“Please let my mom know I wasn’t a whore”
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The maid from before plops down next to me and smokes a cigarette. I wave the smoke away from me and distance myself from her so the cameras won’t suspect I am in this
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“Why are you moving away. Am I whore to you too”
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She puts out her cigarette in the sink and cleans any evidence of it. I roll my eyes as I wipe down the walls. I guess stars are like us after all. Some are just messy pigs who really love to show it.
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“I never told you my name have I”
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She cleans beside me and I shake my head no
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“My name is Merriam but my friends call me merri for short”
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I nod okay and place the rag down
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“My name is Sam”
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With our wet gloves we shake hands and clean the walls
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“Are you going to be placed in this house as your job”
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I look at Merriam and she shrugs her shoulders
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“Are you asking because your seeing me more often”
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“Yeah”
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She scrubs harder to get a particular stain out and I laugh to myself
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“The company is planning on placing me here so I guess you won’t be alone”
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I look forward and zone out a bit. If her company is placing her here does that mean my company is planning on firing James
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“NO”
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I say this out loud and stand up quickly. Merriam looks at me funny then stands up too
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“Woah chill out mam we are just scrubbing stains”
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I look away and towards the door to see James walk in. He hasn’t texted me yesterday and when I called him earlier I was left on voicemail. I’m worried about him
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“I’m sorry it’s just my colleague James hasn’t came yesterday and I think today is the same”
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I sling the rag across the edge of the bucket and walk to another wall to clean
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“Well it might be because James quit”
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Merriam walks to me and squats down to scrub.
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“He wouldn’t quit he knows what’s at stake here he wouldn’t”
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I say this over and over again as I scrub. Maybe I’m trying to soothe myself by possibly telling myself lies. I thought I knew James but maybe I didn’t. I didn’t see any signs he was unhappy with this job and yes we made jokes about ryder and his numerous flings but it’s not like we wanted to quit. And if he did quit does that mean he quit talking to me. Was I just a temporary friend to him
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“Hey stop zoning out worry wart and clean”
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We both clean and I hear the door open and shut. I can see a lady with long black Hair clinging onto Ryder as they both exchange a fury of kisses
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“Hey look forward”
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I hear Merriam voice in my ear as we both turn around and scrub. Just ignore just ignore and this will all be over. I hear the smacking of their lips and the movement of the couch as each second of this becomes unbearable. I think about to his speech and I jokingly laugh at myself. He was never talking about me he just happened to look my way. Nothing more and definitely all the more less. We hear the lustful duo make it to the bedroom as the door shuts behind them
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“If you have to deal with this then whew girl god bless”
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We both stand up and walk with our buckets in hand
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“Yeah I do I just tend to ignore”
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“Then why did you look at them”
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I place the bucket down
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“I don’t know I guess”
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We both start mopping and cleaning as the duo becomes louder and louder
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“You would think with all his money he would buy some soundproof walls. I can hear her moaning from a mile away. Heck I can hear her from Alabama if I was there”
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I laugh and exchange with her some stories of all the women Ryder has brung into the penthouse
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“Really such a foul man”
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“Yeah she was a nice one too. Heard she had some good standing connections with her rich family back in Lagos Nigeria. Her skin was so clear it was as if she was a doll. And her Afro was so marvelous you wouldn’t have thought it was real.”
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Merriam smirks and takes off her gloves
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“Seems he’s a lover of all things that walks with a hole between the legs”
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We both giggle as the bedroom door opens. Quickly we start arranging ornaments for the last party today at 8pm.
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“Make me a smoothie”
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I avoid looking at Ryder as I make him a smoothie. I swiftly place it on the kitchen counter and get back to decorating
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“Thanks”
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I nod okay
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“Look at me and nod”
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I bite my lip and turn around to him and In my flabbergasted state I look a shirtless Ryder staring up at me. I look at the intricate tattoos across his torso and chest as well as on his arms. I nod at him and he keeps staring at me then walks away. I turn back quickly but it seems it was too quickly because the ladder holding me gives out and I end up falling to the floor
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“SAM”
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I hear Merriam scream my name and I look up to see where the ornament was. Damn that was a pretty big drop. I feel my eyes droop as two blurry figures surround me. I try to speak but I feel myself finally slip into unconsciousness
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Sounds of talking slowly pour into my ears as my eyes gradually pry itself open
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“Is she okay”
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“Sir I don’t know-“
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“THEN YOU MAKE SURE SHES OKAY”
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I wince at the screaming as the blurry figures slowly materialize and get clearer
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“Hmm”
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I try to sit up but a hand pushes me gently back down
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“No”
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I tilt my head gently to see Ryder hovering over me in a worried state. His eyes scan me then he sits back down
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“Where am I”
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The beeping of a machine Alerts me as I look around the room. White curtains, a beeping machine and a iv in my arm
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“Your in a hospital”
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I try to speak but I feel my throat clench so I just remain quiet. This could affect my job, my pay. I’m already behind in rent and bills and when I was relying on todays paycheck to help alleviate that pressure it seems like fate just wants me to stay struggling.
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“ I need to leave”
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I try to roll around but my body glues me to my back
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“You can’t even say that sentence without sounding groggy. I think your best bet is to stay”
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I achingly shake my head no
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“I can’t”
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Ryder looks at me and then looks away
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“You will take the week off-“
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“NO”
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With all my might I yell the word out causing to look back at me
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“I can’t, I have things I need to pay and I need the money to feed my dog and I need the money to live”
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I feel the tears skim down my cheek and I breath fast. Stop crying stop crying Sam. Every time I tell myself that I feel more tears come as my throat gets tight.
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“Then I will give you a paid leave”
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I look away and at the bland curtain. It doesn’t matter because if my company finds out this could affect future employments. Who would want a maid who can’t change ornaments without getting a concussion.
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“Did you let my company know”
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He shakes his head no and I take a sign of relief.
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“Hello Mr Ryder. The patient is all ready to go”
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Ryder nods okay and once the doctor leaves he helps me stand up
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“Ima rest at home”
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He helps me walk to the garage and places me gently in the passengers seat
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“Do you have anyone at home to take care of you”
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I sadly shake my head no
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“Then you will rest in my bedroom until you feel better”
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I shake my finger no
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“That’s too much to ask of you sir. And my dog is at home I can’t leave him”
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“Then I will get him”
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I feel myself dooze off to sleep and when I wake up I am in a bedroom gown in a comfortable bed. I look around the room and see many unique wall posters around as well as designs. This can never be my room so I assume this is his room. I lift my head up delicately and see my white Pomeranian laying on my stomach. I softly pet him then lay my head back down.
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“Your up shorty”
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I see Merriam enter the room and in her hand she’s holding soup
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“Merriam”
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She smiles and lays the soup on the bedroom counter next to me
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“If you told me a concussion can lead to vip treatment then I would’ve been banging my head a while ago”
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I muster up a laugh and she lightly lifts me upright.
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“Here”
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She lays the tray on a mini table then hands it to me. I eat the soup slowly and melt
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“Merriam your a great cook”
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She smirks
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“That’s the way of the maid”
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I smile sweetly
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“Are you feeling better”
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I nod yes
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“I think tomorrow I should be all ready”
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Merriam hands me my phone. I wince at all the cracks I see
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“I know I would die if I saw all those cracks but girl a guy named James was calling you”
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I look through the miscalls and press James and anxiously wait as the phone pings
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“Sam”
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“James”
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I hold the phone close to my ear
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“I’m sorry about yesterday. We were suppose to have a date but things happened. The company relocated me”
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My heart drops as all the Memories of us from the last three years dwindle out.
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“James”
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I sob silently as the phone in my hand shakes
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“I know. I’m sorry Sam but we can have our date today”
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“I came James I’m recovering from a fall”
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I hear the phone go silent
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“Where are you”
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“I’m at-“
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I see Ryder come in and I hang up the phone
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“You look better”
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He walk towards me and Merriam and I see my dog start to wake up
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“This one is feisty”
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“His name is chubs”
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Chubs retreats close to me and I hold him tight. Ryder nods okay and walks to the door.
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“I must leave for the show. Merriam take care of her”
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He leaves and Merriam sits next to me
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“Chubs is cute”
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Time passes and I watch Merriam play with chubs.
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“Ima turn on the tv”
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She presses the remove and the tv in the room plays
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“WELCOME EVERYONE TO THE ANNUAL WORLD WIDE MUSIC FESTIVAL. IM
YOUR HOST SEBASTIAN RYDER AND TODAY IS GOING TO BE PRETTY JAZZY”
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I can sense excitement and energy In his words as the crowd goes crazy. This must be in Central Park
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“This man is all YAY in public but all oooh in private. What a world”
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Merriam holds a sleeping chubs and I pat him. 30 minutes into the show I see another host pop up and she talks with Sebastian
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“Sebastian everyone here has been begging me to ask you to perform your latest hit wonder boys”
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Sebastian smiles at the camera and then rubs his chin
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“Oh really I think you might’ve wanted that Sandra”
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I can see the lady blush as she announces Sebastian up as a performer. The electrical guitar he pics up is shaped like a flame and like magic I see his fingers strum. I can feel the chase in his beat like a prey hunting his predator all while I sense the melodic whispers of the wind tying it all together.
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“In a wonder world there was a wonder girl and she wondered where was her wonder boy this time. All the nights she cried”
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His sweet sensual yet deep voice manages to make the crowd quiet as all eyes are on him.
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“She said she’s wonderful and wonders where her wonders land, will it land on her wonder boy, wondering if it can be done”
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His music is intoxicating. It’s a perfect mix is aggressive yet attentive. I knew he was a rockstar yet I never listened to his music, not until today. And now I can wonder why he maintained his place on top. I slowly find myself swaying to his music as it comes to a stop. The crowd cheers as he takes a bow and flips his glistening hair back to show his face.
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“I will nap”
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Merriam nods okay and I sink into the bed nodding off to sleep. Such a wonderful song
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“WOOOHOO”
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I wake up to the sounds of screaming and cheering as I look at the city lights and night sky from the window. I check the alarm time
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9:13 pm
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I rub my eyes and look around for chubs and spot him by the door.
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“Chubs”
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He looks at me painting and starts walking to me when the door flings open
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“Are you okay Sam”
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Merriam smiles at me and I look at her formal uniform for the event. I nod okay and she closes the door
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“Chubs”
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I take my time and get off the bed
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“Chubs”
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I look around and see no trace of him
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“Damn dog in here”
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I hear someone say that from outside the door and I panic. No no no chubs no. I look around for my maid outfit and once I see it I slip it on.
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“Chubs”
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I linger out the room and my body lets me know it isn’t in the mood to walk cause my pace starts to simmer down
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“Chubs”
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My head pounds and I find chubs by the penthouse door and I softly grab him
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“That’s your dog”
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A man in a silk robe looks at me and everyone in the party too, even the staff
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“It’s mister ryders”
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The man smiles disgustingly
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“I hope he don’t mind I have the lil puppet some whiskey”
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My heart beats fast as I look at chubs who seems a bit drunk
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“YOU WEREN’T SUPPOSE TO DO THAT”
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I yell out at the man and he leans back on the chair angered
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“Who are you to tell me what the fuck to do maid”
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All the anger harvested in me boils higher as fast walk to him and grab his collar tight
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“YOU BASTARD YOU FED MY DOG WHISKEY IMA KILL YOU”
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I go to wrap my hands around his neck but Merriam holds me back
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“No Sam stop”
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The music even stops as the party looks at me. I can hear the door start to unlock and Merriam picks up chubs and whisk me away into the bedroom.
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“I know your angry and ima take chubs to the emergency vet but you will lose your job Sam if you choke that lard ass out”
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We share a sorrowful laugh and I look at chubs
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“He’s my baby”
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I choke up in tears and hold chubs tight. I got him when I was at my lowest moment and his. It took a while to get chubs to even talk to me since he was so depressed. After a while he warmed up to me and in exchange my love grew for him.
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“I know”
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Merriam holds chubs and walks out the room. I feel myself soaking the bedsheets as tears fall down. All this pent up anger and sadness about James leaving, chubs getting laced, falling and hitting my head, everything I held in when I should’ve let them out has finally Been let out. I look around the room and spot a whiskey bottom on the far end of the room. With the rest of the strength I have to walk I grab the whiskey bottle and drink as I sit on the bed. Each sip down easing a hurting part of my heart. A heart so wounded, so desolate and neglected, this whiskey temporarily eased.
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“Yes”
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The talking from outside this door slowly escapes from me as I drink and drink. At this point I don’t even know how long it has been since I started but once the bottle finishes I know I have stopped.
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“Listen”
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I see ryder walk in and I sit up and sloppily hide the bottle but the sound of glass breaking on the floor rats me out
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“Drinking my finest of whiskey huh”
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He picks up the shards of glasses and places them in the trash
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“Don’t”
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I wobble to him and check his hands. I see blood
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“What”
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“I said stop don’t lick up the glass”
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Ryder gives me a confused look
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“I mean pickup”
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I spit a tissue and I stretch my arm out to reach it
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“You have to walk to get the tissue”
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Ryder laughs and I tip toe to the tissue then back to him.
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“I’m so sorry master I’m very sorry”
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I wipe his hands
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“Your drunk”
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I shrug
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“Am not”
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“Are too”
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“Your drunk too”
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“But I know how to hold my liquor”
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“So your not denying your drunk”
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“Not as drunk as you”
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We share a laugh, the first laugh I guess ever.
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“I’m soo tired Ryder”
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I drag him to the bed and lay down. He remains sitting
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“Tired of what”
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I turn to my side and flick my hair from my face
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“Life. Life is so hard and yet you make it look so easy. It must be the money”
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Also for the first time I see him genuinely smile
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“Just because I have money doesn’t mean life is easier for me. It just means I have access to make it easier”
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I see him grab another whiskey bottle and drink it
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“That’s what all rich shbubsss say to a peasant like me”
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I plop on the bed like a dead fish
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“Then what do you want me to say Sam”
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I look up to see his smoldering gaze at me. His eyes look down at my lips then makes its way back to my eyes
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“I want you to say that you hate life”
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He leans in closer and his hot cinnamon breath becomes all the air I need now
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“I hate life just like you Sam stone. I hate pretending that I like paparazzi in my face and old men hogging my parties trying to illicit beautiful girls such as yourself. I hate the way you don’t look at me and ignore me. I hate the way your shirt makes your body look so ravishing. I hate when you talk to James about dates when all I want is to kiss you up and down”
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I can feel his arm come between my arm and waist as he leans in closer then before. His hair drops down and tickles my cheeks as my breaths quicken
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“How about you Sam. What do you hate”
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I feel my chest tighten and my face flush in all shades of hot as his deep dark eyes peer into mine.
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“I hate the way your music makes me feel like I’m on another astral plane. It makes me sway my body and my mind melt. I hate the way you pretend to be so energetic and excited in public but at home your nothing but-“
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I sit up so my lips are aligned with his ear and I whisper
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“A dirty dog”
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We both look at each other and before I knew it we are swapping spit as he kisses my neck then sucks it. I hold in my moans as I see him remove his shirt
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“Since you hate me so much I might as well add another reason to your very extensive list Ms stone”
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The heat of the moment turns even hotter as each Sizzling touch get me closer to heaven
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Oh what will come of the morning I don’t know but I know who will be coming at night
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