「我是個意外不該出生」
我從夢境中醒來，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRalqqLqeDK
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Cash4v7KC
事隔多年我還是會被那些回憶驚醒，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeXzFO32mCw
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdRUTh09tij
那是父親童年時光常常告訴我的，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZoEX45dApB
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbGGlz7o69Y
幼小我的父母就離異，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWqx4gR5z4q
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ390yoWhRny
母親是內地人離婚後就回國了，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5aMXdjFakC
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnwxc6wrj4n
對母親的記憶還是有，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp9YpBRcaTg
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGSt1hSYf4X
記得她很常酗酒，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUrkjswn8WA
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQaeyoPHHYF
後來的日子，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvijQSrdyAh
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfnY59Ovh2l
我總是在房間聆聽他們的爭吵。
父親獨自承擔起照顧我的生活，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVwkfEIPlaC
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqkoQriTLAo
忙於工作的他，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIzp7nVXQdG
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmFsFkYOpxU
常常讓我睡在幼兒園，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfLGBxh6YOq
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyR68MECPUv
到了上課時間再直接上課，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBCMCpGN8eu
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCgv0t4N4Os
什麼？為什麼能睡在那裡，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjw5db8ahJx
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdzis5dj8jM
因為姑姑是那裡的英文導師，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡljg3Qzq2Zk
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVPTd22jh8S
所以我總能寄宿在那裡，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHpHkqwHSDI
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfMHZCO5Kr6
剛開始還會看著監視器期盼，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj9HdS8Nznu
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoENeTBuX14
漸漸的知道自己並不會被接走。
開始在小學上課，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGvIKVxAkIf
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7rNZ4PCA89
父親工作的地方不一定，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD0aJCJGmhj
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZH3a8ZZap0
輾轉的換了三所小學，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdLARx2t8LB
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDy78hbyZPw
以至於我跟同學之間的關係並沒有那麼好。
父親性格上也開始逐漸扭曲，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgZePSCC7TA
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDRMnaJ4goS
他開始會喜怒無常，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpe274gcF2R
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2rZRj36GeD
沒來由的找我發脾氣，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUcKUfhtohk
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0DwWZ4hKzI
下一秒又對我十分和善。
我很好奇……家人還有被關愛的感覺，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfTqPHtVLbH
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8hDvVfyb5J
很小我就與異性交往，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKoCq861otf
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx48Jzn2Phy
試圖尋找一些慰藉。
父親，是一名水電工，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRM9TKerdtR
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrq2w59ZmjH
家裡總是擺滿各式各樣的工作，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCIcOvA6E6n
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj3gM5q8F09
偶爾我也會陪同他工作，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO0a5pC1516
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkEWHqlwjxI
我會睡在工地，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3gGM7HGbi1
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIrQogvgIhV
用紙箱跟外套搭建自己的窩，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ20kwXeX0f4
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWSSToIDgcZ
父親在工作上十分認真敬業，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxZvYHbHU1K
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUTn6Kk9xJY
委託人總是非常信任他。
國小三年級，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxWOZw1MHSq
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0UEX9ZqGbq
他開始會講貶低的話語，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8HrbTyKrK0
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs78Nyl0jVQ
那些原本用來工作的用具，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzFvMLx5C9d
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnAXn1i3KBA
偶爾會成為威脅我的道具，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbGNh8zUYwe
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg4PYYvcbhp
他會拿著水管說：「你信不信我會打你」535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Bz05kHU37
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFyho49ZYow
有次，他不蠻玩沉浸電腦跟網友聊天的我，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoDILAZ7z1b
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkvv4BkUCyQ
他直接逼迫我隔天不准上課，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoNFQcG33yX
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlG4BfuQogv
要我轉告給老師，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡihNjVVzeiH
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡasaKqH9iBZ
電話裡他說：「老師吼？有種你就報警」535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdzPMDK0BMh
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZXBzsFNQpj
老師報了警，結果不小心報錯地址闖錯的門。
之後，我偶爾會逃家，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoyMjHne2kD
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡabao8UET8q
沒過多久被安排進了補習班，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG0ZZcRJdt1
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7uISCkkLyw
那樣的對待仍然持續，而我染上了自傷的習慣。
這樣的日子長達了三年的光陰。
我從回憶中反應過來，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJi9dO5AZcP
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzdfQqopif5
細細去回想每個片段，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM2AJENK1Yh
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ku61Gwtiu
父親，很不容易的照顧了我的起居，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡayypIsPyOd
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4a87IL3USR
仔細想想一個照顧小女孩，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Ez2Xpvu3Z
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1FU1dFDpLm
對他一個大男孩很不容易，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ymwzswTkY
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI6TmjVTwpV
所以他很常說：「我是個意外不該出生」535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlzuXrYZWl2
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYmdRuZKhaV
卻不知不覺間深深烙印在我腦海。
或許，我本不應該誕生吧。
整理了一下情緒，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzR8b4LGhxd
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9lUosLp0lM
走進廁所打理了一下自己狼狽的摸樣，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡntns32GvOu
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHxAPlDuUJd
我打開冰箱，拿出冰牛奶，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4VAduvDI76
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdaWNaIkj7V
打算為自己做份牛奶麥片當早餐，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡog8plESCst
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjkCvOlK4Xa
是父親最常為我做的簡易餐點，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJwk1o70zmh
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv35RwQtUeN
還是有很多屬於他的回憶，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbbetjogR4s
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLeAJMMmpBC
我喃喃自語到：「好想失憶啊～」535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo7gy9Io5Zo
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyEAZ2LRuXc
正準備吃下第一口時，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4eHtzIbWQg
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT8PafsFyU4
手機螢幕上顯示著今日的新聞，535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbtRdI4RpNC
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡviVbimjQhj
《少女淚訴遭狼父性騷擾》
535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2v0Gwe99tU
頓時，回憶到了我國二那年。535Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiLNiPEpFFq
