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我得了一種病。一種讓人健忘的病。383Please respect copyright.PENANAbp7ZFCt2XI
它潛伏在我的腦袋裡,在我不注意時,偷偷的啃蝕著。383Please respect copyright.PENANA8LXN1R6Fji
——漸漸,變得殘破不全。383Please respect copyright.PENANAobZ2MIFUYe
奇怪的是,當我意識到時,我不知道自己該感到難過還是開心。383Please respect copyright.PENANAndpKDSuOMR
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「來,一共是一百四十元。」早餐店的阿姨把熱騰騰的早餐遞給我。383Please respect copyright.PENANARMUcKYXrjJ
一聽到這個數目,原本在掏錢的我困惑的抬起頭,「一百四?」383Please respect copyright.PENANANZq1k2nLuw
「是啊。兩個三明治加上紅茶和果汁。」阿姨說。383Please respect copyright.PENANA9lRGbtt9BR
「⋯⋯喔,對,沒事。」我微笑著把錢付清,「是我搞錯了。」383Please respect copyright.PENANAbUbRrPJ4zs
「妳今年是大二對吧?時間過的真快⋯⋯想當初妳還只是個小小孩呢。」阿姨感嘆。383Please respect copyright.PENANA9BsocnKUOw
「是啊。」我同意道,並瞥了一眼時鐘。「啊,我要去搭公車了。」383Please respect copyright.PENANAsijVzWgiOm
「喔,好。那拜拜囉。」383Please respect copyright.PENANAtcLvKXtqsq
我與早餐店的阿姨道別後,便一路用跑的跑到公車站。差一點就沒趕上了。383Please respect copyright.PENANAAfRufjPQr3
呼。我重重吐出一口氣以緩和呼吸。383Please respect copyright.PENANAQCnKW7Kpcj
打開塑膠袋,我看著不小心多出一份的早餐。383Please respect copyright.PENANAQdCWN6Psch
唉,又忘了啊。383Please respect copyright.PENANAVvMO7GhisJ
明明只要買一份就夠了⋯⋯383Please respect copyright.PENANAzR4sn6dYE9
「早啊。」這時,我頭頂上冒出一個聲音。383Please respect copyright.PENANAywsFjsgjoU
我抬頭,並認出她是時常會坐在我前面的那位同學,「早安。」383Please respect copyright.PENANABForN6PDRn
說完這句之後,我們就陷入了沈默。雖然每天都會見到,但我們其實沒有很熟,最多也就是例行的問候而已。383Please respect copyright.PENANAu6OpQaDzxI
我看著她,突然冷不防的問了一句,「妳吃早餐了嗎?」383Please respect copyright.PENANAC9GGzjgzg2
她似乎很驚訝我會向她搭話。「還沒。」383Please respect copyright.PENANAM5URzVtWi9
「那,」我遞出多的那份早餐,「妳要嗎?這是我不小心多買的。」383Please respect copyright.PENANAQlQuT7ieq4
「噢,好、好啊⋯⋯」她遲疑接下,「呃⋯⋯謝謝?」383Please respect copyright.PENANA2gzgQyvc6B
我笑了一下。383Please respect copyright.PENANAiU5U5dmKh1
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到了教室,我坐到以前坐的位子上,下一秒,我才想起我現在的位子不是這裡。我想換到別的地方,但因爲這樣會顯得很奇怪,所以只好待在原位。383Please respect copyright.PENANAMpTqZ6lXlN
啊,果然是生病了呢。383Please respect copyright.PENANAWJXO7rdn0d
明明很久以前就不再坐這個位子了。383Please respect copyright.PENANAocpA35Iwb1
我瞄了一眼身旁的空位,卻彷彿被什麼扎到似的迅速撇開眼睛。383Please respect copyright.PENANAWKCb4y9upa
就在此時,我看到了那位同學坐到了我前面。她看看我,又望向其他地方,似乎欲言又止的。
「雖然⋯⋯我這樣問很奇怪,但妳⋯⋯沒事吧?」383Please respect copyright.PENANAfGo95HHu3o
我擺出不解的樣子反問:「我沒事啊,為什麼這樣問?」383Please respect copyright.PENANAOJk6t55WNg
「不⋯⋯只是覺得妳不太好,自從——」383Please respect copyright.PENANA7jbZKBJ3tU
她打住,因為我正不發一語的看著她。383Please respect copyright.PENANANGNsXT3kNt
「——不,沒事。只是建議妳多睡一點,妳氣色似乎不太好⋯⋯還有要幫忙的話,可以找我。」她舉起塑膠袋,「就當今天早餐的謝禮。」383Please respect copyright.PENANAxJN1jjqdAF
我對她笑了一下。「好啊,謝謝。」383Please respect copyright.PENANAQdHxFjz8tT
「那⋯⋯就這樣。」她默默的轉回去。383Please respect copyright.PENANAjdfakukmbg
等她不再看我後,我的笑容垮了下去。我在心中默默感謝她的關心,但我不想去想她那個「自從」之後要接什麼。383Please respect copyright.PENANAKprHG3Dh5V
我閉上眼,想試著把旁邊空位的景象記下,但不管再怎麼努力,腦海中,那裡總會坐著一個熟悉的身影。383Please respect copyright.PENANA7r1Frs3arq
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看著那個空位,彷彿有什麼東西擾動著我的每個細胞,我頓時覺得每多待在這一秒就要停止呼吸。令人⋯⋯喘不過氣。383Please respect copyright.PENANAbOwCS6VMa9
我猛然站起身,抓著自己的東西走出教室。我越走越快,到最後變成了狂奔。我大口大口的喘著氣,像是在逃離什麼似的沒命的跑。不知過了多久,痠痛的全身使我逼自己停下。383Please respect copyright.PENANAGIAEBMc4UN
下意識的,我跑到一個小池塘邊,幾朵睡蓮輕輕托於水面,幾綹風絲吹起了漣漪。每次來到這裡,我總能找回平靜。383Please respect copyright.PENANAe3hZKb08ZV
但,那也是因為有他在。383Please respect copyright.PENANA1TbweCblja
哈。我甚至忘記來這裡已經沒有意義了。383Please respect copyright.PENANA4WQDagCZBH
我一屁股坐到地上。而在我的腳旁邊,有一張紙從我包包裡滑落。我撿起它,發現這其實是照片時,便馬上就後悔撿它了。我重新回想起那些事物。383Please respect copyright.PENANAo0RtZJ2oz5
鮮花。黑色衣服。照片——那是我人生中第一次的告別式。383Please respect copyright.PENANAaoqpfGXqOj
突然間,我想起剛剛那位同學。我想她想說的應該是:自從他不再坐這個位子時。383Please respect copyright.PENANAS2X8iao54N
我望向手中,想不透我的包包裡為什麼還會有他的照片。383Please respect copyright.PENANAPP6iz6dF94
明明都收起來了⋯⋯我連自己還漏了一張都忘了嗎?383Please respect copyright.PENANARhUa20IhFH
「⋯⋯真是健忘。」我輕聲說,看著水中倒映著的自己,期待身後會出現熟稔的臉龐,但不管等了多久,始終只有我一個人的倒影。383Please respect copyright.PENANApzv30TTK5l
我賭氣似的用手劃開水面,漣漪使倒影變得無法看清。383Please respect copyright.PENANAwnhOH11Gbs
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有時候,我覺得他仍會出現在下一個轉彎處。383Please respect copyright.PENANApXIOQB8m8Y
有時候,我會忘了他已經不在我身邊。383Please respect copyright.PENANAv6Mk7nrSlN
有時候,我在想我自己到底是怎麼了。383Please respect copyright.PENANAn9g4aGMzE6
我開始感到害怕、擔心——我發現自己得了一種病。一種讓人健忘的病。383Please respect copyright.PENANAJ7gJJcpTEd
它使我仍舊惦念著過去的美好時光,如同正做著美夢一般;也使我對他留下的空缺感到不知所措,像個找不到拼圖的孩子,明知擺放的位置在哪,卻始終無法找到最後一片。
我不知道自己該為此感到難過還是開心——腦袋已經是千瘡百孔,我沒辦法釐清思緒。383Please respect copyright.PENANAoHQPhWnoFQ
不過,我卻清楚知道一件事。我得了一種病,一種讓人忘卻的病。383Please respect copyright.PENANAZPBt9raCWn
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而現在,這個病使我忘了如何遺忘。383Please respect copyright.PENANAmtqN8VVrqT
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