You stare out the window at the world outside, the lush green trees, the flowers beginning to bloom for spring, and the grass you have not touched for so long. The cult members walk through the mountain hideaway they call home, dressed in their long yellow robes and living inside small cottages. They all look so happy, and you wonder if any of them even know about you. You've been here for several weeks, living as a pet for their leader whom they call Father, and not once have you been happy during that time. You've mostly just been scared and homesick.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡruebCMY3Qs
Your life as a pet is very degrading. You aren't allowed on furniture, you're not allowed to speak unless spoken to, and you're not allowed to do anything without the permission of Father, whom you are forced to address as Master. You aren't even called by your name. Instead, you are simply called Pet. Right now you're sitting on the ground inside Father's study, which is in a building known as the Community Center, staring out of the window.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz83yqGmHQs
The study is large and furnished with a desk and chair, some bookshelves with many old books, and that's about it. The door to the room creaks open and Father steps inside, his golden hair and eyes sparking in the sunlight. He walks over to his desk and sees you staring out the window.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDLfiD8lUDt
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He sighs and sits down in his chair. "What is it, child?" he asks, with a tone that makes me feel like he is disappointed in me. "Why are you looking out the window?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCqSfRHYBIg
"I just want to go home," I say.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzLTe0iKc7X
Father sighs again. "Child, I know you miss your home, but we're not going anywhere for a while." He sits back in his chair. I start to cry, and Father stares at me.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡerwo1lHOj1
"Why are you crying?" he asks, with a small amount of anger in his voice. I cry even harder.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkEzaawkUNs
Father sighs.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcJUu5C1M2d
I say "I don't want to stay here!"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhCVoeK1J3y
Father gets up from his chair and walks over to me and kneels down in front of me. I look at the ground and Father grabs my chin and forces me to look at him. I look into his eyes. His eyes are cold, like stone. He stares at me with no emotion whatsoever.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgxCgvtitUq
There's no compassion, no sympathy. I'm just a thing to be used. He will use me for his own benefit, and then he will get rid of me. I need to get out of here. I stand up quickly and bolt for the door.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx7G5xPGp6g
"Stop!" he shouts, but I already hear his footsteps behind me. I open the door and run out. I run past the cult members, who only stare at me in awe, some whispering among themselves. I run until I come to a large oak tree. I climb the tree, which is only a few feet away from the ground. I find a branch that I think is strong enough to hold me, and climb up.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5CjeX6PNsJ
I can hear Father's footsteps getting closer. I hide myself in the branches of the tree.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcgSB2Ofnxf
Father comes to the tree, his footsteps getting closer and closer to the tree. He stops, staring at the tree.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk26TtrOEvj
"Pet, come down from the tree."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcyZqMvmb3v
I stay silent.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZM6XV0Mnko
"Pet, I know you're in there. Come down from the tree right now or else I won't only punish you, I'll make your siblings suffer too. Do you want that to happen?" I come down from the tree and land on the ground with a thud. Father grabs me, and I struggle against his grip, but I can't escape.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSji6FB7VTL
"Come with me, child." I am dragged along by Father.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFFrlTPEZsL
I struggle as I walk with him, but I can't get away. We walk for what seems like forever, and then we finally come to a large, circular room. I look around the room. The room is circular, with no windows, and only two doors. One door is at the very center of the room, while the other is at the very edge.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0s2BYhQTj9
I struggle against Father, who only laughs at me. I struggle against him for what seems like an eternity, but he keeps a firm grip on me, and I can't get away. I sigh and decide it's best to just give up.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn32nyzXEXC
Father grabs my chin, and I look at him.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRwc7Rzhzik
"Don't make me have to punish you, child."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7htN7fIESC
I say, "What are you going to do to me?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj7y9kzUSVi
Father smiles. "I'm going to punish you in a way that you'll enjoy." He releases me. I drop to the ground, exhausted..133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr0k6lCnlrg
I say, "Please don't hurt me."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSBxiAFY4x7
Father laughs. "I'm not going to hurt you, child. I'm going to make you scream. I'm going to make you wish you were dead."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzQNeePbiDt
I say, "Please don't!"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTP8mLc9Y2o
Father laughs. "Don't worry, I won't kill you. But I will make you wish you were dead, child."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTZ7iuz8Joa
I say, "What does that mean?" Father laughs. He picks me up and throws me on the bed.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6fnYiOcstF
"You'll find out soon enough, child."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ61c5vEhShB
Then he leaves the room, closing the door behind him. I wait.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuLzXyQ0bCU
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It's the last day of the school year. Finally... I've been waiting for summer vacation since the first day of the school year. I'm almost halfway between the school and my house, feeling happier than ever. Suddenly... darkness. I would have never thought that the last day of my sophomore year would be the last normal day of my life..133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAHEFMIejiI
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I wait for what seems like forever, but he eventually comes back. He sits on the chair by the door. He looks at me.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8kwhH8suNL
"Are you ready, child?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHQWPFSe2Er
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I nod and say, "Y-yes."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJliNVXSvsp
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"Good. Here's what's going to happen. I'm going to bind your hands together. Then I'm going to blindfold you. Then, I'm going to have you stand in the middle of the circle."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwGoGbclq0J
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I say, "Okay.."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2YkjcUWVoJ
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I stand there, and Father ties my hands together, then blindfolds me. Father takes out the blindfold and places it over my eyes. I feel his hands on my shoulders, and start to feel uncomfortable.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcdwKPHQOBN
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I hear him say, "Bend your knees and keep your eyes forward." I do as I'm told.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8z6RQeMyAs
He says "Now, walk forward, slowly."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSMBFZhCcMa
I feel his hands on my lower back and begin walking. I walk forward, and my feet move, taking me forward. My legs continue walking, taking me further and further away from Father. My heart is pounding in my ears. Then, I reach the center of the circle.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE6NVDPxCdm
Father says "Good. Stay there."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Z4ADQPpKG
I feel his hands on my shoulders. I hear him say, "Don't look back, child. It'll make things much worse." I stay there. Then, I hear Father's footsteps. I hear his footsteps stop. I stand perfectly still. Father says, "Well, well, well. Look at you." I wonder what's going on. I don't move, even though I can't see. I wait. I stand perfectly still and wait. I hear his footsteps walking toward me. I wait.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4qj9ZXi45H
I stand perfectly still. His footsteps stop. His hands grab my shoulders, and I tense up. His hands push me down. I fall to the ground, and my head smacks into the cold, hard ground. I wince. I lie there, waiting. I wait for a long time, but then I hear his footsteps. They get louder... closer. My heart rate goes up. I wait. I tense up. I stay still. His footsteps stop.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg9uxNPXW36
He must be right next to me. I hold my breath. I wait. I stay still.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv1Olq63xhO
His hands touch my face. I tense up even more. His hands slide down my body, and my knees get weak. He unbuttons my blouse. His hands slide up my bra. I want to scream. He unzips my pants. His hands slide down my panties. I scream,"Stop!"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMbtp5Pwxjf
"Please!" I whisper.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2B7FPDKX2s
He pulls down my underwear, and he takes his time. His fingers slide inside of me.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqCjJXK0AO5
I scream loudly.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuljpd4VTQN
My scream echoes throughout the room.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfOrjgDKVKm
"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" he shouts.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvf50QAlX4f
His fingers slide faster. I scream louder.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz2W6w3mfJ4
"I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU!" he shouts. I try not to moan.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhmIHJif6Zz
My body shakes. My legs shake. I can't control it. My body gives in to the pleasure. I moan and shake--my body trembles. My moans get louder and louder.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPjn3yfLS7P
I say "P-please s-stop.."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd9NrOLiIKs
He stops for a moment, before sliding his fingers inside of me again. I stay still, and soon, I begin to come down from my orgasm. I lie there, panting. My hands are tied tightly together. I start sobbing.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQkq1bjjs6s
He pulls his fingers out of me. I wince and groan. I'm sore from the orgasm. I lie there, sobbing. I feel him sit down next to me. He unties my hands. I cry harder.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsRBfUWeXki
He pulls the blindfold off of me, and I see that there are several men standing around, staring at me. I try to cover myself, but one of the men pulls the blanket off of me.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbQkTtFhc2c
"What's the matter, huh?" one of the men says.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtty0elSr1P
"Look at her," another says,133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsoqT6ciIHS
I say "Please leave me alone."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgsGj07NdF1
"Let's see if she's a virgin," another says.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWdA2nacBnx
"I'm a virgin," I say, trying to cover myself.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiM4D3wrlv3
"We'll see. Let's see."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxchYanUrIT
I say "No no no.." They laugh.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE4uhi3ewue
"Look at her. She's a dirty little slut," one of them says.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyfXqH0riHY
"Let's see if she's a filthy little cocksucker," another says. I say "Please leave me alone!" They laugh. They grab me. They forcefully violate me. I start sobbing. I'm crying, and I can't stop. My tears are falling down my face.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8uEeK69SJH
They untie me.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRJ8CdbdD5e
I lie there, naked and sobbing. I'm sore, and my butt is sore. I keep crying harder. After a while, I hear a voice.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYLwe2BEH5S
"Ah... you're up," Father says.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBnYzjKz4q5
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"Huh?" I say, confused. I slowly get up.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy21XjCrNc0
"Where were you?" he asks,133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD2q2nKnS8y
I say, "T-they were hurting me...."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIwzlgrPW5L
"I know. We were worried about you. We thought you might be a virgin. You were."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJyCUxp0gjZ
Father smiles.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡazkD9xo0c0
"Get dressed. We have work to do," he says.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgaWarUuuUY
I say, "I can't handle this anymore. I can't stay here any longer. This is too much."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyHX9aTcppa
"I know," Father says. "But you have to. You're my favorite. You can't run away."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF3mcPZS7pi
"I can't stand it anymore," I say, trying to get up.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡywsORKN3Zi
I say, "I don't want to be abused anymore."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ3yHkFrmmT
"I know. But you need to do this. It's for the good of the cult."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo8PODCa0t0
"I'm leaving," I say, trying to walk away.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUbW9qgWeqR
Father grabs my arm. I struggle.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY6Hd8CU6u7
"Look, I know you're upset, but you're going to have to get over it. You need to stop struggling. I won't let you leave."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuzYcCyM1Q3
I say, "Please let me go!"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdoCSwZU8V7
"I'm not letting you go. We need you. I need you. I'm your master, and you're my pet. I own you, and you obey me," Father says. I say, "I will not stay here any longer."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmpmrf5ACSJ
"You will," Father says.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjGTMG2p3Wi
"I said I won't!" I say. Father gets angry. He pulls me to my feet. He slaps me hard across the face.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡasbzcpOg2S
"You WILL!" I start crying hard. I cry as hard as I can, and Father laughs.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsHK2HXoIHE
"I own you," he says, "You obey me."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOknV9yockU
I cry and sob hard. I sob for a long time before Father comes up behind me and slaps me hard.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk6VT4lykoJ
"Stop crying," he says.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAha3sAtRmo
"I can't!"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡymk5y4QWXG
Father grabs me and hits me hard across the face again.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQKYi8OW1dO
"Stop it!" I cry.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEmQ8ai80M4
"I said stop it!" he yells,133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVlU0jjaJBa
"I can't," I say.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYk4ZaisVxW
I say, "I want to kill myself!!!"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQpSzCLnaYd
"NO!" Father screams.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW7mV09z4F9
"I'm not going to hit you anymore. I'm not going to hit you anymore. But you need to stop crying. You need to stop being so pathetic." I slowly stop crying. "You're going to stay here with us. You're going to learn. You're going to obey. You're going to be a good member of the cult. And you're going to love it here."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9nqbqCt7BV
I say, "I would rather kill myself than be here."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFezE1XoxVW
"NO, you wouldn't," Father says,133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn3Hh8g6nF1
"I would. I really would."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjcpJlL2Bda
"If you really loved me you would put me out of my misery," I say with tears in my eyes.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMp72omfTJg
"I do love you. I do. I'd never hurt you. I'd never hurt a single one of my children. You have to believe me."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGaaggNMICs
I say, "At this point, I have zero trust in you. I'm not going to listen to you. I'm going to leave. I'm going to get help."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRLNRmcBHPl
"You're not leaving. You're staying here and you're going to obey."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH7KeLwsSfy
I say, "No I'm not!"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTw1Gztcg32
Father grabs my arm. I shake him off.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7x8mpHh0KL
"You WILL listen to me!" he screams.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmqYVo66WaS
I say "No I won't!!!"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFLcrGyU3eG
"You will!"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeCwMGMAtrs
"I said NO!!!"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaFwSvIcL1e
"I'm going to count to three, and if you don't listen, I'm going to beat you like a dog!"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXTky8dwBbw
I say, "I'm sorry! I'll obey and be a good girl!"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ53O7tRNClh
"I know you will," Father says.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmbohSd3jEv
Father reaches for the whip he keeps behind the door. He cracks it. I flinch, but don't cry.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu5x9KPoqgb
He says "One."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcmv4RA5L8k
I say, "I'll do anything.."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ59aL26YC2Y
"Two."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzjMKV6jcS6
"I'll stay here. I'll do anything," I say.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHWa59vAOCN
"Three."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeLipxRHl8I
I see a gun on the floor. I grab it and put it to my head.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqr4KnTfylb
"No, don't do it," Father says.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIg232p89s1
I say, "If you promise to not hurt me anymore, I promise to do anything you want."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw3GyKg4qYC
"Fine," Father says. He gets up from the chair and walks over to me. He removes the gun from my head and puts it on the bed. I'm relieved. I put my hands behind my back.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf3KmiG1nl6
I let him tie my hands together. I look at him, and he looks at me.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe6CT242lil
"You're going to be good now, aren't you?" he says,133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC76jB5btwZ
I say "Yes."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡloRoZHYiwJ
"I don't want you to fail. I need you. I need you to stay here and obey."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcX8QPydMBx
"Yes," I say.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpeThwdb8J0
"Good girl," he says.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC5HZ3Yj0EK
I say, "Just.. please don't violate my body."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡje33I9bUuF
"I won't," he says.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz8Xf8FWU2f
I stay tied up.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTrlhEtUMNn
"Now," he says,133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7YUs3NzWUu
"Kneel."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1JP0fXOFQs
"Please," I say.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm3G2QuVEtA
I kneel. I do as he says. He steps closer to me, and I feel his breath on my neck.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ43Oho6mfnI
I anticipate that he's going to violate my body.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXU2PS472iR
I just know it.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi2FLJejwU6
And then, he doesn't. He whispers in my ear.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Qn93eod3x
"I have someone coming who will do a better job than me."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWZzqzyIUfh
I stand up, and he turns around. I wonder who he's talking about. I try to block out the image of his penis, but I can't. He walks over to the door and disappears.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHNMXBwNxSR
I'm all alone in the room.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWBITdgUqFJ
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I hear the door open. I look up.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFmSMy05iwo
"Hello," a man says.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6SYjPDHyvr
I recognize him. It's the man who came into my room the first night I was here. I saw him before he abducted me. He walks towards me, and I back up.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3p9DMJ92FX
"Hands behind your back," he says,133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1GJ8z4IYdy
I do as he says. I hear the zip ties being undone.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnUyBWlqmIt
"On your knees," he says. I get on my knees.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaADD1A7akn
"Stay there," he says,133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgSlZyxYzK7
I stay on my knees.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhLVV0mP21B
He comes up to me, and I can feel him unbutton my shirt. He removes my shirt and he puts his hand on my stomach. I gasp. I can feel his fingers on my skin. I can feel his breath on my skin. He puts his other hand on my head and he pushes my head toward his penis.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyjXCkngvm9
I say "No no no."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYa5gL0VyzX
"Do it," he says.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjC9npLy6P2
I say no. He pushes harder.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ37AvCfZdqi
"Do it!" he says.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzvGgDH7QiA
I comply. I hear the zip tie undone.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwBgpvhRFOR
He unzips his pants. I watch as he pulls his pants down. I can see his penis, it's about an inch and a half long.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgPudSxIh9O
"Stay there," he says.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVF7E0LriAb
I stay on my knees.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm3Vz0olt3e
He steps up to me and shoves his penis in my throat. I gag and try to get away.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPJpHUqToMv
"Stop moving."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPUjt95ayy5
I struggle and gag on his penis. He shoves it in deeper. I try to gulp it down.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG2o3tPOuNY
He pulls it out of my throat.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZGxOOIjls5
"What's wrong?" he says.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTRg4cuhS6s
I can't answer. I'm coughing. I cough and gag.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtpDqSUc5ns
"What?" he says,133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMwZWm9a36L
I try to get air. I inhale. I try to get air out.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq2Cj118887
He shoves it back in my throat and I gag on his penis. I cough and vomit. I continue to struggle. He pushes it in even deeper. I have no strength left. My vision goes black. He shoves it out again.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4IVELJJDzM
"Is this too big for you?" he says.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ69Vw5NkZ8
I nod.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCfcERxp55H
"I understand," he says, "If you need to vomit, go ahead. I know how to treat a child who vomited before."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXXQn1wnjfu
I retch. I heave. I vomit again. I finally gain composure.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlFH2NilQrU
He shoves it back in.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5cLlwAElKC
I decide that vomiting once is enough.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡABxojFa9RV
He shoves it in deeper.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0vNXXptuCB
I struggle and fight.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ19rY70dIRl
"Stop fighting me," he says.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF6uT4kcTwS
He cums in my mouth and I spit it out.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW0NhzPKXSb
"Get dressed," he says.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡla7MK1Hzmp
I get dressed. He pushes me out the door and shoves me out the door. He closes it behind me. I take the chance to run away. I run away from the cultists as they try to catch me. They shout at me to stop, but I keep running. I manage to escape them and run away. I run all the way back home. I'm safe at last.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0AL78IEYdS
I say, "Mom? I'm home!"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaetZZ2wHjm
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My mother comes running out of the kitchen.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1y0pHDEcFZ
"Allie! I can't believe it's you. You're home! Come here, I've got something special for you." I run into my mom's arms and hug her. I've been away for so long.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaNBRUgrkqz
"I missed you so much, I was worried about you!" she says.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXKBcJ5RwSd
"I missed you, too." My mother leads me into the kitchen.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuSqnslOZNe
I say, "Where's dad?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmt8haPxRM2
"He's in the living room." I go to the living room. My father is watching television.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjXeXVOZgz3
"Dad, I'm home!" I say. My father turns around and looks at me. I run up and hug my dad.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy9tN2cKfOU
"I missed you so much," he says. My mother hands me a glass of water. I sit down at the table.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzaAFBav6Jt
My father says, "Where have you been?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXHSgqDQoGr
I say, "I was kidnapped by a cult."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQpUHNZUS2X
"Did they hurt you?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj7seyGulDy
"Yeah," I say.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG34LB7qSOv
"I'm sorry."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtIjVeckcXZ
"It's not your fault." I hear a knock on the front door.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbycpJ2zs6c
"Who could that be?" my mother says. My father gets up and walks over to the door. He opens it. Two policemen walk in.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy5zFe5oR2W
"Is Allie in here?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzCGSADLirj
My dad says, "Yes, why?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWGISdHbBUn
"We have some questions for her regarding the kidnapping of a young girl earlier this week," one of the policemen says. "Is she willing to answer some questions?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0c9LMnNEWA
"Of course she is." I walk towards the cops.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDthIZBSX2F
"Do you have any weapons on you?" one of the cops asks.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLnIxEp2IVA
"No." I respond,133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGuiapK0Omt
"Can we come in?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPQ2iUwkhWF
"Sure," I say. The cops follow me into the kitchen. They walk past my dad and sit down at the table. They motion for me to sit down, too.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxzlYD6CJj8
"Okay, why were you kidnapped?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfwoY8i3fcI
I say, "I don't know."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz7x6ydm7WO
"We know that the man you encountered on the road called you by name. Did he tell you his name?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUlYAyhMZnq
"No." I say,133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8LsK5GAwBV
"Are you sure?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV0a43cnMpx
"Yes."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4FKvqoAKYN
I say, "He referred to himself as 'Father'.''133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjjflresM6k
"Did he give you any food or water?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqTsNTZ1t74
"No." I respond.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡANcf0OAjks
"Did he give you any kind of drugs?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLklai2AHvy
"No."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsprE9eQHJH
"What did he do to you?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCpPNvsD8Ti
I say, "He... he sexually assaulted me."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnSKILwYzxo
"Did you fight him?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0DUFhtXp5A
"I tried."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdoeSKES0Cs
"What happened?" I pause, trying to think of an answer.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkyIEKGCNe6
"I think I blacked out."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4wKzASSzW5
"I see."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCCGo8T6qYP
I say, "He severely beat me numerous times.."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyWOCmHeLQR
"And how long were you with him?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBDSDGczrry
"I think about ten hours."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIALu0Sfrf6
"And you only just managed to escape?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR2TDH9HJsk
"Yeah."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL3c0uL9wde
"Do you know where you were?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGtAUC9oXLk
I say "No."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa7LjCX8V0r
"What is the last thing you remember?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS38xdU28F0
"I remember walking down the road."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdIwG6B6KGf
"And then?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ3J6fMhznA
"I don't remember."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOqQAqRAj8q
"Do you know how you got away?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU7jj9DUis4
I say, "I just ran,"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcCWgjwdvTA
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened, from the beginning."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3hQ4CITOmE
I explain what happened to me, starting with the encounter on the road, ending with running away from the cultists.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoKBTML3gpM
I say, "So that's how it all happened."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Y8HDO4VLK
"What do you mean?" one of the cops asks. "I say you blacked out, and then you woke up and ran away. So did he drug you or something?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtlG8XNBvnB
"I don't know." Suddenly I hear gunshots outside the house.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgN18qN4k2F
"What was that?" one of the cops asks,133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs1AsRj7qXE
"Stay here, we're going to check it out." my dad says, and heads outside. I run outside with my dad. He tells me to hide behind a bush.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx4fHGsYZ3a
"Go hide over there," my father points to a bush about thirty feet from the house.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXsS4n8vury
I hide behind the bush and watch the house.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCQXzXmLUQF
I see a man who I recognize as the person who kidnapped me.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1AycLe7Xs9
He has a gun and is shooting at my dad. I watch with tears in my eyes as my dad falls to the ground.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTb5YI0rsa6
"You fucking son of a bitch!" I yell as I charge at my kidnapper. I push him down, and beat him repeatedly in the head with my fist. I then take his gun and shoot him in the head with it.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxIudy2cLNH
I drop to my knees over his body and sob.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ13QrDrXsDQ
After a few minutes the police officers arrive at the house. They rush towards me and place handcuffs on me.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxQpy6h3NFf
I say, "He was my kidnapper! Please, trust me!"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU8ftv7LNNg
"We'll take care of everything, don't worry." one of the officers says,133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWhBjx1g7Hf
"I'm sorry, but we need to take you with us, it's for your own safety." I'm thrown in the back of the cop car.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJthoCFy0tk
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I try to open the door to get out, but the cops slam it shut. I try to bang on the window, but no one seems to notice me, except my mom, standing on the front porch looking at me with tears in her eyes.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdGGchU3Jtf
I sob in the back of the cop car. I am being taken to the police station, and I don't know what to expect.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6t8lorMMl7
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At the police station, I am strip searched and placed in a cell.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4I1UicvAlt
I say, "Please, the man I killed was the one who kidnapped me and murdered my father!"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmjiLSRH1CG
"Calm down, we'll get you a lawyer and he'll take care of everything."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1mkGnry2Qf
"But I didn't do anything wrong!" I collapse on the cell floor and start crying.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX3Qx3ZWiCc
"I'm sorry, we'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB3YHW1JOgD
I don't really know how much time passes, but I am released from the cell after some time.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiC7ulJonAV
"We'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge, I promise." I am taken to a different cell and left alone. I sob and cry for what seems like hours. I cry about what I did, cry about being in prison, cry about being a murderer. Eventually, I stop crying and just sit there on the bed, surrounded by concrete walls. I fall asleep on the jail bed.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu2hAvtGU7T
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I am woken up by a man in a suit.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTexXQQ4qal
"Get up." he says,133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ340BIAhYOP
"Why am I here?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpPtflqx0Ud
"Because you murdered a man, and you tried to murder another."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkaPWitN3em
I say, "He fucking kidnapped me for Christ's sake!"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5GeYUgLkYJ
"Shut the fuck up." He says, "Get dressed. We're getting you a lawyer."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIxcMwWM33N
I am taken to a holding area, a small room with a table in it. A man sits behind the desk.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgEYuCzNWnZ
I sit down.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡawGgdRn3sC
"Okay, how can I help you?" he asks.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUtjwrSKZ9E
"I was kidnapped and assaulted, and I killed someone while trying to escape."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlwn1Wpk7GU
"I see. Do you have a lawyer?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8HXg5dJD53
I say, "No."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHsa2ySxmOU
"I see. Would you like one appointed to you?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQpSSZLrku9
I respond, "Yes."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVWmNIyFtzM
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone. I'll have them call you. A lawyer will be there in a moment." A few moments later, a middle aged woman wearing a dress walks in. I look up.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkmws738glP
"Hello, Miss, do you need a lawyer?" the woman asks.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgatQOi7WX9
"Yes."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoKl8L9yinQ
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone for you, let's just wait a moment."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdwJV8YMWQm
I sit down, and wait a few minutes. Then, a man in a suit walks in,133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSVDqup9KJI
I say, "Hi."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5GU9xVQs0k
The man looks at me, and then walks up to the woman.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFJgjVlmV1j
"Yes, Judge?" the woman asks.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKMINr5KtjK
"Get me a lawyer for this 15 year old girl." the man says.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGrUUBge5jL
"Right away," says the woman.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSNATgA2VWE
She turns to me, "Okay, we'll get you a lawyer. He should be here in a moment. He'll explain everything to you, and he'll help you with your story. You just wait here."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4uY4e7kntL
I say, "Okay."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBlwubQgYVl
A few moments later, a man walks in. He says,133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuo8dHxcImy
"Hello. I'm your lawyer. Now, you can wait here, or you can come with me." I follow the man.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOHgGjf9iAy
I am led down a set of stairs, and into a basement. There, I see a large table. I sit at one of the chairs.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTCxodWrJzv
The man walks into the room, and says, "Okay, why did you murder a man?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6gxCHGnEGw
"He kidnapped me."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsqBl2lLiMP
"Okay, why did you try to murder another?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDaikqp75Nn
I say, "He tried to stab me."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJRU9aeoREU
"Who was he?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlSylgzMFwj
"I don't know."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkcHbaKPdR8
"Where did you get the knife?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn5jw14fNIN
"He had it in his pocket."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn7c8sDNq5T
"Did he threaten you in any way?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ240HzjVkMd
I say "Yes. He frequently beat me and sexually assaulted me."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBabhalZGsi
"Okay, now, that's a new one. Anything else?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0z1MzhcAME
"No."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6RmvgOvK3u
"You sure? Think hard."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4rbaw3csTq
I think for a few moments, trying to remember anything else the man said or did.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQItefOxJqn
I say, "He killed my father."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM39mh0cAGK
"What?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgIzfn6WbqH
I say, "When I ran away and made it back home, the man tracked where I ran to and shot my father."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ19f7JqtGOw
"Your father? I'm very sorry to hear that. You know, I don't think that you're a murderer. I think that you were kidnapped and forced to do what you did." I try to hold back tears. "I'm going to get you a doctor to examine you. I think you might be experiencing some emotional trauma and it's affecting you. Would you like to see a doctor?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1wgUFWyK2D
"Y-yes.." I say shakily.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCBj9CyK0Vs
The man nods, and a man in a suit walks into the room.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf0pUSVCOQj
"Ah, there you are." he says, "I have Doctor Dershian here. He wants to examine you."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWk2pwknHgd
I say, "Okay.."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ebNUKvfiG
The man in the suit leaves the room, and another man enters the room. He is wearing a lab coat.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm6L53iXsI4
He says, "Hello. Why don't you come with me?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn1TbAOF9b6
I follow him.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFVGq4hi4Su
He leads me up the stairs, and into a room. He says,133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoDbB9oKcdW
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxItMzFPtmn
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I say, "A-a man kidnapped me and abused and sexually assaulted m-me..."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0tgup1j6Hs
"Alright. Take a seat."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrVrmxDljHf
The man is Doctor Dershian. He asks me a few questions about the events leading up to the murder, and about my emotional state now.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXrTMnNjS7H
I say, "More than a few times the man made me think about killing myself.."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBc8KRZLu6K
"Really? You tried to kill yourself?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxRQDmKv1cy
"Yes.."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlEdMMi59Cw
"I see. Do you feel suicidal now?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuI9E3rSe6n
I say, "Not really. I'm just really emotionally shattered."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuD2Z1QJ8yx
"Okay, I'll get someone to take you to a counselor. You just wait here," Doctor Dershian says, and walks out of the room.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi1sFPrVSE5
I feel like the whole situation is about to make me explode.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg8A43CUXXK
A few minutes later, Doctor Dershian returns.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS5Lu3nHm3G
I say, "D-doctor.. I-I feel suicidal right n-now..."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1gsKPrEUyA
"Suicidal?" Doctor Dershian asks, "What makes you say that?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAu3BrIZka1
I say, "The situation is just too much for me to handle."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi2f2eX5DBy
"I see. Would you like to go to a counselor?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAouHbViFTv
"Y-yes, please." Doctor Dershian is about to say something, but is interrupted by the door opening. I look up. In walks a man in a white, long, lab coat. He looks very serious. He says,133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8xlLgBHpUC
"I'm Doctor Kessel. I'm here to evaluate you." I try to stand up but collapse to the floor. Doctor Kessel immediately calls for a nurse. The nurse walks in, and says,133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGrNCKYvT7w
"What is it?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0G7MzM0DtW
Doctor Kessel says,133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGQ7BIZ7pem
"This patient is suicidal." I lie on the floor sobbing.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡblwwafDZlL
A few minutes later, a nurse walks back into the room and helps me to my feet. She holds my hand and helps me to a chair. I sit down, and try to stop crying.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkc54ym3GL9
I say, "Why me??? Why does this all have to happen to ME??" The nurse looks at me with sympathy, and says,133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0fTYFePaVE
"I'm sorry, but that's part of the evaluation. We need to find out why you're suicidal. We want to help you."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUFNvIVuJkv
I say, "Why did I have to get kidnapped? Why was I the one to be abused? Why did I have to become a murderer? WHY ME??"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDSFKmutfDf
The nurse shakes her head, and says,133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0THSC3cb7W
"I'm sorry. We'll talk about this after we finish the evaluation. Right now, we need to do some tests." I try to not cry.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcehYPv3Krw
I feel so helpless. I feel so out of control, and I can't do anything to change this. I go over to a table, and the nurse helps me remove my clothes. I feel like I'm slowly dying inside. I don't even care.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ0HnuUcZKM
The nurse helps me into a gown, and I lie down on the examination table. She cleans and checks my inner and outer thighs, my genitalia, and my breasts. I try to calm down and breathe normally. The nurse says,133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB69bepvimk
"I need to do a blood draw, and a urine sample. I need your help with this." I comply, and the nurse takes my blood. At this point, I don't even feel the pain. I just want to die.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQMkE2p0bi3
After a few minutes, the nurse comes back and says,133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9FHqKPs4xR
"Okay, come with me." I get up and follow the nurse into a different room. I try to maintain my composure. The nurse says, "I need to check your blood pressure. I need you to lay down on the table and get on all fours." I lay down and get on all fours. Suddenly, I start having horrific flashbacks about the kidnapping. My heart rate goes up.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSK518LBr3l
The nurse says, "Okay, your BP is a little high. I need to do an ultrasound to check your kidneys, and a CAT scan to check your brain." I start to shake and cry. I feel like the world is weighing down on me. I want to give up. The nurse tries to console me, and she says,133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOqy8YWOEtC
"Everything is going to be okay. You'll see your family soon." I slowly calm down. I start to feel a little more at ease. I breathe deeply and start to fall asleep on the table.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdJQ24eK0Lq
A few minutes later, I wake up. The nurse is there, and she is smiling at me.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHy5iT2ArHO
I say "Where am I?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1RgZXP01pw
"You're in a hospital room. We moved you to a private room because you were so hysterical and it was so crowded. You were also vomiting blood. It's going to be okay."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKmzNQ883C9
I say, "Am I diagnosed with insanity?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡul8KAkfRTU
The nurse smiles sadly, "No, but they're still determining that. It's going to be a few days before they give you a diagnosis. In the meantime, you'll be monitored, and you can have visitors."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAGXhuXKHnh
I say, "I want to see my mom..."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXvwDRSeNxL
The nurse interrupts me and says,133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI3XC1pfXdU
"I'm sorry, but I need to do some tests. I'm going to be back to let you know when you can have visitors."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsX7yN6Es6t
"O-okay.." I say as I feel the tears welling up again. The nurse leaves the room, and I cry for a few minutes. I feel so helpless. I can't do anything to help myself.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx5rXPw2iuY
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A few hours later, my mom comes to visit.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvhRHhCvaXO
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My mom walks into the room, and gives me a big hug.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu8Gmz7D43D
"I'm so glad to see you, baby! I've been so worried."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkLkgJIQVEg
I say, "I feel like I'm going crazy mom. Why did life have to do this to me?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaToRc7BXY6
"I know honey. I've been thinking the same thing. They said they're going to keep you here for a few more days, and they're going to keep an eye on you."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYppFEaDtHd
"I-I love you mom," I say as I start crying.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGzcoGU9Ghh
"I love you too, sweetie. I want to be there with you. I want to do something to make you feel better. Do you think you could pray with me?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzWjffy22IF
"Yes.." I say quietly.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLlFeFUNFnR
I say a prayer with my mom, and I feel calm and at ease.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Qmfi8WzEL
After we pray, my mom asks if I want to talk about what happened.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgABfiQirpp
I say, "If I start talking about that, I'm going to start sobbing and I won't be able to control myself.."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdTaQlfYs1w
"I know honey, but you need to get it out. Get everything out. Don't hold anything in. It's eating at you, and it's making you sick."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9grf22IpUT
I say, "Why did that man kidnap me?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4wlO67dNko
"I don't know honey. We'll find out soon. I'll talk to the doctor when he comes in, and I'll find out what's going on. I promise."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwNz0LZa55d
I say, "Once this is all resolved, are the cult members gonna be thrown in prison?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNZLf3fL2qp
"I don't know, honey. I hope so. I don't think there's a jury that would convict them. I'll do what I can to make sure that happens."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtK64YoNtys
I say, "Okay.."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaDyZP6OMND
My mom spends the rest of my visit in the hospital room, and we don't say another word to each other. After my visit is over, I spend a couple of hours in the empty hospital room. I start crying again. I feel so helpless, and I can't do anything to help myself. I don't know when I will get another visit, or if I'll ever get out of this hospital. I cry myself to sleep. I wake up, wishing this was all just a bad dream. I hope that when I get out of the hospital, everything will be back to normal, and I'll just live my life with no problems. The nurse walks into the hospital room.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQaK0LVPFPg
"I'm so sorry to wake you, but I need to speak with you. It's very important."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZfd6Gi7biO
I wipe the tears off my face.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjtL5DF00iD
I say, "What is it? What's wrong?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnwt9OLPNih
"Your tests came back, and you tested positive for.."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWd0EF9nr9X
I say, "What? What did I test positive for?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBhnTJZgzJ7
"I'm so, so sorry. I wish I could tell you. I really do. You tested positive for.."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb1OAMx5erR
I say, "Tell me!"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡco9uEc88bW
"A sexually transmitted disease. I'm so, so sorry, dear."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEFcM3QUGC8
My heart drops.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡslh7CzmqCu
I feel so ashamed. I cry myself to sleep again.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ha1XTKHFH
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In the morning, I get my visitors.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡawL9tfMhnG
My sister, Charlotte, visits me. She asks me what's wrong. I can't even answer her. I just cry. I feel so ashamed of myself. Charlotte starts to leave the room.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBpAvYbVix6
I say, "Wait!" She stops.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqtAJcE8mY7
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I say, "I need a hug.." Charlotte wraps her arms around me, and I cry.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUZl1wSYGky
I eventually gather the strength to tell my sister what the doctor said.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNjM9LZ1GSd
I say, "The doctor said I have a.. Std..."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIpaSB9ODeE
"I know, sis. I'm so, so sorry."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKcYAFO2WDN
I cry myself to sleep.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJDjCSZRsBp
The next day, I get another visit from my mom.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtjk0hvj8LJ
"How are you doing, honey?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFzZPH9mRK1
I say, "Horrible.."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeRt6lJ7kj9
She walks over and sits next to me on the bed.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQZRoJJ7U9g
"I heard about you testing positive for a sexually transmitted disease. I'm so sorry."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHi4bQ6Jnb8
I say, "I'm so ashamed..."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl38ucfDZ28
"It's not your fault, honey."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyMLM2KekoL
I start crying again.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSSex6TEVR7
"I'll get you some tissues, honey. You can cry on them. Cry your heart out."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMs6RqjfMiD
I cry myself to sleep in my mother's arms. I wake up the next morning. I'm not as tired as I was yesterday. Maybe the doctor gave me some new medication, or maybe I'm just getting used to being here. I don't feel any emotions. I feel empty and dead inside. I don't care about anything. I don't feel any guilt or shame.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoKcZZDx9VA
Maybe I'm dead after all.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvIkMiq1Qfr
Maybe this is what it feels like to be nothing. I get a visit from my lawyer.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7I7Bkq44h3
"I heard the test results, and I'm here to ask you if you would like to pursue this case. You tested positive for a sexually transmitted disease, so the chances of us winning are pretty slim."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF2MdcRVAA0
"I don't even know anymore," I say as I shed a tear.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo8WalV1cVg
"I understand. If you don't want to pursue this case, then I'll get someone who will."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYTn1cOOGU7
I say, "I still want to win this."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlUj82Yp3vg
"Well, it's up to you, then. I'll go get our legal team, and we can get started."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnBrFgq32ox
I spend the next few weeks resting in my hospital room. I don't have any visitors. I have forgotten what life is like outside the hospital. I don't even want to leave my hospital room. I spend my days watching reruns of Friends and crying. One day the nurse comes into the room and says, "I've got good news."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡADfAfrQ821
"Really?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj68O8Kklx4
"Yeah, your doctor says you can go home today."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFkM1wjAAcC
I start crying, and I can't stop.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs45gqxUxns
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I spend my time at home resting. I don't do anything. One day I decide to walk outside.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ50xfC4ljy2
I get out my patio door, and I don't turn around and go back inside. I don't know why, but I just have this urge to walk outside.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuEC3Ki2Yv0
I stand in the middle of my lawn.The smell of fresh air makes me emotional. I start crying happy tears. I walk over to my flower bed and pick a few flowers to smell. I smell them, and then throw them in the air and watch them float away. They are so pretty, and they smell so good.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYaVnqkZjzq
My mom opens the front door and says, "What are you doing?" I turn around to see her standing there.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJYFW0Ng9Id
"I wanted to see the flowers."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKk1Q0WDHx4
"Why are you out of your room?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIa9ad9qkzt
"I don't know. I just felt like walking outside."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxOPEeIl6aQ
I say, "I've been cooped up in a room for way too long."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKzyphNdLAU
"Yeah, I know what you mean," my mom says. She picks me up and gives me a big hug.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgDaVgR8KVS
"Thank you for being you."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPTzITArsgJ
"You don't have to thank me." I see the next-door neighbor's son walk out to get the mail. I look at him fascinated. He has no fear. He doesn't know what it's like to be scared. He doesn't know what it feels like to live in a nightmare.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBQ1iOhVsqy
I make a decision.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhBw3d8DYLn
I walk up to the neighbor's boy and say, "Hi!"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhBuwZF1APp
"What's your name?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMFHVW7wXwd
"Allisa," I say, smiling.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUIMBjbSHdS
"I'm Carter. What are you doing out of your room?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwjcT5vHhvA
I say, "I just wanted to get some fresh air."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2p8EDxeQ35
"Yeah, I know what you mean. I had this urge to walk outside too." He laughs.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAAntQ8uM3x
I say, "Well I gotta go back inside.." I go back inside and go to bed. I don't know why I feel so empty. I want to fill this void. I want to find something to fill all of this space.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU74519O3dk
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Your life as a pet is very degrading. You aren't allowed on furniture, you're not allowed to speak unless spoken to, and you're not allowed to do anything without the permission of Father, whom you are forced to address as Master. You aren't even called by your name. Instead, you are simply called Pet. Right now you're sitting on the ground inside Father's study, which is in a building known as the Community Center, staring out of the window.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz83yqGmHQs
The study is large and furnished with a desk and chair, some bookshelves with many old books, and that's about it. The door to the room creaks open and Father steps inside, his golden hair and eyes sparking in the sunlight. He walks over to his desk and sees you staring out the window.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDLfiD8lUDt
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He sighs and sits down in his chair. "What is it, child?" he asks, with a tone that makes me feel like he is disappointed in me. "Why are you looking out the window?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCqSfRHYBIg
"I just want to go home," I say.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzLTe0iKc7X
Father sighs again. "Child, I know you miss your home, but we're not going anywhere for a while." He sits back in his chair. I start to cry, and Father stares at me.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡerwo1lHOj1
"Why are you crying?" he asks, with a small amount of anger in his voice. I cry even harder.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkEzaawkUNs
Father sighs.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcJUu5C1M2d
I say "I don't want to stay here!"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhCVoeK1J3y
Father gets up from his chair and walks over to me and kneels down in front of me. I look at the ground and Father grabs my chin and forces me to look at him. I look into his eyes. His eyes are cold, like stone. He stares at me with no emotion whatsoever.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgxCgvtitUq
There's no compassion, no sympathy. I'm just a thing to be used. He will use me for his own benefit, and then he will get rid of me. I need to get out of here. I stand up quickly and bolt for the door.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx7G5xPGp6g
"Stop!" he shouts, but I already hear his footsteps behind me. I open the door and run out. I run past the cult members, who only stare at me in awe, some whispering among themselves. I run until I come to a large oak tree. I climb the tree, which is only a few feet away from the ground. I find a branch that I think is strong enough to hold me, and climb up.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5CjeX6PNsJ
I can hear Father's footsteps getting closer. I hide myself in the branches of the tree.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcgSB2Ofnxf
Father comes to the tree, his footsteps getting closer and closer to the tree. He stops, staring at the tree.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk26TtrOEvj
"Pet, come down from the tree."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcyZqMvmb3v
I stay silent.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZM6XV0Mnko
"Pet, I know you're in there. Come down from the tree right now or else I won't only punish you, I'll make your siblings suffer too. Do you want that to happen?" I come down from the tree and land on the ground with a thud. Father grabs me, and I struggle against his grip, but I can't escape.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSji6FB7VTL
"Come with me, child." I am dragged along by Father.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFFrlTPEZsL
I struggle as I walk with him, but I can't get away. We walk for what seems like forever, and then we finally come to a large, circular room. I look around the room. The room is circular, with no windows, and only two doors. One door is at the very center of the room, while the other is at the very edge.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0s2BYhQTj9
I struggle against Father, who only laughs at me. I struggle against him for what seems like an eternity, but he keeps a firm grip on me, and I can't get away. I sigh and decide it's best to just give up.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn32nyzXEXC
Father grabs my chin, and I look at him.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRwc7Rzhzik
"Don't make me have to punish you, child."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7htN7fIESC
I say, "What are you going to do to me?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj7y9kzUSVi
Father smiles. "I'm going to punish you in a way that you'll enjoy." He releases me. I drop to the ground, exhausted..133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr0k6lCnlrg
I say, "Please don't hurt me."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSBxiAFY4x7
Father laughs. "I'm not going to hurt you, child. I'm going to make you scream. I'm going to make you wish you were dead."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzQNeePbiDt
I say, "Please don't!"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTP8mLc9Y2o
Father laughs. "Don't worry, I won't kill you. But I will make you wish you were dead, child."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTZ7iuz8Joa
I say, "What does that mean?" Father laughs. He picks me up and throws me on the bed.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6fnYiOcstF
"You'll find out soon enough, child."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ61c5vEhShB
Then he leaves the room, closing the door behind him. I wait.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuLzXyQ0bCU
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It's the last day of the school year. Finally... I've been waiting for summer vacation since the first day of the school year. I'm almost halfway between the school and my house, feeling happier than ever. Suddenly... darkness. I would have never thought that the last day of my sophomore year would be the last normal day of my life..133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAHEFMIejiI
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133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlEtl0ALQAGI wait for what seems like forever, but he eventually comes back. He sits on the chair by the door. He looks at me.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8kwhH8suNL
"Are you ready, child?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHQWPFSe2Er
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I nod and say, "Y-yes."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJliNVXSvsp
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"Good. Here's what's going to happen. I'm going to bind your hands together. Then I'm going to blindfold you. Then, I'm going to have you stand in the middle of the circle."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwGoGbclq0J
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I say, "Okay.."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2YkjcUWVoJ
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I stand there, and Father ties my hands together, then blindfolds me. Father takes out the blindfold and places it over my eyes. I feel his hands on my shoulders, and start to feel uncomfortable.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcdwKPHQOBN
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I hear him say, "Bend your knees and keep your eyes forward." I do as I'm told.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8z6RQeMyAs
He says "Now, walk forward, slowly."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSMBFZhCcMa
I feel his hands on my lower back and begin walking. I walk forward, and my feet move, taking me forward. My legs continue walking, taking me further and further away from Father. My heart is pounding in my ears. Then, I reach the center of the circle.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE6NVDPxCdm
Father says "Good. Stay there."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Z4ADQPpKG
I feel his hands on my shoulders. I hear him say, "Don't look back, child. It'll make things much worse." I stay there. Then, I hear Father's footsteps. I hear his footsteps stop. I stand perfectly still. Father says, "Well, well, well. Look at you." I wonder what's going on. I don't move, even though I can't see. I wait. I stand perfectly still and wait. I hear his footsteps walking toward me. I wait.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4qj9ZXi45H
I stand perfectly still. His footsteps stop. His hands grab my shoulders, and I tense up. His hands push me down. I fall to the ground, and my head smacks into the cold, hard ground. I wince. I lie there, waiting. I wait for a long time, but then I hear his footsteps. They get louder... closer. My heart rate goes up. I wait. I tense up. I stay still. His footsteps stop.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg9uxNPXW36
He must be right next to me. I hold my breath. I wait. I stay still.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv1Olq63xhO
His hands touch my face. I tense up even more. His hands slide down my body, and my knees get weak. He unbuttons my blouse. His hands slide up my bra. I want to scream. He unzips my pants. His hands slide down my panties. I scream,"Stop!"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMbtp5Pwxjf
"Please!" I whisper.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2B7FPDKX2s
He pulls down my underwear, and he takes his time. His fingers slide inside of me.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqCjJXK0AO5
I scream loudly.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuljpd4VTQN
My scream echoes throughout the room.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfOrjgDKVKm
"SHUT UP! SHUT UP! SHUT UP!" he shouts.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvf50QAlX4f
His fingers slide faster. I scream louder.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz2W6w3mfJ4
"I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU!" he shouts. I try not to moan.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhmIHJif6Zz
My body shakes. My legs shake. I can't control it. My body gives in to the pleasure. I moan and shake--my body trembles. My moans get louder and louder.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPjn3yfLS7P
I say "P-please s-stop.."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd9NrOLiIKs
He stops for a moment, before sliding his fingers inside of me again. I stay still, and soon, I begin to come down from my orgasm. I lie there, panting. My hands are tied tightly together. I start sobbing.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQkq1bjjs6s
He pulls his fingers out of me. I wince and groan. I'm sore from the orgasm. I lie there, sobbing. I feel him sit down next to me. He unties my hands. I cry harder.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsRBfUWeXki
He pulls the blindfold off of me, and I see that there are several men standing around, staring at me. I try to cover myself, but one of the men pulls the blanket off of me.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbQkTtFhc2c
"What's the matter, huh?" one of the men says.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtty0elSr1P
"Look at her," another says,133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsoqT6ciIHS
I say "Please leave me alone."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgsGj07NdF1
"Let's see if she's a virgin," another says.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWdA2nacBnx
"I'm a virgin," I say, trying to cover myself.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiM4D3wrlv3
"We'll see. Let's see."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxchYanUrIT
I say "No no no.." They laugh.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE4uhi3ewue
"Look at her. She's a dirty little slut," one of them says.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyfXqH0riHY
"Let's see if she's a filthy little cocksucker," another says. I say "Please leave me alone!" They laugh. They grab me. They forcefully violate me. I start sobbing. I'm crying, and I can't stop. My tears are falling down my face.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8uEeK69SJH
They untie me.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRJ8CdbdD5e
I lie there, naked and sobbing. I'm sore, and my butt is sore. I keep crying harder. After a while, I hear a voice.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYLwe2BEH5S
"Ah... you're up," Father says.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBnYzjKz4q5
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133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe92amJNtQM"Huh?" I say, confused. I slowly get up.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy21XjCrNc0
"Where were you?" he asks,133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD2q2nKnS8y
I say, "T-they were hurting me...."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIwzlgrPW5L
"I know. We were worried about you. We thought you might be a virgin. You were."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJyCUxp0gjZ
Father smiles.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡazkD9xo0c0
"Get dressed. We have work to do," he says.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgaWarUuuUY
I say, "I can't handle this anymore. I can't stay here any longer. This is too much."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyHX9aTcppa
"I know," Father says. "But you have to. You're my favorite. You can't run away."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF3mcPZS7pi
"I can't stand it anymore," I say, trying to get up.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡywsORKN3Zi
I say, "I don't want to be abused anymore."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ3yHkFrmmT
"I know. But you need to do this. It's for the good of the cult."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo8PODCa0t0
"I'm leaving," I say, trying to walk away.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUbW9qgWeqR
Father grabs my arm. I struggle.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY6Hd8CU6u7
"Look, I know you're upset, but you're going to have to get over it. You need to stop struggling. I won't let you leave."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuzYcCyM1Q3
I say, "Please let me go!"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdoCSwZU8V7
"I'm not letting you go. We need you. I need you. I'm your master, and you're my pet. I own you, and you obey me," Father says. I say, "I will not stay here any longer."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmpmrf5ACSJ
"You will," Father says.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjGTMG2p3Wi
"I said I won't!" I say. Father gets angry. He pulls me to my feet. He slaps me hard across the face.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡasbzcpOg2S
"You WILL!" I start crying hard. I cry as hard as I can, and Father laughs.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsHK2HXoIHE
"I own you," he says, "You obey me."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOknV9yockU
I cry and sob hard. I sob for a long time before Father comes up behind me and slaps me hard.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk6VT4lykoJ
"Stop crying," he says.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAha3sAtRmo
"I can't!"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡymk5y4QWXG
Father grabs me and hits me hard across the face again.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQKYi8OW1dO
"Stop it!" I cry.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEmQ8ai80M4
"I said stop it!" he yells,133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVlU0jjaJBa
"I can't," I say.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYk4ZaisVxW
I say, "I want to kill myself!!!"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQpSzCLnaYd
"NO!" Father screams.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW7mV09z4F9
"I'm not going to hit you anymore. I'm not going to hit you anymore. But you need to stop crying. You need to stop being so pathetic." I slowly stop crying. "You're going to stay here with us. You're going to learn. You're going to obey. You're going to be a good member of the cult. And you're going to love it here."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9nqbqCt7BV
I say, "I would rather kill myself than be here."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFezE1XoxVW
"NO, you wouldn't," Father says,133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn3Hh8g6nF1
"I would. I really would."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjcpJlL2Bda
"If you really loved me you would put me out of my misery," I say with tears in my eyes.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMp72omfTJg
"I do love you. I do. I'd never hurt you. I'd never hurt a single one of my children. You have to believe me."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGaaggNMICs
I say, "At this point, I have zero trust in you. I'm not going to listen to you. I'm going to leave. I'm going to get help."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRLNRmcBHPl
"You're not leaving. You're staying here and you're going to obey."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH7KeLwsSfy
I say, "No I'm not!"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTw1Gztcg32
Father grabs my arm. I shake him off.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7x8mpHh0KL
"You WILL listen to me!" he screams.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmqYVo66WaS
I say "No I won't!!!"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFLcrGyU3eG
"You will!"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeCwMGMAtrs
"I said NO!!!"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaFwSvIcL1e
"I'm going to count to three, and if you don't listen, I'm going to beat you like a dog!"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXTky8dwBbw
I say, "I'm sorry! I'll obey and be a good girl!"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ53O7tRNClh
"I know you will," Father says.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmbohSd3jEv
Father reaches for the whip he keeps behind the door. He cracks it. I flinch, but don't cry.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu5x9KPoqgb
He says "One."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcmv4RA5L8k
I say, "I'll do anything.."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ59aL26YC2Y
"Two."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzjMKV6jcS6
"I'll stay here. I'll do anything," I say.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHWa59vAOCN
"Three."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeLipxRHl8I
I see a gun on the floor. I grab it and put it to my head.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqr4KnTfylb
"No, don't do it," Father says.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIg232p89s1
I say, "If you promise to not hurt me anymore, I promise to do anything you want."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw3GyKg4qYC
"Fine," Father says. He gets up from the chair and walks over to me. He removes the gun from my head and puts it on the bed. I'm relieved. I put my hands behind my back.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf3KmiG1nl6
I let him tie my hands together. I look at him, and he looks at me.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe6CT242lil
"You're going to be good now, aren't you?" he says,133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC76jB5btwZ
I say "Yes."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡloRoZHYiwJ
"I don't want you to fail. I need you. I need you to stay here and obey."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcX8QPydMBx
"Yes," I say.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpeThwdb8J0
"Good girl," he says.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC5HZ3Yj0EK
I say, "Just.. please don't violate my body."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡje33I9bUuF
"I won't," he says.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz8Xf8FWU2f
I stay tied up.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTrlhEtUMNn
"Now," he says,133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7YUs3NzWUu
"Kneel."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1JP0fXOFQs
"Please," I say.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm3G2QuVEtA
I kneel. I do as he says. He steps closer to me, and I feel his breath on my neck.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ43Oho6mfnI
I anticipate that he's going to violate my body.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXU2PS472iR
I just know it.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi2FLJejwU6
And then, he doesn't. He whispers in my ear.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Qn93eod3x
"I have someone coming who will do a better job than me."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWZzqzyIUfh
I stand up, and he turns around. I wonder who he's talking about. I try to block out the image of his penis, but I can't. He walks over to the door and disappears.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHNMXBwNxSR
I'm all alone in the room.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWBITdgUqFJ
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133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcBsV97AB4CI hear the door open. I look up.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFmSMy05iwo
"Hello," a man says.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6SYjPDHyvr
I recognize him. It's the man who came into my room the first night I was here. I saw him before he abducted me. He walks towards me, and I back up.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3p9DMJ92FX
"Hands behind your back," he says,133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1GJ8z4IYdy
I do as he says. I hear the zip ties being undone.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnUyBWlqmIt
"On your knees," he says. I get on my knees.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaADD1A7akn
"Stay there," he says,133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgSlZyxYzK7
I stay on my knees.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhLVV0mP21B
He comes up to me, and I can feel him unbutton my shirt. He removes my shirt and he puts his hand on my stomach. I gasp. I can feel his fingers on my skin. I can feel his breath on my skin. He puts his other hand on my head and he pushes my head toward his penis.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyjXCkngvm9
I say "No no no."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYa5gL0VyzX
"Do it," he says.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjC9npLy6P2
I say no. He pushes harder.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ37AvCfZdqi
"Do it!" he says.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzvGgDH7QiA
I comply. I hear the zip tie undone.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwBgpvhRFOR
He unzips his pants. I watch as he pulls his pants down. I can see his penis, it's about an inch and a half long.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgPudSxIh9O
"Stay there," he says.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVF7E0LriAb
I stay on my knees.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm3Vz0olt3e
He steps up to me and shoves his penis in my throat. I gag and try to get away.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPJpHUqToMv
"Stop moving."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPUjt95ayy5
I struggle and gag on his penis. He shoves it in deeper. I try to gulp it down.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG2o3tPOuNY
He pulls it out of my throat.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZGxOOIjls5
"What's wrong?" he says.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTRg4cuhS6s
I can't answer. I'm coughing. I cough and gag.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtpDqSUc5ns
"What?" he says,133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMwZWm9a36L
I try to get air. I inhale. I try to get air out.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq2Cj118887
He shoves it back in my throat and I gag on his penis. I cough and vomit. I continue to struggle. He pushes it in even deeper. I have no strength left. My vision goes black. He shoves it out again.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4IVELJJDzM
"Is this too big for you?" he says.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ69Vw5NkZ8
I nod.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCfcERxp55H
"I understand," he says, "If you need to vomit, go ahead. I know how to treat a child who vomited before."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXXQn1wnjfu
I retch. I heave. I vomit again. I finally gain composure.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlFH2NilQrU
He shoves it back in.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5cLlwAElKC
I decide that vomiting once is enough.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡABxojFa9RV
He shoves it in deeper.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0vNXXptuCB
I struggle and fight.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ19rY70dIRl
"Stop fighting me," he says.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF6uT4kcTwS
He cums in my mouth and I spit it out.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW0NhzPKXSb
"Get dressed," he says.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡla7MK1Hzmp
I get dressed. He pushes me out the door and shoves me out the door. He closes it behind me. I take the chance to run away. I run away from the cultists as they try to catch me. They shout at me to stop, but I keep running. I manage to escape them and run away. I run all the way back home. I'm safe at last.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0AL78IEYdS
I say, "Mom? I'm home!"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaetZZ2wHjm
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133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM5hOsaUZd9133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeVUQGObHxU
My mother comes running out of the kitchen.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1y0pHDEcFZ
"Allie! I can't believe it's you. You're home! Come here, I've got something special for you." I run into my mom's arms and hug her. I've been away for so long.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaNBRUgrkqz
"I missed you so much, I was worried about you!" she says.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXKBcJ5RwSd
"I missed you, too." My mother leads me into the kitchen.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuSqnslOZNe
I say, "Where's dad?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmt8haPxRM2
"He's in the living room." I go to the living room. My father is watching television.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjXeXVOZgz3
"Dad, I'm home!" I say. My father turns around and looks at me. I run up and hug my dad.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy9tN2cKfOU
"I missed you so much," he says. My mother hands me a glass of water. I sit down at the table.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzaAFBav6Jt
My father says, "Where have you been?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXHSgqDQoGr
I say, "I was kidnapped by a cult."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQpUHNZUS2X
"Did they hurt you?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj7seyGulDy
"Yeah," I say.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG34LB7qSOv
"I'm sorry."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtIjVeckcXZ
"It's not your fault." I hear a knock on the front door.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbycpJ2zs6c
"Who could that be?" my mother says. My father gets up and walks over to the door. He opens it. Two policemen walk in.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy5zFe5oR2W
"Is Allie in here?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzCGSADLirj
My dad says, "Yes, why?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWGISdHbBUn
"We have some questions for her regarding the kidnapping of a young girl earlier this week," one of the policemen says. "Is she willing to answer some questions?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0c9LMnNEWA
"Of course she is." I walk towards the cops.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDthIZBSX2F
"Do you have any weapons on you?" one of the cops asks.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLnIxEp2IVA
"No." I respond,133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGuiapK0Omt
"Can we come in?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPQ2iUwkhWF
"Sure," I say. The cops follow me into the kitchen. They walk past my dad and sit down at the table. They motion for me to sit down, too.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxzlYD6CJj8
"Okay, why were you kidnapped?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfwoY8i3fcI
I say, "I don't know."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz7x6ydm7WO
"We know that the man you encountered on the road called you by name. Did he tell you his name?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUlYAyhMZnq
"No." I say,133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8LsK5GAwBV
"Are you sure?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV0a43cnMpx
"Yes."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4FKvqoAKYN
I say, "He referred to himself as 'Father'.''133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjjflresM6k
"Did he give you any food or water?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqTsNTZ1t74
"No." I respond.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡANcf0OAjks
"Did he give you any kind of drugs?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLklai2AHvy
"No."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsprE9eQHJH
"What did he do to you?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCpPNvsD8Ti
I say, "He... he sexually assaulted me."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnSKILwYzxo
"Did you fight him?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0DUFhtXp5A
"I tried."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdoeSKES0Cs
"What happened?" I pause, trying to think of an answer.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkyIEKGCNe6
"I think I blacked out."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4wKzASSzW5
"I see."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCCGo8T6qYP
I say, "He severely beat me numerous times.."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyWOCmHeLQR
"And how long were you with him?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBDSDGczrry
"I think about ten hours."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIALu0Sfrf6
"And you only just managed to escape?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR2TDH9HJsk
"Yeah."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL3c0uL9wde
"Do you know where you were?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGtAUC9oXLk
I say "No."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa7LjCX8V0r
"What is the last thing you remember?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS38xdU28F0
"I remember walking down the road."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdIwG6B6KGf
"And then?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ3J6fMhznA
"I don't remember."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOqQAqRAj8q
"Do you know how you got away?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU7jj9DUis4
I say, "I just ran,"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcCWgjwdvTA
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened, from the beginning."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3hQ4CITOmE
I explain what happened to me, starting with the encounter on the road, ending with running away from the cultists.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoKBTML3gpM
I say, "So that's how it all happened."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Y8HDO4VLK
"What do you mean?" one of the cops asks. "I say you blacked out, and then you woke up and ran away. So did he drug you or something?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtlG8XNBvnB
"I don't know." Suddenly I hear gunshots outside the house.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgN18qN4k2F
"What was that?" one of the cops asks,133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs1AsRj7qXE
"Stay here, we're going to check it out." my dad says, and heads outside. I run outside with my dad. He tells me to hide behind a bush.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx4fHGsYZ3a
"Go hide over there," my father points to a bush about thirty feet from the house.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXsS4n8vury
I hide behind the bush and watch the house.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCQXzXmLUQF
I see a man who I recognize as the person who kidnapped me.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1AycLe7Xs9
He has a gun and is shooting at my dad. I watch with tears in my eyes as my dad falls to the ground.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTb5YI0rsa6
"You fucking son of a bitch!" I yell as I charge at my kidnapper. I push him down, and beat him repeatedly in the head with my fist. I then take his gun and shoot him in the head with it.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxIudy2cLNH
I drop to my knees over his body and sob.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ13QrDrXsDQ
After a few minutes the police officers arrive at the house. They rush towards me and place handcuffs on me.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxQpy6h3NFf
I say, "He was my kidnapper! Please, trust me!"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU8ftv7LNNg
"We'll take care of everything, don't worry." one of the officers says,133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWhBjx1g7Hf
"I'm sorry, but we need to take you with us, it's for your own safety." I'm thrown in the back of the cop car.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJthoCFy0tk
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I try to open the door to get out, but the cops slam it shut. I try to bang on the window, but no one seems to notice me, except my mom, standing on the front porch looking at me with tears in her eyes.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdGGchU3Jtf
I sob in the back of the cop car. I am being taken to the police station, and I don't know what to expect.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6t8lorMMl7
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133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ44sWfC2IeUAt the police station, I am strip searched and placed in a cell.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4I1UicvAlt
I say, "Please, the man I killed was the one who kidnapped me and murdered my father!"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmjiLSRH1CG
"Calm down, we'll get you a lawyer and he'll take care of everything."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1mkGnry2Qf
"But I didn't do anything wrong!" I collapse on the cell floor and start crying.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX3Qx3ZWiCc
"I'm sorry, we'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB3YHW1JOgD
I don't really know how much time passes, but I am released from the cell after some time.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiC7ulJonAV
"We'll get you someone who can explain it to the judge, I promise." I am taken to a different cell and left alone. I sob and cry for what seems like hours. I cry about what I did, cry about being in prison, cry about being a murderer. Eventually, I stop crying and just sit there on the bed, surrounded by concrete walls. I fall asleep on the jail bed.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu2hAvtGU7T
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I am woken up by a man in a suit.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTexXQQ4qal
"Get up." he says,133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ340BIAhYOP
"Why am I here?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpPtflqx0Ud
"Because you murdered a man, and you tried to murder another."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkaPWitN3em
I say, "He fucking kidnapped me for Christ's sake!"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5GeYUgLkYJ
"Shut the fuck up." He says, "Get dressed. We're getting you a lawyer."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIxcMwWM33N
I am taken to a holding area, a small room with a table in it. A man sits behind the desk.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgEYuCzNWnZ
I sit down.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡawGgdRn3sC
"Okay, how can I help you?" he asks.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUtjwrSKZ9E
"I was kidnapped and assaulted, and I killed someone while trying to escape."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlwn1Wpk7GU
"I see. Do you have a lawyer?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8HXg5dJD53
I say, "No."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHsa2ySxmOU
"I see. Would you like one appointed to you?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQpSSZLrku9
I respond, "Yes."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVWmNIyFtzM
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone. I'll have them call you. A lawyer will be there in a moment." A few moments later, a middle aged woman wearing a dress walks in. I look up.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkmws738glP
"Hello, Miss, do you need a lawyer?" the woman asks.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgatQOi7WX9
"Yes."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoKl8L9yinQ
"Okay, I'll get the judge on the phone for you, let's just wait a moment."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdwJV8YMWQm
I sit down, and wait a few minutes. Then, a man in a suit walks in,133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSVDqup9KJI
I say, "Hi."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5GU9xVQs0k
The man looks at me, and then walks up to the woman.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFJgjVlmV1j
"Yes, Judge?" the woman asks.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKMINr5KtjK
"Get me a lawyer for this 15 year old girl." the man says.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGrUUBge5jL
"Right away," says the woman.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSNATgA2VWE
She turns to me, "Okay, we'll get you a lawyer. He should be here in a moment. He'll explain everything to you, and he'll help you with your story. You just wait here."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4uY4e7kntL
I say, "Okay."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBlwubQgYVl
A few moments later, a man walks in. He says,133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuo8dHxcImy
"Hello. I'm your lawyer. Now, you can wait here, or you can come with me." I follow the man.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOHgGjf9iAy
I am led down a set of stairs, and into a basement. There, I see a large table. I sit at one of the chairs.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTCxodWrJzv
The man walks into the room, and says, "Okay, why did you murder a man?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6gxCHGnEGw
"He kidnapped me."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsqBl2lLiMP
"Okay, why did you try to murder another?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDaikqp75Nn
I say, "He tried to stab me."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJRU9aeoREU
"Who was he?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlSylgzMFwj
"I don't know."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkcHbaKPdR8
"Where did you get the knife?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn5jw14fNIN
"He had it in his pocket."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn7c8sDNq5T
"Did he threaten you in any way?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ240HzjVkMd
I say "Yes. He frequently beat me and sexually assaulted me."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBabhalZGsi
"Okay, now, that's a new one. Anything else?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0z1MzhcAME
"No."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6RmvgOvK3u
"You sure? Think hard."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4rbaw3csTq
I think for a few moments, trying to remember anything else the man said or did.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQItefOxJqn
I say, "He killed my father."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM39mh0cAGK
"What?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgIzfn6WbqH
I say, "When I ran away and made it back home, the man tracked where I ran to and shot my father."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ19f7JqtGOw
"Your father? I'm very sorry to hear that. You know, I don't think that you're a murderer. I think that you were kidnapped and forced to do what you did." I try to hold back tears. "I'm going to get you a doctor to examine you. I think you might be experiencing some emotional trauma and it's affecting you. Would you like to see a doctor?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1wgUFWyK2D
"Y-yes.." I say shakily.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCBj9CyK0Vs
The man nods, and a man in a suit walks into the room.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf0pUSVCOQj
"Ah, there you are." he says, "I have Doctor Dershian here. He wants to examine you."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWk2pwknHgd
I say, "Okay.."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ebNUKvfiG
The man in the suit leaves the room, and another man enters the room. He is wearing a lab coat.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm6L53iXsI4
He says, "Hello. Why don't you come with me?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn1TbAOF9b6
I follow him.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFVGq4hi4Su
He leads me up the stairs, and into a room. He says,133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoDbB9oKcdW
"Okay, why don't you tell me what happened?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxItMzFPtmn
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I say, "A-a man kidnapped me and abused and sexually assaulted m-me..."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0tgup1j6Hs
"Alright. Take a seat."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrVrmxDljHf
The man is Doctor Dershian. He asks me a few questions about the events leading up to the murder, and about my emotional state now.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXrTMnNjS7H
I say, "More than a few times the man made me think about killing myself.."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBc8KRZLu6K
"Really? You tried to kill yourself?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxRQDmKv1cy
"Yes.."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlEdMMi59Cw
"I see. Do you feel suicidal now?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuI9E3rSe6n
I say, "Not really. I'm just really emotionally shattered."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuD2Z1QJ8yx
"Okay, I'll get someone to take you to a counselor. You just wait here," Doctor Dershian says, and walks out of the room.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi1sFPrVSE5
I feel like the whole situation is about to make me explode.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg8A43CUXXK
A few minutes later, Doctor Dershian returns.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS5Lu3nHm3G
I say, "D-doctor.. I-I feel suicidal right n-now..."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1gsKPrEUyA
"Suicidal?" Doctor Dershian asks, "What makes you say that?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAu3BrIZka1
I say, "The situation is just too much for me to handle."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi2f2eX5DBy
"I see. Would you like to go to a counselor?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAouHbViFTv
"Y-yes, please." Doctor Dershian is about to say something, but is interrupted by the door opening. I look up. In walks a man in a white, long, lab coat. He looks very serious. He says,133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8xlLgBHpUC
"I'm Doctor Kessel. I'm here to evaluate you." I try to stand up but collapse to the floor. Doctor Kessel immediately calls for a nurse. The nurse walks in, and says,133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGrNCKYvT7w
"What is it?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0G7MzM0DtW
Doctor Kessel says,133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGQ7BIZ7pem
"This patient is suicidal." I lie on the floor sobbing.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡblwwafDZlL
A few minutes later, a nurse walks back into the room and helps me to my feet. She holds my hand and helps me to a chair. I sit down, and try to stop crying.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkc54ym3GL9
I say, "Why me??? Why does this all have to happen to ME??" The nurse looks at me with sympathy, and says,133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0fTYFePaVE
"I'm sorry, but that's part of the evaluation. We need to find out why you're suicidal. We want to help you."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUFNvIVuJkv
I say, "Why did I have to get kidnapped? Why was I the one to be abused? Why did I have to become a murderer? WHY ME??"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDSFKmutfDf
The nurse shakes her head, and says,133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0THSC3cb7W
"I'm sorry. We'll talk about this after we finish the evaluation. Right now, we need to do some tests." I try to not cry.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcehYPv3Krw
I feel so helpless. I feel so out of control, and I can't do anything to change this. I go over to a table, and the nurse helps me remove my clothes. I feel like I'm slowly dying inside. I don't even care.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ0HnuUcZKM
The nurse helps me into a gown, and I lie down on the examination table. She cleans and checks my inner and outer thighs, my genitalia, and my breasts. I try to calm down and breathe normally. The nurse says,133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB69bepvimk
"I need to do a blood draw, and a urine sample. I need your help with this." I comply, and the nurse takes my blood. At this point, I don't even feel the pain. I just want to die.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQMkE2p0bi3
After a few minutes, the nurse comes back and says,133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9FHqKPs4xR
"Okay, come with me." I get up and follow the nurse into a different room. I try to maintain my composure. The nurse says, "I need to check your blood pressure. I need you to lay down on the table and get on all fours." I lay down and get on all fours. Suddenly, I start having horrific flashbacks about the kidnapping. My heart rate goes up.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSK518LBr3l
The nurse says, "Okay, your BP is a little high. I need to do an ultrasound to check your kidneys, and a CAT scan to check your brain." I start to shake and cry. I feel like the world is weighing down on me. I want to give up. The nurse tries to console me, and she says,133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOqy8YWOEtC
"Everything is going to be okay. You'll see your family soon." I slowly calm down. I start to feel a little more at ease. I breathe deeply and start to fall asleep on the table.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdJQ24eK0Lq
A few minutes later, I wake up. The nurse is there, and she is smiling at me.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHy5iT2ArHO
I say "Where am I?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1RgZXP01pw
"You're in a hospital room. We moved you to a private room because you were so hysterical and it was so crowded. You were also vomiting blood. It's going to be okay."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKmzNQ883C9
I say, "Am I diagnosed with insanity?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡul8KAkfRTU
The nurse smiles sadly, "No, but they're still determining that. It's going to be a few days before they give you a diagnosis. In the meantime, you'll be monitored, and you can have visitors."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAGXhuXKHnh
I say, "I want to see my mom..."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXvwDRSeNxL
The nurse interrupts me and says,133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI3XC1pfXdU
"I'm sorry, but I need to do some tests. I'm going to be back to let you know when you can have visitors."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsX7yN6Es6t
"O-okay.." I say as I feel the tears welling up again. The nurse leaves the room, and I cry for a few minutes. I feel so helpless. I can't do anything to help myself.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx5rXPw2iuY
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133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZyR3a7P532A few hours later, my mom comes to visit.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvhRHhCvaXO
"M-mom.."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm0I8rPxnDc
My mom walks into the room, and gives me a big hug.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu8Gmz7D43D
"I'm so glad to see you, baby! I've been so worried."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkLkgJIQVEg
I say, "I feel like I'm going crazy mom. Why did life have to do this to me?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaToRc7BXY6
"I know honey. I've been thinking the same thing. They said they're going to keep you here for a few more days, and they're going to keep an eye on you."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYppFEaDtHd
"I-I love you mom," I say as I start crying.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGzcoGU9Ghh
"I love you too, sweetie. I want to be there with you. I want to do something to make you feel better. Do you think you could pray with me?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzWjffy22IF
"Yes.." I say quietly.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLlFeFUNFnR
I say a prayer with my mom, and I feel calm and at ease.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Qmfi8WzEL
After we pray, my mom asks if I want to talk about what happened.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgABfiQirpp
I say, "If I start talking about that, I'm going to start sobbing and I won't be able to control myself.."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdTaQlfYs1w
"I know honey, but you need to get it out. Get everything out. Don't hold anything in. It's eating at you, and it's making you sick."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9grf22IpUT
I say, "Why did that man kidnap me?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4wlO67dNko
"I don't know honey. We'll find out soon. I'll talk to the doctor when he comes in, and I'll find out what's going on. I promise."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwNz0LZa55d
I say, "Once this is all resolved, are the cult members gonna be thrown in prison?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNZLf3fL2qp
"I don't know, honey. I hope so. I don't think there's a jury that would convict them. I'll do what I can to make sure that happens."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtK64YoNtys
I say, "Okay.."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaDyZP6OMND
My mom spends the rest of my visit in the hospital room, and we don't say another word to each other. After my visit is over, I spend a couple of hours in the empty hospital room. I start crying again. I feel so helpless, and I can't do anything to help myself. I don't know when I will get another visit, or if I'll ever get out of this hospital. I cry myself to sleep. I wake up, wishing this was all just a bad dream. I hope that when I get out of the hospital, everything will be back to normal, and I'll just live my life with no problems. The nurse walks into the hospital room.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQaK0LVPFPg
"I'm so sorry to wake you, but I need to speak with you. It's very important."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZfd6Gi7biO
I wipe the tears off my face.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjtL5DF00iD
I say, "What is it? What's wrong?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnwt9OLPNih
"Your tests came back, and you tested positive for.."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWd0EF9nr9X
I say, "What? What did I test positive for?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBhnTJZgzJ7
"I'm so, so sorry. I wish I could tell you. I really do. You tested positive for.."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb1OAMx5erR
I say, "Tell me!"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡco9uEc88bW
"A sexually transmitted disease. I'm so, so sorry, dear."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEFcM3QUGC8
My heart drops.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡslh7CzmqCu
I feel so ashamed. I cry myself to sleep again.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ha1XTKHFH
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133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHJ7efzsSpjIn the morning, I get my visitors.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡawL9tfMhnG
My sister, Charlotte, visits me. She asks me what's wrong. I can't even answer her. I just cry. I feel so ashamed of myself. Charlotte starts to leave the room.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBpAvYbVix6
I say, "Wait!" She stops.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqtAJcE8mY7
"What is it?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwfGd0Qh7nj
I say, "I need a hug.." Charlotte wraps her arms around me, and I cry.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUZl1wSYGky
I eventually gather the strength to tell my sister what the doctor said.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNjM9LZ1GSd
I say, "The doctor said I have a.. Std..."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIpaSB9ODeE
"I know, sis. I'm so, so sorry."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKcYAFO2WDN
I cry myself to sleep.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJDjCSZRsBp
The next day, I get another visit from my mom.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtjk0hvj8LJ
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I say, "Horrible.."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeRt6lJ7kj9
She walks over and sits next to me on the bed.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQZRoJJ7U9g
"I heard about you testing positive for a sexually transmitted disease. I'm so sorry."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHi4bQ6Jnb8
I say, "I'm so ashamed..."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl38ucfDZ28
"It's not your fault, honey."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyMLM2KekoL
I start crying again.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSSex6TEVR7
"I'll get you some tissues, honey. You can cry on them. Cry your heart out."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMs6RqjfMiD
I cry myself to sleep in my mother's arms. I wake up the next morning. I'm not as tired as I was yesterday. Maybe the doctor gave me some new medication, or maybe I'm just getting used to being here. I don't feel any emotions. I feel empty and dead inside. I don't care about anything. I don't feel any guilt or shame.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoKcZZDx9VA
Maybe I'm dead after all.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvIkMiq1Qfr
Maybe this is what it feels like to be nothing. I get a visit from my lawyer.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7I7Bkq44h3
"I heard the test results, and I'm here to ask you if you would like to pursue this case. You tested positive for a sexually transmitted disease, so the chances of us winning are pretty slim."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF2MdcRVAA0
"I don't even know anymore," I say as I shed a tear.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo8WalV1cVg
"I understand. If you don't want to pursue this case, then I'll get someone who will."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYTn1cOOGU7
I say, "I still want to win this."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlUj82Yp3vg
"Well, it's up to you, then. I'll go get our legal team, and we can get started."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnBrFgq32ox
I spend the next few weeks resting in my hospital room. I don't have any visitors. I have forgotten what life is like outside the hospital. I don't even want to leave my hospital room. I spend my days watching reruns of Friends and crying. One day the nurse comes into the room and says, "I've got good news."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡADfAfrQ821
"Really?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj68O8Kklx4
"Yeah, your doctor says you can go home today."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFkM1wjAAcC
I start crying, and I can't stop.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs45gqxUxns
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I spend my time at home resting. I don't do anything. One day I decide to walk outside.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ50xfC4ljy2
I get out my patio door, and I don't turn around and go back inside. I don't know why, but I just have this urge to walk outside.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuEC3Ki2Yv0
I stand in the middle of my lawn.The smell of fresh air makes me emotional. I start crying happy tears. I walk over to my flower bed and pick a few flowers to smell. I smell them, and then throw them in the air and watch them float away. They are so pretty, and they smell so good.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYaVnqkZjzq
My mom opens the front door and says, "What are you doing?" I turn around to see her standing there.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJYFW0Ng9Id
"I wanted to see the flowers."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKk1Q0WDHx4
"Why are you out of your room?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIa9ad9qkzt
"I don't know. I just felt like walking outside."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxOPEeIl6aQ
I say, "I've been cooped up in a room for way too long."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKzyphNdLAU
"Yeah, I know what you mean," my mom says. She picks me up and gives me a big hug.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgDaVgR8KVS
"Thank you for being you."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPTzITArsgJ
"You don't have to thank me." I see the next-door neighbor's son walk out to get the mail. I look at him fascinated. He has no fear. He doesn't know what it's like to be scared. He doesn't know what it feels like to live in a nightmare.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBQ1iOhVsqy
I make a decision.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhBw3d8DYLn
I walk up to the neighbor's boy and say, "Hi!"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhBuwZF1APp
"What's your name?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMFHVW7wXwd
"Allisa," I say, smiling.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUIMBjbSHdS
"I'm Carter. What are you doing out of your room?"133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwjcT5vHhvA
I say, "I just wanted to get some fresh air."133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2p8EDxeQ35
"Yeah, I know what you mean. I had this urge to walk outside too." He laughs.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAAntQ8uM3x
I say, "Well I gotta go back inside.." I go back inside and go to bed. I don't know why I feel so empty. I want to fill this void. I want to find something to fill all of this space.133Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU74519O3dk
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