春天,誰都曾在生命中希冀過的,高中的開學第一天。從春末的殘櫻在窗外搖落著,我穿上了感覺稍微大了一號的制服,站在穿衣鏡前的自己看上去有點滑稽。136Please respect copyright.PENANARrmjpvw4bH
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因為是從鄉下地方考上來城市的學校,我自己一個人住在租來的公寓之中,都市的空氣與老家並不相同,混和著些許繁榮的廢煙與喧囂,稱不上好也並不壞的選擇。136Please respect copyright.PENANATioLERAC1E
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從距離學校三個街區遠的住處離開,抵達目的地大約十五分鐘的路程,踏著不熟悉的土地,看著不熟悉的人事物,總是覺得那些是無比新鮮的光景。136Please respect copyright.PENANAXKvatZdwwY
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我的名字是紫菀,男性。女性化的名字?經常有人這麼說,據說這個名字來自我出生的當天,父親送來醫院的花。136Please respect copyright.PENANAZvRLsvhYVd
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抵達校園,我朝著站在門口向我打招呼的老師點頭致意。136Please respect copyright.PENANAKhhHfN9FAN
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班級是……擠在一群新生的周圍,寫著編班的大型看板立在穿堂旁邊,站在旁邊,努力的從稍遠的地方找到自己的名字,然後還有自己的班級。136Please respect copyright.PENANA9TFJ24DVh1
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1-E。教室位於四樓的邊間的樣子。走去班級的路上遇見了幾位老師,我紛紛向他們點頭致意。136Please respect copyright.PENANA0NxqhnQeht
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打開教室的門,已經有同學先到了,似乎有些是早就認識的舊識,倚著窗台聊著天的他們看見了我,卻又不以為意的繼續說著他們的話題。136Please respect copyright.PENANARYc3Rvcob5
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該怎麼說……稍微有點感到羨慕。136Please respect copyright.PENANAVf5FVCS8gU
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第一堂課的上課時間,班導是個頭髮已經開始花白,但看上去卻又相當幹練的中年男性,他要求我們做基本的自我介紹,這種固定的邏輯模式,在國小初中的時候就已經經歷過,當然我也有所準備。136Please respect copyright.PENANA9YphpUdsEe
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仔細地聆聽的同學的介紹,這個人的興趣是喜歡聽音樂,那個人是偶像宅,那個人看起來好陽光,日後應該會成為班級的核心。136Please respect copyright.PENANACBthv88IXT
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然後,不可避免的,輪到了我。136Please respect copyright.PENANAoXJUtGcurY
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拿著筆記本的我站上講台,在黑板上寫上了自己女性化的名字之後,聽見了些許議論聲,這個在意料之中,我只希望日後不要因為這個我很喜歡的名字被取笑。136Please respect copyright.PENANAiocNIwt8oo
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接著,轉過身,打開了素描專用的,稍微大了一些的專用簿本,上面是我早就準備好的訊息。136Please respect copyright.PENANAlQwvQdrEZG
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『我,沒有辦法說話。』136Please respect copyright.PENANApwCvx13A1U
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聽見了更多倒吸一口氣的驚呼,而這個……也在意料之中。136Please respect copyright.PENANAwwjf8gZozN
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『我,沒有辦法說話。』『我會用這樣子的方式跟各位溝通。』『絕對不會造成各位麻煩。』『還請多多指教。』136Please respect copyright.PENANA2CSmaj8xbL
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我一頁一頁的翻過筆記,似乎每翻過一頁,我在這個班級的容身之處又更少了一些。136Please respect copyright.PENANAm0wFV06G0V
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闔上紙頁,鴉雀無聲的班級沒有任何掌聲,儘管我剛剛賣力地給了所有發表的人鼓勵,但現實就是這樣,我永遠會被劃分到「異類」去。136Please respect copyright.PENANAzXCoOYsJau
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走下台,準備坐回位置的同時,教室的門被粗暴地打開。136Please respect copyright.PENANAn0nvT3XCOv
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「抱歉抱歉!火車又誤點了一班!可惡他們就只有便當好吃!」136Please respect copyright.PENANAf7jjZFgnVa
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闖入教室的,是個留著鮑伯頭的女孩子,一邊喘著氣一邊跟大家揮手打招呼,應該是一路跑上四樓來的吧。136Please respect copyright.PENANAOPWiLcOPqP
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「你是……!」136Please respect copyright.PENANAzWIrCTkD9F
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與我四目相接的瞬間,看見了熟悉的面孔。不會忘記,也很難忘記吧。136Please respect copyright.PENANAZ5u474EFkl
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「幫我撿准考證的那個人!」136Please respect copyright.PENANAK4jZZyxio3
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我微微對她一笑,坐回我的位置上。136Please respect copyright.PENANAXI2ogOuLi8
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那是冬天的時候發生的事,應考的時候總是會下雪,不知道為什麼已經成為這個區域的定律。136Please respect copyright.PENANA49VWanPtwL
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我拿著手中的單字小卡,盡可能的多把一些單字塞進去腦內,一邊走過去考場時一定得經過的那座橋。136Please respect copyright.PENANAaSBLTHfgYf
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冬梅盛放,越冷的天氣就開的越美的梅花,也就越折磨準備應考的考生。呼出的氣成為白煙,逸散在灰濛濛的天空中。我沒有笑容,大家都沒有,走過橋的考生像是渡過忘川,在一切結束之前都無法回頭的壓力在肩膀上悄悄落下。136Please respect copyright.PENANAp14syzwSfg
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從口中呼出的白煙飄盪,一開始只是小小的微風,然而——卻在轉眼之間變成稍稍強勁的暴風,細小的雪花打在臉上,有點生疼。136Please respect copyright.PENANAJ1H1UdtsvM
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此時,一張粉紅色的——我很清楚那是什麼東西的紙片從眼前飄過,乘著風,似乎就快要掉到橋墩之下。136Please respect copyright.PENANAQJlcJYdLSk
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那是准考證。等一下就會用到的,很重要很重要的東西。是哪個粗心的傢伙呢?雖然很想就這樣做確認,但是在那之前,身體就先動了起來。136Please respect copyright.PENANAHwGW6aUn4E
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抓著橋墩,把身體重心往外移,伸出手勉強構到了那張印著某人照片與名字的准考證。在抓住那張紙片之後稍稍放下心的往下看,寒冬的河面近在咫尺,只要一個不小心,恐怕我就會在冬天的河裡失溫而死也說不定。136Please respect copyright.PENANAHgRGj5cpSW
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別人眼中的我,會是什麼樣子呢?為了一個素不相識的人做這種可能會毀掉積累的所有努力,又得不到任何好處的白痴吧。一邊這麼想的我,慢慢的爬回橋墩上,只不過將左手伸上去的同時,原本夾在腋下的,用來溝通的筆記本就這樣掉進水裡,隨著水流逐漸遠去。136Please respect copyright.PENANAjJtm5TgbHP
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站回橋面後,一位栗色的長髮女孩走了過來,我將手中的准考證還給了她。136Please respect copyright.PENANALHwhQv5s8e
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「謝謝你……還有……對不起……」136Please respect copyright.PENANAb8TYiJBwMj
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她看上去是真的有點愧疚,但我只是少了一本快要寫滿的筆記本而已,本質上來說並沒有失去什麼。平時就有在鍛鍊的身體好險也回應了我,讓我不至於跌入河中。136Please respect copyright.PENANAsgRWyzafXV
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我想著要找新的紙跟筆跟她說沒關係,但翻找書包的同時也聽見了不遠處的學校敲起了鐘聲,那是考試前十分鐘的預備鈴。136Please respect copyright.PENANAOyXMPkL2W9
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我看著她,搖了搖頭表示沒關係後,便揹起背包往前方奔去。究竟這麼做是真的趕時間,還是只是想逃避那令人感到稍微尷尬的狀況?畢竟都是陌生人,誰也沒有失去什麼。136Please respect copyright.PENANAOh9ViMcqNB
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此時的情況,我想兩者都有吧。奔跑著的同時呼出白煙,雙頰因為運動的關係逐漸發熱——令我想起,我好像沒有被同齡的對象道謝過。畢竟只要不出聲,很多人都會把付出的好意是做理所當然。136Please respect copyright.PENANAqUh7U7s0lp
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過了檢驗關口,坐在考場內的我經過剛才的事之後已經失去了原先的緊張感,先前感受到的壓力似乎也在那時一同掉進了河水,隨著我的筆記本被沖走了。136Please respect copyright.PENANAMA9KOCiYwg
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我闔上眼,雙手交十微微祈禱,希望自己與那女孩的考試都平安無事。136Please respect copyright.PENANAxfDf0LljLj
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而現在在這間學校,證明那時候的祈禱應該默默發揮了效果,考上了自己所希望的,城市的學校。136Please respect copyright.PENANAJNAh1BTmKu
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「妳遲到了。我看看……橘同學。」班導師看向點名簿,訓斥那女孩——橘的聲音也把我從回憶拉回現實。136Please respect copyright.PENANAdmOe3HPeum
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雖然髮型改變了,但那女孩的臉旁沒有絲毫變化,稍稍帶有悔意的神情也與當時如出一轍,儘管她還是交出了誤點通知抵銷了這次的遲到。136Please respect copyright.PENANAeZOSXTYXlz
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「我的名字是橘!橘子的橘、月橘的橘!家裡在隔壁鎮開和服店,請多指教啦!」揮揮手,班上的同學也跟著拍手或是揮手,這個女孩貌似有著能夠將空氣活絡起來的能力。136Please respect copyright.PENANADY5LPdolwl
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班導師做了手勢請她入座,她左看右看就是決定不了位置。136Please respect copyright.PENANAvNy0vmLeOO
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「妳可以做到紫菀同學的後面幫助他,就當是他『曾經』幫妳撿准考證的報答,好嗎?」136Please respect copyright.PENANA2Ogg7lOd9f
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「喔喔老師妳好聰明喔!那我就恭敬不如從命囉。」136Please respect copyright.PENANAbhENulLIa8
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於是,我身後的空位就這樣給橘佔下了。
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第一節課就在班規,日後目標等等類似政令宣導的情況下結束。我打開包包,拿出準備好的小說,翻到夾著書籤的位置時,肩膀被人點了兩下。136Please respect copyright.PENANAFKHjGqG0aq
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「喲!」身後的橘同學對我揮了揮手。「那個時候太謝謝你啦!」136Please respect copyright.PENANAhwcXG5cNCH
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此時她爽朗的笑容跟記憶中的那名女孩彷彿是不同的人,望著那抹笑容,我連忙擺擺手示意沒關係。136Please respect copyright.PENANAYsnLMl9zka
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「為什麼從剛剛開始就不說話,那個時候也是?」136Please respect copyright.PENANA8wJJTVyr69
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是啊,她剛剛遲到所以沒有聽到。我轉回去從抽屜拿出剛剛的素描簿,擺在她桌上一頁一頁的翻給她看。136Please respect copyright.PENANAShkqWebdEh
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「咦!真的不能說話嗎?」她看著我的雙眼不帶有任何惡意,就只是單純的提問。於是我拿回筆記本,寫了一點東西再拿給她看。136Please respect copyright.PENANAYKaeKCrQcT
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『10歲時,出了意外,聲帶就壞了。』136Please respect copyright.PENANAdzUqG5VVC8
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「喔喔了解。」橘盤起手,點了點頭。「抱歉,我沒有冒犯的意思……紫菀你會因為這樣的關係……被欺負嗎?」136Please respect copyright.PENANAVtmKnI1vcP
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『經常。』我寫給她看。『筆記本被丟掉,故意被找碴吵架,因為我不能說話,幫我取奇怪的綽號之類的。』136Please respect copyright.PENANAHSHFq0pbo7
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「有點慘……不過可以放心喔!」我搖搖頭,聽不懂她說的「放心」究竟是什麼意思。「你也知道的,我有點糊塗對吧。」136Please respect copyright.PENANAdHhK0GIxe9
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我思考了幾秒之後還是點了點頭。136Please respect copyright.PENANAFzRyoAie77
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「但是我打架沒有輸過。」她很自豪的說著,隨即向我伸手要走我的筆記本。「有人找紫菀麻煩,我就扁他。」136Please respect copyright.PENANABy29ktIcPz
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『為什麼要做成這樣。』拿回筆記本,我這樣寫回去。136Please respect copyright.PENANAbnev1Cyu3d
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「因為沒有你幫我,我不可能跟家裡的人證明自己。」橘聳聳肩,她說了只要考上這裡,家裡就不會要求她繼承衣缽。「你那時候掉了一本筆記本對不對?有影響到考試嗎?」136Please respect copyright.PENANA9Rb2Rft0Nt
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『跟這本一樣都是溝通用的所以沒關係。』136Please respect copyright.PENANAXyDwKI4MDP
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「那就好……」她呼了口氣,不過還是不打算因此一筆勾消。「放學後去買一本,我來出錢,當作補償?啊啊雖然我知道這樣還是不太夠。」她低下頭,認真的思索著的表情讓人容易不小心看入迷。136Please respect copyright.PENANA21JN7zbSJe
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『能夠普通的跟我說話就夠了,謝謝妳。』136Please respect copyright.PENANAXjidxfh0xS
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「那最少最少讓我賠你一本新筆記!」136Please respect copyright.PENANAd0c13w2pM9
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這次,我點點頭。她也笑了,如同初春的櫻花般,含春得笑。136Please respect copyright.PENANAMfKtlA0fCX
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放學之後的路上,身邊多了一個女孩子。橘哼著輕鬆的曲調走在我的前方一步之遙,畢竟我對這個城鎮還不是很熟悉。136Please respect copyright.PENANAz80wKVsQt1
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「那邊有百貨公司,再過去是餐廳的地方,啊啊那邊左轉就是車站,文具店在前面兩個街區左右。」她指著路,我則是默默地記著筆記。136Please respect copyright.PENANAPgyLeBCIW7
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「紫菀你總是用手寫耶,手機呢?打字應該快很多吧?」136Please respect copyright.PENANAwZd7EME1fU
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聽見問題,我拿出口袋裡的小筆記本,寫給她看。136Please respect copyright.PENANAQDDhDh2EdY
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『拿手機給別人看不太禮貌。』136Please respect copyright.PENANAtk13n6m0Db
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「喔喔也是。不過你真的很會看人臉色耶,像我就好像少一根筋。」136Please respect copyright.PENANAvvdgYXjBej
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我輕輕地笑,從鼻子呼出氣,這樣的聲音還是發得出來的。136Please respect copyright.PENANAiRitESg4GM
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進了店,我選了一般用的比較便宜的素描簿,放到她手上。136Please respect copyright.PENANA6zmexRkOai
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「這樣就可以了嗎?比我想的還要便宜一點耶。」136Please respect copyright.PENANAfr8FCmHVni
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我賣力的點點頭,畢竟我也不想佔他便宜。136Please respect copyright.PENANAB6CSGipHAz
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「OKOK,就這樣。」她笑了笑,走向收銀台,我則是在外面等她。136Please respect copyright.PENANA45lNW83b0U
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夕色漸染,將這個對我來說還很新鮮的城鎮刷上鮮明的橘色。不知道為什麼,有點想哭。136Please respect copyright.PENANAZgroXVbk2X
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是因為終於被人認真對待了嗎?還是說因為巧合的緣分而感到激動而泣呢?我不知道答案,現在去解釋或許也為時尚早。136Please respect copyright.PENANAUH1aoOjPEE
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這個城鎮對我來說,過於溫柔。136Please respect copyright.PENANAGpgh7dylDf
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晚餐時間,被橘帶到了平常她也會去的中華料理店用餐。一打開拉門就聞到令人食慾大開的香料香氣與被稱作為「鍋氣」的特殊香味。136Please respect copyright.PENANAc1qRMzyi3x
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我點了餃子,而橘則是炒飯加大。136Please respect copyright.PENANAtfqvFqT3T8
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「就吃那樣?這樣不就顯得我吃很多嗎!」136Please respect copyright.PENANAQou94H8zEY
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我微微苦笑。『橘同學的身材沒有必要控制飲食吧。』我這樣寫完之後才想,這樣會不會給她造成困擾。136Please respect copyright.PENANAQDV86vgdxJ
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「嘴巴這麼甜也什麼都拿不到喔!」雖然這麼說,但她還是開心的笑了。136Please respect copyright.PENANAlXbFO1MDjc
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『我拿到了新的筆記本,很重要。』為了凸顯重點,我還特地畫了底線。136Please respect copyright.PENANAvauHnBCdha
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「喔——是嗎。喜、喜歡就好。」不知道為什麼,她突然撇過頭去,本來還想追問下,但是餐點正好在這時候端上桌,話題也就直接換成新的。136Please respect copyright.PENANA1fxgOF1J6A
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「你一個人住不會不方便嗎?」扒著加大份量的炒飯,橘還是顧著禮節的用手稍微遮了一下嘴才開口。136Please respect copyright.PENANAKQ32uhyT5e
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『常備藥都有買好,要是生病了也有辦法線上請假,真是個方便的世代。』136Please respect copyright.PENANAMswfzcim6r
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「紫菀好像老人喔。」吃著飯,她拿出了手機。「交換一下聯絡方式吧,如果有事情可以找我……簡訊!對,還有簡訊!通信軟體也給我好了!」136Please respect copyright.PENANAFKTIXS9Vbr
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『我還不太熟這隻手機,因為是新的,幫我一下。』我把本子連同手機一起遞了出去。聽到了「就交給我吧」後,是一陣手機點擊螢幕的聲音。136Please respect copyright.PENANAzekNOi0CML
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「這樣就好了!你的手機封面很古雅呢!」136Please respect copyright.PENANAI6ST6V6SCr
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雖然不是什麼不能給人看的內容,但我的手機封面是插花的作品。136Please respect copyright.PENANA8wlYfcaVgO
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『我家是專門種花的,所以就加減學了一點花藝。』收回手機,打開聯絡人名單的確多了橘的名字與電話號碼。通訊軟體也除了家裡的群組之外,多了橘的聯絡名單,她還傳了一隻貓的貼圖過來。136Please respect copyright.PENANAhHJDaltpkw
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吃飯的氣氛好到不像是我剛搬來這裡第一天。136Please respect copyright.PENANAAFuXD1ibew
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最後,我送她回車站。136Please respect copyright.PENANARZPxzBT9kZ
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『謝謝妳給我的新筆記本。』136Please respect copyright.PENANAnFPEGZrcTd
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「不會啦,那是我本來就該賠給你的。」揮揮手,她通過了剪票口。「明天見,紫菀。」這一次,她消失在月台深處。136Please respect copyright.PENANAocoE50a5Ao
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回歸到一個人的寂靜,往住處回程的路上,我思考了很多。大量的思緒從腦中飛過,以前的回憶跟現在的回憶交織在一起,有種很想大聲告訴過去的自己,告訴他只要撐過去,一定就不需要再害怕任何失誤。136Please respect copyright.PENANAffv6SCCBO1
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手機傳來震動,我用指紋解鎖了螢幕,看見了通訊軟體上橘所傳來的字樣。136Please respect copyright.PENANAkz4N66hAni
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『可以當我升上高中的第一個朋友嗎?』136Please respect copyright.PENANAfkyE8EVWde
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滴答、滴答。視界開始變得模糊,從黃昏時候忍住的淚水近乎潰堤,一滴一滴的淚水不僅模糊了視線,也滴在了手機螢幕上。136Please respect copyright.PENANAS3cg6YjpvE
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我轉身回過頭,看向沒有光線照耀的地方,似乎有個十年前的我,正在嘶吼著無聲的泣鳴。136Please respect copyright.PENANA1pDaOKLJjn
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沒關係的,不要緊。儘管那時候所有人都沒來由的討厭你,儘管那時候經常感到孤立無援與無助,想自殺的念頭也是每天都像早晨的鬧鐘一樣叩著心扉,但——你撐過來了。136Please respect copyright.PENANACWRHdmpZAv
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做著自己認為正確的事物,走了過來。136Please respect copyright.PENANAiVEKG0A7UG
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『如果妳不嫌棄的話。』淚流著,我按下了回信。136Please respect copyright.PENANAbTZJELnnQ2
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『那明天開始就是坐在你身後的同學兼好朋友啦,請多指教!』隨後,又是一張貓咪貼圖。136Please respect copyright.PENANAC3NEaJ6RYo
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我走向暗處,扶起了過去的自己,就好像那個時候,我多麼希望有人對我做的那樣。136Please respect copyright.PENANA9dZVe6VNCQ
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擦去眼淚,我繼續向前走著。136Please respect copyright.PENANABpk5lEbSWT
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走向下一個,有著好朋友坐在身後的日子。136Please respect copyright.PENANA2yt70zaloY
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《第一日 前後桌 完》
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現在是凌晨三點半,在經過好久好久沒有寫文的日子之後又一次取回了深夜的文感了w果然我是那種只要在深夜筆耕就一定可以大豐收的那種人嗎www136Please respect copyright.PENANABQ4s91OyuW
啊不過有件事情也想寫在後記,就是我今天如果算上別篇故事,今天大概打了一萬多字,我的身體是想把我很長時間沒有寫出來的文字一次寫完嗎!!136Please respect copyright.PENANAzW5nIVnB7P
雖然這篇從11點就開始寫了,不過大概在某人給我這個挑戰的時候就在想大架構,沒意外這次想挑戰一下青春群像劇的形式,把我不曾渡過的高中生活寫出來。136Please respect copyright.PENANASIhMKvE8fi
本來想要寫用爆水的原子筆督前面白襯衫,最後兩個人變成好基友的故事,但想想還是不夠文藝先放一邊www136Please respect copyright.PENANAuD3JG7RAFt
紫菀跟橘雖然現在只是好朋友,但之後就不好說了!所以還請各位見證他們的互動與成長,這個系列應該不會塞任何玻璃進去,只會是我最擅長的,純粹的糖份w136Please respect copyright.PENANAtCi4C2twbE
寫完之後才覺得,感覺像是健氣型女主角攻略冰塊男的故事,雖然那個冰塊好像很容易自溶www136Please respect copyright.PENANAR9n2xGo6Ne
之後還有更多時間可以讓他們相處!!如果想在這篇就看到兩人的互許終身的話我先道歉,不然這樣30篇我一定編不完www136Please respect copyright.PENANAHm4rUExDMc
就先到這邊,給所有現在需要糖份的人,三分糖的甜度w
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