"So tell me what's going on with you and your new boyfriend, the heartthrob of all girls, Zac. How did you bag him?" Jane asks curiously.
"Well, you know, being honest and letting out the feelings won't really hurt much. I just told him how I felt about him and he said he was looking for it." I say, a bit showing off. Because exactly one year ago, I remember her telling me, how he was out of my league and I should be looking forward to some douchy nerd.
"Well, he just seems way out of your league you know. Don't mind me, it just feels like he is using cause you look much innocent to trick into this."
There she goes again. I knew it, she will bring it up somehow. Is she actually jealous of me right now?
"You mean, I look innocent for a guy to trick me into thinking he actually likes me while all he wants is just my body for some cheap-ass sex? That's what you think of me?"
"Come on, it looks so fake. Have you seen the kind of girls he has dated and he just comes up saying, even he had the same feelings towards you all this time? Ask yourself are you fooling yourself into thinking he likes you or is it a reality. You will find yourself thinking about it all day."268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhgN16CfMpZ
"You know what? Maybe you are jealous cause I got a guy way out of my league and am enjoying the spotlight while you suck at a corner. I get it. It's fine, at least you could have told to me on my face how I can't be in a relationship with someone like Zac, just because I happen to be curvy," I fume at her. I just can't let her get into my head. 268Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFxLU9Xy9fH
"I won't mind sucking at a corner while he is using you. Everyone knows his kind, and its gets weird how he always wants to hang around you nowadays. Am just scared for you." She tells me as calmly as she could.
I won't blame her, even I had the same feeling all this while, why would he date me while there are other incredible girls out there. I would have agreed with her, but that means am giving in to her and she could control me.
"But tell me one reason why he can't date me other than the fact that he has always dated model-like girls. What if he changed, and now he is interested in girls like me? Isn't that a possibility?"
"It's possible, so I would suggest you take things slowly and maybe make him long for you so that you can see through him if he actually wants you or he was just playing around. Trust me, as good as it sounds you are in love with the famous guy, it gets more twisted as its all a first."
"If I think clearly and look at the positive side, it's all going good and am enjoying it-"
"Just don't get attached to him, yet."
That's what I was afraid of, am already attached to him and it only gets worse if I don't get his message back within an hour.
"Yes, am trying. I won't get attached to him." I have to lie to her. She worries too much for me. I can't make her feel terrible, but I could have told the truth also.
"Yes, I know you won't fall for him-"
"But am already attached to an extent where I worry too much about him and can't stop asking him about his day and how he feels... Maybe because this is all new to me and is not sure how I am supposed to react and respond to every detail. I think I love him deeply. I don't know what to do."
"Oh dear" she hugs me hard and knows, am messed up now.
"I am a mess right?"
"I would say yes" She laughs so do I.
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