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為了逃開那個處處充斥著向冬陽身影的城市,官玄默狠了心,雖然明明說好走的時候要和楚襄冉打聲招呼,可最後他卻只留了張字條,裝在白色信封裡,投進了楚襄冉家的信箱。9Please respect copyright.PENANAeLmdS8xFmM
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向冬陽留給兩人的記憶都太深刻,他不願意自己的離開帶給楚襄冉再一次的面對分離,所以才會選擇無聲的走。9Please respect copyright.PENANAXjR0vuAGVm
9Please respect copyright.PENANApwyDRNw4OV
但是他不知道,從他走出家門、投信、上車等等一連串的舉動,楚襄冉都站在那扇被淺藍色窗簾嚴嚴實實遮住了的窗戶背後,從窗簾的縫隙之中,看的一清二楚。9Please respect copyright.PENANAaJifPzzQ6E
9Please respect copyright.PENANAMzMyo31UoL
他也不會知道,楚襄冉那時扯住窗簾的手,抓的有多緊……9Please respect copyright.PENANA4WhXzkSpAx
9Please respect copyright.PENANAPc0ePntmZl
為什麼要這麼一聲不響的走?9Please respect copyright.PENANApQZjmKuz5Z
9Please respect copyright.PENANAc4GuLp3Md1
不是約好了嗎?明明、約好了的。不要讓他連失去都沒有機會道別,所以那天,他特意懇求他的。9Please respect copyright.PENANAb53q69kKT4
9Please respect copyright.PENANApddokKErwa
走的時候,請告訴他,這是他唯一能開口拜託官玄默替他做的事,他也只願意這麼做。9Please respect copyright.PENANAx57C4Fb9S6
9Please respect copyright.PENANA5Pp8K28PjI
但是……他還是被拋下了,連說再見的機會都沒有……9Please respect copyright.PENANArYjx6MUjfN
9Please respect copyright.PENANAMQGdV9VdA0
是因為向冬陽不在了嗎??如果不是他當初的安排,或許向冬陽不會從官玄默身邊離開,雖然留在這裡會遭到反對,但是他們見得到面,也能知道彼此都還好好的活著。9Please respect copyright.PENANAs6vr0kkYR7
9Please respect copyright.PENANAUJN2rFpR6K
不會有像現在這樣的生離死別。9Please respect copyright.PENANApjNXDaOnhN
9Please respect copyright.PENANAPyLpugeaUh
所以……他恨他嗎?是恨他了吧?9Please respect copyright.PENANAPheaEJJjeB
9Please respect copyright.PENANAgBaeOM1WRY
或許就算不恨,但是他也不想再看見他了。9Please respect copyright.PENANAUxKvCbWteR
9Please respect copyright.PENANAImEtiqnd5h
不然怎麼會連最後一句話都不願意跟他說,明明答應了、約定好了的事情,這是官玄默第一次對他失約。9Please respect copyright.PENANAEBxAUdRDey
9Please respect copyright.PENANAfEQASWaD7q
除了恨或討厭,或是類似於此的負面情緒,楚襄冉想不出更好的理由,而這一切,都是他咎由自取,怪不得別人。9Please respect copyright.PENANAImg0iVNk2U
9Please respect copyright.PENANAdmLMjWKW65
如果他沒有鼓勵兩人離開,或許,一切都不會發生……9Please respect copyright.PENANAxErDflPTer
9Please respect copyright.PENANAbLmaz9VdIa
直到載著一切的車子遠去,連揚起的塵埃都再看不清之後,楚襄冉才安靜的下了樓,走出大門打開信箱,把剛才自己看著對方投入的白色信封取了出來。9Please respect copyright.PENANASQMV7LaZss
9Please respect copyright.PENANAq08gcffUPO
沒有打開信封,因為他不想看見官玄默為了不告而別所找的藉口,只是來到了廚房,打開瓦斯爐,讓青白色的火燄爬上那封信,燃出豔麗的紅。9Please respect copyright.PENANARz8eP4RAdA
9Please respect copyright.PENANAv7xVObWCh4
藉著火光,楚襄冉在一片黑暗的空間裡,看著自己映在廚房窗上的倒影,面容平靜,什麼表情也沒有。9Please respect copyright.PENANAWOTb8gbgcD
9Please respect copyright.PENANAMN0H0wFzv5
不是第一次被拋下了,但是難過或傷心的情緒都無法在胸口中醞釀,只是空蕩蕩的,什麼也沒留下。9Please respect copyright.PENANA5jlmMlK5zc
9Please respect copyright.PENANALQVj48XDjD
他該要難過,該要傷心,但是自從出事之後,他連眼眶都沒紅過,流不出眼淚。9Please respect copyright.PENANAo3dYxWAZiD
9Please respect copyright.PENANAd2WqYVBi23
死了就是死了,向冬陽不會再感到痛苦,可是活著留下來的人,煎熬才正等著他們。9Please respect copyright.PENANAwSzrMaoVyQ
9Please respect copyright.PENANAIwRbKXGNNk
閉上眼,楚襄冉放任幾乎燃上手的火焰飄落在水槽裡,碰到了潮濕之後發出細微聲響。9Please respect copyright.PENANA5zd9jIUxGM
9Please respect copyright.PENANALwg3EyHWOv
他很清楚的記得,自己是在什麼時候發現那種異樣的感情,也很清楚的記得,自己的目光是從什麼時候開始,總停留在那個人身上,久久無法轉移。9Please respect copyright.PENANArlllrQWUSl
9Please respect copyright.PENANAJQOyEVBt8V
可是他更清楚的記得,在他察覺有關於自身種種的同時,他也看到了那人眼中的影子是誰。9Please respect copyright.PENANAGKaJHgrHUB
9Please respect copyright.PENANApvpPJ5s00E
自己深深眷戀著的官玄默,目光卻總是追隨著和他們一起長大的人——向冬陽。9Please respect copyright.PENANAukD6AlLDvo
9Please respect copyright.PENANAKotTQykrsZ
向冬陽就真的如同冬天的太陽一般,總是燦爛的笑著,把溫暖帶給他身邊所有的人。9Please respect copyright.PENANAD9oiayEXQD
9Please respect copyright.PENANAleaIOmMmnf
充滿活力又擁有自信的人……9Please respect copyright.PENANA0NINhHhZEQ
9Please respect copyright.PENANABUhy2fXuI7
楚襄冉完全能明白官玄默為什麼會喜歡上他。9Please respect copyright.PENANACarXfKBOKS
9Please respect copyright.PENANAxEuoR9hh5W
他和官玄默是同一類人,總是習慣性的會把擔子扛在肩上,只是官玄默是出於責任感,而楚襄冉則是因為不想讓別人失望。9Please respect copyright.PENANAUePgSn1Ykk
9Please respect copyright.PENANAVMGZSTHXe2
兩人同為壓抑自己又理智的個性,所以官玄默會被向冬陽那種跳脫活潑,總把別人的事當自己的事一樣的性子給吸引,他真的一點也不意外。9Please respect copyright.PENANAoPYwOYpqcn
9Please respect copyright.PENANA2eEpmUrYVR
早在一切發生之前,他就知道了他們兩人相愛的事情。9Please respect copyright.PENANAFWJL4sMIoL
9Please respect copyright.PENANA4oClUjg7av
所以常常假藉各式名義留那兩個人單獨相處,楚襄冉從不曾把向冬陽視為情敵,而是很高興他能回應官玄默的感情。9Please respect copyright.PENANAEyF3QpEfr7
9Please respect copyright.PENANADjaUH9SnpZ
只是他現在很後悔,後悔自己沒能多保護那兩人的感情一點,如果他當時能守護好那兩人,那麼說不定什麼都不會發生。9Please respect copyright.PENANAuDkDdAMliS
9Please respect copyright.PENANAOKJPopAZXR
不過說這些都已經太遲,世界已經只剩下他一個人。9Please respect copyright.PENANAaTd5e3HQcs
9Please respect copyright.PENANAdWS0WVYTMs
曾經得到的,都有一天會失去。9Please respect copyright.PENANAco8GNSCNZS
9Please respect copyright.PENANATidkOcEfe6
9Please respect copyright.PENANAz8jxz53qVu
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時光荏苒,高二時的風波已經平靜到連漣漪都沒有剩下,這似乎該歸功於師長們的努力。9Please respect copyright.PENANAngp3A7e2hr
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或許是害怕楚襄冉成了下一個意外,等他回到學校後,沒有人再對他提起那喧囂過許多日子的事件,事情的經過連同向冬陽和官玄默曾經存在過的事實一起被所有人抹煞,就連名字都不再被提起。9Please respect copyright.PENANAU1MQnCIeOg
9Please respect copyright.PENANAlAqCBr0bpm
楚襄冉冷冷的笑了。9Please respect copyright.PENANA5w9mNSwhYm
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很久以前就嚐過人情冷暖的他,並不想去責備這些人的現實,只是像是懲罰自己般的隔絕整個世界。9Please respect copyright.PENANAjAZxr2G4Zy
9Please respect copyright.PENANAvd854EvGvR
本來就習慣藏身於向冬陽和官玄默光芒下的陰影之中,楚襄冉回到學校後只有變得更沉默,更不願意與其他人交談。9Please respect copyright.PENANAtLzVp5jIE5
9Please respect copyright.PENANAKDaEOkF0Wa
原本還會帶著溫文爾雅的笑容回應其他人的話語,而現在彷彿失去了微笑的對象一般,總是冰冷的面無表情。9Please respect copyright.PENANAGHzmrqvAkU
9Please respect copyright.PENANAB4zTVtB7tm
就算笑,也是冷冷的,嘲諷般的笑容。9Please respect copyright.PENANATCoTPlWVJt
9Please respect copyright.PENANAHgt38SQedq
拒絕所有人的關心,也拒絕所有人的探問,他在熟悉的地方獨自過著生活。9Please respect copyright.PENANAPE3wtHcasg
9Please respect copyright.PENANAwzH6vo3FZF
不看,不聽,不聞,他在意的已經失去,剩下來的他不在意。9Please respect copyright.PENANATDazcVuS0M
9Please respect copyright.PENANA2r95MNwz1m
世界依舊喧鬧,而楚襄冉生存在世界之外。9Please respect copyright.PENANAfldLmtCVui
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那裡是一片寂靜的空白。9Please respect copyright.PENANAJc5B8OpN9Y
9Please respect copyright.PENANATt7eVTBLuF
他不知道官玄默在搬了家之後是否忘了那些曾經發生過的一切,他只知道,他什麼也忘不掉。9Please respect copyright.PENANALwwjZhMoh7
9Please respect copyright.PENANAJQHPMATnYf
總是睜眼到天亮,失眠已經成了習慣,他每天的睡眠不超過兩小時,藏在厚重制服下的身型已經瘦骨嶙峋。9Please respect copyright.PENANABqOlFVqsd7
9Please respect copyright.PENANAFc4TdCwOZc
這一切,已經遠離了的官玄默都不知道,他不知道楚襄冉不再笑了,也不知道楚襄冉只能夜不成眠,然後每天再用數不清的黑咖啡來提振自己的精神,更不知道,雖然他在信中留下了聯絡的方法,告訴對方,雖然他現在因為不願意勾起傷心的記憶而離開,但是他希望能一直和他保持連絡。9Please respect copyright.PENANAWWuC4e8PnA
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只是,他從來沒接到過楚襄冉撥給他的電話。
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向冬陽留給兩人的記憶都太深刻,他不願意自己的離開帶給楚襄冉再一次的面對分離,所以才會選擇無聲的走。9Please respect copyright.PENANAXjR0vuAGVm
9Please respect copyright.PENANApwyDRNw4OV
但是他不知道,從他走出家門、投信、上車等等一連串的舉動,楚襄冉都站在那扇被淺藍色窗簾嚴嚴實實遮住了的窗戶背後,從窗簾的縫隙之中,看的一清二楚。9Please respect copyright.PENANAaJifPzzQ6E
9Please respect copyright.PENANAMzMyo31UoL
他也不會知道,楚襄冉那時扯住窗簾的手,抓的有多緊……9Please respect copyright.PENANA4WhXzkSpAx
9Please respect copyright.PENANAPc0ePntmZl
為什麼要這麼一聲不響的走?9Please respect copyright.PENANApQZjmKuz5Z
9Please respect copyright.PENANAc4GuLp3Md1
不是約好了嗎?明明、約好了的。不要讓他連失去都沒有機會道別,所以那天,他特意懇求他的。9Please respect copyright.PENANAb53q69kKT4
9Please respect copyright.PENANApddokKErwa
走的時候,請告訴他,這是他唯一能開口拜託官玄默替他做的事,他也只願意這麼做。9Please respect copyright.PENANAx57C4Fb9S6
9Please respect copyright.PENANA5Pp8K28PjI
但是……他還是被拋下了,連說再見的機會都沒有……9Please respect copyright.PENANArYjx6MUjfN
9Please respect copyright.PENANAMQGdV9VdA0
是因為向冬陽不在了嗎??如果不是他當初的安排,或許向冬陽不會從官玄默身邊離開,雖然留在這裡會遭到反對,但是他們見得到面,也能知道彼此都還好好的活著。9Please respect copyright.PENANAs6vr0kkYR7
9Please respect copyright.PENANAUJN2rFpR6K
不會有像現在這樣的生離死別。9Please respect copyright.PENANApjNXDaOnhN
9Please respect copyright.PENANAPyLpugeaUh
所以……他恨他嗎?是恨他了吧?9Please respect copyright.PENANAPheaEJJjeB
9Please respect copyright.PENANAgBaeOM1WRY
或許就算不恨,但是他也不想再看見他了。9Please respect copyright.PENANAUxKvCbWteR
9Please respect copyright.PENANAImEtiqnd5h
不然怎麼會連最後一句話都不願意跟他說,明明答應了、約定好了的事情,這是官玄默第一次對他失約。9Please respect copyright.PENANAEBxAUdRDey
9Please respect copyright.PENANAfEQASWaD7q
除了恨或討厭,或是類似於此的負面情緒,楚襄冉想不出更好的理由,而這一切,都是他咎由自取,怪不得別人。9Please respect copyright.PENANAImg0iVNk2U
9Please respect copyright.PENANAdmLMjWKW65
如果他沒有鼓勵兩人離開,或許,一切都不會發生……9Please respect copyright.PENANAxErDflPTer
9Please respect copyright.PENANAbLmaz9VdIa
直到載著一切的車子遠去,連揚起的塵埃都再看不清之後,楚襄冉才安靜的下了樓,走出大門打開信箱,把剛才自己看著對方投入的白色信封取了出來。9Please respect copyright.PENANASQMV7LaZss
9Please respect copyright.PENANAq08gcffUPO
沒有打開信封,因為他不想看見官玄默為了不告而別所找的藉口,只是來到了廚房,打開瓦斯爐,讓青白色的火燄爬上那封信,燃出豔麗的紅。9Please respect copyright.PENANARz8eP4RAdA
9Please respect copyright.PENANAv7xVObWCh4
藉著火光,楚襄冉在一片黑暗的空間裡,看著自己映在廚房窗上的倒影,面容平靜,什麼表情也沒有。9Please respect copyright.PENANAWOTb8gbgcD
9Please respect copyright.PENANAMN0H0wFzv5
不是第一次被拋下了,但是難過或傷心的情緒都無法在胸口中醞釀,只是空蕩蕩的,什麼也沒留下。9Please respect copyright.PENANA5jlmMlK5zc
9Please respect copyright.PENANALQVj48XDjD
他該要難過,該要傷心,但是自從出事之後,他連眼眶都沒紅過,流不出眼淚。9Please respect copyright.PENANAo3dYxWAZiD
9Please respect copyright.PENANAd2WqYVBi23
死了就是死了,向冬陽不會再感到痛苦,可是活著留下來的人,煎熬才正等著他們。9Please respect copyright.PENANAwSzrMaoVyQ
9Please respect copyright.PENANAIwRbKXGNNk
閉上眼,楚襄冉放任幾乎燃上手的火焰飄落在水槽裡,碰到了潮濕之後發出細微聲響。9Please respect copyright.PENANA5zd9jIUxGM
9Please respect copyright.PENANALwg3EyHWOv
他很清楚的記得,自己是在什麼時候發現那種異樣的感情,也很清楚的記得,自己的目光是從什麼時候開始,總停留在那個人身上,久久無法轉移。9Please respect copyright.PENANArlllrQWUSl
9Please respect copyright.PENANAJQOyEVBt8V
可是他更清楚的記得,在他察覺有關於自身種種的同時,他也看到了那人眼中的影子是誰。9Please respect copyright.PENANAGKaJHgrHUB
9Please respect copyright.PENANApvpPJ5s00E
自己深深眷戀著的官玄默,目光卻總是追隨著和他們一起長大的人——向冬陽。9Please respect copyright.PENANAukD6AlLDvo
9Please respect copyright.PENANAKotTQykrsZ
向冬陽就真的如同冬天的太陽一般,總是燦爛的笑著,把溫暖帶給他身邊所有的人。9Please respect copyright.PENANAD9oiayEXQD
9Please respect copyright.PENANAleaIOmMmnf
充滿活力又擁有自信的人……9Please respect copyright.PENANA0NINhHhZEQ
9Please respect copyright.PENANABUhy2fXuI7
楚襄冉完全能明白官玄默為什麼會喜歡上他。9Please respect copyright.PENANACarXfKBOKS
9Please respect copyright.PENANAxEuoR9hh5W
他和官玄默是同一類人,總是習慣性的會把擔子扛在肩上,只是官玄默是出於責任感,而楚襄冉則是因為不想讓別人失望。9Please respect copyright.PENANAUePgSn1Ykk
9Please respect copyright.PENANAVMGZSTHXe2
兩人同為壓抑自己又理智的個性,所以官玄默會被向冬陽那種跳脫活潑,總把別人的事當自己的事一樣的性子給吸引,他真的一點也不意外。9Please respect copyright.PENANAoPYwOYpqcn
9Please respect copyright.PENANA2eEpmUrYVR
早在一切發生之前,他就知道了他們兩人相愛的事情。9Please respect copyright.PENANAFWJL4sMIoL
9Please respect copyright.PENANA4oClUjg7av
所以常常假藉各式名義留那兩個人單獨相處,楚襄冉從不曾把向冬陽視為情敵,而是很高興他能回應官玄默的感情。9Please respect copyright.PENANAEyF3QpEfr7
9Please respect copyright.PENANADjaUH9SnpZ
只是他現在很後悔,後悔自己沒能多保護那兩人的感情一點,如果他當時能守護好那兩人,那麼說不定什麼都不會發生。9Please respect copyright.PENANAuDkDdAMliS
9Please respect copyright.PENANAOKJPopAZXR
不過說這些都已經太遲,世界已經只剩下他一個人。9Please respect copyright.PENANAaTd5e3HQcs
9Please respect copyright.PENANAdWS0WVYTMs
曾經得到的,都有一天會失去。9Please respect copyright.PENANAco8GNSCNZS
9Please respect copyright.PENANATidkOcEfe6
9Please respect copyright.PENANAz8jxz53qVu
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時光荏苒,高二時的風波已經平靜到連漣漪都沒有剩下,這似乎該歸功於師長們的努力。9Please respect copyright.PENANAngp3A7e2hr
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或許是害怕楚襄冉成了下一個意外,等他回到學校後,沒有人再對他提起那喧囂過許多日子的事件,事情的經過連同向冬陽和官玄默曾經存在過的事實一起被所有人抹煞,就連名字都不再被提起。9Please respect copyright.PENANAU1MQnCIeOg
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楚襄冉冷冷的笑了。9Please respect copyright.PENANA5w9mNSwhYm
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很久以前就嚐過人情冷暖的他,並不想去責備這些人的現實,只是像是懲罰自己般的隔絕整個世界。9Please respect copyright.PENANAjAZxr2G4Zy
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本來就習慣藏身於向冬陽和官玄默光芒下的陰影之中,楚襄冉回到學校後只有變得更沉默,更不願意與其他人交談。9Please respect copyright.PENANAtLzVp5jIE5
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原本還會帶著溫文爾雅的笑容回應其他人的話語,而現在彷彿失去了微笑的對象一般,總是冰冷的面無表情。9Please respect copyright.PENANAGHzmrqvAkU
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就算笑,也是冷冷的,嘲諷般的笑容。9Please respect copyright.PENANATCoTPlWVJt
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拒絕所有人的關心,也拒絕所有人的探問,他在熟悉的地方獨自過著生活。9Please respect copyright.PENANAPE3wtHcasg
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不看,不聽,不聞,他在意的已經失去,剩下來的他不在意。9Please respect copyright.PENANATDazcVuS0M
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世界依舊喧鬧,而楚襄冉生存在世界之外。9Please respect copyright.PENANAfldLmtCVui
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那裡是一片寂靜的空白。9Please respect copyright.PENANAJc5B8OpN9Y
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他不知道官玄默在搬了家之後是否忘了那些曾經發生過的一切,他只知道,他什麼也忘不掉。9Please respect copyright.PENANALwwjZhMoh7
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總是睜眼到天亮,失眠已經成了習慣,他每天的睡眠不超過兩小時,藏在厚重制服下的身型已經瘦骨嶙峋。9Please respect copyright.PENANABqOlFVqsd7
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這一切,已經遠離了的官玄默都不知道,他不知道楚襄冉不再笑了,也不知道楚襄冉只能夜不成眠,然後每天再用數不清的黑咖啡來提振自己的精神,更不知道,雖然他在信中留下了聯絡的方法,告訴對方,雖然他現在因為不願意勾起傷心的記憶而離開,但是他希望能一直和他保持連絡。9Please respect copyright.PENANAWWuC4e8PnA
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只是,他從來沒接到過楚襄冉撥給他的電話。