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突然這樣問好像有點唐突，但是我就只問一句：接下來，我還可以去哪兒？515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5sLKm9hsZE
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「嗡隆……」515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7y0rsgvTrq
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月台的列車早已經消失在路軌的盡頭，那只是風聲在軌道間捲起的悲鳴，如哭泣，如哀號。白晝時是夢想王國入口的迪士尼站變得冷清，只剩下漸漸遠去的列車泛起的勁風餘浪清散在晚風間。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsP1BqZuQnp
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錯過尾班車了…呢。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6mybbukBdQ
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左顧右盼，空蕩蕩的月台就只有我一人。樂園早已關門，這只因樂園而存在的車站馬上變成了前不著村，後不著店的孤島。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7lTealvid3
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接下來，我還可以去哪兒？515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcKrLiFye8Z
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真是的，解僱信有必要在下班後才給我們嗎？賠一個月代通知金就能為所欲為嗎？要我們即時收拾東西也不考慮一下迪士尼線的尾班車時間嗎？515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrl3LJS7WVT
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心情壞透了。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSLHJyDVsps
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無可奈何地坐到月台上的長椅後，我看著路軌另一側的廣告燈箱發著呆。我沒有思索回家的辦法，這樣坐著也沒甚麼意思，我對那些減肥藥完全沒興趣，只是……515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoRaKBftEsN
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……抱歉，我也不知道。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyplbCFlDZI
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開甚麼玩笑了，城堡要維修至少兩三年，所以接下來也沒煙火表演，於是把整隊煙火工程團隊解雇掉？外判職員就這樣可有可無嗎？還有為甚麼有人能留任到最後一次煙火後調去其他項目，我就能滾蛋？515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoVJKZFD2PF
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「唉。」515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6HH1kelE3A
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抬頭看著月台的玻璃幕門，倒影中的我也看回來。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjEUEBAJB8y
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溫年柏，廿四歲，失業，失戀，失敗。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlseuOlwnIj
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倒影中不堪入目的我實在有夠礙眼，所以我下意識地閉上雙目迴避，腦海中浮現的卻是一幀又一幀的回憶。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5MnwZirTVg
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「十優狀元確診胃癌 仍然不放棄醫生夢」515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPmUEwEOU3E
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「跳級畢業 狀元完夢 抗癌之路不忘救人初心」515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp2GfTqfSQf
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「狀元醫生遺愛人間 心臟贈少年」515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi5Pb7I3qtl
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來，猜猜看那顆心臟被捐到誰身上？515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT8vZ7GrYX9
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我指尖滑過自己胸膛，即使隔著衣服也能感覺到那道又大又醜的疤痕在，如在悼念著那個從未見過面的救命恩人。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAlyo93bBvD
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先不說現在尾班車已經開走，我跳下去也不會有列車撞過來。這條命是借來的，我沒有糟蹋的權利。如果不是，我早就……515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU9RciwOKop
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活成這個樣子，真抱歉。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMb7MLDD77i
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本來不應該是這樣子的，真抱歉。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPyomdrfbRg
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「先生。」515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjpFULRPAWz
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一個地鐵職員出現在我旁邊，打斷了我的茫然。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZrjR8tKjwq
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「唔好意思，我地夠鐘閂站。」515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa8YqmJ4bPZ
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「閂…站？」515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0IJGyQ4h9L
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「嗯，閂站。」職員的眼神相當堅決，完全是在趕我離開。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHMpPyFLcto
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要不是這條命是借來的話……515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeWlWV0bVnU
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「你知唔知仲有乜車呢個時間出市區？」515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiFvdXzvhuC
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「呢個鐘數……你試吓叫的士或者Uber？」515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQCqhUCemIg
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他其實很有禮貌，還硬生生擠出一個笑容。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlM5EeCrXkd
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「咁……啊。」515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKRtoMZudYu
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「再唔係你可以去迪士尼酒店瞓一晚，我哋聽朝頭班車係朝早六點二十分……」515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH8BXnetGnY
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「唔使，我喺邊度出返去？」515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7YjVqYmRde
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「我帶你行。」515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOixeSAtbGk
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領著我的職員步伐有點急促，當然是因為我礙著他下班。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡugqodo1Pbu
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「係迪士尼返工啊？咁夜仲喺度嘅？」515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNZmCIcIghI
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「呃……算係。」515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxkq0985va6
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不再是了。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgj6hUfyKtM
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意識到我沒興趣聊天的他也沒趣地閉上嘴，領著我穿過職員通道後我們來到了迪士尼站的外頭。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBFGkfQOfH1
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「好聲行啦，拜拜！」515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAhuhRv2Ju6
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夜裡的森林被風吹動如在搖晃，樹濤聲如在咆哮，昏暗的燈光瞬間就被夜幕一口吞下，環顧附近就只有我孤身一人站在彎彎曲曲的磚路中央。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAaINMHXhmk
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抱歉，能載我出市區嗎？我始終沒有如此向那職員請求，即使我知道這時間在這兒下班的他一定有駕車。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkAcJuXOMzG
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接下來，我還可以去哪兒？515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVjdd6Pw8JX
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我不坐的士或Uber的原因不複雜，這樣夜深人靜根本沒有車能攔，再者現在我已失業，能省就省。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqjWDQPgOqd
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按常理說，其他人在情況下早就叫自己的朋友或家人來接自己，但是我不能。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnknuI1R3oE
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因為我沒有。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRzWNDcwOhD
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我的心臟毛病遺傳自雙親，為了照顧換心手術後的我二人都積勞成疾而離世，只有一個姐姐與我相依為命。至於朋友……自從與她分手後我才發現不知不覺間我已是孤身一人。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH78KCpvaZT
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活該。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy1MdJ5RHAK
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我活該。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3mjvA8RLim
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正當我打算輸入「姐你能不能來接我時」，我在屏幕上幾毫米的指頭卻停了下來。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzPRYGjhZB6
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不想。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKBUp6Cz7Yz
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我……我不想找她。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJObpc6wnvO
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不想告訴她我被解僱，不想告訴她我錯過了尾班車，不想告訴她我這弟弟如此窩囊。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdn1jglrOQf
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即使她會開著那台帥氣的車來接我，即使我知道她會告訴我沒事，即使她會帶我去吃宵夜安慰。她對我越是呵護，我卻越不想站在如此優秀的她面前。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHaZl0Lh6sq
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我不想。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡILSREifoJG
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回過神來的時侯我已經走到空空如也的交通交匯處，沒有巴士，沒有的士，只有飛蟲圍著天花的螢光燈在飛舞。證實的確沒有交通工具離開的我終於把目光，投向了馬路——旁的行人道。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLJOFV3EI9c
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不就有了嗎？515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCmoI3MTKGH
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掏出手機確認過，從迪士尼步行至東涌港鐵站需時大約四小時，絕非沒法步行的距離和時間。而且……515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAE6lY4zGrE
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既然明天開始我就是失業大軍一員，那麼我也不用急著回家對吧。先不說實在沒有面目回去對著父母的靈位和姐姐，我其實大可以步行出去。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsD1HDhTWoe
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而且，我連地圖都不用。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPvdvueDItW
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容我自誇，我溫年柏唯一擅長的就是「方向感」，只要我看過一次的地圖就能瞬間記住，身處當中範圍時更能套用到真實世界之中。就算沒有地圖，我也能一邊走一邊記下空間方向，自己從哪個方向而來，正在往甚麼方向前進。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTyp9TZw0NJ
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光是現在閉上眼，我已經知道如何走到市區了，因為我腦中浮現的地圖清晰無比。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzU9RfdJvtm
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出發吧。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGM7qYe5ZjX
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下定了決心後，四周的晚風也變得舒暢了些許，我拐過角落走到公路旁的行人路，默默地向著遠方雲層下的燈火走去。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0PgPX8Mfyh
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漆黑的深夜，漆黑的密林，燈火通明的公路如某頭巨獸體內的血管般默默地湧動著。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡogQ8V8p7mq
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從這兒向山下挑望，萬家燈火把雲頂映亮，光污染這時候在我眼中如把天空染上色彩的極光，萬賴具寂的天地之間如同只剩我一人。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrgTPiggJMI
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步復步，步復步，前進速度緩慢得可笑，但我卻毫不在意。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb6D6Vg4im4
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「溫年柏。」515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡErQawRkVBb
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拐過路牌的瞬間，我突然聽到背後有人叫自己的名字。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhlQInuwA9w
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俗語有云：天黑莫回頭，這種時間怎麼會有人在背後叫我的名字？當我意識到這點時，我早已經反射動作地回首。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgFEbSqdIVC
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沒有人。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIuwbzKWaTf
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空空如也的馬路，行人道，街燈，樹影，完全沒看到任何能叫我名字的存在。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQm9T7mgkuo
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是幻聽嗎？我搔搔有點長的髮尾，壓下不安的心情，然後繼續往前走去。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlZXcxylA5C
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方向是對的，路是對的，但是我卻馬上注意到一點：山下的燈，熄滅了。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLXgsuOlxWR
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要知道山下的燈是東涌市區的燈火，瞬間消失的可能並非沒有，但除非整個東涌停電，或整個東涌消失，不然從這高度這方向，我是不可能看不見東涌市中心的燈光。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjepuyT3y9G
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這到底是……515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd4LlUhnAyM
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我連忙抬頭看看馬路的路牌，卻沒有絲毫異樣，耳邊寂靜得有點耳鳴，但我還走在正確的路上，朝向正確的方向。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfyHNdtdWMi
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是…霧之類嗎……？515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDQhGHIWa6e
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強行說服自己後，我繼續信步向前走去。分辨方向其實沒有想像中複雜，路是兩點一線的構造，只要走在正確的路上，面朝正確的方向，便總能確定自己沒有走錯。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF6UVkXWCa6
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但以防萬一，我還是掏出了手機查看地圖。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjlX6e0ogTB
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很好，GPS顯示方向與座標都正確，如我所料大約再走一小時左右我便會到達欣澳，沿著海邊再走三小時就會到達東涌，剛好坐第一班車回家。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBAXitfsrSe
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但望向遠方漆黑的夜，理應存在於那兒看東涌卻是消失得無影無蹤，實在使我心中感到不安。但我深知只要走到欣澳，就是沿著海邊的大直路了。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡURPE2mjmbF
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繼續走著走著，我發現事情不對勁。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaTEjhKVRdQ
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首先，我身旁的道路從不知甚麼時候開始，一架車都沒有駛過，即使是深夜，也絕不應該過了這樣久還是完全沒車子出現。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrSW2AAzNNe
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而且，欣澳亦消失了。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbar0frvkB6
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道路還在，路牌還在，但是山下理應存在於那兒的欣澳站現在只是漆黑一片。雖然我知道已經過了尾班車，港鐵站就會關站直到頭班車開車前的時間，但是……但是總不可能這樣一遍漆黑吧！那兒現在就只有一片密林，根本沒任何建築物存在！515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwk7oHfkYB4
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意識到不對勁的我掏出手機打算查看地圖，下一幕震撼了我的腦袋。515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn8HNHM3Dom
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