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突然這樣問好像有點唐突，但是我就只問一句：接下來，我還可以去哪兒？711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOv5qUsCFAR
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「嗡隆……」711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnSeFzGTvEV
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月台的列車早已經消失在路軌的盡頭，那只是風聲在軌道間捲起的悲鳴，如哭泣，如哀號。白晝時是夢想王國入口的迪士尼站變得冷清，只剩下漸漸遠去的列車泛起的勁風餘浪清散在晚風間。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIYrs7bhpOq
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錯過尾班車了…呢。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUMzUvZSgMB
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY6GltbGEpb
左顧右盼，空蕩蕩的月台就只有我一人。樂園早已關門，這只因樂園而存在的車站馬上變成了前不著村，後不著店的孤島。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnn3YLaEzBG
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接下來，我還可以去哪兒？711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuIvmwx9HUO
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYCWt3PCHb5
真是的，解僱信有必要在下班後才給我們嗎？賠一個月代通知金就能為所欲為嗎？要我們即時收拾東西也不考慮一下迪士尼線的尾班車時間嗎？711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYYJVdlk7wN
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心情壞透了。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt6wvxdMwFU
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWFKo9gKaOV
無可奈何地坐到月台上的長椅後，我看著路軌另一側的廣告燈箱發著呆。我沒有思索回家的辦法，這樣坐著也沒甚麼意思，我對那些減肥藥完全沒興趣，只是……711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv183Y8FgoM
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……抱歉，我也不知道。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtEJ56XAsnA
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1k50sNkfYr
開甚麼玩笑了，城堡要維修至少兩三年，所以接下來也沒煙火表演，於是把整隊煙火工程團隊解雇掉？外判職員就這樣可有可無嗎？還有為甚麼有人能留任到最後一次煙火後調去其他項目，我就能滾蛋？711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC49EDJEEFQ
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9bdPHE9FrD
「唉。」711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAE3ytcQpE7
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs37Q2eKKwd
抬頭看著月台的玻璃幕門，倒影中的我也看回來。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPNGzcS2lqw
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1jIPmEgylG
溫年柏，廿四歲，失業，失戀，失敗。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ19LblgL2Xy
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡePlu4XAPGU
倒影中不堪入目的我實在有夠礙眼，所以我下意識地閉上雙目迴避，腦海中浮現的卻是一幀又一幀的回憶。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXenMYLc6pG
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3l8ygjUtn8
「十優狀元確診胃癌 仍然不放棄醫生夢」711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd5mpith2Nd
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAGWm2ZFr1c
「跳級畢業 狀元完夢 抗癌之路不忘救人初心」711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQFGnHY7KEQ
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2HsYVvOC2R
「狀元醫生遺愛人間 心臟贈少年」711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgMZ84LTXiq
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ43XqrVURy7
來，猜猜看那顆心臟被捐到誰身上？711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtVdPMm5sYZ
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrFgCo1XIW9
我指尖滑過自己胸膛，即使隔著衣服也能感覺到那道又大又醜的疤痕在，如在悼念著那個從未見過面的救命恩人。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTwsMcqKNyv
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1aBnYZ3jY7
先不說現在尾班車已經開走，我跳下去也不會有列車撞過來。這條命是借來的，我沒有糟蹋的權利。如果不是，我早就……711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7KshWDkIfU
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoSsqjcQhhP
活成這個樣子，真抱歉。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcKOuaBjREH
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCweMjI4kEJ
本來不應該是這樣子的，真抱歉。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡieMK04hWN3
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ73oRAtcXCQ
「先生。」711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj8TkJgMq1c
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjfBFPYwEq2
一個地鐵職員出現在我旁邊，打斷了我的茫然。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGOFbBZxSOE
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNCFwt3klHF
「唔好意思，我地夠鐘閂站。」711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwvcBTfqjdh
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJZQcehzUao
「閂…站？」711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwYuM4Ct9TC
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2zo8oQ2VmQ
「嗯，閂站。」職員的眼神相當堅決，完全是在趕我離開。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2WLaASmtJR
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要不是這條命是借來的話……711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg1K28yq3Zo
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNTOSDnAqzV
「你知唔知仲有乜車呢個時間出市區？」711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiyhzp0Mio8
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡumoONQYIIq
「呢個鐘數……你試吓叫的士或者Uber？」711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNBAm1zUU8M
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZWveClohnP
他其實很有禮貌，還硬生生擠出一個笑容。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDWHLYnGzTT
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUqyDYz976R
「咁……啊。」711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaohmTMHncj
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡALFFM0qUa6
「再唔係你可以去迪士尼酒店瞓一晚，我哋聽朝頭班車係朝早六點二十分……」711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmbCDdMwoJY
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyOGneBhQ9A
「唔使，我喺邊度出返去？」711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTjM6grdlYV
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMhkjnDYUgJ
「我帶你行。」711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡryAZSqBkQJ
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0pOLtynDCb
領著我的職員步伐有點急促，當然是因為我礙著他下班。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHkrW27SDIo
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0yysI5FyDi
「係迪士尼返工啊？咁夜仲喺度嘅？」711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKjTlf3aN4U
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK2YKZOmQYO
「呃……算係。」711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTxyU76qpPi
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不再是了。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGO5zCkoseb
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ50EBgDYpFc
意識到我沒興趣聊天的他也沒趣地閉上嘴，領著我穿過職員通道後我們來到了迪士尼站的外頭。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK5wSDS9PMl
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKbd3PfJ1FY
「好聲行啦，拜拜！」711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuowtHVAGcX
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR8i3fiPBI3
夜裡的森林被風吹動如在搖晃，樹濤聲如在咆哮，昏暗的燈光瞬間就被夜幕一口吞下，環顧附近就只有我孤身一人站在彎彎曲曲的磚路中央。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtfqBx78NOS
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvZPJTTYO9U
抱歉，能載我出市區嗎？我始終沒有如此向那職員請求，即使我知道這時間在這兒下班的他一定有駕車。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW4V2TXWjX8
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnvwFB8HuR7
接下來，我還可以去哪兒？711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvJHaf56XPI
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaE0kOgpqFH
我不坐的士或Uber的原因不複雜，這樣夜深人靜根本沒有車能攔，再者現在我已失業，能省就省。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡja6ohOwewp
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxJYCN5P2gU
按常理說，其他人在情況下早就叫自己的朋友或家人來接自己，但是我不能。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4yqT3uV28o
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHoReQ0Fsxz
因為我沒有。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYtM3MUXrRJ
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgmrHXYmLXm
我的心臟毛病遺傳自雙親，為了照顧換心手術後的我二人都積勞成疾而離世，只有一個姐姐與我相依為命。至於朋友……自從與她分手後我才發現不知不覺間我已是孤身一人。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZliagXCHyy
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活該。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwATGztJcmy
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcWCJfKsvDr
我活該。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUJQyzioZr0
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxRGAoCgSBQ
正當我打算輸入「姐你能不能來接我時」，我在屏幕上幾毫米的指頭卻停了下來。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCCA5WmDvHU
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIKjo9jZBwX
不想。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd1zTCZ9USK
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe1oB4glSOw
我……我不想找她。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpVzy993x5y
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrFckPRyutB
不想告訴她我被解僱，不想告訴她我錯過了尾班車，不想告訴她我這弟弟如此窩囊。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxdvoGdM2Fl
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhHuQCVrB21
即使她會開著那台帥氣的車來接我，即使我知道她會告訴我沒事，即使她會帶我去吃宵夜安慰。她對我越是呵護，我卻越不想站在如此優秀的她面前。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ642bUGH9Fq
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNaaY95HJUy
我不想。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡINsyDiglh6
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaSD42AVQEi
回過神來的時侯我已經走到空空如也的交通交匯處，沒有巴士，沒有的士，只有飛蟲圍著天花的螢光燈在飛舞。證實的確沒有交通工具離開的我終於把目光，投向了馬路——旁的行人道。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ39862QrJAp
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVn3v1uLWuv
不就有了嗎？711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOOch2IcaeJ
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz949rmW3CO
掏出手機確認過，從迪士尼步行至東涌港鐵站需時大約四小時，絕非沒法步行的距離和時間。而且……711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBOYcv6Bhzm
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV9407adQIX
既然明天開始我就是失業大軍一員，那麼我也不用急著回家對吧。先不說實在沒有面目回去對著父母的靈位和姐姐，我其實大可以步行出去。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd6al9LKz8e
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSQOQ5FJ9LM
而且，我連地圖都不用。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjZdoNutpJm
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGalNfnLhkl
容我自誇，我溫年柏唯一擅長的就是「方向感」，只要我看過一次的地圖就能瞬間記住，身處當中範圍時更能套用到真實世界之中。就算沒有地圖，我也能一邊走一邊記下空間方向，自己從哪個方向而來，正在往甚麼方向前進。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ021CfLvMGH
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡny9fcETQ4a
光是現在閉上眼，我已經知道如何走到市區了，因為我腦中浮現的地圖清晰無比。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWAKbqv3HJ1
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6efzSOTdSg
出發吧。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡThztdmfvX2
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4z2et327n3
下定了決心後，四周的晚風也變得舒暢了些許，我拐過角落走到公路旁的行人路，默默地向著遠方雲層下的燈火走去。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaRXcuAnU3o
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcTF5wdlr25
漆黑的深夜，漆黑的密林，燈火通明的公路如某頭巨獸體內的血管般默默地湧動著。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRUGkczEOvt
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZJraj2hwYm
從這兒向山下挑望，萬家燈火把雲頂映亮，光污染這時候在我眼中如把天空染上色彩的極光，萬賴具寂的天地之間如同只剩我一人。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuOIRqvW8sv
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbUMUOvauhH
步復步，步復步，前進速度緩慢得可笑，但我卻毫不在意。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVx19BtTIPv
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKC6pUT22pa
「溫年柏。」711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpbvRsRJkYV
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE6byjKPVFX
拐過路牌的瞬間，我突然聽到背後有人叫自己的名字。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUEeZ0DMqwR
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA2O2DaGt0S
俗語有云：天黑莫回頭，這種時間怎麼會有人在背後叫我的名字？當我意識到這點時，我早已經反射動作地回首。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcdNIOnHSgE
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沒有人。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAmeTUHH1bi
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmY4feAE9lM
空空如也的馬路，行人道，街燈，樹影，完全沒看到任何能叫我名字的存在。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqYST8Q8gQI
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyDDa0ZICIn
是幻聽嗎？我搔搔有點長的髮尾，壓下不安的心情，然後繼續往前走去。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgRfp5unUrb
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOcBXgqxJXg
方向是對的，路是對的，但是我卻馬上注意到一點：山下的燈，熄滅了。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaLwvKMewcS
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqERhTeNAVE
要知道山下的燈是東涌市區的燈火，瞬間消失的可能並非沒有，但除非整個東涌停電，或整個東涌消失，不然從這高度這方向，我是不可能看不見東涌市中心的燈光。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx9umkRVqRb
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaDsQ1Xv4Xn
這到底是……711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Jae4n1Fvw
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDJFLzFxJIj
我連忙抬頭看看馬路的路牌，卻沒有絲毫異樣，耳邊寂靜得有點耳鳴，但我還走在正確的路上，朝向正確的方向。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡusaC0BWuwc
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIDyVAToa6Z
是…霧之類嗎……？711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlNCZCBOeKP
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4BBDX6Vcq7
強行說服自己後，我繼續信步向前走去。分辨方向其實沒有想像中複雜，路是兩點一線的構造，只要走在正確的路上，面朝正確的方向，便總能確定自己沒有走錯。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfzC5RXA3w1
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡItkvXEeXTN
但以防萬一，我還是掏出了手機查看地圖。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNT0LBGd7cr
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很好，GPS顯示方向與座標都正確，如我所料大約再走一小時左右我便會到達欣澳，沿著海邊再走三小時就會到達東涌，剛好坐第一班車回家。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVI4hxjqc3B
711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvAuREGdyPi
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但望向遠方漆黑的夜，理應存在於那兒看東涌卻是消失得無影無蹤，實在使我心中感到不安。但我深知只要走到欣澳，就是沿著海邊的大直路了。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFr1sRWsjLG
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繼續走著走著，我發現事情不對勁。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnUdYPyvjvf
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首先，我身旁的道路從不知甚麼時候開始，一架車都沒有駛過，即使是深夜，也絕不應該過了這樣久還是完全沒車子出現。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVhTOISolBg
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而且，欣澳亦消失了。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡboMvjbdkwR
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道路還在，路牌還在，但是山下理應存在於那兒的欣澳站現在只是漆黑一片。雖然我知道已經過了尾班車，港鐵站就會關站直到頭班車開車前的時間，但是……但是總不可能這樣一遍漆黑吧！那兒現在就只有一片密林，根本沒任何建築物存在！711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnmgIR27V85
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意識到不對勁的我掏出手機打算查看地圖，下一幕震撼了我的腦袋。711Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpF0Bes47vj
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