they say "i love you" and then shove a table into my gut,194Please respect copyright.PENANAf4WZU4i2pM
all in the same breath with no hesitation.194Please respect copyright.PENANAl9K1ytFHYs
they apologize two hours twenty-three minutes later194Please respect copyright.PENANAfW5ravzVyC
but no "sorry" will ever hide the bruising.194Please respect copyright.PENANAjC8d9x8nyJ
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they repeat the same mantra over and over,194Please respect copyright.PENANA54u5673m7p
sounding like a broken record of "sorry"s and "i love you"s194Please respect copyright.PENANAaell3P5pLV
but in the end they still withhold dinner,194Please respect copyright.PENANAffoub486bN
dangling it above my head like a cat does to a mouse.194Please respect copyright.PENANAv45nxelpUd
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and they wonder, two years later, why i scarf down meals194Please respect copyright.PENANAirqrO9uLrY
with all the grace of a rabid animal who hasn't seen food in months.194Please respect copyright.PENANAfWIWEtCEND
and they wonder why my hands shake and i flinch194Please respect copyright.PENANA6yQocoQPi2
every time they shout, shoulders hunched in like i can fold myself over.194Please respect copyright.PENANAinvlBkHeNR
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bruises litter my skin, part of it from running into walls and desks,194Please respect copyright.PENANATSWWl67h4Q
but part of it is from running from bitter faces and angry hands.194Please respect copyright.PENANAOjPJQoOlrY
my skin is marked, iron-tipped nails ripping into flesh for relief194Please respect copyright.PENANAJEyZjd7rmc
and blaming the left behind scratches on the dog.194Please respect copyright.PENANASP8VciClXN
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they call it "dermatillomania" and "picker's syndrome",194Please respect copyright.PENANAyG222DwGF1
said it was all mental and to just stop194Please respect copyright.PENANAkYLRXvFrSv
but it was habits formed out of pent up194Please respect copyright.PENANAhLWwrq3UrY
frustration and stress and sheer disbelief at the disregard they had for their own daughter's life.194Please respect copyright.PENANABEYem6GCIk
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they said it was all in my mind,194Please respect copyright.PENANAzbfaA9BRHk
the anxiety, the stress.194Please respect copyright.PENANAMEcmOXIWm5
that i had a happy, loving family194Please respect copyright.PENANAw5le88yYr2
and i was perfectly fine.194Please respect copyright.PENANA75K7jbhBMo
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i'm not.194Please respect copyright.PENANAY6bNs91BKk
i'm drowning in my own blood194Please respect copyright.PENANASS1VHgjWc2
and choking on my tongue194Please respect copyright.PENANAixQLOOsdPS
when i try to say so.194Please respect copyright.PENANAS7W7cUY7NV
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...194Please respect copyright.PENANA0YB74n17iz
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(it's all in my mind.194Please respect copyright.PENANA9OkHBnT3sk
every last drop of anxiety,194Please respect copyright.PENANAFMfdnsYMwL
i have a happy, loving family.194Please respect copyright.PENANASys98Xane2
i'm perfectly fine.)194Please respect copyright.PENANAj3eQh8mryF