they say "i love you" and then shove a table into my gut,229Please respect copyright.PENANAr1nVkm7xSU
all in the same breath with no hesitation.229Please respect copyright.PENANA0bIoGne1yj
they apologize two hours twenty-three minutes later229Please respect copyright.PENANANPhj52VuLe
but no "sorry" will ever hide the bruising.229Please respect copyright.PENANAO8iAcv6MnP
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they repeat the same mantra over and over,229Please respect copyright.PENANAo13z4aSXF2
sounding like a broken record of "sorry"s and "i love you"s229Please respect copyright.PENANA2aqyo5DZKk
but in the end they still withhold dinner,229Please respect copyright.PENANAcNSqPzwADO
dangling it above my head like a cat does to a mouse.229Please respect copyright.PENANAacHT7IQxi8
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and they wonder, two years later, why i scarf down meals229Please respect copyright.PENANAgk8u2th7de
with all the grace of a rabid animal who hasn't seen food in months.229Please respect copyright.PENANAluH83MwKNG
and they wonder why my hands shake and i flinch229Please respect copyright.PENANAlkkqIujnBp
every time they shout, shoulders hunched in like i can fold myself over.229Please respect copyright.PENANAU54et6V41Y
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bruises litter my skin, part of it from running into walls and desks,229Please respect copyright.PENANAxdl2QZv4Ig
but part of it is from running from bitter faces and angry hands.229Please respect copyright.PENANAQ1VfZ5X4yZ
my skin is marked, iron-tipped nails ripping into flesh for relief229Please respect copyright.PENANArz5ev9iMg4
and blaming the left behind scratches on the dog.229Please respect copyright.PENANAi4TUTYArbz
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they call it "dermatillomania" and "picker's syndrome",229Please respect copyright.PENANAnpAO1hylwC
said it was all mental and to just stop229Please respect copyright.PENANAJL5nOFYtqn
but it was habits formed out of pent up229Please respect copyright.PENANA9hrEJy2cJC
frustration and stress and sheer disbelief at the disregard they had for their own daughter's life.229Please respect copyright.PENANAE69MfxZfbn
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they said it was all in my mind,229Please respect copyright.PENANAREnNzQw3al
the anxiety, the stress.229Please respect copyright.PENANAOoTtELcSUs
that i had a happy, loving family229Please respect copyright.PENANA852jctTYN9
and i was perfectly fine.229Please respect copyright.PENANA1RgProGdOp
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i'm not.229Please respect copyright.PENANAhO8NQSdFzp
i'm drowning in my own blood229Please respect copyright.PENANAJbSSMjZInf
and choking on my tongue229Please respect copyright.PENANAVhAokDS1xo
when i try to say so.229Please respect copyright.PENANAiV3VjKALzK
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...229Please respect copyright.PENANAUACHYaMoOr
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(it's all in my mind.229Please respect copyright.PENANAQqZLfb4Dde
every last drop of anxiety,229Please respect copyright.PENANA8XTOCmXXhL
i have a happy, loving family.229Please respect copyright.PENANAKnBzbHPPpE
i'm perfectly fine.)229Please respect copyright.PENANAk20yHAnFqa