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突然這樣問好像有點唐突，但是我就只問一句：接下來，我還可以去哪兒？712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg37MN9aKof
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0YlpBzGeCb
「嗡隆……」712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd8wZYcCKmm
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIMoYzqbsgJ
月台的列車早已經消失在路軌的盡頭，那只是風聲在軌道間捲起的悲鳴，如哭泣，如哀號。白晝時是夢想王國入口的迪士尼站變得冷清，只剩下漸漸遠去的列車泛起的勁風餘浪清散在晚風間。712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbchiaoN4Pe
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwh0ROnf46S
錯過尾班車了…呢。712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6B7eSUQDZh
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcfE4X4PoFc
左顧右盼，空蕩蕩的月台就只有我一人。樂園早已關門，這只因樂園而存在的車站馬上變成了前不著村，後不著店的孤島。712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjay8qLHGld
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLL0x9zmobB
接下來，我還可以去哪兒？712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlV03CpmCCq
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKE0POgMzSh
真是的，解僱信有必要在下班後才給我們嗎？賠一個月代通知金就能為所欲為嗎？要我們即時收拾東西也不考慮一下迪士尼線的尾班車時間嗎？712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyM8Ir8jhVF
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv5vNmRMkVJ
心情壞透了。712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Sl8qm7vJb
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ67kUCvzkyv
無可奈何地坐到月台上的長椅後，我看著路軌另一側的廣告燈箱發著呆。我沒有思索回家的辦法，這樣坐著也沒甚麼意思，我對那些減肥藥完全沒興趣，只是……712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡND8Iah0pxj
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNwIVwrACIj
……抱歉，我也不知道。712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZMHWWnA4sN
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaqvrYskAuC
開甚麼玩笑了，城堡要維修至少兩三年，所以接下來也沒煙火表演，於是把整隊煙火工程團隊解雇掉？外判職員就這樣可有可無嗎？還有為甚麼有人能留任到最後一次煙火後調去其他項目，我就能滾蛋？712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlYBTO9xeb8
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJOlXq1rm6a
「唉。」712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMr9V1p9FIB
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5fASDfoar7
抬頭看著月台的玻璃幕門，倒影中的我也看回來。712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgUoRFYw1O4
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHPcFICu80P
溫年柏，廿四歲，失業，失戀，失敗。712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFTQs7ZcjPG
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBo9VVP1bUd
倒影中不堪入目的我實在有夠礙眼，所以我下意識地閉上雙目迴避，腦海中浮現的卻是一幀又一幀的回憶。712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBFbcJDwfQF
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4g1tSijR2r
「十優狀元確診胃癌 仍然不放棄醫生夢」712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpeJzVNv7yC
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyK1RW7CtAh
「跳級畢業 狀元完夢 抗癌之路不忘救人初心」712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCnVrNHIksH
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt4K5daBeXt
「狀元醫生遺愛人間 心臟贈少年」712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXfUdKysble
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Ig6oyh9zl
來，猜猜看那顆心臟被捐到誰身上？712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD795AXDjWp
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq9IQBvEQf5
我指尖滑過自己胸膛，即使隔著衣服也能感覺到那道又大又醜的疤痕在，如在悼念著那個從未見過面的救命恩人。712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGSpdVBmcTc
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYDy6D8CKnB
先不說現在尾班車已經開走，我跳下去也不會有列車撞過來。這條命是借來的，我沒有糟蹋的權利。如果不是，我早就……712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRA6VzlCRJK
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7UR8lcSxSI
活成這個樣子，真抱歉。712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9QtVIS2NiD
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8qchbodVh8
本來不應該是這樣子的，真抱歉。712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQVyVGxfj0d
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUKrIjVnxvR
「先生。」712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS6cW6KrbV1
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc6JnmoUfri
一個地鐵職員出現在我旁邊，打斷了我的茫然。712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCncq5KUeiJ
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO6baSRoY2r
「唔好意思，我地夠鐘閂站。」712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsnMK7zdknt
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7mUBj4H6fM
「閂…站？」712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ03B1qhyYQm
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6mjzBNd7Rf
「嗯，閂站。」職員的眼神相當堅決，完全是在趕我離開。712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ95d5rB1ZjE
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjQrNzIqp5n
要不是這條命是借來的話……712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbTEunCBZO4
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ91hh6HoEgp
「你知唔知仲有乜車呢個時間出市區？」712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaS6kDHCcQr
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbQOgr5q2Ug
「呢個鐘數……你試吓叫的士或者Uber？」712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡolEsGZAv0g
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMhnD9eIRxY
他其實很有禮貌，還硬生生擠出一個笑容。712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVsIl4Pntav
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbEzJZzDa0t
「咁……啊。」712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF1pkIHvR9B
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhsavzoPOEq
「再唔係你可以去迪士尼酒店瞓一晚，我哋聽朝頭班車係朝早六點二十分……」712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLQkAWa33HN
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnXrzGcIsQD
「唔使，我喺邊度出返去？」712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVXL2N3T6mq
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz0cMiM7ZpD
「我帶你行。」712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrckSKB423O
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Pl4vwLo56
領著我的職員步伐有點急促，當然是因為我礙著他下班。712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz4GN0xO9ly
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcQ9iuJ96q3
「係迪士尼返工啊？咁夜仲喺度嘅？」712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwnIy6w5UHK
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg8it7KhjQa
「呃……算係。」712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCS85QS0rdk
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4rn9VOYbpV
不再是了。712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrpVz5TCHPx
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ3S21zgRjV
意識到我沒興趣聊天的他也沒趣地閉上嘴，領著我穿過職員通道後我們來到了迪士尼站的外頭。712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr5Rk529RLm
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9VMHsGYDHj
「好聲行啦，拜拜！」712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHCQDiMhz5l
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl4CqDjrzBM
夜裡的森林被風吹動如在搖晃，樹濤聲如在咆哮，昏暗的燈光瞬間就被夜幕一口吞下，環顧附近就只有我孤身一人站在彎彎曲曲的磚路中央。712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5KQ826C3Ek
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzcoO15jk4r
抱歉，能載我出市區嗎？我始終沒有如此向那職員請求，即使我知道這時間在這兒下班的他一定有駕車。712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXiw1HXZ5oF
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuMR0f3hXgN
接下來，我還可以去哪兒？712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa8XcjTwAQN
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhN9M2IbZbN
我不坐的士或Uber的原因不複雜，這樣夜深人靜根本沒有車能攔，再者現在我已失業，能省就省。712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVyNoSiT4Kx
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeD2dXOgjlB
按常理說，其他人在情況下早就叫自己的朋友或家人來接自己，但是我不能。712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo7JFbxy69o
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgL07jGW5yB
因為我沒有。712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSYUhmxjX33
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcTsmvemp1Y
我的心臟毛病遺傳自雙親，為了照顧換心手術後的我二人都積勞成疾而離世，只有一個姐姐與我相依為命。至於朋友……自從與她分手後我才發現不知不覺間我已是孤身一人。712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlGhhiMHHjd
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR1fkHnEJla
活該。712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAc5am4uXeG
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQbdT1IlvmO
我活該。712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEoN9emzeGZ
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU7ryWlaTL2
正當我打算輸入「姐你能不能來接我時」，我在屏幕上幾毫米的指頭卻停了下來。712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ22BARgDAoO
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwb5I7irf91
不想。712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOGbbT81NeV
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIosaT8oBn6
我……我不想找她。712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm3wYwJNNiR
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2W29A5MEOF
不想告訴她我被解僱，不想告訴她我錯過了尾班車，不想告訴她我這弟弟如此窩囊。712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnWnFqANNPk
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs4vHuXzo0P
即使她會開著那台帥氣的車來接我，即使我知道她會告訴我沒事，即使她會帶我去吃宵夜安慰。她對我越是呵護，我卻越不想站在如此優秀的她面前。712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBJTG9VM5F3
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJEwlITvQCA
我不想。712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS329iVT7SX
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc4ErUYmj8u
回過神來的時侯我已經走到空空如也的交通交匯處，沒有巴士，沒有的士，只有飛蟲圍著天花的螢光燈在飛舞。證實的確沒有交通工具離開的我終於把目光，投向了馬路——旁的行人道。712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjPaNfbfzXg
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Qqo7Bb8Ri
不就有了嗎？712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA4i0bSNRbD
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcnn2cE1Ksu
掏出手機確認過，從迪士尼步行至東涌港鐵站需時大約四小時，絕非沒法步行的距離和時間。而且……712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiwb7ETpmtD
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP9G8iepFXj
既然明天開始我就是失業大軍一員，那麼我也不用急著回家對吧。先不說實在沒有面目回去對著父母的靈位和姐姐，我其實大可以步行出去。712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8aMGdUvVas
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDlE8puzpwW
而且，我連地圖都不用。712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuSzCx1sKjV
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYNkGpANyIB
容我自誇，我溫年柏唯一擅長的就是「方向感」，只要我看過一次的地圖就能瞬間記住，身處當中範圍時更能套用到真實世界之中。就算沒有地圖，我也能一邊走一邊記下空間方向，自己從哪個方向而來，正在往甚麼方向前進。712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡifVashIjZh
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYXn5D6dOIZ
光是現在閉上眼，我已經知道如何走到市區了，因為我腦中浮現的地圖清晰無比。712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdUn2RQA4mV
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJWojjNglLh
出發吧。712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh0HWQKfqMF
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQMXkrolsOQ
下定了決心後，四周的晚風也變得舒暢了些許，我拐過角落走到公路旁的行人路，默默地向著遠方雲層下的燈火走去。712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpWmXTNDCAk
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrG6USgziZp
漆黑的深夜，漆黑的密林，燈火通明的公路如某頭巨獸體內的血管般默默地湧動著。712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQi0yOPkI7B
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEegxeSGG7R
從這兒向山下挑望，萬家燈火把雲頂映亮，光污染這時候在我眼中如把天空染上色彩的極光，萬賴具寂的天地之間如同只剩我一人。712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwaIuvEwenz
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeTNvdVagVc
步復步，步復步，前進速度緩慢得可笑，但我卻毫不在意。712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjE7Uioy13H
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGhJo46S0ZB
「溫年柏。」712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ00guoDfVwt
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5MbZLtIu3Y
拐過路牌的瞬間，我突然聽到背後有人叫自己的名字。712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2XqRQHJl6A
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl9GI39fjJ7
俗語有云：天黑莫回頭，這種時間怎麼會有人在背後叫我的名字？當我意識到這點時，我早已經反射動作地回首。712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0TagMQEiIJ
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7CZG4uD5I7
沒有人。712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ87ynWVTgbo
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVsyf8aILYZ
空空如也的馬路，行人道，街燈，樹影，完全沒看到任何能叫我名字的存在。712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBWgPV0ce6Q
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqPELSNSoUB
是幻聽嗎？我搔搔有點長的髮尾，壓下不安的心情，然後繼續往前走去。712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlZl51jqUOE
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfUpqj7SNIO
方向是對的，路是對的，但是我卻馬上注意到一點：山下的燈，熄滅了。712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgLFFwDa4VM
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGwK42dELOa
要知道山下的燈是東涌市區的燈火，瞬間消失的可能並非沒有，但除非整個東涌停電，或整個東涌消失，不然從這高度這方向，我是不可能看不見東涌市中心的燈光。712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkKe7Cj907A
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvdp5ql2G1N
這到底是……712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpAMHIyBHSZ
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxOFCg1hyTt
我連忙抬頭看看馬路的路牌，卻沒有絲毫異樣，耳邊寂靜得有點耳鳴，但我還走在正確的路上，朝向正確的方向。712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkagKIXrGk9
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjM2UidORTp
是…霧之類嗎……？712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQqJ9TwtFpU
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJDHajRjFE3
強行說服自己後，我繼續信步向前走去。分辨方向其實沒有想像中複雜，路是兩點一線的構造，只要走在正確的路上，面朝正確的方向，便總能確定自己沒有走錯。712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKYrHrjwI22
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzKimzfIe8a
但以防萬一，我還是掏出了手機查看地圖。712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7AGfmzL7b4
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrrxVXnvpZE
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712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxwlUCGAF5P
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0W6vFiJ8ye
很好，GPS顯示方向與座標都正確，如我所料大約再走一小時左右我便會到達欣澳，沿著海邊再走三小時就會到達東涌，剛好坐第一班車回家。712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4BDLrN9lKi
712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKmbRwN2ceB
「……」712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn6F4TtxntF
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但望向遠方漆黑的夜，理應存在於那兒看東涌卻是消失得無影無蹤，實在使我心中感到不安。但我深知只要走到欣澳，就是沿著海邊的大直路了。712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC7u9SVRAFL
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繼續走著走著，我發現事情不對勁。712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1YA1VdBnXo
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首先，我身旁的道路從不知甚麼時候開始，一架車都沒有駛過，即使是深夜，也絕不應該過了這樣久還是完全沒車子出現。712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsgSwyIJk2t
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而且，欣澳亦消失了。712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxVbOmhnE4D
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道路還在，路牌還在，但是山下理應存在於那兒的欣澳站現在只是漆黑一片。雖然我知道已經過了尾班車，港鐵站就會關站直到頭班車開車前的時間，但是……但是總不可能這樣一遍漆黑吧！那兒現在就只有一片密林，根本沒任何建築物存在！712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE7C5KwdqUg
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意識到不對勁的我掏出手機打算查看地圖，下一幕震撼了我的腦袋。712Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ZhONEsN1I
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