they say "i love you" and then shove a table into my gut,197Please respect copyright.PENANAt7kJ6Xoopj
all in the same breath with no hesitation.197Please respect copyright.PENANANylJwMzJSB
they apologize two hours twenty-three minutes later197Please respect copyright.PENANAXNmBLiotd1
but no "sorry" will ever hide the bruising.197Please respect copyright.PENANAPwzx11S1f0
197Please respect copyright.PENANAGpU5I1p4ka
they repeat the same mantra over and over,197Please respect copyright.PENANAVavo2KUBF8
sounding like a broken record of "sorry"s and "i love you"s197Please respect copyright.PENANAyw58YCBXcn
but in the end they still withhold dinner,197Please respect copyright.PENANAOT9apssZmq
dangling it above my head like a cat does to a mouse.197Please respect copyright.PENANA02sc3XGvYq
197Please respect copyright.PENANAyp7BvxQZiF
and they wonder, two years later, why i scarf down meals197Please respect copyright.PENANA6ZLHVQs1pX
with all the grace of a rabid animal who hasn't seen food in months.197Please respect copyright.PENANAdiNQtMZjpb
and they wonder why my hands shake and i flinch197Please respect copyright.PENANANv8kOscbUu
every time they shout, shoulders hunched in like i can fold myself over.197Please respect copyright.PENANAnU9E2RFd5H
197Please respect copyright.PENANAzsk3CtI47V
bruises litter my skin, part of it from running into walls and desks,197Please respect copyright.PENANAfkR5YJQcSA
but part of it is from running from bitter faces and angry hands.197Please respect copyright.PENANARyOzY98PET
my skin is marked, iron-tipped nails ripping into flesh for relief197Please respect copyright.PENANA93cOB81S9w
and blaming the left behind scratches on the dog.197Please respect copyright.PENANAJOfF9YsSVk
197Please respect copyright.PENANAANy6nsvRuI
they call it "dermatillomania" and "picker's syndrome",197Please respect copyright.PENANAMmJb9v1uFs
said it was all mental and to just stop197Please respect copyright.PENANA4nxpwl7I8O
but it was habits formed out of pent up197Please respect copyright.PENANAcJTfqzdzQe
frustration and stress and sheer disbelief at the disregard they had for their own daughter's life.197Please respect copyright.PENANAump1zxzYDr
197Please respect copyright.PENANAhfM0zHQi55
they said it was all in my mind,197Please respect copyright.PENANAg0G023HCVj
the anxiety, the stress.197Please respect copyright.PENANAXhMQcUjHdI
that i had a happy, loving family197Please respect copyright.PENANACMKXBZOXcU
and i was perfectly fine.197Please respect copyright.PENANA91YQyjHBAQ
197Please respect copyright.PENANABuRVHxtUOh
i'm not.197Please respect copyright.PENANAQZj557k14x
i'm drowning in my own blood197Please respect copyright.PENANAALnBU4hgif
and choking on my tongue197Please respect copyright.PENANAFRby1niheH
when i try to say so.197Please respect copyright.PENANAFU0lbnVIPA
197Please respect copyright.PENANA2OFZHgzN7T
...197Please respect copyright.PENANAPVZAFUl5X6
197Please respect copyright.PENANAnwGzyAxHZn
(it's all in my mind.197Please respect copyright.PENANArjBnPtbvoY
every last drop of anxiety,197Please respect copyright.PENANAVEoonH39pW
i have a happy, loving family.197Please respect copyright.PENANAFrP3cbPYgf
i'm perfectly fine.)197Please respect copyright.PENANAyBvks90MUl