they say "i love you" and then shove a table into my gut,144Please respect copyright.PENANAOLWxWQgLSh
all in the same breath with no hesitation.144Please respect copyright.PENANA6huqs8Ny5u
they apologize two hours twenty-three minutes later144Please respect copyright.PENANATN2EyYJfMb
but no "sorry" will ever hide the bruising.144Please respect copyright.PENANAV7bJtOAE00
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they repeat the same mantra over and over,144Please respect copyright.PENANAP7pvwdc9EQ
sounding like a broken record of "sorry"s and "i love you"s144Please respect copyright.PENANAstjkX7EYEN
but in the end they still withhold dinner,144Please respect copyright.PENANAuxFcNO0QNK
dangling it above my head like a cat does to a mouse.144Please respect copyright.PENANA61zItiFn89
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and they wonder, two years later, why i scarf down meals144Please respect copyright.PENANA6T5t0JpngQ
with all the grace of a rabid animal who hasn't seen food in months.144Please respect copyright.PENANAyVJloXvThs
and they wonder why my hands shake and i flinch144Please respect copyright.PENANAODbiajFoIN
every time they shout, shoulders hunched in like i can fold myself over.144Please respect copyright.PENANApXBD0lIFmn
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bruises litter my skin, part of it from running into walls and desks,144Please respect copyright.PENANAK8PqEYcP7j
but part of it is from running from bitter faces and angry hands.144Please respect copyright.PENANAUJBSjUA51b
my skin is marked, iron-tipped nails ripping into flesh for relief144Please respect copyright.PENANAMZCoJoKvZJ
and blaming the left behind scratches on the dog.144Please respect copyright.PENANAEC3HpJznid
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they call it "dermatillomania" and "picker's syndrome",144Please respect copyright.PENANAP0vxbwXhyZ
said it was all mental and to just stop144Please respect copyright.PENANAemwmJzsN6a
but it was habits formed out of pent up144Please respect copyright.PENANAy6iy7YZv5d
frustration and stress and sheer disbelief at the disregard they had for their own daughter's life.144Please respect copyright.PENANAZ2ADM13eQ0
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they said it was all in my mind,144Please respect copyright.PENANAyTqfKO1OlS
the anxiety, the stress.144Please respect copyright.PENANAsaz5onSo1J
that i had a happy, loving family144Please respect copyright.PENANAJSzk4zEiKf
and i was perfectly fine.144Please respect copyright.PENANAFXVHF5f3tL
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i'm not.144Please respect copyright.PENANAjQ2IgbTq8J
i'm drowning in my own blood144Please respect copyright.PENANAh1JKpCOp3G
and choking on my tongue144Please respect copyright.PENANAdarUgVrgu7
when i try to say so.144Please respect copyright.PENANATE1HhjZCxG
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...144Please respect copyright.PENANAxNphtjEjhv
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(it's all in my mind.144Please respect copyright.PENANAXVih5w1EoT
every last drop of anxiety,144Please respect copyright.PENANAyMWyIEA413
i have a happy, loving family.144Please respect copyright.PENANAGG36oL9OAO
i'm perfectly fine.)144Please respect copyright.PENANAGVegqodUkG