「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來，453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc0Lrrocm5D
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事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒，453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNewWe7rRcL
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那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的，453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiL9ZQlVWdE
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幼小我的父母就離異，453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMJJtVherVX
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母親是內地人離婚後就回國了，453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDYIImLkIs7
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對母親的記憶還是有，453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo4PtGwLVDu
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記得她很常酗酒，453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCNwyBqxQnu
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後來的日子，453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4TNazHqXID
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我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活，453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlh1t46S49h
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忙於工作的他，453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN28lXLPUOV
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常常讓我睡在幼兒園，453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhQnbJYyCMk
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到了上課時間再直接上課，453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM0YQ4cRTVG
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什麼？為什麼能睡在那裡，453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2kEvHfgVPS
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因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師，453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡghumCj3hdq
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所以我總能寄宿在那裡，453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNPaiKlFeet
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剛開始還會看著監視器期盼，453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw9sknwDZgC
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漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課，453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDkR3aFXbyq
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父親工作的地方不一定，453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDMe449Aucd
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輾轉的換了三所小學，453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfHMNKHuIbR
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以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲，453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Znyma9k9o
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他開始會喜怒無常，453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXMgf7DrPwu
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沒來由的找我發脾氣，453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0j2Ah7WxmQ
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下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺，453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjJw9QsiLaj
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很小我就與異性交往，453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUk2Jm5bJKv
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試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親，是一名水電工，453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKcfqleKWHN
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家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作，453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAbJPacrim8
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偶爾我也會陪同他工作，453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCBVU4tUUUG
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我會睡在工地，453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpbqNfHZeUf
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用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩，453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEZVB8fCKlL
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父親在工作上十分認真敬業，453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYaswnQrGsD
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委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級，453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNOKLaPyseq
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他開始會講貶低的話語，453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpWgnrl5SES
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那些原本用來工作的用具，453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG4ej7TMz7g
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偶爾會成為威脅我的道具，453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvzP3zqkgqa
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他會拿著水管說：「你信不信我會打你」453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoQ7JQLRsOQ
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有次，他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我，453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKS2QyCVpfO
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他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課，453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBCxNmhFd96
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要我轉告給老師，453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHKtx0XSVlr
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電話裡他說：「老師吼？有種你就報警」453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMkB7J168Xx
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老師報了警，結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後，我偶爾會逃家，453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn7Ygp4TML6
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沒過多久被安排進了補習班，453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlg5IzMOoiD
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那樣的對待仍然持續，而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來，453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdYsm79NF5g
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細細去回想每個片段，453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4KjgYleL0f
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父親，很不容易的照顧了我的起居，453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSxXAAFrlzJ
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仔細想想一個照顧小女孩，453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrKfx0DCu6x
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對他一個大男孩很不容易，453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdZs9F7QitQ
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所以他很常說：「我是個意外不該出生」453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ86n3sX1s6g
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卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許，我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒，453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqPXGJYJpin
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走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣，453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzOLcIk2Gjj
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我打開冰箱，拿出冰牛奶，453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlzsbcWylUu
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打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐，453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5U4ZQTfATU
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是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點，453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3smqAor72R
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還是有很多屬於他的回憶，453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdYYgOCnkRb
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我喃喃自語到：「好想失憶啊～」453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtM7DduIMYs
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正準備吃下第一口時，453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Zdp4sCLd7
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手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞，453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbwTGxS2thF
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《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
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頓時，回憶到了我國二那年。453Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh3JNf1AxlY
