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「真的沒什麼,到你的學校要搭公車?」9Please respect copyright.PENANAHKfFjTrA50
9Please respect copyright.PENANA4Y5EUUwMvh
低下頭,現在的這種心情不該屬於朋友之間,楚襄冉很快的轉移了話題,然後才想起,他其實從來也不知道,官玄默的學校在哪裡。9Please respect copyright.PENANA1aLissjOKb
9Please respect copyright.PENANADFQgKtdFCy
不,他甚至連官玄默念什麼學校,讀什麼科系都不清楚。9Please respect copyright.PENANAjJh28CVQa0
9Please respect copyright.PENANADzr7wYWSF4
「對不起。」9Please respect copyright.PENANAhwV5jZIMth
9Please respect copyright.PENANAJ7yd5clUFV
歉疚的說出口,他第一次發現,從兩個人見面以來,他從來也沒問過對方,關於對方的事情。9Please respect copyright.PENANAqyf6aDZ0sg
9Please respect copyright.PENANAe2q94rRbKe
還有對方離開後的生活,他什麼都不知道。9Please respect copyright.PENANAhZ3el1JCeZ
9Please respect copyright.PENANA2cfiFsIlRb
「對不起……」9Please respect copyright.PENANAWmjImgYki7
9Please respect copyright.PENANAUeqhAnOAkd
第二句歉語,已經低如呢喃。9Please respect copyright.PENANAP1tBCF4VOo
9Please respect copyright.PENANAbQ0mqg7CUu
「襄冉?為什麼要道歉?」9Please respect copyright.PENANAyeBFodQoDm
9Please respect copyright.PENANAMi8X5hPXeY
雖然聲音很輕,官玄默還是聽見了。9Please respect copyright.PENANAKm5ZdZYLMM
9Please respect copyright.PENANAvtYa4ZSwfm
可是他猜不出楚襄冉道歉的原因。9Please respect copyright.PENANALenMQGbq6f
9Please respect copyright.PENANAOT7m9362Hp
楚襄冉輕輕搖頭,頭頂上的髮旋因為搖晃而變得更明顯了點,而隨後抬起的臉,揚著笑容。9Please respect copyright.PENANAZLIE8nUZIi
9Please respect copyright.PENANAMyeDSjl630
「沒事,要搭的公車是哪一班?站名叫什麼?」9Please respect copyright.PENANAaFK9qdhDMM
9Please respect copyright.PENANA4D2ghEG0v2
他轉身過去像是在研究公車的班次時間,並且不停地詢問如何坐車到官玄默的學校,絲毫不給對方追問的機會。9Please respect copyright.PENANAGCbTtOBl5I
9Please respect copyright.PENANAAH1Lvj43cE
雖然牽住了楚襄冉的手沒有放開,官玄默一瞬間卻感到心驚,和強烈的不安。9Please respect copyright.PENANAk3cOoQm5cJ
9Please respect copyright.PENANAPQJs4YTy3a
感覺就像是他其實一點也握不住這隻手,無論牽得再怎麼緊,抓得再怎麼牢,終究還是會隨風飄散在空中,最後什麼也不會剩下。9Please respect copyright.PENANA5laFIsh4Cn
9Please respect copyright.PENANAKLPHv5Ct9n
9Please respect copyright.PENANAgulriNX9he
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9Please respect copyright.PENANA9Xvn3eyGEU
9Please respect copyright.PENANAfFgwi2Od4K
而後,楚襄冉終於知道為什麼十一點半的約,官玄默要提早那麼多時間出發了。9Please respect copyright.PENANARnDDiftpoY
9Please respect copyright.PENANAD8itqcew0R
光車程和等車的時間就花去兩個多小時,楚襄冉站在一旁,看著官玄默和早已經等在學校門口的友人交談,心裡頭五味雜陳。9Please respect copyright.PENANAbwiIsPZP9E
9Please respect copyright.PENANAfmGuryalYJ
每次、每次都要花那麼多時間,走那麼多路,才只為了短短不到幾個小時的交談?9Please respect copyright.PENANAhmg9nDMfVm
9Please respect copyright.PENANAuHcihM9D9A
搭第一班公車的時候,他還覺得懷念,這幾年來每次出門,他不是讓有車的法恩載,就是坐法恩朋友的車,幾乎沒有自己搭公車的機會。9Please respect copyright.PENANAsvzMgPltKW
9Please respect copyright.PENANAXqezf3wca8
一下子,他有點想起高中時,和另外兩個人一起出門,一起等校車,然後在車上說笑的時光。9Please respect copyright.PENANAqW1DtdFD5T
9Please respect copyright.PENANATK6SqmltUn
甚至一直到半個多小時後下了車,他們轉過街角又走了一小段路,接著停在新的公車站牌下等車的時候,他還只是驚訝。9Please respect copyright.PENANAIaJXeDRc4g
9Please respect copyright.PENANAB8fQz8fjRP
原來不是只要一班車就會抵達目的地。9Please respect copyright.PENANAMQphLrqovT
9Please respect copyright.PENANAeIIV7p9BUF
可是等到又一個小時的車程過去,終於從晃得快昏的公車中離開,官玄默卻帶著他走下車站旁的捷運入口時,楚襄冉就真的愣住了。9Please respect copyright.PENANAocsI1BPWHi
9Please respect copyright.PENANAtbKLthaCP0
在人多又熱鬧的捷運地下街裡,他完全沒有心情去看一邊的店家擺了些什麼商品,只是讓官玄默抓住自己的手,然後跟著對方左拐右彎的穿梭在人群之中,買票,進入閘門,捷運雖然說快,但是搭得距離一長,也要花上二、三十分鐘。9Please respect copyright.PENANABlKf7M2JY3
9Please respect copyright.PENANA6eaCPOGn47
他沒有念過大學,不知道大學上下課的時間,可是官玄默每次到「Find」的時候,都已經晚上七、八點了,他一直以為是大學的下課時間比較晚,卻沒有想過,原來官玄默的時間,都花在了車程上。9Please respect copyright.PENANAjDQ76NYgI6
9Please respect copyright.PENANAMxGRJLz3G0
楚襄冉想起自己剛剛看過公車的班次,在他們等車的時候。9Please respect copyright.PENANAHxEDrmwwKY
9Please respect copyright.PENANAvRf6WSSpYV
最晚的一班也不過到十二點,官玄默卻每次都留到十點左右才離開。9Please respect copyright.PENANAGUIjvtxQkS
9Please respect copyright.PENANAwBVfw1zdWa
從「Find」走到公車站就要十幾分鐘,他要回學校還得在下車後走一段路,然後再轉一班公車才能搭上捷運……9Please respect copyright.PENANAYeEsam0ANb
9Please respect copyright.PENANAWAVw2ZxThe
「襄冉。」9Please respect copyright.PENANAfu8uLyxLz9
9Please respect copyright.PENANAZ7rC6zNtVS
像是和同學的交談暫時告一段落,官玄默回頭叫著那個一直沒有靠近過他們,只是遠遠看著的人。9Please respect copyright.PENANAm6Lrk35DNU
9Please respect copyright.PENANAgrO2Dza0AT
楚襄冉沒有回應。9Please respect copyright.PENANAQmKTgeS8U0
9Please respect copyright.PENANAOUiOU5S9IZ
他想,他終於明白了為什麼官玄默始終沒有愛上他。9Please respect copyright.PENANA80azekhOKD
9Please respect copyright.PENANAVxi64dHstT
他以為他自己喜歡官玄默,愛著官玄默,所以盡自己所能的替對方著想,做自己以為對方希望的事。9Please respect copyright.PENANAke40yK88Z9
9Please respect copyright.PENANApymH7xhQvJ
但其實,或許他愛的人,從來就是自己。9Please respect copyright.PENANAdVhnFaplRE
9Please respect copyright.PENANAacOMkrgyWt
就連當年自以為對愛戀之人的守護,或許都不過是種自我滿足而已。9Please respect copyright.PENANAPECZYGpNgz
9Please respect copyright.PENANAWTfht8q7sr
因為愛自己,所以不想受傷,所以眷戀那份擁抱,所以想要依靠那份溫暖。9Please respect copyright.PENANAeF9Bt11EX1
9Please respect copyright.PENANAKVEASZQzeE
他是這樣自私的人,於是最後,才會什麼都得不到。9Please respect copyright.PENANAHfrWhp45Fx
9Please respect copyright.PENANAwH7Aictfry
9Please respect copyright.PENANAcI0cnfGXsO
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9Please respect copyright.PENANAcIBA0y7wiJ
9Please respect copyright.PENANAmKP6iXUqA2
「襄冉?」9Please respect copyright.PENANAd5wpbBPbX7
9Please respect copyright.PENANAiQqs3pBGTc
官玄默又喊了一聲,聲音裡隱隱帶上了憂心。9Please respect copyright.PENANAF5JLBYSFpV
9Please respect copyright.PENANAWo9DX1z3tb
這次楚襄冉總算有了反應,勾起微笑慢慢的朝著他們走過來。9Please respect copyright.PENANARYo748IBj8
9Please respect copyright.PENANAZUYsD3DApE
「他就是你找了很久的那個很重要的朋友?」9Please respect copyright.PENANAdIb6uim490
9Please respect copyright.PENANAiNW2lOGL7V
手上拿著官玄默答應幫他整理好的社團資料,駱少凡忽然有種莫名的想法。9Please respect copyright.PENANAgbFSUfM2pq
9Please respect copyright.PENANAmgiu5pgKNz
「你該不會是因為他,所以才答應我幫忙整理活動資料的吧?」9Please respect copyright.PENANAWB7ALpkXco
9Please respect copyright.PENANAGzz5861bEg
之前把那堆雜亂不堪的文件和檔案塞在一個大背包裡讓官玄默帶走的時候,官玄默曾經告訴他,這段時間他不會回宿舍,會住在別的地方,所以如果要找他,只能打他的手機聯絡。9Please respect copyright.PENANAZpMG5gSwAR
9Please respect copyright.PENANAKkE2MdbcZb
他那時候沒多想也沒多問,只想著終於有人肯幫他整理資料真是太好了,原本他只是問問,根本沒敢期待官玄默會幫忙收他社團的爛攤子。9Please respect copyright.PENANA7HVIWKHTEP
9Please respect copyright.PENANAg8Ykn9yNsq
沒想到官玄默竟然只思考了下就一口答應,現在說起來,怎麼想怎麼怪。9Please respect copyright.PENANAL8zy5EQuBl
9Please respect copyright.PENANAeS4da8sAjR
「你們真的只是朋友嗎?」9Please respect copyright.PENANA7ahB0nwX2u
9Please respect copyright.PENANAOfcZvinxWZ
「不是朋友會是什麼?」9Please respect copyright.PENANAVyAs569S4K
9Please respect copyright.PENANAOuxlbx6o5p
只愣了很短的時間,官玄默低喊著反駁,直到把話說完了,才查覺到自己無論是情緒或是口氣都太激動了點。9Please respect copyright.PENANA4EVndjXTHp
9Please respect copyright.PENANAeXFhAA86Yp
幾乎是下意識的往楚襄冉的方向看,剛才還離他們有一點距離的人,現在已經站在了他們旁邊。9Please respect copyright.PENANAkdfUTeNZho
9Please respect copyright.PENANAVZJgnlrCuX
「襄……」9Please respect copyright.PENANAMpd6fpjUv6
9Please respect copyright.PENANA6fIgNMpKvC
「你好,我是楚襄冉。」9Please respect copyright.PENANAjBNFViJ2JG
9Please respect copyright.PENANAB7mPsb8HDd
笑著的臉,帶著笑意,像是很高興能認識新朋友的聲音,楚襄冉截斷了官玄默叫著他名字的聲音,主動朝駱少凡打招呼。
ns 15.158.61.18da2 9Please respect copyright.PENANA4Y5EUUwMvh
低下頭,現在的這種心情不該屬於朋友之間,楚襄冉很快的轉移了話題,然後才想起,他其實從來也不知道,官玄默的學校在哪裡。9Please respect copyright.PENANA1aLissjOKb
9Please respect copyright.PENANADFQgKtdFCy
不,他甚至連官玄默念什麼學校,讀什麼科系都不清楚。9Please respect copyright.PENANAjJh28CVQa0
9Please respect copyright.PENANADzr7wYWSF4
「對不起。」9Please respect copyright.PENANAhwV5jZIMth
9Please respect copyright.PENANAJ7yd5clUFV
歉疚的說出口,他第一次發現,從兩個人見面以來,他從來也沒問過對方,關於對方的事情。9Please respect copyright.PENANAqyf6aDZ0sg
9Please respect copyright.PENANAe2q94rRbKe
還有對方離開後的生活,他什麼都不知道。9Please respect copyright.PENANAhZ3el1JCeZ
9Please respect copyright.PENANA2cfiFsIlRb
「對不起……」9Please respect copyright.PENANAWmjImgYki7
9Please respect copyright.PENANAUeqhAnOAkd
第二句歉語,已經低如呢喃。9Please respect copyright.PENANAP1tBCF4VOo
9Please respect copyright.PENANAbQ0mqg7CUu
「襄冉?為什麼要道歉?」9Please respect copyright.PENANAyeBFodQoDm
9Please respect copyright.PENANAMi8X5hPXeY
雖然聲音很輕,官玄默還是聽見了。9Please respect copyright.PENANAKm5ZdZYLMM
9Please respect copyright.PENANAvtYa4ZSwfm
可是他猜不出楚襄冉道歉的原因。9Please respect copyright.PENANALenMQGbq6f
9Please respect copyright.PENANAOT7m9362Hp
楚襄冉輕輕搖頭,頭頂上的髮旋因為搖晃而變得更明顯了點,而隨後抬起的臉,揚著笑容。9Please respect copyright.PENANAZLIE8nUZIi
9Please respect copyright.PENANAMyeDSjl630
「沒事,要搭的公車是哪一班?站名叫什麼?」9Please respect copyright.PENANAaFK9qdhDMM
9Please respect copyright.PENANA4D2ghEG0v2
他轉身過去像是在研究公車的班次時間,並且不停地詢問如何坐車到官玄默的學校,絲毫不給對方追問的機會。9Please respect copyright.PENANAGCbTtOBl5I
9Please respect copyright.PENANAAH1Lvj43cE
雖然牽住了楚襄冉的手沒有放開,官玄默一瞬間卻感到心驚,和強烈的不安。9Please respect copyright.PENANAk3cOoQm5cJ
9Please respect copyright.PENANAPQJs4YTy3a
感覺就像是他其實一點也握不住這隻手,無論牽得再怎麼緊,抓得再怎麼牢,終究還是會隨風飄散在空中,最後什麼也不會剩下。9Please respect copyright.PENANA5laFIsh4Cn
9Please respect copyright.PENANAKLPHv5Ct9n
9Please respect copyright.PENANAgulriNX9he
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9Please respect copyright.PENANA9Xvn3eyGEU
9Please respect copyright.PENANAfFgwi2Od4K
而後,楚襄冉終於知道為什麼十一點半的約,官玄默要提早那麼多時間出發了。9Please respect copyright.PENANARnDDiftpoY
9Please respect copyright.PENANAD8itqcew0R
光車程和等車的時間就花去兩個多小時,楚襄冉站在一旁,看著官玄默和早已經等在學校門口的友人交談,心裡頭五味雜陳。9Please respect copyright.PENANAbwiIsPZP9E
9Please respect copyright.PENANAfmGuryalYJ
每次、每次都要花那麼多時間,走那麼多路,才只為了短短不到幾個小時的交談?9Please respect copyright.PENANAhmg9nDMfVm
9Please respect copyright.PENANAuHcihM9D9A
搭第一班公車的時候,他還覺得懷念,這幾年來每次出門,他不是讓有車的法恩載,就是坐法恩朋友的車,幾乎沒有自己搭公車的機會。9Please respect copyright.PENANAsvzMgPltKW
9Please respect copyright.PENANAXqezf3wca8
一下子,他有點想起高中時,和另外兩個人一起出門,一起等校車,然後在車上說笑的時光。9Please respect copyright.PENANAqW1DtdFD5T
9Please respect copyright.PENANATK6SqmltUn
甚至一直到半個多小時後下了車,他們轉過街角又走了一小段路,接著停在新的公車站牌下等車的時候,他還只是驚訝。9Please respect copyright.PENANAIaJXeDRc4g
9Please respect copyright.PENANAB8fQz8fjRP
原來不是只要一班車就會抵達目的地。9Please respect copyright.PENANAMQphLrqovT
9Please respect copyright.PENANAeIIV7p9BUF
可是等到又一個小時的車程過去,終於從晃得快昏的公車中離開,官玄默卻帶著他走下車站旁的捷運入口時,楚襄冉就真的愣住了。9Please respect copyright.PENANAocsI1BPWHi
9Please respect copyright.PENANAtbKLthaCP0
在人多又熱鬧的捷運地下街裡,他完全沒有心情去看一邊的店家擺了些什麼商品,只是讓官玄默抓住自己的手,然後跟著對方左拐右彎的穿梭在人群之中,買票,進入閘門,捷運雖然說快,但是搭得距離一長,也要花上二、三十分鐘。9Please respect copyright.PENANABlKf7M2JY3
9Please respect copyright.PENANA6eaCPOGn47
他沒有念過大學,不知道大學上下課的時間,可是官玄默每次到「Find」的時候,都已經晚上七、八點了,他一直以為是大學的下課時間比較晚,卻沒有想過,原來官玄默的時間,都花在了車程上。9Please respect copyright.PENANAjDQ76NYgI6
9Please respect copyright.PENANAMxGRJLz3G0
楚襄冉想起自己剛剛看過公車的班次,在他們等車的時候。9Please respect copyright.PENANAHxEDrmwwKY
9Please respect copyright.PENANAvRf6WSSpYV
最晚的一班也不過到十二點,官玄默卻每次都留到十點左右才離開。9Please respect copyright.PENANAGUIjvtxQkS
9Please respect copyright.PENANAwBVfw1zdWa
從「Find」走到公車站就要十幾分鐘,他要回學校還得在下車後走一段路,然後再轉一班公車才能搭上捷運……9Please respect copyright.PENANAYeEsam0ANb
9Please respect copyright.PENANAWAVw2ZxThe
「襄冉。」9Please respect copyright.PENANAfu8uLyxLz9
9Please respect copyright.PENANAZ7rC6zNtVS
像是和同學的交談暫時告一段落,官玄默回頭叫著那個一直沒有靠近過他們,只是遠遠看著的人。9Please respect copyright.PENANAm6Lrk35DNU
9Please respect copyright.PENANAgrO2Dza0AT
楚襄冉沒有回應。9Please respect copyright.PENANAQmKTgeS8U0
9Please respect copyright.PENANAOUiOU5S9IZ
他想,他終於明白了為什麼官玄默始終沒有愛上他。9Please respect copyright.PENANA80azekhOKD
9Please respect copyright.PENANAVxi64dHstT
他以為他自己喜歡官玄默,愛著官玄默,所以盡自己所能的替對方著想,做自己以為對方希望的事。9Please respect copyright.PENANAke40yK88Z9
9Please respect copyright.PENANApymH7xhQvJ
但其實,或許他愛的人,從來就是自己。9Please respect copyright.PENANAdVhnFaplRE
9Please respect copyright.PENANAacOMkrgyWt
就連當年自以為對愛戀之人的守護,或許都不過是種自我滿足而已。9Please respect copyright.PENANAPECZYGpNgz
9Please respect copyright.PENANAWTfht8q7sr
因為愛自己,所以不想受傷,所以眷戀那份擁抱,所以想要依靠那份溫暖。9Please respect copyright.PENANAeF9Bt11EX1
9Please respect copyright.PENANAKVEASZQzeE
他是這樣自私的人,於是最後,才會什麼都得不到。9Please respect copyright.PENANAHfrWhp45Fx
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「襄冉?」9Please respect copyright.PENANAd5wpbBPbX7
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官玄默又喊了一聲,聲音裡隱隱帶上了憂心。9Please respect copyright.PENANAF5JLBYSFpV
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這次楚襄冉總算有了反應,勾起微笑慢慢的朝著他們走過來。9Please respect copyright.PENANARYo748IBj8
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「他就是你找了很久的那個很重要的朋友?」9Please respect copyright.PENANAdIb6uim490
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手上拿著官玄默答應幫他整理好的社團資料,駱少凡忽然有種莫名的想法。9Please respect copyright.PENANAgbFSUfM2pq
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「你該不會是因為他,所以才答應我幫忙整理活動資料的吧?」9Please respect copyright.PENANAWB7ALpkXco
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之前把那堆雜亂不堪的文件和檔案塞在一個大背包裡讓官玄默帶走的時候,官玄默曾經告訴他,這段時間他不會回宿舍,會住在別的地方,所以如果要找他,只能打他的手機聯絡。9Please respect copyright.PENANAZpMG5gSwAR
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他那時候沒多想也沒多問,只想著終於有人肯幫他整理資料真是太好了,原本他只是問問,根本沒敢期待官玄默會幫忙收他社團的爛攤子。9Please respect copyright.PENANA7HVIWKHTEP
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沒想到官玄默竟然只思考了下就一口答應,現在說起來,怎麼想怎麼怪。9Please respect copyright.PENANAL8zy5EQuBl
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「你們真的只是朋友嗎?」9Please respect copyright.PENANA7ahB0nwX2u
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「不是朋友會是什麼?」9Please respect copyright.PENANAVyAs569S4K
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只愣了很短的時間,官玄默低喊著反駁,直到把話說完了,才查覺到自己無論是情緒或是口氣都太激動了點。9Please respect copyright.PENANA4EVndjXTHp
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幾乎是下意識的往楚襄冉的方向看,剛才還離他們有一點距離的人,現在已經站在了他們旁邊。9Please respect copyright.PENANAkdfUTeNZho
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「襄……」9Please respect copyright.PENANAMpd6fpjUv6
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「你好,我是楚襄冉。」9Please respect copyright.PENANAjBNFViJ2JG
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笑著的臉,帶著笑意,像是很高興能認識新朋友的聲音,楚襄冉截斷了官玄默叫著他名字的聲音,主動朝駱少凡打招呼。