I had this story. I know you're expecting it to be love. But I guess it is. I don't even know what I am feeling at this moment. I am a fool. A coward. Running away constantly from these emotions. From these feelings.
The sun is scorching. I feel it piercing through my bones, leaving me drenched in sweat all day long. Ahh, another day at school. My name is Star Michaels. I'm the type of student who's neither too loud nor too quiet. I'm just a bit to the side where lurking in the public's shadows gives me comfort. However, I have a childhood friend who is located on the far end of the outgoing extremity. Very bright, shining, and helpful to people. Sometimes she overwhelms me.
We shared a lot of memories, and I tell you, she has the ugliest laugh you could imagine. But I think that's what draws people to her. She isn't the lady you imagine when you think of "lady". But hey, it's her quirk. The heavens have bestowed on us a blessing where our birthdays are the same. However, it's a pain in the ass when we celebrate it together. She always pushes a girl's party. Very inconsiderate, I tell you. But I really don't mind it that much. We're neighbors, so we hang around from home to school to home. It's been like that since, uh, forever. And now that we are senior high school students, I feel like we've been cursed to be inseparable. But cursed or not, I don't really mind.
The thing is, I am already living under a curse. The curse of denial, muteness, and fleeing is because I am denying my feelings for her, not telling how I truly feel, and running away cowardly from these feelings. I know it is redundant, but that is what I think I am now. I know my flaws, but sometimes I am just too afraid.
"Star, are you awake?" Someone has been shouting outside my window, tapping it endlessly like there's no tomorrow.
"What do you want, Luna?" I asked my neighbor, who was tapping the window as I opened it. My eyes are still heavy, but I feel the energy around this lady. I rubbed my eyes to see clearly, and I saw a dolled-up woman.
"I have great news!" she exclaimed.
"Oh, did you win a yearly supply of pastries?" I answered.
"Hmm, that will be great also," she said while holding her chin. "But that's not it. I'm going on a date today!" she said while smiling brightly. "You see, he confessed to me the other day and asked me out today!" she said while blushing. While I am here drowning in a deep abyss of mixed negativity, of course, I let out a poker face on this one.
"Oh wow! Is he some kind of a, a blind man?" I sarcastically answered. But seriously, the other day? I have never heard about this. And who the hell is he?
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"You're silly, Star. This is the moment of truth! My start of a romantic rose-colored youth!" she exclaimed as if a general was ready to charge in a cavalry battle. "And he'll love me, and we'll be very happy," she added with a gentle voice of assurance and contentment.
That voice struck me hard. Please don't. No, you can't. I don't know. I don't want you to.74Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3zmTeGbn99
These voices in my head and raging heart made my whole being chaotic.
But I don't want to ruin her day. So, my mouth is sealed away.
"So, how do I look?" she asked as she gently permed her hair. She wore a casual white dress that was strapped off-shoulder. It was gradient of pastel purple to white starting from the bottom. The dress is slightly above her knee, showing her slender legs. Her shoulders are showing off, revealing her silky milk skin. The white dress is perfect with her pitch-black hair.
In other words, perfectly enchanting. Beautiful and gorgeous. As always.
"Ahh, just go. Or you'll be late," I said as I let out a sighed and shoved her away. Then, as I looked at her, she was grinning.
"Heheheheeee, that sigh is the sigh of approval!" she said as she smiled widely, full of morale, and went out. I felt my ears warming. I should go back to sleep.
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After that morning, we haven't talked since. She hasn't visited me. There was no sign of a broom knocking either. I haven't gone to school together either. I felt uneasy.
"Ice cream." I suddenly had the urge to eat ice cream. So I decided to go to the convenience store. I realized I only ate chocolate ice cream with her. Whenever she's sad or has a failing grade, Also, if she's angry or can't go to the carnival, Sometimes I buy her food when she's short on her allowance. Well, she always buys ice cream; no wonder she'll get short. I can't believe a little ice cream could bring back so many memories. But now I've decided to support her rose-colored youth event. Even though it's hard.
I grabbed two ice creams without thinking. Paid up and exited the store. Yet suddenly, the rain poured. "Ehhh? It's raining? It's always like this. Every time I forget to bring my umbrella, it rains. If I do bring it, it doesn't." I mumbled with exhaustion and disbelief. "It's because you don't listen to the forecast," someone inserted in my mumbles. A familiar voice came from a person approaching with her umbrella. It was Luna.
"You never change, Star," she said while closing it. My heart suddenly flutters in excitement. I felt my ears warming. "Let's go home together. Wait for me; I'm running an errand.
After a little while, Luna went out of the store. She opened her umbrella and looked at me with a smile. "Let's go," she said. "Here's an ice cream. I'll hold the umbrella," I suggested as I grabbed the umbrella while giving her the extra ice cream. And then I looked at my path, straight ahead, without ever twisting my neck. She looked at me. I can see it in my peripheral view. I still haven't even given her a glance. I want to make it up. If I remember correctly, we had a fight. Was that even a fight? I don't know.
As we walk, silence covers the night. Not even the sound of the rain can be heard. I can only hear my troubled mind and heart screaming. Until she broke the silence. It was like thunder amidst some heavy rain as she uttered the words, "Star, I have a favor to ask." It wasn't the thought that I was afraid of being asked a favor, but what the favor was. It made my heart beat like continuous thunder bellowing in the sky. Calm yourself.
"Sure, anything you like," I said calmly while maintaining my poker face. I still don't look at her, and my head is still right up front. I hope it was concealed. It took her a moment to say it.
"Would you help me take pictures of the places we spent most of our time?" she shyly said. Most of our time? "With my boyfriend," she added. Her blushing face is visible on the rainy night.
I was stunned for a moment. Of course, it was not "our". It was their "our". My heart skipped a beat for a moment. That's reality, folks! I can't argue with that.
"Okay. I don't mind." are the words that came out of my mouth. I looked at her. She smiled at me and sighed in relief. I could see her eyes were sparkling and gleaming. It shone in the dark night.
"Thank you, Star!" she exclaimed. "Since it's the weekend tomorrow, let's meet at the bus stop at 9:00 a.m. sharp!" she added. "Yes, yes," I responded. "Promise?" she added, looking at me with her usual googly eyes. I resisted looking at her. I'm evading your face, lady! The whole night! And now you look at me with that face? Take a hint! Haaaa. Your eyes and that face always strike my heart. I can't resist it, actually. It was like this, perpetually.
I let out a big sigh and looked at her. "Yes, promise." She widely smiled and hummed with joy.
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