某高級私房菜館,跟客人開會的場地。443Please respect copyright.PENANAMHst9zGAGM
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平日女上司外出開會應酬,喜歡帶老練的乙先生或戊小姐同行。但今次卻挑了我一起去。開席前,客人和女上司有說有笑,氣氛輕鬆。拿出合約,以閒聊方式討論細節時,客人和女上司同樣笑容滿面。上菜時,客人喜上眉梢,難掩興奮,女上司卻僵住了。我,毫無掩飾,尖叫出來,從餐椅彈起,連退數步,直至碰到活動趟牆板。443Please respect copyright.PENANAa2cCWLdzsK
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客人瞟向我,邪笑道:「第一次食蟻宴,感到嘔心是正常不過的事。」見慣風浪,沒有絲毫不悅。443Please respect copyright.PENANAZBBNY5x5w4
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我立在原地不動,震顫不已。女上司收拾心情,首次對我露出和顏悅色的笑容:「來試試,試過就知道是好東西。」她向我招手,示意我回到餐桌旁。「我起初也是抗拒得很,但放膽一試後,卻發現這是人間美食,欲罷不能!」女上司的口吻像媽,像那隻扮人的蟻。443Please respect copyright.PENANA9IcM4xxCpq
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天旋地轉,眼前畫面扭作一團。我身處蟻巢當中,面前有兩隻人高的巨蟻,一雌一雄。兩對大眼齊齊掃視我全身上下,逼人目光快要擠爆我心臟。恐懼掏空了我,腦海裡空盪盪的。牠們的花言巧語一再迴繞,從腦袋深淵引出可怕的蟻群。大咬大啃,蠶食我的心智,留下牠們的意志。443Please respect copyright.PENANAE2Vt1TEaqm
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我沒作聲,任由體內蟻群放肆地吃喝玩樂、組織家庭、創建社會、發展文化。牠們驅使我乖乖回到座位,一口氣灌下半碗白蟻湯。443Please respect copyright.PENANAmBE9HplLeF
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好吃嗎?443Please respect copyright.PENANAiIcyGumn6Q
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好吃。443Please respect copyright.PENANAD9DvgoETnd
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「你有看《天與地》嗎?」雄蟻吃了一口紅蟻炒蛋。443Please respect copyright.PENANAF8ofeksxNS
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「有。意識挺大膽的!人吃人!」雌蟻滿口黑蟻殘肢。443Please respect copyright.PENANA5DHaP9XDwC
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「這個問題,我問過很多朋友,大部份人的答案和你的一樣。但在我看來,『人吃人』情節根本算不上甚麼一回事。」雄蟻擺出權威口吻,在雌蟻面前大發偉論:「『人吃人』每天不斷上演。在生活裡的各個層面、以多種方式活現眼前。不一定是吃人『肉』才算得上吃人,食人『心志』也是吃人的其中一種方式。」說得口乾,雄蟻呷了一口黃蟻甜湯。443Please respect copyright.PENANAwIZlHCHsjj
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「絕境下,三位男主角吃了重傷好友,維持生命。獲救後,男主角們因為好友的死而性情大變,走上歪路,毀掉人生。簡言之,好友失去了生命(身體),精神卻長存於男主角們心裡;男主角們的身體雖繼續活著,心志卻被罪疚感反噬,沒能以他們本身的真實性情活下去…443Please respect copyright.PENANAWoxZKW2E1x
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世事無絕對,大都是觀點與角度造出來的假象。我與你,少數與多數,個人與世界,哪能分得清清楚楚?」443Please respect copyright.PENANAGirlS7vaSc
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「這麼推想下去,到底是誰吃掉誰?誰被誰吃掉?那真難懂!」不著痕跡的一句讚美,雌蟻注定能夠吃掉雄蟻。443Please respect copyright.PENANAehYT2Q85R8
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好不容易,飯局完結,合約簽妥,我和女上司恭送客人上坐駕。車影遠去,女上司和我漫步大街上。443Please respect copyright.PENANAUecBKqZx1j
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「別怪我沒事先通知你。」女上司從手袋掏出一包酸甜小零食,大方地分了三粒給我:「乙先生吃了一餐,戊小姐吃了一餐,你吃了一餐,我吃了三餐。」443Please respect copyright.PENANAAyhkvBbJQp
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我先放了一粒入口。不甜,很酸,酸度足以將蟻群和我一併溶掉。443Please respect copyright.PENANAoyf0OO7ODR
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「總有一天,我會習慣。」女上司也吃了一粒,企圖將她自己溶掉:「我是這樣告訴自己。」443Please respect copyright.PENANA11HUwkM5FZ
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「只要習慣了,我就可以毫不猶豫,吃得更多,簽下更多訂單,得到更好的待遇,過更好的生活…」女上司又吃了一粒小零食,溶掉披在身上的人皮,露出蟻身。「好好的活著,算得上奢侈的事嗎?」443Please respect copyright.PENANAMo02uU1ixs
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我再吃一粒,溶掉對牠的厭惡。我吃下最後一粒,溶掉對世態的耐性。443Please respect copyright.PENANABkC4UsWwxO
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我辭職,我說。443Please respect copyright.PENANAnqEElQHGTS
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