A few days have passed since my being announced a delta. I am beginning to figure out my way around the pack house, not without an escort still, but that is fine. The three brothers have left me alone since my first day here. My heat is over now, but I doubt they will be bothering me any time soon. Kayden has not said much to me the last few days either. Jayce has tampered down, and Leviathan has grown more kind. He does not scare me as much anymore. Unless he uses his alpha tone, that still frightens me. I have not had any other strange dreams since I was told I was a reincarnate of the mother. Which in a way makes me kind of like a princess? I mean there are clans or packs that worship the mother along with the gods.
As I relax in bed tossing a ball in the air and catching it, I think of what I should do for the day. There is not much to do since I am still not a full member of the pack. I have met a few new people, but I keep my distance from most of them. The brothers have been super busy with things happening among pack members. Stuff I am not able to be included in. So, they have other pack members, usually deltas, watch me. They each take their turns. It is never the same one two days in a row. That is why I do not even bother with formalities.
“Asena? Are you in there? I brought your breakfast.” A semi-familiar voice calls from outside the door.
“Yeah. Bring it in and set it on the table. I will eat in a little bit.” I reply.
The door opens revealing a young male, close to my age. Luka. I smile sweetly as I see the blond bringing the tray of food to the bedside table. I stop throwing the ball and sit up in bed. He sets the tray down and turns away. I grab his hand to stop him.
“Asena? What is it?” Luka asks.
“Um, well… can you keep me company for a while? I have not had a decent conversation for a couple days and could really use one, but if you do not want to, I understand.” I admit.
“I am not much of a talker, young lady. However, I think I can spare a few minutes.” The blond says.
“I am just feeling a little lonely, I guess. Usually, I have one of the brothers to talk to, but they have been so busy with whatever is going on. I just want some time with someone, but I am shy when it comes to talking to new people. I know we have not talked much at all, before, but you seem like a kind enough wolf to chat with.” I mumble.
“I can only spare a few minutes. I have other work to do, I am afraid. However, if it will make you happy… as long as it’s not all babbles.” He states.
“Right. Tell me a little about yourself. What do you like? Do you read?” I ask.
“I do enjoy reading. I spend most of my time in the library when I am not out hunting. I may be lanky, but I am a strong wolf either way. I was a bit surprised you did not have to fight me at your rank challenge. I am one of the best fighters. Kind of like you. Now, what kinds of things does a pretty little lady like to do?” He asks.
“Uh, well… I do not actually know. I do not have many friends, so going out is not really an option. I am usually stuck here suffering in pure boredom. There is not much I can do really, anyway. I am bound to an escort. I cannot do anything on my own.” I sigh loudly.
He lifts my chin having me look at him. Violet, his eyes are violet. “Well, I can be your friend, but I am usually busy in the library. You know, organizing books and stuff.”
“Everyone is busy. I wish I could be involved. You know, do something other than sit in my room.” I say to him.
“I wish I could help, but we all have our duties to perform. Since you are not a member yet, you do not. I understand it can be boring, especially since you must have someone with you all the time. You just need to prove that you can be trusted. Then soon enough you will be able to wonder the grounds by yourself.” He explains.
I sigh, “Yeah, yeah. How can I prove I can be trusted if they do not have anything for me to do? I mean would it not prove something if they were to leave my room unguarded? Or maybe even have me do some work around here. I am starting to feel more and more like a prisoner, rather than a guest-like person.”
“They have their reasons as to why, I am sure. Right now, they are working on the moon festival. Did you not celebrate it in your old pack?” he asks me.
“No. We were told it was a waste of time. There was no point in it. Some wolves still tried to but got into trouble for it. That is what happens when you are raised in a severely strict environment. We still had others around all the time to talk to. Right now, I am feeling so lonesome, and avoided. Like no one likes me or wants to be around me.” I state.
This time he sighs, “I wish I could help you, but I have to get going. I have work to do. I just wanted to make sure you got breakfast. You should probably eat it before it gets cold. You might need the strength later.”
“Right… I will be stuck here by myself again tonight. I guess I will talk with you later then.” I say sadly.
“Sorry.” He says, walking out of my room.
I look at the tray of food, and my stomach growls, but I do not feel like eating. Instead, I stand and walk to the window, and look. I see decorations and busy wolves roaming about trying to get everything ready. I feel a pang in my chest, wanting to join them. I do miss belonging to a pack. It is my own fault though. I chose to leave mine behind. Maybe I should allow Leviathan to have me. Maybe then he will trust me. Though I am not too keen on the thought. Then again, there is Jayce, who has been after me since I got here, but he is such a womanizer. There is also Kayden, who seems very distant now. They said one of the three would be my first. Honestly, I think they are all too much for me. I do not know why they seem so confident that I will fall for them. I do not think I could choose one if I had to. Though, the one that has been most kind, is the one that has not spoken with me much at all lately. Not since he kissed me. I groan. Why are men so complicated? Or maybe they are just so simple they seem complicated. What I know, is if they try to take me now, I am not sure I can resist them. Each one has their own thing about them that is attractive. As far as Luka goes, he seems kind and sweet, but I doubt he is the one for me. I have been trying to figure out that dream… me a reincarnate of the mother? Having to find my true mate? Where do I even start? How will I know? Do I have to have sex to figure it out? Looking in their eyes, is not enough. Simply touching them, is not enough. How am I supposed to figure it out? She did not say I could not have relations… she just said I need to search for the right one. I suppose, if Leviathan wanted to court me, I would allow it. Same with Jayce and Kayden. I like them, but also hate them. Is that normal? I know! I will go on a date with each of them, to get to know them. Oh, but which one first? Probably should let Leviathan take me first… he is the alpha and the reason I am still alive… but who after that? Jayce or Kayden? Jayce will probably be the next one, because Kayden is not talking to me really. Maybe I will just forget about Kayden then. He seems to have forgotten about me. That jerk. I was really starting to like him a lot too. He was so kind to me at first. Now he is just a… a… I don’t know. I sigh.
I run to the closet, “Let me see if I have anything cute to wear.” I say to myself as I rummage through the clothes. I come across a short black dress that looks like it is made of leather. “This could work.” I also find some thigh high fishnets and knee-high platform boots, also made of leather, and then I spot some leather gloves and a choker. I run to the bathroom and take a quick shower, shave, and wash my hair, before getting out. I dry myself and get dressed in the clothes I found. I look in the mirror and a huge grin forms on my thin lips. My caramel-colored skin glimmers against the black leather dress. My obsidian hair flows down mid-back. My emerald eyes shine like stars in the night sky. I have never realized how beautiful I actually am. I turn from one side to the other checking the form of the dress against my skin. I look like perfection. A knock interrupts my glory moment.
“Yes? Who is it?” I ask, but there is no answer. How strange. I think to myself before walking out of the bathroom and to the door. I open it and there is no one. How very strange. I know I heard someone knocking. I shrug and sit down. Then I notice that the trey I had by the bed is gone and replaced by a new one. This time, I decide to eat. Roast beef and mashed potatoes are one of my favorite dishes. Once finished, I take the trey and set it outside my door. Not sure what else to do, I walk back to the window. My eyes fall on the three brothers and how busy they all look. I want to yell to them, but at the same time, I don’t want to interrupt them. They are organizing the festivities after all. I lean my head on my left hand and watch them. A sudden urge comes over me. Something I have never felt before. I wanted them, and I wanted them in a bad way. I did not care who I had first, but I wanted them all. The wolf within me stirs wildly wanting to jump on them, wanting to get their attention. She wanted their attention on her and her alone, well me. We are the same after all.
Suddenly my eyes and Leviathans eyes lock, and my female parts get damp. As if knowing exactly that, his mouth forms a grin and I turn and drop to the floor in embarrassment. I know what it means also, but I am not sure that I am truly ready for it to happen. However, it was already too late. He knew that I wanted him. He knew that my body was craving his attention, or any attention at that. I just knew that he would be showing up at my room as soon as he could get away, to take me, and I would not be able to stop him. Not this time for sure. I never had to try before, he stopped on his own. The thought of his body on mine makes me lick my lips and moan a little. Realizing what I just did, I get even more embarrassed and turned on. I have never had thoughts like that before.
“Do not be embarrassed, mon chèrie. It is but natural.” An unknown voice enters my mind.
“Who are you?” I respond but receive no answer. Wondering who it might be. I think of all the wolves I have spoken with to try to match the voice, but no one fits. Not one of them talks like that. Who could this stranger be? How can they contact me? I stand and pace the room thinking of who this stranger could possibly be and how they would know me, when suddenly the door to my room flies open and a slender yet muscular male comes inside. His grin is full of dark intent, his hair red like fire, his eyes stone cold silver, and olive skin. He lets out a low throaty growl.
I gasp unsure of what to do, when he grabs me by the waist and throws me onto the bed. His hands move up my thighs to my underwear and he starts to pull them down. I squirm to try to get away from him, but this seems to only encourage him. He tears my underwear off me because they would not go over the boots. Then his left hand pulls my arms over my head holding them tightly. Leaning down he takes a big whiff of the air and moans, enjoying the smell. Frightened, I try to escape his clutches. He begins moving my skirt up with his other hand when my door bursts open again revealing none other than Leviathan himself. Leviathan shifts into his wolf form and lets out an extremely deep growl. This seems to work as the other male releases me and drops down to the floor as if apologizing. Then runs out like his tail is between his legs. I get up from the bed and run over to the alpha and wrap my arms around him as much as I can.
“I tried to get away. He was overpowering me. I am so sorry. I didn’t want him.” I say trying not to cry.
Leviathan shifts back to human and wraps his arms around my waist, “He is gone now. No need to worry. You really should start locking your door though. Especially if you are getting aroused. I could smell it outside when you were looking at me. Although it was faint. I have to ask though, what got you so aroused anyway?”
“I don’t actually know. It was rather random and sudden. I just got a sudden urge to be with you three boys. As weird as that sounds. I wanted to set up dates with each of you and then suddenly I wanted to be in proximity of you guys. I WANTED the three of you. When our eyes locked, it just… got intense.” I explain, embarrassed.
He lifts an eyebrow at me, “All three of us? Like at the same time? That would be awkward. They are my brothers.”
“Not at the same time. It was like I wanted one of you three but didn’t care which one I got. Then you looked at me. That was it for me. My mind started to wonder, and it got worse. Sorry.” I say to the alpha.
He lifts my chin and kisses me deeply. I pull him closer to me, wanting his body touching mine. He breaks the kiss and pulls away standing and locking the door. He then lifts me and carries me to the bed setting me down gently. He kisses me again and his hand rubs my thigh caressing it. He moves one of his legs in between mine causing me to shift my legs open.
He stops the kiss, “Are you sure you want this? You won’t be able to take it back once it happens.”
“Shut up and just do it. It is obvious this is what my body wants. I owe it to you.” I state.
He grins with pleasure and bites my neck causing me to moan. He sucks on the spot he bit, making it extra sensitive when his tongue flicks over it. He climbs on the bed fully and pushes my skirt up and uses his fingers to rub my throbbing vaginal region. Another moan escapes my lips. He begins to thrust his fingers in and out still using his thumb to rub my clit.
“Oh, Asena, you are so beautiful.” He whispers in my ear. “Don’t hold back.”
I blush a deep crimson. He smiles and kisses my forehead then my lips, still stoking me. My legs begin twitching, and my breathing becomes shallow. This seems to please him. He releases a low growl, but not a mean one. More like a sexy growl, and my body releases some liquids, which embarrasses me.
“Don’t be embarrassed, my dear Asena. That is a good sign. It means I am doing my job.” He says, which makes me feel less embarrassed.
He shifts his body and moves my legs up onto his shoulders. He slowly enters my body as to not hurt me. Slowly thrusting at first, but soon speeds up and thrusts harder. I have never felt so much before. I was in heaven. After a long while, he thrusts deep a few times and I feel his essence enter inside me. He waits for a couple minutes before pulling out and collapsing beside me. We are both panting trying to catch our breath. Neither of us say anything for a while. We just lay there, close to each other.
I take a deep breath. “Can you tell me something?”
“Depends on what.” He responds.
“Why does Kayden hate me? What did I do to him to make him not talk to me?” I ask him.
“That’s two somethings.” He chuckles but then gets serious. “Unfortunately, it is not my place to say. Do I know what happened? Kind of. He is very mistrusting. He will tell you when the time is right. I do not think he hates you though. Do you like him?”
“Huh? Like him? Like him how? I mean sure he was nice to me from the beginning. Then he kissed me and said there was nothing there and hasn’t really talked to me since. So, in terms of liking him, I would say I thought he was my first friend. My only friend. Now there really is nothing. He does not even say hi to me. He just gives me the cold shoulder like I did something wrong, and I do not know what that is.” I sigh.
“You do like him. You wouldn’t worry so much about it if you didn’t. Damn, here I thought I might be able to steal the girl from him. I’m sure I will find someone.” He states.
“I have not chosen anyone. I like all of you. You saved me. I hated my life in my old pack. I like it here, except the fact that I can’t really get out to make friends. You don’t seem to trust me yet.” I mutter.
“We are being cautious. That is all. You came from a different pack. We want to be sure you aren’t a spy with ulterior motives.” He explains.
“If I were a spy, why would I worry about how any of you thought of me? You scared the hell out of me when we first met, and still do. You are an alpha though. A rather strong alpha at that. I wouldn’t want to cross paths with you if I were an enemy.” I state.
He laughs at that, “Don’t be afraid of me. I only use my alpha tone when I need to. Usually, I am a decent guy. You can ask anyone in the pack. I do not misuse my power or abuse it. I use it for defending my pack, protecting my family.”
“I’ve come to realize this about you. However, you still scare the hell out of me regardless. I am a lower rank than you. It’s to be expected.” I say to him.
“Fair enough. When it’s just us, though, I’m just Leviathan. No need for alpha/delta relationship when it’s you and me. Unless of course it is for your duties, like hunting and such.” He says to me.
“I think it’s time you and Kayden have a little chat. He needs to man up and deal with it. He only listens to me, and usually if it’s something like this, I end up having to use my alpha ability.” He sighs.
“Don’t push him. If he doesn’t want to talk to me, then I will just have to deal with it. I will show him how much of a woman I can be. By the way, you know I held back during my ranking challenge, don’t you?” I ask, knowingly.
“Yes, I figured you had your reasons. I bet you could have taken Jayce down though. He is a good fighter, but you have talent in fighting. You are quick, flexible, and can think fast. I was thoroughly impressed with your ability for being a smaller wolf. We should have a private match some time. No stakes obviously.” He smirks.
“I may have been able to take Jayce down, but I doubt I could take you down. Maybe someday we can try it. Once I’m a little more skilled.” I smile slightly.
“There, that’s the pretty smile I was waiting for. Sadly though, I have duties to perform. Jayce will probably come up here and chide you for me being your first and not him. He will be able to smell you on me, well, they all will. That’s just the thing with sex though. Your scents mingle.” He stretches before getting out of my bed and getting dressed. He smirks again and waves at me before leaving.
I sigh. Alone again. Why does everyone have to be so busy? I stand up and straighten out my dress that Leviathan had pushed up and wrinkled. I smell like him. At least it’s not a bad smell. It honestly smells rather good. I walk to the bathroom and brush my messed-up hair. I hear the door slam against the wall causing me to jump. I walk out and see a rather pissed off Jayce.
“Asena, how could you let HIM have you first? I tried and tried to get your attention and he did nothing, yet you sleep with him first? How is that even fair?” Jayce asks steaming.
“Jayce, he got it first because he got here first. If you would have come here first it would have been you. Simple as that. I have been feeling extremely lonely lately and my body seems to want sex, I guess. He just happened to show up first.” I explain.
“So, I still have a chance with you?” He inquires.
“As long as you stop storming into my room all crazed. I am a woman. I need my privacy too.” I state. “Besides, I like you all. I can’t choose just one of you right now. Not until I know for sure what my heart wants.”
“So, you are just going to have all three of us? Like for real? I can role with it. I don’t know how the others will react, well… Kayden…” Jayce says.
“How does his opinion matter. He won’t even talk to me. So, if I choose to sleep with you and Leviathan, and it pisses him off even more it’s not like I will be missing anything. I am tired of being in the dark with him. If he can’t man up and talk to me then maybe its best, he doesn’t come near me, ever.” I retort.
“You don’t actually mean that. You said you liked all three of us. If that’s the case, it really bothers you that he isn’t talking to you. Let me take your mind off him. You can focus on me for a while.” Jayce teases.
“You’d like that wouldn’t you.” I tease back.
“You know I would. I’d gladly take you anytime, anywhere.” He grins.
“I bet you say that to all the girls. Is that one of your favorite lines?” I accuse.
“Hey now, you are the one that said you would have had me if I’d have gotten here first. So, why not make good on that and let’s have some fun. I’d like to know how I rank in comparison to the alpha.” Jayce wriggles his eyebrows.
I giggle at that, “You are so weird. Taking the girl your brother just had. Just to see how you compare in, sex? That is seriously weird.”
“Says the girl who wants to have sex with all three of us.” Jayce states.
“Yeah, that’s just as weird I suppose.” I say, pondering. “It’s more along the lines of my body wants you guys. My mind is saying I’m crazy.”
“Listen to your body. It knows what it wants. Your mind can be pushed aside… for a little while longer.” Jayce states confidently. “You know you want it. You want to feel me inside you. You want to know what it’s like with the Jay-man.”
“The Jay-man? Really?” I ask confused at the name.
“Now, now. Don’t judge.” He approaches me and tucks my hair behind my ear. “The beauty needs me to show her the best time.”
“You’re hopeless.” I giggle. “Alright. Show me a good time, but first you have to set the mood.”
“Hmm, I can do that, easy.” He leans down and kisses me, sweetly. He kisses along my jaw to my ear and nibbles causing a slight moan. Then he travels down my neck kissing and nipping. My breathing hitches. He is good. I think to myself. his hands travel down my sides and to my butt, which he grabs lifting me off the floor. I wrap my legs around him for additional support. This causes him to let out a low growl-like moan, which causes me to get moist between my legs. Damn he is really good at this. He carries me to my bed setting me down gently on top of him. He unzips my dress pulling it down revealing my breasts. He takes one in his mouth, sucking and nibbling on the nipple, while his hand fondles the other. He removes his shirt showing a very toned chest and abdomen. His eyes are like golden honey. I run my hands through his lighter brown hair. He puts me on my back removing the dress fully before taking the rest of his garments off, revealing an erection. I lick my lips.
“Like what you see?” he asks slyly.
“I’d like it better if it were closer, maybe inside?” I say smirking.
He takes the invitation and struts back over to me. He wraps my legs around his chiseled hips lifting my bottom half off the bed slightly, and slowly enters me. Pulling out and re-entering a few times before he begins thrusting normally. He leans down and suckles my breast once again still thrusting. I moan and my breathing becomes shallow. Each thrust rocks the bed. He thrusts deep as he empties his essence into me. He groans and does a couple more thrusts before pulling out and laying next to me, and wraps his arms around my waist, cuddling close. He sighs contently.
“Well, you got what you wanted. I’m sure you are used to that though. I mean as good as it was…” I say shyly.
“I’m not always that good. It helps when I get good reactions, or my partner is as good looking as you.” He says honestly.
“So, how old are all you guys? I was never told. You all know my age.” I wonder.
“Leviathan is 21, Kayden is 20, and I’m 19. That’s why Kayden is first beta. He’s the older of us two. He seems to think it’s because he is more serious than me and does a better job. Which I admit, I cannot beat Kayden in battle and I’m not as good as he is, but it’s because he is older that he has the first beta position.” Jayce explains.
“I see. So, you all are older than me. That’s why you know more about things.” I say sadly.
“Not true. We know more, because we were forced to grow up quicker, and we weren’t sheltered like you were. You will find out something interesting about Kayden’s past when he actually opens up.” Jayce says to me.
“If he ever opens up to me. I swear that man hates me.” I mumble.
“He… hmm… I wish I could tell you, but…” Jayce is cut off.
“It’s not your place. So, everyone keeps telling me.” I finish Jayce’s sentence.
“If you want to get him in bed with you, piss him off. It’s a turn on for him, much like it is for many of us male wolves. Aggression is sexy.” Jayce smirks.
“You guys are seriously weird. Though, I wonder if it would do the same for me…” I ponder.
He clears his throat, “IF that were true, that would be some steamy sex.”
“Oh my god… Really Jayce? Is that literally all you think about?” I ask seriously.
“Not the only thing, but it is about 90% of the time. I’m in my prime, what can I say.” Jayce smiles.
“Really Jayce, you need to be more selective on who you sleep with.” I state.
“When you start following your own advice, I might consider it. Miss ‘I want to sleep with the three brothers.’” He lifts an eyebrow at me.
“It’s not like I’m sleeping with the whole pack. In fact, just because I slept with you and Leviathan doesn’t mean I will do it again. I don’t know what I want right now except for the fact that I want some attention and if the only way I get it is to sleep with you guys, then that’s what I will do. As low as that is, I hate being by myself and you guys have been so busy that I haven’t had much contact with anyone since I can’t leave without an escort and I don’t know anyone aside from you three, Jezzabelle, and Luka.” I say defensively. “Though, I know little about all of you. I just know the names with the faces really. No one has really been open with me. You guys are closed tighter than a brick wall.”
“We all have a past we aren’t proud of, little lady. We trusted before and were stabbed in the back. Each one of us. Kayden more than Levi and me. He was cut deep by someone once upon a time. Shit… I said to much. He’s going to kill me.” Jayce shakes his head.
“No, he won’t. I won’t say anything to him about what you said to me. I want him to tell me himself why he seems to dislike and distrust me. I’d like to know.” I say with new determination.
My bedroom door opens, and Jayce jumps up and starts getting dressed. I just cover up with my blankets. Then in comes Kayden the one I have been wanting to see but also dreading to see. Knowing that he will hate me even more, knowing I slept with his brothers.
“Seriously? You couldn’t be happy with just one? You had to get my younger brother too?” Kayden says in a demeaning way.
“Chill out man, I’ve wanted to have my time with her since I met her. You should know that I don’t like leaving a woman alone.” Jayce defends.
“You know what, it doesn’t matter what he thinks of me. He has a right to hate me or treat me with resentment. I don’t know what I did to him, but obviously it was bad. So, if you guys don’t mind… could you leave now?” I say eyes watering and tears begin falling.
“Look what you did Kayden. Now she’s crying. All because your ass doesn’t want to tell her! If you don’t do it soon, I will. I am tired of her feeling like you hate her when…” Jayce starts.
“Enough, Jayce.” Kayden says interrupting Jayce’s rant.
“No, you need to talk to her. Without being a jerk about it.” Jayce yells, “Learn how to treat a nice woman.”
I have had enough. I shift to wolf and run out the door. I’m not sure where I am heading but I can’t stand those two fighting. I run out of the house, through the courtyard and past the valley to a small lake. Unsure if I am still in their territory or not, I take caution, while I lay by the river. I listen for any noises and sniff the air for any scents. After a few minutes pass I catch the scent of Kayden. I fight the urge to run, instead I wait patiently for him to arrive. Once he reaches me, he growls a deep growl. I stand and lower my head and growl back. He takes a step closer, and I step back. Both still growling he gets ready to jump on me, that’s when I look away and stop growling. I didn’t want to fight him. I decide to do something that is not generally done. I walk up to him lick his cheek and put my head against his chest. This seems to surprise him, and he shifts into human form.
“What the hell do you think you are doing?” He asks me.
I whimper and step back before shifting, “I was trying to apologize. I don’t have the ability to mind link since I am not in a pack. I didn’t like you two arguing. I couldn’t take it. All I want is some sort of explanation as to why you hate me. What did I do? Aside from sleeping with your brothers. I’m sure you are even more pissed at me for that. When, honestly, the only reason I did it was because I have been extremely lonesome and wanting attention. That was the only way I could think of to get any sort of attention. You guys were all so busy. I just wanted some attention.”
“I don’t necessarily hate you. I’m just not sure how to feel about you. I am not ready to tell you the whole story. I have been keeping my distance for a reason. It’s a personal protection. I don’t want to get close to you. I don’t know if I can even consider you a friend at this point. I need to sort things out.” Kayden says to me.
“Fine. Take me back to the packhouse. Leviathan will be pissed that I ran out, and he will never trust me. Heh, I should be used to that though. No one trusts a rogue. You never know when they might bite back.” I say shifting again. And walking the direction I came from. I think.
He comes up to me in his wolf form with a look of contemplation on his face. I look away from him. We continue walking slowly, but my anger builds. My instincts tell me to run away, but my mind says stay. I fall back slightly as he is a higher rank than I am. We reach the packhouse and head straight to my room, where he walks in with me, shifts, and locks the door behind us.
“Shift. Now.” He demands.
I do what he says. “Yes sir.”
“What is with the sir?” he asks confused.
“You said you aren’t my friend so it’s only proper to call you sir since you are higher rank than me. I refuse to use your name. You are a stubborn ass hole, but at least I know a little respect.” I spit out my words.
“Hey. I am not an ass hole. I have my reasons.” He says to me.
“Oh, did I hit a soft spot? You are an ass. You basically called me a tramp. Just because I wanted to feel something other than loneliness. You find me laying down at the river and approach growling at me as if I’m a kid that’s misbehaving. I wasn’t running from you. I was going to come back willingly. You kiss me and then proceed to not speak to me for several days. How is that not being an ass?” I ask harshly.
“You think it’s easy for me to have to babysit you when Jayce isn’t here? That’s not my job. I have more important things to worry about than a damn rogue.”
That one stung. “Then why do you do it?”
“Because it’s what the alpha wanted.” He speaks returning the harshness. “Why do you have to be so damn pushy?”
“You are the one who told me to get to know myself. I’m not being pushy. If you want me to, I can be. I haven’t been pressing you about why you haven’t talked to me. I gave you space. You make me so irritated, that I don’t even know why I was worried about it in the first place, and I thought I might have liked you a little more than the other two. Now you are just being a royal dick. How can you go from being so kind to me and treating me well, to hating me so much within a day? What the hell did I ever do to you that would make that happen? I have been nothing but respectful and behaved. I did what I was told without question. I followed the rules. I didn’t even talk much about anything that would put you in danger from the alpha.” I yell.
That was the trigger. He waltzes up to me kissing me hard and pushes me down on the bed roughly. He then climbs on top of me and shoves his cock inside me rather hard. I whimper slightly before pleasure kicks in. He grabs my hands and yanks them over my head. His amber eyes cold as ice, causes me to ache for him. He thrusts hard and fast, not giving me much time to catch my shaky breath. This pain and pleasure, the roughness, I kind of like it. As quickly as it started, it ends as he empties his cum inside me, thrusting a couple more times and pulling out.
“Happy now? You got what you wanted. All three of us in one day.” He hisses.
I look away from him, “I didn’t want it like this. I didn’t want to piss you off. You can go now. I know how you feel. You don’t have to explain anything more. You don’t want anything to do with me. So, go. Please.”
“I’m not leaving you. I obviously can’t trust you to be by yourself for any amount of time. You ran off. You may have stopped not far away, and still in our territory, but you obviously won’t ever be able to be trusted.” He rages.
“I ran because you and Jayce were fighting. I had no intentions of leaving here. That is why I stopped where I did. I don’t like you two fighting. Especially if it is my fault. Maybe it would have been better for everyone if Leviathan killed me that night.” I say saddened by the thought.
“Don’t say shit like that. He saved you for a reason. Just like I have my reasons for not telling you the story just yet.” His tone has calmed some.
“It doesn’t matter. You will never want anything more to do with me. Please just leave my room. I don’t care if you are just outside. I can’t look at you right now. Maybe we can talk another day.”
“Why do you have to be so damn cute. If it were anyone else, I’d be able to stay away. I had to fight myself to keep my distance away from you. I’m sorry I was rough with you. I was pissed.” He turns my head to face him, and he wipes away the tears I didn’t know had fallen.
“I’m sorry. I was just as pissed off, to be honest, and hurt by the fact that the one person I thought was my friend, hated me. Still think that.” I close my eyes and take a deep breath. He smells amazing.
“I don’t hate you. I could never hate you, no matter how many times you hurt me.” He says, getting off me and sitting on the edge of the bed.
“Hurt you? How did I hurt you? I don’t remember saying or doing anything since I was brought here.” I state, confused.
“We have met before. When we were kids. You were five, I think. That girl I said I was promised to be mated to… she wasn’t actually killed by rogues… she was told she was to marry the alpha of her pack. So, I ran. I was hurt by it. I was hurt deeply. That girl was you. When we were kids, we promised each other we’d be together forever. Then they announced that you were to marry another… I just couldn’t bear that. So, I left, came back here. I was spying for the alpha at the time. He said there was suspicious activities going on. However, what I found, there were no laws against. So, we couldn’t do anything about it. When you told me that story, I had suspicions that you were her, but you seemed completely oblivious to me. You didn’t even remember me. That hurt worse than finding out who you were.” He explains.
“This whole time I was hurting you, and I didn’t even realize it. I am so sorry. I wish I would have known. But I was five and still very impressionable. I was probably sent into training shortly thereafter so I couldn’t do much thinking about you or the situation. I feel so bad.” I say hurt.
“Yeah well, you got what you wanted. You had all three of us and you found out why I have been avoiding you. Though, I still don’t understand why you had to have all three of us. I mean, what’s wrong with you?” Kayden asks, suspiciously.
“To be honest, I didn’t need all three of you. It just happened that way. In one day of all things. I just wanted a little attention, like I said earlier. I originally was going to go on a date with each one of you individually to get to know you all better, but my body apparently had other plans.” I say honestly.
“Well, I guess if it was your first time today, then your body would want more, but us three? Really? We are brothers. Sharing a woman is just… weird and unnatural.” He states.
“True, but I don’t intend to be shared by the three of you. It was an interesting experience, but I won’t be having sex with any of you for… a while. I need to figure out what I want, or rather, who I want… no that’s not accurate either. I need to find my true mate. I wish I could be with whoever I wanted, but it doesn’t work that way. I don’t even know how to tell if someone is my true mate.” I sigh.
“That is also why I was keeping my distance. I… can’t bear to be let down again. I don’t want to fall for you, and you leave me again. I can’t handle that. I usually avoid women for that reason. I don’t want to be left in the dirt because someone better comes along.” He says sadly.
I sit up and wrap my arms around him from behind, “I am truly sorry I ever hurt you to begin with. I didn’t mean to. It wasn’t my choice to be with the alpha of that pack. I would have preferred you over him. When you leave this room, if you so choose to remain distant, at least I know why.”
“Asena,” the way he says my name sends a shiver down my back, “I don’t know that I can keep my distance from you anymore. I have already become attached to having you here, near me. I tried that route and we still ended up in bed. The one thing I was trying to avoid at all costs.”
“Kayden, it happened because I pissed you off. I know that because Jayce said that’s a trigger. I didn’t exactly intend to piss you off though. I just wanted an answer. Please forgive me.” I beg.
“Jayce needs to learn to keep his mouth shut, or I will permanently shut it for him.” He says, irritated.
“He means well, I’m sure. Are you going to leave now? Or can you stay with me a little longer? Maybe take a nap with me? I’m kind of worn out.” I say with a slight yawn.
“I would be surprised if you weren’t. You just had sex with three different people. In one day. Seriously, what is wrong with you? I mean I get we are all good looking but… all of us in one day?” he shakes his head. “I can lay down with you for a little while. At least until you fall asleep. I still have work to do. With the moon festival happening this weekend, it’s just busy.”
“I know. Something I won’t be able to attend. I will be stuck in here, while you all have fun. I am still technically a rogue. I haven’t been properly added into the pack. I am unsure if Leviathan will let me after what happened today… with me running off, because I was upset that you were fighting.” I lay back down in my bed and Kayden crawls over me and lays beside me. He pulls me close to him and kisses my forehead.
“Now get some sleep. You will be fine. Even if I’m not here when you wake up. Duty comes first, after all.” He says cuddling me. Soon enough, I drift off to sleep.