我望住坐係我面前既阿琪,佢嘆住氣,督緊佢杯凍檸水走甜,就話:「其實我知道好多人都有背後話我,話我多人追,但又無唔拍拖,唔比機會人,話我鐘意做世界既焦點,話我鐘意收兵,但係,我一d咁既諗法都無,我只係,唔想咁快拍拖住……」371Please respect copyright.PENANAB6TuU7Kpsh
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「我上年先岩岩分左手,而家個EX仲不停煩住我,我有時返到屋企樓下都有可能撞到,唔係咁岩撞到,係佢伏我啊,佢有時會行過黎大巴大巴咁打我,話我點解要同佢分手,點解唔比機會佢,佢打完我,就扮可憐話無左我唔得,可唔可以比多次機會佢……」371Please respect copyright.PENANAFsTPgaly84
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「我每日都係呢一種惶恐下渡過你地又知唔知,我唔係唔想拍拖,而係對愛無左感覺,一個我以前好愛既人,可以變成傷害我既人,身理上既傷害不在話下,最大問題係,心理上既傷害……」371Please respect copyright.PENANARiBowjKiPp
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我望住阿琪,佢講講下流下眼淚,「有邊個唔想搵到一個愛既人然後一生一世,我本身都以為我個EX係,但估唔到佢同我阿爸一樣……我有個不幸既童年,阿爸由細到大對我同阿媽都唔好,我咁多年都係自己養自己……」371Please respect copyright.PENANARVpBqMDvMu
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佢抬起頭,指左一個比較紅既地方話:「我以前自殺過,呢個係果陣留低既傷痕,我成日都會問,點解我要咁辛苦,其他人出世後有爸爸媽媽錫,但我呢,我就要自己養自己,仲要日日比爸爸打,我由細到大,阿爸同我慶祝一次生日都無……」371Please respect copyright.PENANAs248WdlRIL
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「我變得好需要安全感,我對身邊既人好好,因為我想佢地知道我既存在,亦都希望佢地都對我好好,幸運地,我真係有一班好好既朋友,但係卻又好不幸地,呢D朋友到最後都會離我而去……因為,每個對我好既男仔到最後都會鐘意我,而每個女仔朋友佢地鐘意既男仔,最後又會鐘意我,慢慢咁,我身邊每到一定時候,都會換左一批朋友,除左一D由細識到大既朋友外,呢幾年入面都係咁。」371Please respect copyright.PENANAPy8oXhMTEL
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「當你每次見到一班本身都好好感情既人,為左你一個人既感情而開始背叛、出賣,你會覺得好好受咩?我每次都唔想有咁既事情發生,但我就算控制到自己,都控制唔到其他人。」阿琪講完呢句後,就開左個WHATAPPS出黎,比我睇左個LIST又話:「呢度成幾十個人,係我唔識既人,係我無搵過佢既人,但都不停日日WHATAPPS我問我做緊咩,問我今日過成點,我已經控制住自己唔覆佢地,就算我比佢地話無禮貌,比佢地話我絕情都好,我都唔覆,因為我知道,如果我一覆佢地既話,就多一分危險,但係……」371Please respect copyright.PENANAONLVJzJmmx
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阿琪擦一擦眼淚又講:「我都係一個普誧人,我都只想好正常咁同其他人交朋友,但點解要講到我好似收兵咁。」371Please respect copyright.PENANAk7lyW9JsAx
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我聽完佢咁講後,都既嘆佢既苦況,我只可以用憐惜既目光望住佢,唔知邊度黎既勇氣,我用手擦一擦佢滑落臉龐既眼淚,然後講:「咁多年來辛苦妳拿,而家有我,好好休息下啦。」呢一句話,排除左我對佢既愛意的話,充滿左既係憐惜同疼愛。371Please respect copyright.PENANAmoRvuNeHx1