I really don't need anyone judging me for my actions on this right now. I just want to write shit that was on my mind for a while now, no matter how stupid it sounds. Also I'm tired as hell and most of this won't make sense anyway and you're going to think I'm an absolutely insane moron.
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My brother is just a terrible person, honestly. I have a younger brother who's nearly ten years old, but he still acts three. For example, he hits us often, throws tantrums in public, and once said he'd break my neck. I will get to that in a moment. I've always been calm and patient with him, but I realize that's not the answer. Every time he hits me, I've never hit him back although I really wanted to.
Although a few days ago something happened. He hit me with my pillow. Siblings do that. That's normal. And so I grabbed a smaller cushion and hit him back playfully. And for some reason, he got angry and kicked my leg. (I have a pale, brownish bruise from it right now.) Of course I was used to it, though I really shouldn't be. Instead of ignoring it like I always do, I shoved his shoulder and told him to stop. Then he told me to stop and threw my pillow in my face. Then he ran out of the room.
That brat. I was already feeling really down before he came because my parents were arguing again, and it was difficult to concentrate on all the homework I had due that night. So I was unbelievably angry at him. After I took a shower, I grabbed some sandpaper and scraped my leg with it. I honestly don't really know the reason.
Maybe if I told my parents that my brother gave me that scar, it'd finally be enough for my parents to send him to therapy or any other place that would fix him. When I was satisfied enough with the scar, I showed it to my parents. They just told my brother to leave me alone and told me to get a freaking band aid. I'm an idiot.
My brother stormed into my room, pissed. He said I got him into trouble. I told him he deserved it a long time ago. Then he literally said, in his own words, that he was going to "break my neck" and jumped on my stomach. I'm pretty sure if he was a older he'd be charged as a criminal?? Like what the actual hell?
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Why do I have to deal with this kid?? t's totally our fault for raising him like this. He's spoiled, that's for sure. But my parents won't do anything about it. They make these BS statements like "oh, young children change as they get older." Or "Just give him time for find God." Seriously. I wish I was joking.
What am I supposed to do without professional help? I just feel so helpless and alone in this situation. I think my brother is shitty but he's my brother, and I want to help him.
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Oh, and by the way, he's a perfect angel at school. No seriously, he won the Kindness Award from his entire class. They took a photo of him, smiling all cute and innocent. I'm so sick of this.
