they say "i love you" and then shove a table into my gut,93Please respect copyright.PENANAbsAxeZahqq
all in the same breath with no hesitation.93Please respect copyright.PENANAj4cjwVS4Qd
they apologize two hours twenty-three minutes later93Please respect copyright.PENANAuWUfgxyIt5
but no "sorry" will ever hide the bruising.93Please respect copyright.PENANA36Gc40uQY6
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they repeat the same mantra over and over,93Please respect copyright.PENANAL5r130IGgB
sounding like a broken record of "sorry"s and "i love you"s93Please respect copyright.PENANA2sgOjDW9CQ
but in the end they still withhold dinner,93Please respect copyright.PENANAt7889ho0uA
dangling it above my head like a cat does to a mouse.93Please respect copyright.PENANA1qrOppWySR
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and they wonder, two years later, why i scarf down meals93Please respect copyright.PENANAKgckcfzdCU
with all the grace of a rabid animal who hasn't seen food in months.93Please respect copyright.PENANAIDa9l4l6YY
and they wonder why my hands shake and i flinch93Please respect copyright.PENANAXwGrzypdLf
every time they shout, shoulders hunched in like i can fold myself over.93Please respect copyright.PENANAbBzpFzvALt
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bruises litter my skin, part of it from running into walls and desks,93Please respect copyright.PENANAHZ3AhrNMFh
but part of it is from running from bitter faces and angry hands.93Please respect copyright.PENANAX8M9xO2vJt
my skin is marked, iron-tipped nails ripping into flesh for relief93Please respect copyright.PENANA8F4WCIk5oK
and blaming the left behind scratches on the dog.93Please respect copyright.PENANAyIq8fVN8n4
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they call it "dermatillomania" and "picker's syndrome",93Please respect copyright.PENANAyFdZxbGy0L
said it was all mental and to just stop93Please respect copyright.PENANANtiurnJoz2
but it was habits formed out of pent up93Please respect copyright.PENANAlpxw1a5OYe
frustration and stress and sheer disbelief at the disregard they had for their own daughter's life.93Please respect copyright.PENANAlokluaKU1j
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they said it was all in my mind,93Please respect copyright.PENANACYLNOjeQ9P
the anxiety, the stress.93Please respect copyright.PENANAiRnaNsc6nN
that i had a happy, loving family93Please respect copyright.PENANArNxaRWTIAQ
and i was perfectly fine.93Please respect copyright.PENANAvmRfUulAQw
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i'm not.93Please respect copyright.PENANAqYKnGlR93N
i'm drowning in my own blood93Please respect copyright.PENANAgv3FJiBdet
and choking on my tongue93Please respect copyright.PENANAenO9uYyT7T
when i try to say so.93Please respect copyright.PENANAf0wYHbpNtN
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...93Please respect copyright.PENANAZvk1ofHvzV
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(it's all in my mind.93Please respect copyright.PENANAETHzOns6G6
every last drop of anxiety,93Please respect copyright.PENANAd8fi6zYwL6
i have a happy, loving family.93Please respect copyright.PENANAb6VLq3Ufrg
i'm perfectly fine.)93Please respect copyright.PENANAOcPHdoWfxR