Chapter Two
Dear diary,
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So um…. yeah. I bought myself a diary because, to be honest I have no friends and no one to talk to. Well shit, now that I have this I have absolutely no clue what the hell I want to say. If I remember right from school, Anne Frank and other famous people with diaries introduced themselves to the diary, may as well start there I guess.
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So…. I’m Amanda. I’m 18, I just turned a few weeks ago not that anyone, even my mom noticed…. she’s too high or drunk or whatever to pay any attention to me. Also, I’m anorexic and I’ve started not eating again because no one ever notices when I don’t eat because the kids at school are too busy making fun of me for various things and my mom doesn’t know I exist anymore.
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I’ve been suicidal for a long ass time but I doubt I will ever try, I’m too much of a coward. Although I do get curious if the three story drop from my bedroom would be enough to kill me. Today is one of those days, but I have stuff to do like writing in you and telling you about myself.
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I’ve got a hidden stash of cigarettes in my room, but I won’t say where in case anyone gets nosy. I was your average teenage girl…. well not average but average for an emo geek and nerd dressed in a lot of black because that was just me and I do wear glasses, I was also constantly carrying books. That changed a few years ago on my 16th birthday for a few reasons.
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The night I turned 16, my step-dad at the time decided he was going to be a total perv and feel me up while I was trying to sleep. I wasn’t completely asleep when he left and heard the things he said, all derogatory and all made me feel like shit, that’s when I started starving myself and would go a few days without food before anyone noticed. I did this on a cycle and no one has caught on to this day. Today is day eight of the cycle, second week of the month and the day I start starving myself for a week. Two meals past already today and I haven’t eaten anything.
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Well, it’s getting close to time for me to go to work so I guess I will write more after I get home. So for now I guess I will have to end this entry… gotta think of a creative way to do that. See ya? Nah too common. Ta ta? Nah sounds to childish…. I’ve got it! Later bitches! It’s perfect! It’s so far from childish and it’s a perfect way to end the times I write in this thing!404Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNQDTJU0MTW
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So…. Later bitches! Peace out! Amanda
