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「季慈，你昨天還好嗎？」71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0vhcsrmssX
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季慈正打算要找昨天代班同事好好的道謝，同事反倒先過來關心他，讓他相當不好意思。「沒事了，很抱歉，昨天讓你臨時代班，過幾天我再算代班費給你。」71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKIX2llTrcU
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「啊，不用客氣啦，同事一場互相幫忙嘛。」同事爽朗的擺手，忽然左右張望了一下，神秘兮兮地靠近季慈。「你告訴我，昨天是不是跟那個帥哥吵架了？」71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcaD6V9DFpG
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季慈一怔，「沒有，我們沒有吵架。真是不好意思，嚇到你了。」71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ9bEyqoZ7p
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同事知道敲不出季慈嘴裡的話，再安慰個兩句就去換制服了，換成負責服務台的同事過來，手裡來拎著一個紙袋。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOyHbiZGppz
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「這是昨天有客人指名要給你的。」季慈接過手他還不忘消遣道：「行情真好～」71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC4mHon9mFR
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季慈疑惑地打開紙袋，袋子尺寸不寬但很深，裡頭只有三項物品，用皮套裝著的兩支羽球拍，一桶羽球，和貼在球拍皮套外的聖誕小卡。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtOJoOaRHWq
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「呃。」季慈錯愕地發出一個無意義的單音節。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ489wIBZQD
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「怎麼了？這禮物挺特別的，第一次看見有愛慕者送運動用品。」71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFRSbfBKjXV
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季慈但笑不語，在同事伸手要將貼在皮套上的卡片撕下來之前，他把袋子口闔上了轉身動作一氣呵成的把它塞進櫃子，「這不是愛慕者，是討厭鬼。」季慈沒理會同事詫異的神色，取出制服就要去更衣室換。「我先去換衣服。」71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjjex8xWjIB
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一看見袋子裡的羽球組季慈不作他想，他肯定送這別人看不出頭緒的禮物是他的父親，所以他才訝異的發出奇怪聲音。他邊換上制服邊猜想卡片的內容，這種時候——相隔十多年未見的卡片裡，究竟會寫上什麼樣的話語，是不是就跟他心裡的感受一樣苦澀又複雜難喻？71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwFmOvxegay
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季慈換好衣服回到休息室打開了卡片。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEA0t7o6QIq
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上面寫著好久不見，你都長這麼大了，真是太令人意外等等之類的辭彙，並邀請他吃晚餐，來個父子睽違十多年的聖誕聚餐，留下一串電話請他要是願意告知他一聲，用餐地點很方便，就在十九樓的餐廳，是一間只要排隊抽號不必訂位的飯館。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡevSKvpHgpf
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他站在櫃子前面沉思了一陣，程華的故事和安慰確實達到效果，他認為他該去聽一聽父親這遲來的說詞，了解他所不知道的一面，至於要不要原諒，是後話。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtWIoG7XBrh
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決定後季慈掏出手機，撥了通電話給程華，告訴他：「我父親送了一份禮物給我。」並表現出他想要與父親用餐的念頭，程華答應了，還出言鼓舞他，季慈頓時被一股暖意包圍，他漾開笑容正準備又要說些什麼，同事已經在門外嚷著集合，他只好將所有句子化為一聲謝謝，應允程華的小心願，他甚至靈機一動的拍了自己的鞋子，好像有覺得不夠似的，卡緊了時間拍了父親給的禮物，一起傳給了程華。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8aFQvYXhCS
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耍了點小聰明後的心情十分之好，與同事一齊等待電梯來臨時都掩不住笑意，不免招來同事的調戲。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP6TpEHSiKV
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季慈笑笑未多做解釋，很快電梯來了中斷所有閒聊。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV6TP0aIHuW
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今天工作的心情一直維持在愉快的水平線上，只是隨著下班時間接近，心跳有點不受控制的失序，偶爾會在人群裡試圖尋找父親，望眼欲穿的姿態被同事看見總免不了一陣消遣。季慈在心裡默默感謝，感謝同事的調笑舒緩他的情緒。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6WJjbmtVQu
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當下班時間到來，季慈換下一身制服，打了卡、拎著禮物直上十九樓，出電梯前再一次被同事拯救，他們以為他是要去約會，比完電梯上樓的手勢後，又丟了一個鼓勵的眼神以及筆挺的大拇指。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYBTLx298CR
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季慈拐了個彎在隊伍最前端看見父親朝他招手，他垂眼深吸口氣，抬頭對上父親視線時將積滿肺泡的濁氣給盡數吐出。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdpr9SYUlkl
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他停在已浮現老態的父親面前，淡漠有理的說：「季先生，晚安。」71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlOaAi3NzxO
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他與父親詳細已有十六年未見，對方現在應該有五十了，眼前這個臉上浮現歲月痕跡的男人他的輪廓既陌生又熟悉，熟悉到季慈能夠在人群裡一眼認出，同時陌生到讓他產生強烈的疏離感。他忽然不是很想跟這個稱之為父親的人一起用餐，厭惡的情緒搶贏了平靜佔據他的思想。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZFwAAfcSEe
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季慈搶在他欲言又止的話前：「你抽了幾號？快輪到了嗎？」他連我們都不想用。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKwwJAuNu9J
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父親攤開他手心，一張皺巴巴的紙條躺在上面，就是下一號了。「我早抽了，一直跟後面換號等你來。」他表現的深情，彷彿激動的快無法掩飾。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF1cpTXsMnU
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「兒子——」71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvhwoFC52Dk
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超大廣播聲響中斷了季父的話語，也成功掩飾了他眉間幾不可聞的皺紋。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP4FFW7cQxS
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「進去吧。」季慈率先走了進去，忽然很想跟程華坐在一塊吃飯。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7dE8mbmnBB
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他們被服務生領到一處空位，分別佔據兩端坐下，季慈抗拒交談的氣息明顯，父親情緒跟著沉澱。他們隨意點了幾道這裡的名菜，季慈不想先開口，他不確定他父親是不是忘記怎麼說話，便任由時間在等候中緩慢流逝。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG45ROJjYyk
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在菜上齊後對方終於擠出第一句話：「小慈，很抱歉我沒有陪著你一塊長大。」71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK0boZHyzAp
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季慈沒有接話。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyeawcJXMQF
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他又說：「昨天看見你讓我很驚訝，你在這邊工作多久了，我竟然都不知道。」71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDz2UnOUSrr
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「……但是我從國三就知道你住在這座城市裡，不是你先斷了聯絡嗎？父親。」季慈再無掩飾不耐的意思，父親二字特別加強咬字。他確實是帶著偏見來，只是他實在吞忍不下這口氣，語氣不善的續道：「我一畢業就進來，在這裡工作了六年才見到你。如果你有心，我們不會斷聯。」71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7UaYq0lI5t
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「現在，你可以說說為什麼有跟我一樣大的女兒嗎？」季慈說出口的話像吐出的惡氣，肆意的自體內湧出，充盈在席間。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9BrXtKI9a8
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他一瞬不瞬地盯著父親，片刻後父親心虛的轉開視線，目光在餐廳各處飄移，緩慢地說：「你媽是個強勢的人，我是忍無可忍了才在外面——」71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ttU1M4pA2
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「你真是個不負責的男人。」季慈打斷他的話，眉眼間具是怒氣。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS1St61qyxB
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季父似乎惱羞，他紅了耳朵略微大聲的說：「你是這樣跟你父親說話的嗎？」71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhhPHlEDRvO
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季慈沉默。他在桌面下緊握雙手，忍住不要拿起桌上的水往他臉上潑。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡptgePwb3M6
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季父見季慈安分不說話以為鎮住了他，又開始叨絮賣可憐：「你媽個性太倔，她是個好母親卻不是個好妻子。我們從學生時期開始交往，中間因為她的個性分分合合過很多次，要是可以，我也希望不是——」71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrPwUjOq0LN
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季慈又打斷他的話，「你跟她是什麼時候認識的？」71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr2KmclW5AM
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「你說你媽嗎？在我大四——」71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ1qP1ARmGM
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「不是，我是問你什麼時候跟第三者認識的。」季慈的印象裡媽媽總是相當溫柔的女性，她溫柔強韌的個性替他撐起一片天，那份倔強、強勢正是讓她過勞的主因，而他多多少少也獲得了她的真傳。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLoYU4xnVrH
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季父臉色一下就青了。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCUbju8UMy4
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「不敢說嗎？」季慈第一次發現自己也有尖酸刻薄的一面。「你除了是個不負責的男人之外，也是個不負責、不及格的父親。」71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBzGq8yWBQM
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對面青著臉色的男人瞬間紅了臉，他拍了桌就想站起來，季慈早了他一步，他駭然的停下動作。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0JvB6Urfuf
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「季先生，請稍等我一下。」季慈露出職業笑容，轉身走出餐館，搭乘手扶梯下了幾層樓，到生活百貨專區買了一個裝飾小物又回到餐館裡。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNYyWUh2RQF
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他沒有坐下，反倒是背起自己的包，拎起對方昨天送來的禮物，連同剛才買的裝飾小物一起遞給了男人。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtzVu9xTNxo
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男人怔愣地接過，禮物被退貨不稀奇，他不解的是兒子手中的枯枝。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwRqTp3Tj6w
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「……這個是？」71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrsFfWCJrbw
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季慈靠上椅子，儀態專業優雅一百分。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdfBtxyjCjG
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「這是我的童年、我去逝的媽媽，和現在死掉的父親。我答應過一個人要放過自己，謝謝你的出現。我先走了。」趁著男人呆愣在當場，季慈結掉帳單，走電扶梯回到一樓，在百貨公司的側門角落打了通電話給程華。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ75vEWsBo1u
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季慈躲在一個風切不進的角度，這裡可以看見大門前的馬路，這是一座車水馬龍、人熙攘往的不夜城，他在這裡獨自工作了六年，換來一份跟報告一樣的答案，那個男人現在夾雜在斑馬線上的潮流，他走到對街將那眼熟的紙袋塞進了垃圾桶，季慈猜想剛才的枯枝應該也被塞進去了。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0cLkuf8k8g
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但令季慈意外的是，他又伸手進垃圾桶裡把剛才的袋子撈出來，單獨撿出那根嘲諷他的枯枝，距離太遠季慈實在看不清楚男人臉上的表情，男人隨後三進三出的把那根枯枝在垃圾桶口徘徊，路邊的行人跟店家都在看他的舉動，但他似乎沒注意到。等到第四回時，他彷彿下定決心般，將枯枝塞進自己的包裡頭也不回的離開了那條街。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGykpldKcUB
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季慈心弦強烈的顫抖起來，這是什麼意思？71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLV5RJaQS1A
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直到程華來了，季慈都沒能平復情緒。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb2WkUYnLF9
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「聖誕快樂。」程華車上開足了暖氣，他把藏在口袋裡的暖暖包給他，溫暖他站在寒風中微涼的指尖。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcvcZISZHF0
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「聖誕快樂。」季慈有點恍神，深怕不能維持表情，他臉上掛著的一直是上班用的面具，營業用笑容。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI9dwo5MuHx
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程華仍然沒有多過問些什麼，他在音響上按了幾個鍵，輕揚的旋律從喇叭流洩出來。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX2acNfRwxG
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他們到市裡頗負盛名的夜市。一進夜市，程華便抓著季慈品嘗各攤美食，他牽著他的手與他並肩被人浪推擠，還不小心在同一區打轉好幾次。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmGgScHKQRU
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季慈瞅著程華專注前方的側臉，程華迷人的地方不是他的外表，是他的專注，和獨具特色的變態，他相信以他的外貌也是一代風流人物，還記得他在酒吧龍蛇混雜的氣氛怡然自得的態度，這樣獨特的男人要什麼樣的人哪怕沒有，可是他現在手握著他的，與他相處時棕色瞳眸也總是有他的身影。71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWAKTLXNaL3
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季慈忽然開口：「程華，你真的原諒了你父親嗎？」71Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTNOhe4jd00
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