#1 Entry: Why I Started This.817Please respect copyright.PENANA9mhlJVzgn4
This is actually personal. And I don't expect anyone to read this. It's a surprise that you are so. And no, this entry is not about the bad-ness of smoking, drinking or doing weed. Not yet, anyway. It's about what happened, fifteen minutes ago.817Please respect copyright.PENANABHew5gQFin
A while ago, I got so effing frustrated at a guy I almost dated. We didn't date- why? Because he wasn't ready to make it official, even after six months of him knowing that I really liked him. 817Please respect copyright.PENANA0YjfdJ47E5
His excuse: He found me adorable. And in his bucket list, it was to stay single till college graduation.817Please respect copyright.PENANAOSXRHN1yPI
Thinking about it, that sounds like an excuse right about now. Why was I so stupid? 817Please respect copyright.PENANAC9yEBPCfh9
Moving on to present day, two months after I called it off (though, there was nothing to call off), the following happens. 817Please respect copyright.PENANARBssbGLVci
It's a bit immature, but tell that to him. 817Please respect copyright.PENANApXqjFWWAkF
I commented on his frequent change of instagram username. and well, he tells me to F.O. for it. 817Please respect copyright.PENANAQ7PMfxuqg9
So yeah, apparently we're still in highschool. 817Please respect copyright.PENANA6GC9jtIsIy
...817Please respect copyright.PENANAegS0SlX1K4
And I wanted to RANT about it, you know?817Please respect copyright.PENANAYVaL9yVwrS
Throw my hurt feelings out to the world, so my heart feels empty.817Please respect copyright.PENANA0Eu7KTqg6W
But I couldn't use Facebook (he's a facebook friend). Instagram. (same reason). Nor Twitter (I don't tweet my feelings, duh.)817Please respect copyright.PENANAKL3uCYziC2
So I came here. and TADA! A blog. 817Please respect copyright.PENANAFOjB8dlVIV
I'm so glad. But I can't type as fast as my thoughts. And I feel pretty damn bad about it. It's stupid. I know. 817Please respect copyright.PENANARj6Bzpnumn
But he shouldn't be the one to get all riled up about it. Right?817Please respect copyright.PENANAMKrtK4ClcS
I mean. He didn't want to commit. When I was so ready. 817Please respect copyright.PENANA2PRMDqv3Zu
So calling it off, was it that bad?817Please respect copyright.PENANA1tYr6htury
Though the way I called it off was pretty damn stupid, bad and outright mean. So maybe yes, I deserve this. 817Please respect copyright.PENANAwt9Ul7XFvO
BUT. A huge BUTT- I mean, butt. But. (sorry)817Please respect copyright.PENANAtQxtYytI5X
But. It's been two months. It wasn't like he was in love with me or I broke his heart. 817Please respect copyright.PENANAB48F0XjTOS
If he wanted to be with me, he could have just EFFING taken the step. 817Please respect copyright.PENANAvMXc6Geqi3
But no. So now. His friends, who were also my friends, don't talk to me. 817Please respect copyright.PENANAp7S76vhYmj
He once mentioned that the entire class hates me. Which is not a shocker, really. I had that coming. 817Please respect copyright.PENANAK3FrCrOuw9
So. All these frustrations have now led me to bottle up and almost burst like Mount Vesuvius. 817Please respect copyright.PENANAJIBjh3IbGW
Henceforth, we have this. 817Please respect copyright.PENANAiNYwizhHw3
Thanks for bearing with me. 817Please respect copyright.PENANAwLq547cisN
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