Lucy?" I raise my head in alarm. "Lucy!" I turn to the familiar voice. "There you are!" I feel warm arms engulf me, pulling me, soothing me.711Please respect copyright.PENANAMxviofQdP0
"Ray…" I choke out. Ray releases me and looks at my tear-stained face. He takes my hand and slips the blade from between my fingers, his eyes never leaving mine.711Please respect copyright.PENANA0X1letEv1b
"Lucy," his voice is broken. "Please tell me you didn't."711Please respect copyright.PENANAdSl3BphQeu
"I-I didn't." I take a deep, shaky breath. "But I almost did." He turns his head and shuts his eyes.711Please respect copyright.PENANAR8YpQaI8Mc
"Promise me something, Lucy." He looks back at me. "Promise me that you'll never cut again, OK?" I nod. "If you ever fall back to this place again, call me over. I'll help you, Lucy." He grabs my hands. "Promise me."711Please respect copyright.PENANAIZsRIKZytW
"I promise, Ray." I whisper, tears leaking out of my eyes. He pulls me into a tight hug, breathing out a sigh of relief. He kisses the top of my head and then moves back…711Please respect copyright.PENANA0h1pEINl36
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I open my eyes and stare at my wall, but it's not there.711Please respect copyright.PENANAsBFh6mcvtV
My blanket is hanging off my bed, my clothes are strewn across the floor, my hair is sticking to my wet cheeks and the window is shut, enclosing me in darkness.711Please respect copyright.PENANALnUp4hEITJ
I feel nothing but pain and agony. A dark cloud is filling my head, making me seem heavy.711Please respect copyright.PENANA92do7rPLOB
Fake.711Please respect copyright.PENANA9T582kes8t
Not myself.711Please respect copyright.PENANA1YyFXSvom7
The silver blade is shining, piercing the darkness with an evil light. It taunts me, challenges me, dares me to touch it, to pick it up and to use it.711Please respect copyright.PENANAdv4N6QVMb7
Oh, Ray. Where are you?!711Please respect copyright.PENANA9Lz7ptLOHu
"I'm going somewhere with my parents and we won't be back until Friday. Call me if you need anything, OK?"711Please respect copyright.PENANAWhlP5jcdno
Help me, Ray! Help me!711Please respect copyright.PENANAncoCrVc6VP
I punch in his number and put the phone to my ear.711Please respect copyright.PENANA7Myd2fT2J3
Voice mail.711Please respect copyright.PENANANfBhcZqeKu
I try again.711Please respect copyright.PENANAImjUJnDAV6
No answer.711Please respect copyright.PENANAGP9hWDlBQy
I frantically pull at my hair, curling into a ball. I shut my eyes but a few lone tears escape. I shake my head, trying to pull myself out of my despair and trying, somehow, to pull myself together. I'm falling apart, breaking down.711Please respect copyright.PENANAC7Pb61qSmw
I can't. I must stay strong.711Please respect copyright.PENANA8NwD16N4RC
My tears come faster.711Please respect copyright.PENANADScTbKkohv
Keep it together, Lucy. Keep it together.711Please respect copyright.PENANAgQrHasm988
"Ahh!" I scream, pushing myself back. I lose my balance and fall off my bed, crashing to the floor. I cover my face with my hands, shaking, sobbing.711Please respect copyright.PENANAUWL8TbqtAj
"Ray!" I cry out. Please…711Please respect copyright.PENANAuvDZOnkQNm
My hands fall to my sides, my hair a knotted mess. I stare silently at the ceiling.711Please respect copyright.PENANAFWswLezjrr
Is it really that high?711Please respect copyright.PENANAvw2VYsJ8Ew
I curl up on my side, staring into the black nothingness under my bed.711Please respect copyright.PENANAX290Bery5E
I must move… I need to move.711Please respect copyright.PENANA8WpILW5KNv
I eye the door.711Please respect copyright.PENANAVCrE84ctYb
I will myself to sit up.711Please respect copyright.PENANAROroW9JcjI
My room turns upside down and goes blurry, my vision faltering. I still and wait for the dizziness to pass.711Please respect copyright.PENANAPfyr0rZkk8
I blink once – twice- and then sit on my knees.711Please respect copyright.PENANAJJPtzgpzee
I focus on the door.711Please respect copyright.PENANAIoThIqw1cq
I crawl forward.711Please respect copyright.PENANADAiIdHRsus
I need to get there.711Please respect copyright.PENANAoYCahk34q8
I slowly try to stand up. I advance, pushing one leg forward and then the other, and repeat.711Please respect copyright.PENANA56g2nDxXDx
My legs are wobbly, broken.711Please respect copyright.PENANAmCyaaCcmyd
Just a few more feet…711Please respect copyright.PENANAIzfJQinyZF
I reach out my hand and take another step-711Please respect copyright.PENANAhTZ3JAgTmc
and collapse to the ground.711Please respect copyright.PENANAA3GjNzccFf
"No…" I try to stand again, but I can't get up.711Please respect copyright.PENANAgTwyhFTLu3
I grab at my bed sheet, trying to pull myself up. I feel around, grabbing at anything I possibly can. I grasp closer to my blanket and freeze as I touch something cold. Sharp.711Please respect copyright.PENANAk5rS5NbKp1
I suck in a breath.711Please respect copyright.PENANAjhZmxEXspU
A chill of excitement and fear shoots up my arm, down my spine and spreads through my body.711Please respect copyright.PENANAWNp4cqZUIr
I bring the blade closer to me, another thrill flowing inside me.711Please respect copyright.PENANA2GFmzkQt3U
Just once.711Please respect copyright.PENANAxFyMOP7iiO
"Promise me."711Please respect copyright.PENANAXmqp0ARDX3
"I promise, Ray."711Please respect copyright.PENANAJXVqI8eR72
No, I can't. I promised him.711Please respect copyright.PENANApl2vCdY4oQ
But it'll feel so good…711Please respect copyright.PENANAep2uI2yq4k
I study the blade, turning it around in my hands.711Please respect copyright.PENANAcBQXWpN2fK
It'll be quick. Just one cut.711Please respect copyright.PENANAhOaJpEdMWg
It'll heal quickly, faster than normally.711Please respect copyright.PENANA442WED6hhi
Now's your chance, Ray… I look at the door, waiting for him to walk through and stop me.711Please respect copyright.PENANAlJieUcvcjm
Anytime, now…711Please respect copyright.PENANAyssmGVmdup
My vision blurs. I feel drops on my skin.711Please respect copyright.PENANAwYHylVkjBA
Is it raining?711Please respect copyright.PENANA21Yr3DvIvL
No, that’s impossible.711Please respect copyright.PENANAPUgMRvlTny
I can't see.711Please respect copyright.PENANAkGFS8XX0Fw
I try to take breath but I choke up, a heavy weight sitting on my chest. A rock is stuck in my throat.711Please respect copyright.PENANAUKcEEwqqZM
I can't breathe.711Please respect copyright.PENANAp4ZzZq2qLC
I thrash around, clawing at my throat. I make a gurgling sound, trying to swallow.711Please respect copyright.PENANAcxjEV54nEc
What's poking my leg…?711Please respect copyright.PENANAyJPH7kcKo9
I look down, choking on air, and spot the blade.711Please respect copyright.PENANAQhQOJrlJ8n
How did it get there?711Please respect copyright.PENANAPQxH0maRcE
I take it and hold it closely to myself.711Please respect copyright.PENANA1QtsPgmIO0
How can something so evil look so beautiful?711Please respect copyright.PENANAxAImcyqo6o
I bring it down to my wrist and shiver.711Please respect copyright.PENANAatyWoTfAZZ
So cold.711Please respect copyright.PENANADzj17Nsl9u
I press down and drive it across my skin.711Please respect copyright.PENANAkdFs6eELr5
I let out a shaky breath that I didn't know I was holding. My blood drips warm and red down my arm.711Please respect copyright.PENANAspD45vfvaJ
I take another breath.711Please respect copyright.PENANAZXxV3muJ8G
Another.711Please respect copyright.PENANA61UYHZL4ut
My breathing comes harder, faster.711Please respect copyright.PENANA2Dfti9XO05
I slide the blade and cut again, slicing more of my skin. I gasp, my arm stinging. A groan escapes my lips as the pain takes its place, the sick pleasure mixing in.711Please respect copyright.PENANANpwITYZ5kK
I lean back, resting my head against my bed.711Please respect copyright.PENANAthFpOo0Ibl
I shut my eyes tightly.711Please respect copyright.PENANAdzs5rZR3yn
I should not have done that.