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承影 承影
Oct 21, 2022 171 3 Mins Read
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知道善柔嘅死訊，我大受打擊，既傷心又內疚，意志極度消沉。

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係我將一切都睇得太簡單，成日淨係諗住佢地散左就無問題，結果完全忽略左善柔嘅感受…

175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtJvvOgZj1O

當然，我真係無諗過平時咁樂觀強大嘅善柔，會因為一次咁嘅打擊就選擇結束自己嘅生命。

175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWe1V3J2ig2

到衣家我都唔明白，果個黎浩明真係咁好值得為左佢犠性自己條命，扔低其他所有愛錫佢嘅人?

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我唔明，我真係唔明…

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我嬲自己嘅同時，亦有d嬲善柔點解會為左個渣男而扔低自己。

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原來喺佢心目中，黎生真係比自己重要咁多。

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突然間，我有種想傷害自己嘅衝動。

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我想做d傷害自己嘅野，等善柔內疚同心痛。

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我想報復佢等佢後悔就咁扔低左我然後令我變成一個壞左嘅人…

175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyfhtFbXlSq

於是我同女朋友分手，開始亂攪男女關係，過左段荒淫無道嘅生活。

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總知佢唔鍾意我做嘅野我通通都要去做…

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如果果陣唔係已經係yr3中後期大部份成績都塵埃落定，我甚至根本唔會畢到業。

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不過做左一段時間，我就發覺衣d野根本完全減輕唔到我心入面嘅痛楚同哀傷…

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我仍然好掛住佢

我仍然好唔開心

我個心仍然係穿左個窿

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然後有晚，我食左人生第一口煙。

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從小，學校同父母都教育我地食煙係唔岩，係壞人先做嘅事，加上陣味真係好難聞，所以一直我都真係好唔鍾意食煙嘅人。

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不過果晚，當我又因為諗起善柔而失眠，然後我就一條友落左hall樓下諗住出去望下月光。結果見到其中一個hallmate正係度擔住支煙食得津津有味，於是我就行埋去成為左佢嘅一份子。

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既然要變壞，要做d傷害自己，做d善柔唔會鍾意我做嘅事去傷害佢，食煙自然係其中一個好好嘅選擇。

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一開始吸其實好唔習慣，一吸入肺就不停咁咳。不過隨住吸多幾啖身體慢慢適應左，感覺個腦開始有d反應後，我發覺我竟然有一種寧靜嘅感覺，個人好似無再咁down同咁sad，有少少抽離同超脫左現實嘅感覺。

175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDRaQEeO8Zr

突然間，我開始明點解明知對身體有害都仲有咁多人食煙，原來佢真係有種舒緩情緒嘅作用，又或者可以將佢形容為心理上嘅麻醉藥。

175Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKyOzab9Oww

然後我又諗起善柔曾經講過，有d野自己未試過，真係唔應該去judge人，因為你唔會明白人地嘅感受。

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我唔係話食煙係好，不過如果自己未試過食煙時果種放鬆恬靜嘅感覺，其實或者我地都唔應該不斷猛烈咁批評食煙嘅人。

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Table of Contents
#0 Intro
#1 1. 關於我嘅職業
#2 1.2
#3 1.3
#4 1.4
#5 1.5
#6 1.6
#7 1.7
#8 1.8
#9 1.9
#10 2. Winnie與Jason
#11 2.2
#12 2.3
#13 2.4
#14 2.5
#15 2.6
#16 2.7
#17 2.8
#18 2.9
#19 2.10
#20 2.11
#21 2.12
#22 2.13
#23 2.14
#24 2.15
#25 2.16
#26 2.17
#27 2.18
#28 2.19
#29 2.20
#30 2.21
#31 2.22
#32 2.23
#33 2.24
#34 2.25
#35 2.26
#36 3. Connie與Jacky
#37 3.2
#38 3.3
#39 3.4
#40 3.5
#41 3.6
#42 3.7
#43 3.8
#44 3.9
#45 3.10
#46 3.11
#47 3.12
#48 3.13
#49 3.14
#50 3.15
#51 3.16
#52 3.17
#53 3.18
#54 3.19
#55 4. Maggie與Louis
#56 4.2
#57 4.3
#58 4.4
#59 4.5
#60 4.6
#61 4.7
#62 4.8
#63 4.9
#64 4.10
#65 4.11
#66 4.12
#67 4.13
#68 4.14
#69 4.15
#70 4.16
#71 4.17
#72 4.18
#73 4.19
#74 4.20
#75 4.21
#76 4.22
#77 5. Vienna 與Joe
#78 5.2
#79 5.3
#80 5.4
#81 5.5
#82 5.6
#83 5.7
#84 5.8
#85 5.9
#86 5.10
#87 5.11
#88 5.12
#89 6. Wayne與Queenie
#90 6.2
#91 6.3
#92 6.4
#93 6.5
#94 6.6
#95 6.7
#96 6.8
#97 6.9
#98 6.10
#99 6.11
#100 6.12
#101 6.13
#102 6.14
#103 6.15
#104 6.16
#105 6.17
#106 6.18
#107 6.19
#108 6.20
#109 6.21
#110 6.22
#111 6.23
#112 7. ST與Tony
#113 7.2
#114 7.3
#115 7.4
#116 7.5
#117 7.6
#118 7.7
#119 7.8
#120 7.9
#121 7.10
#122 7.11
#123 7.12
#124 7.13
#125 7.14
#126 7.15
#127 7.16
#128 7.17
#129 7.18
#130 7.19
#131 7.20
#132 7.21
#133 7.22
#134 7.23
#135 7.24
#136 7.25
#137 7.26
#138 7.27
#139 7.28
#140 7.29
#141 7.30
#142 7.31
#143 7.32
#144 8. ST與Ryan
#145 8.2
#146 8.3
#147 8.4
#148 8.5
#149 8.6
#150 8.7
#151 8.8
#152 8.9
#153 8.10
#154 8.11
#155 8.12
#156 8.13
#157 8.14
#158 8.15
#159 8.16
#160 8.17
#161 8.18
#162 8.19
#163 8.20
#164 8.21
#165 8.22
#166 8.23
#167 8.24
#168 8.25
#169 8.26
#170 8.27
#171 8.28
#172 8.29
#173 8.30
#174 8.31
#175 8.32
#176 8.33
#177 8.34
#178 9. 關於我嘅新職業
#179 9.2
#180 9.3
#181 9.4
#182 9.5
#183 9.6
#184 9.7
#185 9.8
#186 9.9
#187 9.10
#188 9.11
#189 9.12
#190 9.13
#191 9.14
#192 9.15
#193 10. 作者的話
#194 11. 外傳
#195 11.2
#196 11.3
#197 11.4
#198 11.5
#199 11.6
#200 11.7
#201 11.8
#202 11.9
#203 11.10
#204 11.11
#205 11.12
#206 11.13
#207 11.14
#208 11.15
#209 11.16
#210 11.17
#211 11.18
#212 11.19
#213 11.20
#214 11.21
#215 11.22
#216 11.23
#217 11.24
#218 11.25
#219 11.26
#220 11.27
#221 11.28
#222 亂入: 作者開IG
#223 12. 外傳(二)
#224 12.2
#225 12.3
#226 12.4
#227 12.5
#228 12.6
#229 12.7
#230 12.8
#231 12.9
#232 12.10
#233 12.11
#234 12.12
#235 12.13
#236 12.14
#237 12.15
#238 12.16
#239 12.17
#240 12.18
#241 12.19
#242 12.20
#243 12.21
#244 12.22
#245 12.23
#246 12.24
#247 12.25
#248 12.26
#249 12.27
#250 12.28
#251 12.29
#252 12.30
#253 12.31
#254 12.32
#255 12.33
#256 12.34
#257 12.35
#258 12.36
#259 12.37
#260 12.38
#261 12.39
#262 12.40
#263 12.41
#264 12.42
#265 12.43
#266 12.44
#267 12.45
#268 12.46
#269 12.47
#270 12.48
#271 12.49
#272 12.50
#273 12.51
#274 12.52
#275 12.53
#276 12.54
#277 12.55
#278 12.56
#279 12.57
#280 12.58
#281 12.59
#282 12.60
#283 12.61
#284 12.62
#285 12.63
#286 13. 關於這篇外傳(二)
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