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我得了一種病。一種讓人健忘的病。381Please respect copyright.PENANA5P4yFB63fg
它潛伏在我的腦袋裡,在我不注意時,偷偷的啃蝕著。381Please respect copyright.PENANAGeXHfz7JPm
——漸漸,變得殘破不全。381Please respect copyright.PENANA0xfPWR7OAx
奇怪的是,當我意識到時,我不知道自己該感到難過還是開心。381Please respect copyright.PENANAkdfa26MjhS
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「來,一共是一百四十元。」早餐店的阿姨把熱騰騰的早餐遞給我。381Please respect copyright.PENANAw6Rg3RhkZl
一聽到這個數目,原本在掏錢的我困惑的抬起頭,「一百四?」381Please respect copyright.PENANAEEFLtqfoqy
「是啊。兩個三明治加上紅茶和果汁。」阿姨說。381Please respect copyright.PENANAF844HRKQja
「⋯⋯喔,對,沒事。」我微笑著把錢付清,「是我搞錯了。」381Please respect copyright.PENANAJeGUsj0ReV
「妳今年是大二對吧?時間過的真快⋯⋯想當初妳還只是個小小孩呢。」阿姨感嘆。381Please respect copyright.PENANAbRsTy00rzd
「是啊。」我同意道,並瞥了一眼時鐘。「啊,我要去搭公車了。」381Please respect copyright.PENANAqS3S3D3TF8
「喔,好。那拜拜囉。」381Please respect copyright.PENANAzpZeXSnr0H
我與早餐店的阿姨道別後,便一路用跑的跑到公車站。差一點就沒趕上了。381Please respect copyright.PENANA0EU3XRqUKa
呼。我重重吐出一口氣以緩和呼吸。381Please respect copyright.PENANAMHOSnOeB0g
打開塑膠袋,我看著不小心多出一份的早餐。381Please respect copyright.PENANAqdGexgqpeZ
唉,又忘了啊。381Please respect copyright.PENANAySrNNETijH
明明只要買一份就夠了⋯⋯381Please respect copyright.PENANAT7t07TNZw6
「早啊。」這時,我頭頂上冒出一個聲音。381Please respect copyright.PENANAnYb3bifbQk
我抬頭,並認出她是時常會坐在我前面的那位同學,「早安。」381Please respect copyright.PENANAeF3OzBZouL
說完這句之後,我們就陷入了沈默。雖然每天都會見到,但我們其實沒有很熟,最多也就是例行的問候而已。381Please respect copyright.PENANAqxB5bGYWt8
我看著她,突然冷不防的問了一句,「妳吃早餐了嗎?」381Please respect copyright.PENANA3XKdwrGIPm
她似乎很驚訝我會向她搭話。「還沒。」381Please respect copyright.PENANAOzKSmiuJyr
「那,」我遞出多的那份早餐,「妳要嗎?這是我不小心多買的。」381Please respect copyright.PENANA3E91cTJWCB
「噢,好、好啊⋯⋯」她遲疑接下,「呃⋯⋯謝謝?」381Please respect copyright.PENANAKu8MpFj6xG
我笑了一下。381Please respect copyright.PENANAay5yKoDHLI
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到了教室,我坐到以前坐的位子上,下一秒,我才想起我現在的位子不是這裡。我想換到別的地方,但因爲這樣會顯得很奇怪,所以只好待在原位。381Please respect copyright.PENANAolufWerJx8
啊,果然是生病了呢。381Please respect copyright.PENANAjYzanHzioW
明明很久以前就不再坐這個位子了。381Please respect copyright.PENANAK7ikrf8nAW
我瞄了一眼身旁的空位,卻彷彿被什麼扎到似的迅速撇開眼睛。381Please respect copyright.PENANAmIqmzmnN5H
就在此時,我看到了那位同學坐到了我前面。她看看我,又望向其他地方,似乎欲言又止的。
「雖然⋯⋯我這樣問很奇怪,但妳⋯⋯沒事吧?」381Please respect copyright.PENANAVVPGT1FD7L
我擺出不解的樣子反問:「我沒事啊,為什麼這樣問?」381Please respect copyright.PENANAWA0vEFRoOC
「不⋯⋯只是覺得妳不太好,自從——」381Please respect copyright.PENANAqyg6XOJvte
她打住,因為我正不發一語的看著她。381Please respect copyright.PENANALtAIYgAbj5
「——不,沒事。只是建議妳多睡一點,妳氣色似乎不太好⋯⋯還有要幫忙的話,可以找我。」她舉起塑膠袋,「就當今天早餐的謝禮。」381Please respect copyright.PENANAGRyofvm6vU
我對她笑了一下。「好啊,謝謝。」381Please respect copyright.PENANAzvBuRAOAbo
「那⋯⋯就這樣。」她默默的轉回去。381Please respect copyright.PENANALbF0xcRcBq
等她不再看我後,我的笑容垮了下去。我在心中默默感謝她的關心,但我不想去想她那個「自從」之後要接什麼。381Please respect copyright.PENANAspdEzVcGHs
我閉上眼,想試著把旁邊空位的景象記下,但不管再怎麼努力,腦海中,那裡總會坐著一個熟悉的身影。381Please respect copyright.PENANAZfyYO3sBwH
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看著那個空位,彷彿有什麼東西擾動著我的每個細胞,我頓時覺得每多待在這一秒就要停止呼吸。令人⋯⋯喘不過氣。381Please respect copyright.PENANADZJipYwyQN
我猛然站起身,抓著自己的東西走出教室。我越走越快,到最後變成了狂奔。我大口大口的喘著氣,像是在逃離什麼似的沒命的跑。不知過了多久,痠痛的全身使我逼自己停下。381Please respect copyright.PENANAWVvGYqPWYx
下意識的,我跑到一個小池塘邊,幾朵睡蓮輕輕托於水面,幾綹風絲吹起了漣漪。每次來到這裡,我總能找回平靜。381Please respect copyright.PENANAmxgoVsMXVN
但,那也是因為有他在。381Please respect copyright.PENANABN4VGRDqqW
哈。我甚至忘記來這裡已經沒有意義了。381Please respect copyright.PENANAgOh3ONtxH2
我一屁股坐到地上。而在我的腳旁邊,有一張紙從我包包裡滑落。我撿起它,發現這其實是照片時,便馬上就後悔撿它了。我重新回想起那些事物。381Please respect copyright.PENANA4zpIysrnbj
鮮花。黑色衣服。照片——那是我人生中第一次的告別式。381Please respect copyright.PENANAApvLU8vpMZ
突然間,我想起剛剛那位同學。我想她想說的應該是:自從他不再坐這個位子時。381Please respect copyright.PENANAksRFoZAe2h
我望向手中,想不透我的包包裡為什麼還會有他的照片。381Please respect copyright.PENANAELAbU72abG
明明都收起來了⋯⋯我連自己還漏了一張都忘了嗎?381Please respect copyright.PENANAciy7v6Sa18
「⋯⋯真是健忘。」我輕聲說,看著水中倒映著的自己,期待身後會出現熟稔的臉龐,但不管等了多久,始終只有我一個人的倒影。381Please respect copyright.PENANAYyYjXt5rxe
我賭氣似的用手劃開水面,漣漪使倒影變得無法看清。381Please respect copyright.PENANAsVKmE1BdW0
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有時候,我覺得他仍會出現在下一個轉彎處。381Please respect copyright.PENANAQXc0n8g9QG
有時候,我會忘了他已經不在我身邊。381Please respect copyright.PENANAD5m2cNtbGP
有時候,我在想我自己到底是怎麼了。381Please respect copyright.PENANAKF2CKb812N
我開始感到害怕、擔心——我發現自己得了一種病。一種讓人健忘的病。381Please respect copyright.PENANAo8mPGNF9vC
它使我仍舊惦念著過去的美好時光,如同正做著美夢一般;也使我對他留下的空缺感到不知所措,像個找不到拼圖的孩子,明知擺放的位置在哪,卻始終無法找到最後一片。
我不知道自己該為此感到難過還是開心——腦袋已經是千瘡百孔,我沒辦法釐清思緒。381Please respect copyright.PENANANKXfp4jtyq
不過,我卻清楚知道一件事。我得了一種病,一種讓人忘卻的病。381Please respect copyright.PENANAGoWn6OdtH5
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而現在,這個病使我忘了如何遺忘。381Please respect copyright.PENANAAzGJfe8oIJ
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