BEFORE YOU START READING, this is just a fan made story of cinderella. Everything is just a fiction in my mind. So please don't be angry at me.. :P
Trigger warnings: Misconception, Betrayal, Suicide.
It was a happy occasion when the prince decided to marry me. The event was grandiose and considered a must visited event in the whole kingdom. Every visitors are congratulating us for our union. Everyone in the venue envied us for our fairytale love story. All was nice... No more stepsisters and a stepmother always treating me like crap. No more chores day and night. No more humiliation. No more pain. I was finally free from all of the hardships I faced every single day. I loved it. Who wouldn't? Especially when I have a husband who loved me more than anything. I wouldn't be happy more than this but that was what I have thought. I never knew that I will only trade an old cage for another. This time though, the caged was locked and no more escape can be done. I shouldn't have believe any of his promises. I should have run away from him right from the start. I traded a momentary pain to a hellish pain I can't evade. Tears streams from my eyes as I watched him cuddling another girl in our bedroom. He looked at me momentarily before returning his attention to the girl in his arms. He knew I was there and yet he doesn't care. I run away from our bedroom. I run even if the servants are gawking at me. I doesn't stop to run until I was meters away. When does everything goes down the rail? I still remember the day we shared our first night together. We are both in sweat and deluded in our lust for each other. I remember your sweet and affectionate whispers telling me your empty promise. 'I love you, Cinderella.' 'I won't change you for another' 'I promise I won't hurt you'. We both hope for a future. A happy future with me, you and our child. An innocent hope and dreams I wanted to achieve to get a happy ending we both so desired. Until the day has come and I became pregnant with our child. It was the most happiest day of our life. I was careful of everything. I was careful about what I should eat, what I should do, and what I should wear. I was too careful and yet... They are gone. It was too fast. One minute I was holding my belly and then there was blood. I was so horrified that I passed out. It was that evening when I wake up suddenly and you were already by my side. You told me what happened. You told me everything. That I lost our baby and the doctors told you I can't conceive anymore. Tears just couldn't stop streaming from my eyes. I was too devastated and you are too. Your empty cold eyes were telling me you are too. But still you were embracing me. Telling me every nice words and comfort you could muster. You told me it was okay. That you would still love me no matter what. You told me we could adopt. Maybe it was your last mercy on me. Your last mercy for someone who share your your hope and dreams but couldn't achieve it. Love truly does blind someone. For I believed your words with any doubt in my mind. I still believed even if your company was getting colder each day. I still believed even if you were drunk every time you come inside our bedroom. I still believed even after you looked at me with cold uncaring eyes. And now look at what it resulted to... The fairytale lovestory everyone envies became nothing but old news. Now, I became nothing but your ornamental wife; a beautiful queen who can't give heirs to the king. Every nobles and servants looked at me with pity in their eyes and yet... No one cares. No one would care to an abandoned queen that is utterly foolish and useless. A queen who can't even protect one single life. I looked at my reflection reflected on the lake. A woman who has a messy long blond hair, pale bruised skin, and tired puffy brown eyes. She wears a laced white gown with nothing on her feet. A crying woman. Who looks utterly pathetic and weak. I scoff and looked in my surroundings. Right now, I stand in the garden that I carefully craft with my hands. Every blue roses blooming beautiful in the bushes brings faint memories of the day before everything falls apart. This is the garden he gifts to me when we are married happily. A well cared garden should make one's smile back and yet this garden only brings pain and sadness, and bitterness on my lips. What would be my future if I didn't choose to marry the Prince? If I could only turn back the time and choose differently, would I even be happy? Would I be living happily right now with my husband and child? Would he also hurt me like what the king did? Where is fairy God mother? Why is she not here? Why did she leave me alone? Did she know this would happen? Is that why she choose me? To torment me? Because no one would care about a commoner girl? There are so many questions lingering in my mind. Questions that I know is useless right now. What is the point of questioning the fairies intention. The point is I trusted her like how I trusted him. I laughed once again and bring my eyes at the bright moon. It is night time. I didn't even notice the beauty of the moon. Is mother and father looking at me right now? Are they also suffering like me? Would they also take pity in my situation? My child... I'm sorry I couldn't be strong like what would you expect me to. I'm sorry I couldn't fight for your father to love me back. I'm sorry that I can't give you a life you should deserve. I'm sorry that I became you mother instead of someone else but you should not worry. Because I will be with you shortly. I silently looked back to the castle I once loved and without hesitation jump in the lake....
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