She stood there completely in shock as she could not believe these words were coming out of my mouth. Her mouth widened and she was about to say something "but" and I interrupted her " I don't care what you have to say anymore, you don't deserve me and you don't deserve to talk to me after the way you treated me. You had the audacity to accuse me of cheating on you. That was bullshit."
Her eyes started to dwell up with tears as she looked at me. She pulled me close and went by my face. "Nobody ever loved you as much as I did. You're breaking up with me I'm going to take my car and drive off the highway at 100 miles per hour," she whispered in my ear. She walked out of the hospital room at a fast pace.
I did not think to follow her, she was a little psycho if I was a little honest. She always threatened me with stuff like that so I would not break up with her. We had a very toxic relationship, and we were always arguing about something.
With Ness, I could have talked to her about anything. That's why I think I was starting to fall in love with her. This wasn't the "puppy love" as you call it. It was the truest love you could have. She looked at me with such endearment, such admiration and all I could do was sit there. I wanted to lean in and kiss her, but I felt too nauseous. I laid back in the hospital bed and relaxed.
Everything was just perfect. I had Ness next to my side and I was happy and I had not been happy for a long time. I don't remember what happened later on that day. I did not know what to do with anything I barely even knew my own name. The doctors said it was amnesia, but I could not remember my passwords, which made me unable to do any necessary daily needs.
I had an awful dream, although I don't remember. I woke up screaming and in terror. Ness walked up next to me,
"what's wrong, did you have a bad dream?" she looked at me worried.
"I had a bad dream," I exclaimed.
"what was it about, tell me?" she questioned, as she grabbed my hand and interlaced it with hers.
"I don't remember," I concluded. I don't know why, but for some reason, Ness seemed super important to me. I did not want to be around anybody else, I just wanted to be around her. She wore a perfume that smelled of a sweet flower and I was mesmerized by her. She kissed my forehead and told me to go back to bed. I went back to bed and I didn't even dream at all. Which was a good thing because it meant that I did not have any nightmares. Which was a win for me so I was not going to complain.
Believe it or not, I thought I loved her and I wasn't going to do anything to jeopardize our friendship, even though she was the sweetest innocent girl I ever met. I was also a virgin and I didn't want her to think that I was not a tough guy. I cared about her and I didn't want to lose her so I kept my feelings to myself. It doesn't mean that I wasn't checking her out or anything. She had a nice butt, but I had to keep my mouth shut because it always got me into trouble, always. No matter what I said, I always displeased somebody. I was done.
Over the next few days, Ness barely left my side and I could not have been more relieved to have her there for me. I must have made a very big impact on her life. I felt awful, she practically ran that bar and was losing money because of me. I did not know how to cope
"Go back to the bar. I'll be okay" I said weakly.310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTUyxP3EsEN
"I can not just leave you!" She said in a solemn tone310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡARZa5sVuoI
"I am not your problem." I grabbed her hand and pulled her down to my eyesight.310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdHlWMzPNd7
"But who is going to take care of you? You don't have anyone." She questioned.310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4RgJDKsDNB
"I will figure it out, maybe I will go to a homeless place or something like that." I said to her in a playful way.310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaXCjBg6jTM
"I will not be able to forgive myself if you do not have anybody here with you!" She cried as tears rolled down her rosy beautiful cheeks. She gave me another sweet embrace.310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMnk93dXqjb
"Go!" I encouraged her as I rubbed her back, pulling away from the hug.310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkxTc81grhn
She got up from my bed, and grabbed her jacket that was hanging on the chair before she had decided to leave the room. She walked like a woman, and I loved to watch her walk out. I kept my eyes on her until I could no longer see her and I have to admit, once she was gone, I felt like a puzzle with a missing piece. I was so lucky to spent as much time with her as I did. Not many people get to do that. I didn't want to be a bother to her anymore, so I decided that the next time she came around, I wouldn't be there.310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhE0B2v1c7s
I called the doctor in and told them that I didn't want to be there much longer, and all they did was stare at me. They told me that since I had nowhere to go, I couldn't be released. I called them a bunch of assholes because I was perfectly fine and I was going to prove it.310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYq4pOXNQVi
I waited until all parts of the ICU were shut down, which must have been around midnight, and I made a run for it. The doctor told me that I didn't need to be on intravenous any longer and I figured since that was the case I was free to go.310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsjLKcdkMCN
To be honest, I had thought that the hospital kept me there just to make money. The more time you spent at hospitals, the more money they would collect. I thought being there for the past 5 days would be enough money for them to stop bitching, but what do I know.310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7BGwJr2RpG
I hated hospitals, ever since my father died. He died right next to me, and he was in a coma. He was silent and that's what killed me. I wasn't like the doctors who said to keep him alive. I did not see the point to keep a brain-dead body alive when it was costing all of his retirement fund. I needed something for when he was gone. I had to pay the bills, stuff that he always did before he overdosed.310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOcd6f6B9Jh
So tonight around midnight is when I will leave the hospital, I had grabbed all my belongings and I knew the doctor took out my IV earlier. I carried cash with me and I know that Ness left some money for food. I left money on the bed and I wrote a note
Dearest staff, I have decided to go to a homeless shelter nearby, I have enough money to make it for a couple weeks. If Ness comes by, you have no idea where I went. I want you to know that I truly hate hospitals, specifically this one. My father died here. I didn't want to be reminded of my father's death, so I left. I didn't have any more money that you could take from me. The more time I spent here, the more money I lost. I got things to do and I can't do these things when I'm in a hospital bed.310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIhArWkXFzG
Sincerely, Travis
Most of what I had decided to say was a lie. I wasn't going to go to a nearby homeless shelter and I wasn't going to have enough money. All I knew is that I hated hospitals and the staff that worked at them. I would never sit there and just wait to be released. I take matters into my own hands. I am a self-motivator, and if I ever wanted to find Ness, I knew the bar she worked at.310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWJtTYGnysa
I didn't know where I was going to go spend some time while I worked at a low pay place, but I knew that I needed out of that filthy place. The more time you spent there, the more sicknesses you are exposed to.310Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGXhOwbV7ev
After leaving the note on the bed I grabbed my pillow and put it under the blanket to hopefully fool them for an extra minute or so. I turned off my light and I slowly closed the door, hopefully, I didn't make a single sound. Unfortunately, I did hear somebody walking through the hallway and I had no way to figure out how to escape this place without being spotted. I mean, I guess I could make a run for it, but it wasn't a good idea. I had to leave this place without being spotted. I took the note and opened the window that could barely fit a piece of paper through the crack.
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