I felt bad for sending that. Maybe I should've waited longer. Maybe I shouldn't have replied. I'm going to lose the last person in my life that I can trust just because I was in a bad mood. It always feels like that- doesn't it?
I curled up into a tight ball, giving no access to my face if someone were to come in, attacking or not. I didn't want to be seen this way. My phone dung. Dammit, Bad. Why is he so quick to respond? Why do I second guess myself when I respond, when Bad doesn't care?
I uncurled myself, picking up my phone and barely glancing at the message on the screen. The whole thing didn't fit, so I unlocked it.
BBH
>Honestly, I don't really think about it. I just know when I know. Can't exactly explain it. Sometimes it's a bit sad... but it's not too hard to deal with. Unless... well, never mind.
What. You know, there's no understanding Bad. He's complicated. I just stared at the message, not knowing how to respond. I just shut my phone off, and got up to go get something to drink. Might as well do something with my time.
I just hung around until my phone dung again, and picked it up mindlessly. I didn't even look at the notification on the screen, and ended up on Pinterest. Of all places. Wow. I scrolled forever through loads of quotes, tags, and others. I didn't even care about what I got through. Fanart, links to fanfiction, other things that didn't fit my mood. Suddenly, something caught my eye.
"Sometimes our light goes out, but is blown again into instant flame by an encounter with another human being." -Albert Schweitzer210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQeTHCprvj3
What was I thinking about that? It lifted me a bit, but I shook my head and forgot about it, continuing to browse in pure boredom. I scrolled for another few hours... yes, I'm lost. I don't know what else to do. Lay in bed and cry? Get up and go on a walk? No. That's not even something I'm in the mood for. At another point, I stopped scrolling.
"Your sadness is a gift. Don't reject it. Don't rush it. Live it fully and use it as fuel to change and grow." -Maxime Lagace210Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzA4UEnX1xb
I sighed and pulled down my notification bar. It was Karl. Why would he be texting me so early? He doesn't even get up until later on. I opened the message, closing my eyes and taking a deep breath.
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