGzx
"How are you doing, honey?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIY9UcdUhqr
I say, "Horrible.."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkRKtXbpfW7
She walks over and sits next to me on the bed.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIgp01PhQv3
"I heard about you testing positive for a sexually transmitted disease. I'm so sorry."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ24puX12JN3
I say, "I'm so ashamed..."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPoDtOIEZuk
"It's not your fault, honey."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPrCFQIUkCQ
I start crying again.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBGj3mVfJPM
"I'll get you some tissues, honey. You can cry on them. Cry your heart out."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeYdRslXC34
I cry myself to sleep in my mother's arms. I wake up the next morning. I'm not as tired as I was yesterday. Maybe the doctor gave me some new medication, or maybe I'm just getting used to being here. I don't feel any emotions. I feel empty and dead inside. I don't care about anything. I don't feel any guilt or shame.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtuee2mIf4N
Maybe I'm dead after all.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWnHb6Pc8CH
Maybe this is what it feels like to be nothing. I get a visit from my lawyer.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9G0m0Mpf8t
"I heard the test results, and I'm here to ask you if you would like to pursue this case. You tested positive for a sexually transmitted disease, so the chances of us winning are pretty slim."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlcUI6lR1TT
"I don't even know anymore," I say as I shed a tear.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8J97JY7DQS
"I understand. If you don't want to pursue this case, then I'll get someone who will."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1TQ0eSzziz
I say, "I still want to win this."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgzFRVXUaU6
"Well, it's up to you, then. I'll go get our legal team, and we can get started."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfqlfy4wxaG
I spend the next few weeks resting in my hospital room. I don't have any visitors. I have forgotten what life is like outside the hospital. I don't even want to leave my hospital room. I spend my days watching reruns of Friends and crying. One day the nurse comes into the room and says, "I've got good news."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2KlTlDe1B6
"Really?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqkT9R1XUkT
"Yeah, your doctor says you can go home today."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMA4gaQ7nDK
I start crying, and I can't stop.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfFb5ciHqFe
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I spend my time at home resting. I don't do anything. One day I decide to walk outside.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJmsEJHY55O
I get out my patio door, and I don't turn around and go back inside. I don't know why, but I just have this urge to walk outside.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXJyCKnA164
I stand in the middle of my lawn.The smell of fresh air makes me emotional. I start crying happy tears. I walk over to my flower bed and pick a few flowers to smell. I smell them, and then throw them in the air and watch them float away. They are so pretty, and they smell so good.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0b22OGHrIa
My mom opens the front door and says, "What are you doing?" I turn around to see her standing there.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ZDaMiarEH
"I wanted to see the flowers."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBgwtVgiv5w
"Why are you out of your room?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIyu7HXOByB
"I don't know. I just felt like walking outside."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhAGhDSOdRB
I say, "I've been cooped up in a room for way too long."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7pTl2PUzTt
"Yeah, I know what you mean," my mom says. She picks me up and gives me a big hug.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUH6V1b82tJ
"Thank you for being you."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhTUgdms5bP
"You don't have to thank me." I see the next-door neighbor's son walk out to get the mail. I look at him fascinated. He has no fear. He doesn't know what it's like to be scared. He doesn't know what it feels like to live in a nightmare.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWIEcLIi2rg
I make a decision.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV3JtZttfRl
I walk up to the neighbor's boy and say, "Hi!"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJrCEfUjz3z
"What's your name?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZCbEgNge4O
"Allisa," I say, smiling.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJhjpC6iQcm
"I'm Carter. What are you doing out of your room?"127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrUWNmCDW4M
I say, "I just wanted to get some fresh air."127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0LTBWmENgZ
"Yeah, I know what you mean. I had this urge to walk outside too." He laughs.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8j6ePcoXtv
I say, "Well I gotta go back inside.." I go back inside and go to bed. I don't know why I feel so empty. I want to fill this void. I want to find something to fill all of this space.127Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHUVKENpDIR
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