#1 Entry: Why I Started This.816Please respect copyright.PENANAEwdRHODhJn
This is actually personal. And I don't expect anyone to read this. It's a surprise that you are so. And no, this entry is not about the bad-ness of smoking, drinking or doing weed. Not yet, anyway. It's about what happened, fifteen minutes ago.816Please respect copyright.PENANAoSB3VnNb6L
A while ago, I got so effing frustrated at a guy I almost dated. We didn't date- why? Because he wasn't ready to make it official, even after six months of him knowing that I really liked him. 816Please respect copyright.PENANAtV1UA15eQc
His excuse: He found me adorable. And in his bucket list, it was to stay single till college graduation.816Please respect copyright.PENANAq2wHV3OIXN
Thinking about it, that sounds like an excuse right about now. Why was I so stupid? 816Please respect copyright.PENANAnOE2jgzryg
Moving on to present day, two months after I called it off (though, there was nothing to call off), the following happens. 816Please respect copyright.PENANAnKHMSjH039
It's a bit immature, but tell that to him. 816Please respect copyright.PENANAypyiOdhwYJ
I commented on his frequent change of instagram username. and well, he tells me to F.O. for it. 816Please respect copyright.PENANAf58ICP9u2k
So yeah, apparently we're still in highschool. 816Please respect copyright.PENANAGsJjuyr7nf
...816Please respect copyright.PENANANeLOAyGaQG
And I wanted to RANT about it, you know?816Please respect copyright.PENANAtvc1SfBDyh
Throw my hurt feelings out to the world, so my heart feels empty.816Please respect copyright.PENANAEj2kvfgKSL
But I couldn't use Facebook (he's a facebook friend). Instagram. (same reason). Nor Twitter (I don't tweet my feelings, duh.)816Please respect copyright.PENANAg1KtS1iLqF
So I came here. and TADA! A blog. 816Please respect copyright.PENANARZyo2Z4Laj
I'm so glad. But I can't type as fast as my thoughts. And I feel pretty damn bad about it. It's stupid. I know. 816Please respect copyright.PENANACtsSidoA6z
But he shouldn't be the one to get all riled up about it. Right?816Please respect copyright.PENANAGC0o4Sf1KB
I mean. He didn't want to commit. When I was so ready. 816Please respect copyright.PENANAx8NtRVesRV
So calling it off, was it that bad?816Please respect copyright.PENANAa2V9CrQNOM
Though the way I called it off was pretty damn stupid, bad and outright mean. So maybe yes, I deserve this. 816Please respect copyright.PENANALYbw57a03U
BUT. A huge BUTT- I mean, butt. But. (sorry)816Please respect copyright.PENANAktI7JMuNH7
But. It's been two months. It wasn't like he was in love with me or I broke his heart. 816Please respect copyright.PENANA5SBn8TjqKb
If he wanted to be with me, he could have just EFFING taken the step. 816Please respect copyright.PENANAKCI9mnqvoE
But no. So now. His friends, who were also my friends, don't talk to me. 816Please respect copyright.PENANAQ7I9XnRTvR
He once mentioned that the entire class hates me. Which is not a shocker, really. I had that coming. 816Please respect copyright.PENANAaYJD42oN87
So. All these frustrations have now led me to bottle up and almost burst like Mount Vesuvius. 816Please respect copyright.PENANAsY5yfMo1YD
Henceforth, we have this. 816Please respect copyright.PENANAO7Nk504ClL
Thanks for bearing with me. 816Please respect copyright.PENANAQp9XgsXbyn
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