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突然這樣問好像有點唐突，但是我就只問一句：接下來，我還可以去哪兒？819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4sjFiv5oyj
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「嗡隆……」819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxywNItubZj
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月台的列車早已經消失在路軌的盡頭，那只是風聲在軌道間捲起的悲鳴，如哭泣，如哀號。白晝時是夢想王國入口的迪士尼站變得冷清，只剩下漸漸遠去的列車泛起的勁風餘浪清散在晚風間。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdz5O8FnwLc
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錯過尾班車了…呢。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtCsHkQoICj
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左顧右盼，空蕩蕩的月台就只有我一人。樂園早已關門，這只因樂園而存在的車站馬上變成了前不著村，後不著店的孤島。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuH5kEEW5EX
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接下來，我還可以去哪兒？819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL9h3Pbfvyq
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真是的，解僱信有必要在下班後才給我們嗎？賠一個月代通知金就能為所欲為嗎？要我們即時收拾東西也不考慮一下迪士尼線的尾班車時間嗎？819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYRSXM8ze5s
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心情壞透了。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDRn1cGd3xO
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無可奈何地坐到月台上的長椅後，我看著路軌另一側的廣告燈箱發著呆。我沒有思索回家的辦法，這樣坐著也沒甚麼意思，我對那些減肥藥完全沒興趣，只是……819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh4bvR2MVf9
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……抱歉，我也不知道。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZGUNHoTiKF
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開甚麼玩笑了，城堡要維修至少兩三年，所以接下來也沒煙火表演，於是把整隊煙火工程團隊解雇掉？外判職員就這樣可有可無嗎？還有為甚麼有人能留任到最後一次煙火後調去其他項目，我就能滾蛋？819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0wTnNHBgad
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「唉。」819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH6sA6WGlMp
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抬頭看著月台的玻璃幕門，倒影中的我也看回來。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKtbBTn45vv
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溫年柏，廿四歲，失業，失戀，失敗。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBjnLeUjllG
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倒影中不堪入目的我實在有夠礙眼，所以我下意識地閉上雙目迴避，腦海中浮現的卻是一幀又一幀的回憶。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2dJVHJpoVM
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「十優狀元確診胃癌 仍然不放棄醫生夢」819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCLeEaQTRf4
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「跳級畢業 狀元完夢 抗癌之路不忘救人初心」819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP2sJfOXm30
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「狀元醫生遺愛人間 心臟贈少年」819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4iw8BzKqiP
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來，猜猜看那顆心臟被捐到誰身上？819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQGcpf8P6lj
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我指尖滑過自己胸膛，即使隔著衣服也能感覺到那道又大又醜的疤痕在，如在悼念著那個從未見過面的救命恩人。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO54ue4tTec
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先不說現在尾班車已經開走，我跳下去也不會有列車撞過來。這條命是借來的，我沒有糟蹋的權利。如果不是，我早就……819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4IHRiz86xd
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活成這個樣子，真抱歉。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHTDQnjROXX
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本來不應該是這樣子的，真抱歉。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZzYkG0ZBJA
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「先生。」819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxVUbx5vPoF
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一個地鐵職員出現在我旁邊，打斷了我的茫然。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKpTux9VIZd
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「唔好意思，我地夠鐘閂站。」819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNwMwGtm6YP
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「閂…站？」819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKodBMuz2hY
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「嗯，閂站。」職員的眼神相當堅決，完全是在趕我離開。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXv4pudQzN1
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要不是這條命是借來的話……819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQSmbWF6WHQ
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「你知唔知仲有乜車呢個時間出市區？」819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4hpLY7DUyO
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「呢個鐘數……你試吓叫的士或者Uber？」819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnXpN6mVx7E
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他其實很有禮貌，還硬生生擠出一個笑容。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3PwKEpUQQ1
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「咁……啊。」819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWr8rbqlFgt
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「再唔係你可以去迪士尼酒店瞓一晚，我哋聽朝頭班車係朝早六點二十分……」819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy12ZFg2rfn
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「唔使，我喺邊度出返去？」819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDWTwxVbDvN
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「我帶你行。」819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCDm19jgGSq
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領著我的職員步伐有點急促，當然是因為我礙著他下班。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL3YeGB6LmM
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「係迪士尼返工啊？咁夜仲喺度嘅？」819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjWNDN0q9aN
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「呃……算係。」819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVRRSqoSgFg
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不再是了。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCcvdBL3nil
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意識到我沒興趣聊天的他也沒趣地閉上嘴，領著我穿過職員通道後我們來到了迪士尼站的外頭。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡic0Ibi8SG8
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「好聲行啦，拜拜！」819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNU7sgKl0Vf
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夜裡的森林被風吹動如在搖晃，樹濤聲如在咆哮，昏暗的燈光瞬間就被夜幕一口吞下，環顧附近就只有我孤身一人站在彎彎曲曲的磚路中央。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmBtiUbKnuk
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抱歉，能載我出市區嗎？我始終沒有如此向那職員請求，即使我知道這時間在這兒下班的他一定有駕車。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ22FXfOrfKL
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接下來，我還可以去哪兒？819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIuhguB5XsR
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我不坐的士或Uber的原因不複雜，這樣夜深人靜根本沒有車能攔，再者現在我已失業，能省就省。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡETAaMsJhjl
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按常理說，其他人在情況下早就叫自己的朋友或家人來接自己，但是我不能。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6OkCtHZwA3
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因為我沒有。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ZRiwBjO32
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我的心臟毛病遺傳自雙親，為了照顧換心手術後的我二人都積勞成疾而離世，只有一個姐姐與我相依為命。至於朋友……自從與她分手後我才發現不知不覺間我已是孤身一人。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4mQRGXpr8R
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活該。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJY2vSeAata
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我活該。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8eQ74m1v5m
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正當我打算輸入「姐你能不能來接我時」，我在屏幕上幾毫米的指頭卻停了下來。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzAE2ODGH0A
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不想。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcISLTG6YIn
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我……我不想找她。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuVKCAvg93s
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不想告訴她我被解僱，不想告訴她我錯過了尾班車，不想告訴她我這弟弟如此窩囊。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaDmhhCAQpf
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即使她會開著那台帥氣的車來接我，即使我知道她會告訴我沒事，即使她會帶我去吃宵夜安慰。她對我越是呵護，我卻越不想站在如此優秀的她面前。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS2gkPj0bnx
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我不想。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6gfCaA1mwY
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回過神來的時侯我已經走到空空如也的交通交匯處，沒有巴士，沒有的士，只有飛蟲圍著天花的螢光燈在飛舞。證實的確沒有交通工具離開的我終於把目光，投向了馬路——旁的行人道。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDhnO0j2Aw3
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不就有了嗎？819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIb3H0TUNPk
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掏出手機確認過，從迪士尼步行至東涌港鐵站需時大約四小時，絕非沒法步行的距離和時間。而且……819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfxT7WNwjCd
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既然明天開始我就是失業大軍一員，那麼我也不用急著回家對吧。先不說實在沒有面目回去對著父母的靈位和姐姐，我其實大可以步行出去。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVoae9MiBuB
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而且，我連地圖都不用。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQEc653GDyJ
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容我自誇，我溫年柏唯一擅長的就是「方向感」，只要我看過一次的地圖就能瞬間記住，身處當中範圍時更能套用到真實世界之中。就算沒有地圖，我也能一邊走一邊記下空間方向，自己從哪個方向而來，正在往甚麼方向前進。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcIw2bkvEVd
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光是現在閉上眼，我已經知道如何走到市區了，因為我腦中浮現的地圖清晰無比。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk5qqSbgMuJ
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出發吧。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQWXr0chHtg
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下定了決心後，四周的晚風也變得舒暢了些許，我拐過角落走到公路旁的行人路，默默地向著遠方雲層下的燈火走去。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxGhNC1pE3A
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漆黑的深夜，漆黑的密林，燈火通明的公路如某頭巨獸體內的血管般默默地湧動著。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpBIE7b8OlF
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從這兒向山下挑望，萬家燈火把雲頂映亮，光污染這時候在我眼中如把天空染上色彩的極光，萬賴具寂的天地之間如同只剩我一人。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNwPcxoHaEl
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步復步，步復步，前進速度緩慢得可笑，但我卻毫不在意。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzcfAGsTIfg
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「溫年柏。」819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV9phUlGeiv
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拐過路牌的瞬間，我突然聽到背後有人叫自己的名字。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1iw74wYSdN
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俗語有云：天黑莫回頭，這種時間怎麼會有人在背後叫我的名字？當我意識到這點時，我早已經反射動作地回首。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpM3n1Np9gB
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沒有人。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcf8iZjdr2k
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空空如也的馬路，行人道，街燈，樹影，完全沒看到任何能叫我名字的存在。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKxoPRcAYrp
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡABl51BCjwW
是幻聽嗎？我搔搔有點長的髮尾，壓下不安的心情，然後繼續往前走去。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbhycIHBQHg
819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡby0wXX8SOS
方向是對的，路是對的，但是我卻馬上注意到一點：山下的燈，熄滅了。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡViyJfgglXw
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要知道山下的燈是東涌市區的燈火，瞬間消失的可能並非沒有，但除非整個東涌停電，或整個東涌消失，不然從這高度這方向，我是不可能看不見東涌市中心的燈光。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsCBfpe35vN
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這到底是……819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOZcaaCqkXX
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我連忙抬頭看看馬路的路牌，卻沒有絲毫異樣，耳邊寂靜得有點耳鳴，但我還走在正確的路上，朝向正確的方向。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuzMT3PVXpb
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是…霧之類嗎……？819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO31morAIbC
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強行說服自己後，我繼續信步向前走去。分辨方向其實沒有想像中複雜，路是兩點一線的構造，只要走在正確的路上，面朝正確的方向，便總能確定自己沒有走錯。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbviWPODKEZ
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但以防萬一，我還是掏出了手機查看地圖。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ82nDOwmcZS
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很好，GPS顯示方向與座標都正確，如我所料大約再走一小時左右我便會到達欣澳，沿著海邊再走三小時就會到達東涌，剛好坐第一班車回家。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡohEatfBAzR
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但望向遠方漆黑的夜，理應存在於那兒看東涌卻是消失得無影無蹤，實在使我心中感到不安。但我深知只要走到欣澳，就是沿著海邊的大直路了。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtBlpigNQQQ
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繼續走著走著，我發現事情不對勁。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHTGysiqe2j
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首先，我身旁的道路從不知甚麼時候開始，一架車都沒有駛過，即使是深夜，也絕不應該過了這樣久還是完全沒車子出現。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4WVQCofCv0
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而且，欣澳亦消失了。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpsmfYx7vH1
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道路還在，路牌還在，但是山下理應存在於那兒的欣澳站現在只是漆黑一片。雖然我知道已經過了尾班車，港鐵站就會關站直到頭班車開車前的時間，但是……但是總不可能這樣一遍漆黑吧！那兒現在就只有一片密林，根本沒任何建築物存在！819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi1ZYrDTpkS
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意識到不對勁的我掏出手機打算查看地圖，下一幕震撼了我的腦袋。819Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfE2TNtTAuq
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