How can I express my love? When I don't know what that word really means? That is the question that has been on my mind since I started this walk with you. Since I started to walk down a path so narrow but filled with so much of your love, that I am afraid to try to walk it. I've walked it before and I have always strayed from the path, yet you were always there to get me back on it. You loved me enough to die a gruesome death on a cross, you love me enough to bring me back to you when I can't get there myself. You lift me up when I let the world and when I let myself drag me down. You love me enough to help me keep chasing after a dream that I keep thinking is impossible. You love me enough to keep my enemies from having victory over me, you love me enough to remind me that I have no enemies. That is just a bit how much you love me?
But do I love you?
The honest truth is I don't know how to love you. I don't know how to show my love to you sometimes. You have been right by my side since I was born, since my ears were too closed to hear you, since my eyes were blind to the mountains you have moved. It hurts to know that you love me and that you express your love for us in ways that go far beyond your death on the cross. It hurts so much to know that I can't let go of the sin that has been hurting me so much, that sin that I treat so much like a safety net. It hurts cause you are my safety net, when my sin wants me to sink and feel bad formyself and blame everyone else for my mistakes. You and you alone are the net that drags me out of the ocean, that helps me breathe, that reminds me that you are right there. It hurts to know that you have given us the best gift in both life and in the spirit. It's hard to express my love for you. 211Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ7fHWA7nbn
Yet do I love you?
Yes I love you. That is why my life hurts so much is because your love pushes me to be better, pushes me to forgive, pushes me to be humble. It pushes me to be better, and that love is what is helping me try harder. It's the love and faith that I have for you Jesus Christ that gives me the strength to keep trying. It's the faith in your promises, whether it be, whom you set free is truly free indeed, or the most important part of the faith, that God so loved the world that he sent his only son to die for it. Because you are also God in the flesh. I love you so much that it hurts when I give into my sin. It hurts when I promise to give up my sin but than an hour later runs back to it. It hurts my heart to know that when give into my sin, you don't hate me for it, but push me to try again and to try harder. It hurts to know that when I run to my sin, you are there with your arms open beckoning me, calling me, screaming out. "I am right here!"
It's so hard to love you, when I keep failing to do one thing for me. It's hard to love you when I don't know what that word means. It's hard to love you when I feel like I am abusing and misusing your love.
Yet I still love you.
Yes I love you.
Yes I love you.
I sing my praises to the one that loves me and to the savior who completes me.
I love the savior that rescues me, the Shepard that guides me, and to the God who knows me.
I love the savior that died for me.
And the one that rose again with all glory, all honor and all praise.
I love the Lord Jesus Christ, the risen king, the rising lamb and the lion of the world.
I love you enough to keep trying to change.
Because if I didn't love you.
I wouldn't have accepted you in the first place.
You gave me a choice, to believe in you and your love, or stay the same.
I choose to love you cause you love me.
I love you, cause you love me.
So help express my love to you more.
Help me express myself better.
Help me love others the same way I love you.
Thank you for loving me.
Thank you for keeping me.
Thank you for standing by me.
In your name I pray.
Amen.
Hallelujah
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