they say "i love you" and then shove a table into my gut,137Please respect copyright.PENANAJUa0UMsbMt
all in the same breath with no hesitation.137Please respect copyright.PENANAi0IcqTK4Yd
they apologize two hours twenty-three minutes later137Please respect copyright.PENANAUtGd5rHyKK
but no "sorry" will ever hide the bruising.137Please respect copyright.PENANAkiNRI4fpL3
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they repeat the same mantra over and over,137Please respect copyright.PENANA8HYSaXsHnc
sounding like a broken record of "sorry"s and "i love you"s137Please respect copyright.PENANAHZXKneSBZ8
but in the end they still withhold dinner,137Please respect copyright.PENANAnugCRUedf0
dangling it above my head like a cat does to a mouse.137Please respect copyright.PENANAC6bh0bUiV0
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and they wonder, two years later, why i scarf down meals137Please respect copyright.PENANAHF0ezOt1OF
with all the grace of a rabid animal who hasn't seen food in months.137Please respect copyright.PENANAAbz5yAhsyw
and they wonder why my hands shake and i flinch137Please respect copyright.PENANA0NZF7042Tb
every time they shout, shoulders hunched in like i can fold myself over.137Please respect copyright.PENANAXW4ixIATSK
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bruises litter my skin, part of it from running into walls and desks,137Please respect copyright.PENANAfz5sbbt13r
but part of it is from running from bitter faces and angry hands.137Please respect copyright.PENANApCDQafuFDT
my skin is marked, iron-tipped nails ripping into flesh for relief137Please respect copyright.PENANAi2IFaNsFP4
and blaming the left behind scratches on the dog.137Please respect copyright.PENANAM96QjJRqIm
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they call it "dermatillomania" and "picker's syndrome",137Please respect copyright.PENANAlLycdeODZK
said it was all mental and to just stop137Please respect copyright.PENANAmDw7Vgb2jt
but it was habits formed out of pent up137Please respect copyright.PENANAbHzVQG4vav
frustration and stress and sheer disbelief at the disregard they had for their own daughter's life.137Please respect copyright.PENANA1hRpeWA21G
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they said it was all in my mind,137Please respect copyright.PENANA08DGzO70cd
the anxiety, the stress.137Please respect copyright.PENANAI2DcBGp0s7
that i had a happy, loving family137Please respect copyright.PENANAUpwZXBNwrk
and i was perfectly fine.137Please respect copyright.PENANAce0efZvpij
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i'm not.137Please respect copyright.PENANA1F8dJgv5Fm
i'm drowning in my own blood137Please respect copyright.PENANAdogAyHY2XK
and choking on my tongue137Please respect copyright.PENANAqQRv4RaluP
when i try to say so.137Please respect copyright.PENANAMPbVKtVjtf
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...137Please respect copyright.PENANAkbjnR9foxf
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(it's all in my mind.137Please respect copyright.PENANAe0sGSmP9zI
every last drop of anxiety,137Please respect copyright.PENANAFySBh6OBqm
i have a happy, loving family.137Please respect copyright.PENANADVJPMbrM9Q
i'm perfectly fine.)137Please respect copyright.PENANAlDvek86rlG