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「真的沒什麼,到你的學校要搭公車?」10Please respect copyright.PENANAts7bV5ia8y
10Please respect copyright.PENANAziYqG9v2WW
低下頭,現在的這種心情不該屬於朋友之間,楚襄冉很快的轉移了話題,然後才想起,他其實從來也不知道,官玄默的學校在哪裡。10Please respect copyright.PENANANvD6XKhLEZ
10Please respect copyright.PENANAV1bPxV3U36
不,他甚至連官玄默念什麼學校,讀什麼科系都不清楚。10Please respect copyright.PENANAC3uUAHpQug
10Please respect copyright.PENANAEjqIssBjzl
「對不起。」10Please respect copyright.PENANAaVd5urpHus
10Please respect copyright.PENANA6vwuErr5W6
歉疚的說出口,他第一次發現,從兩個人見面以來,他從來也沒問過對方,關於對方的事情。10Please respect copyright.PENANAk7ZRz8WF1E
10Please respect copyright.PENANAfOKSsAm92P
還有對方離開後的生活,他什麼都不知道。10Please respect copyright.PENANABeunf4rJnG
10Please respect copyright.PENANAz9MtGxdOtq
「對不起……」10Please respect copyright.PENANAT62wTYbKAu
10Please respect copyright.PENANA4yCDFFxPLA
第二句歉語,已經低如呢喃。10Please respect copyright.PENANA8oNEH2hMpb
10Please respect copyright.PENANAWNwVHaNPbx
「襄冉?為什麼要道歉?」10Please respect copyright.PENANA0RFqyTGDg0
10Please respect copyright.PENANAVVyQcHsfpv
雖然聲音很輕,官玄默還是聽見了。10Please respect copyright.PENANAIbNSC4dbt8
10Please respect copyright.PENANA7Fd32OdyJw
可是他猜不出楚襄冉道歉的原因。10Please respect copyright.PENANAxLgrl6t8Me
10Please respect copyright.PENANAqb11LGF92v
楚襄冉輕輕搖頭,頭頂上的髮旋因為搖晃而變得更明顯了點,而隨後抬起的臉,揚著笑容。10Please respect copyright.PENANAixM4qRCORh
10Please respect copyright.PENANAUeqGbbDthF
「沒事,要搭的公車是哪一班?站名叫什麼?」10Please respect copyright.PENANA09FxCKEunT
10Please respect copyright.PENANATmULvbOqGw
他轉身過去像是在研究公車的班次時間,並且不停地詢問如何坐車到官玄默的學校,絲毫不給對方追問的機會。10Please respect copyright.PENANAFTyOHalMaH
10Please respect copyright.PENANAURdDsH0gLS
雖然牽住了楚襄冉的手沒有放開,官玄默一瞬間卻感到心驚,和強烈的不安。10Please respect copyright.PENANAUMOaYNDWJ9
10Please respect copyright.PENANAureZ3UB6vu
感覺就像是他其實一點也握不住這隻手,無論牽得再怎麼緊,抓得再怎麼牢,終究還是會隨風飄散在空中,最後什麼也不會剩下。10Please respect copyright.PENANA0EMW0uMJMI
10Please respect copyright.PENANA3uW5E1oQKj
10Please respect copyright.PENANAzIph0eTFEr
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而後,楚襄冉終於知道為什麼十一點半的約,官玄默要提早那麼多時間出發了。10Please respect copyright.PENANA4VczKtGBHI
10Please respect copyright.PENANABCq9A16EXj
光車程和等車的時間就花去兩個多小時,楚襄冉站在一旁,看著官玄默和早已經等在學校門口的友人交談,心裡頭五味雜陳。10Please respect copyright.PENANALKmXMlgEcR
10Please respect copyright.PENANAB0Fy7lxhnr
每次、每次都要花那麼多時間,走那麼多路,才只為了短短不到幾個小時的交談?10Please respect copyright.PENANAtZxGUM8ALJ
10Please respect copyright.PENANAMGLzZeZAtm
搭第一班公車的時候,他還覺得懷念,這幾年來每次出門,他不是讓有車的法恩載,就是坐法恩朋友的車,幾乎沒有自己搭公車的機會。10Please respect copyright.PENANAIrUQdG3DPt
10Please respect copyright.PENANAdpxeilq8Ao
一下子,他有點想起高中時,和另外兩個人一起出門,一起等校車,然後在車上說笑的時光。10Please respect copyright.PENANAhFasilLybM
10Please respect copyright.PENANAqytTi6Vcaq
甚至一直到半個多小時後下了車,他們轉過街角又走了一小段路,接著停在新的公車站牌下等車的時候,他還只是驚訝。10Please respect copyright.PENANAVFq3UHif79
10Please respect copyright.PENANAq0MZRuEv3p
原來不是只要一班車就會抵達目的地。10Please respect copyright.PENANAG2EOzqGipz
10Please respect copyright.PENANAmUvbomzbZr
可是等到又一個小時的車程過去,終於從晃得快昏的公車中離開,官玄默卻帶著他走下車站旁的捷運入口時,楚襄冉就真的愣住了。10Please respect copyright.PENANA12XIH68KPY
10Please respect copyright.PENANA201vv5nhvY
在人多又熱鬧的捷運地下街裡,他完全沒有心情去看一邊的店家擺了些什麼商品,只是讓官玄默抓住自己的手,然後跟著對方左拐右彎的穿梭在人群之中,買票,進入閘門,捷運雖然說快,但是搭得距離一長,也要花上二、三十分鐘。10Please respect copyright.PENANA6MmWZNbQ8J
10Please respect copyright.PENANARwAYc2SKga
他沒有念過大學,不知道大學上下課的時間,可是官玄默每次到「Find」的時候,都已經晚上七、八點了,他一直以為是大學的下課時間比較晚,卻沒有想過,原來官玄默的時間,都花在了車程上。10Please respect copyright.PENANA591gZ9PaBI
10Please respect copyright.PENANAHSMeLJbfsG
楚襄冉想起自己剛剛看過公車的班次,在他們等車的時候。10Please respect copyright.PENANAswpvndyuEA
10Please respect copyright.PENANA0EWpjLqRFP
最晚的一班也不過到十二點,官玄默卻每次都留到十點左右才離開。10Please respect copyright.PENANAH9qr510gph
10Please respect copyright.PENANAb87IyzrzzW
從「Find」走到公車站就要十幾分鐘,他要回學校還得在下車後走一段路,然後再轉一班公車才能搭上捷運……10Please respect copyright.PENANAe8kVrfnj0j
10Please respect copyright.PENANAIbLUsLK2yF
「襄冉。」10Please respect copyright.PENANAvV2KEXFluF
10Please respect copyright.PENANAjlmnjZA9AX
像是和同學的交談暫時告一段落,官玄默回頭叫著那個一直沒有靠近過他們,只是遠遠看著的人。10Please respect copyright.PENANAExJTEBRENa
10Please respect copyright.PENANA3lMH1jT0w0
楚襄冉沒有回應。10Please respect copyright.PENANAcNqHxPWTZC
10Please respect copyright.PENANAGVb2MqNPbI
他想,他終於明白了為什麼官玄默始終沒有愛上他。10Please respect copyright.PENANAkRaiGUMQup
10Please respect copyright.PENANAUCWdbPIPrP
他以為他自己喜歡官玄默,愛著官玄默,所以盡自己所能的替對方著想,做自己以為對方希望的事。10Please respect copyright.PENANApcxzLFAOQh
10Please respect copyright.PENANAEAphvTZDRv
但其實,或許他愛的人,從來就是自己。10Please respect copyright.PENANAkHMuaj0uJi
10Please respect copyright.PENANAM6R6qQsNwH
就連當年自以為對愛戀之人的守護,或許都不過是種自我滿足而已。10Please respect copyright.PENANAPB5QLrXiyO
10Please respect copyright.PENANA5Yz2WN7BbI
因為愛自己,所以不想受傷,所以眷戀那份擁抱,所以想要依靠那份溫暖。10Please respect copyright.PENANAuK5q0Kz8BF
10Please respect copyright.PENANAf8K1F9okdG
他是這樣自私的人,於是最後,才會什麼都得不到。10Please respect copyright.PENANARfzeU7dmEO
10Please respect copyright.PENANAzVdZI8czTZ
10Please respect copyright.PENANAJuAvpBxDxN
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10Please respect copyright.PENANAVbwI6XIzlD
10Please respect copyright.PENANA3YNBph5ehX
「襄冉?」10Please respect copyright.PENANAJ7g0RKS21Z
10Please respect copyright.PENANA2LZbyeN0qr
官玄默又喊了一聲,聲音裡隱隱帶上了憂心。10Please respect copyright.PENANAn7sJU8bfkv
10Please respect copyright.PENANA3CyqYO5V6E
這次楚襄冉總算有了反應,勾起微笑慢慢的朝著他們走過來。10Please respect copyright.PENANAJ481EcBg6x
10Please respect copyright.PENANAvfH6GWb2hW
「他就是你找了很久的那個很重要的朋友?」10Please respect copyright.PENANAo6zZmgSHeQ
10Please respect copyright.PENANA504HkTagWO
手上拿著官玄默答應幫他整理好的社團資料,駱少凡忽然有種莫名的想法。10Please respect copyright.PENANA1cAbDf2Rnr
10Please respect copyright.PENANAlpKAMANiFL
「你該不會是因為他,所以才答應我幫忙整理活動資料的吧?」10Please respect copyright.PENANAKXzzEXqtbl
10Please respect copyright.PENANAw2ELtwlevp
之前把那堆雜亂不堪的文件和檔案塞在一個大背包裡讓官玄默帶走的時候,官玄默曾經告訴他,這段時間他不會回宿舍,會住在別的地方,所以如果要找他,只能打他的手機聯絡。10Please respect copyright.PENANAFIJBjUSfFx
10Please respect copyright.PENANAHDgsvzNWss
他那時候沒多想也沒多問,只想著終於有人肯幫他整理資料真是太好了,原本他只是問問,根本沒敢期待官玄默會幫忙收他社團的爛攤子。10Please respect copyright.PENANAOn8AXqcpeH
10Please respect copyright.PENANAdjkeBXIfMc
沒想到官玄默竟然只思考了下就一口答應,現在說起來,怎麼想怎麼怪。10Please respect copyright.PENANAv5Jd5uVkvs
10Please respect copyright.PENANAEijV1psEQ3
「你們真的只是朋友嗎?」10Please respect copyright.PENANAfhj6MOLTHa
10Please respect copyright.PENANAmc7p6iJjwR
「不是朋友會是什麼?」10Please respect copyright.PENANAx4ng1jhsGX
10Please respect copyright.PENANARb1zWeasUE
只愣了很短的時間,官玄默低喊著反駁,直到把話說完了,才查覺到自己無論是情緒或是口氣都太激動了點。10Please respect copyright.PENANAyz6NXTAfIu
10Please respect copyright.PENANAC0C9F3mBmE
幾乎是下意識的往楚襄冉的方向看,剛才還離他們有一點距離的人,現在已經站在了他們旁邊。10Please respect copyright.PENANArWXxY2HWdk
10Please respect copyright.PENANAEp1HyYJS0I
「襄……」10Please respect copyright.PENANAAgOhUS5AKq
10Please respect copyright.PENANAnNRrRwi9Qr
「你好,我是楚襄冉。」10Please respect copyright.PENANAV8HDTGUuWF
10Please respect copyright.PENANAnInXLoqdi5
笑著的臉,帶著笑意,像是很高興能認識新朋友的聲音,楚襄冉截斷了官玄默叫著他名字的聲音,主動朝駱少凡打招呼。
ns 15.158.61.55da2 10Please respect copyright.PENANAziYqG9v2WW
低下頭,現在的這種心情不該屬於朋友之間,楚襄冉很快的轉移了話題,然後才想起,他其實從來也不知道,官玄默的學校在哪裡。10Please respect copyright.PENANANvD6XKhLEZ
10Please respect copyright.PENANAV1bPxV3U36
不,他甚至連官玄默念什麼學校,讀什麼科系都不清楚。10Please respect copyright.PENANAC3uUAHpQug
10Please respect copyright.PENANAEjqIssBjzl
「對不起。」10Please respect copyright.PENANAaVd5urpHus
10Please respect copyright.PENANA6vwuErr5W6
歉疚的說出口,他第一次發現,從兩個人見面以來,他從來也沒問過對方,關於對方的事情。10Please respect copyright.PENANAk7ZRz8WF1E
10Please respect copyright.PENANAfOKSsAm92P
還有對方離開後的生活,他什麼都不知道。10Please respect copyright.PENANABeunf4rJnG
10Please respect copyright.PENANAz9MtGxdOtq
「對不起……」10Please respect copyright.PENANAT62wTYbKAu
10Please respect copyright.PENANA4yCDFFxPLA
第二句歉語,已經低如呢喃。10Please respect copyright.PENANA8oNEH2hMpb
10Please respect copyright.PENANAWNwVHaNPbx
「襄冉?為什麼要道歉?」10Please respect copyright.PENANA0RFqyTGDg0
10Please respect copyright.PENANAVVyQcHsfpv
雖然聲音很輕,官玄默還是聽見了。10Please respect copyright.PENANAIbNSC4dbt8
10Please respect copyright.PENANA7Fd32OdyJw
可是他猜不出楚襄冉道歉的原因。10Please respect copyright.PENANAxLgrl6t8Me
10Please respect copyright.PENANAqb11LGF92v
楚襄冉輕輕搖頭,頭頂上的髮旋因為搖晃而變得更明顯了點,而隨後抬起的臉,揚著笑容。10Please respect copyright.PENANAixM4qRCORh
10Please respect copyright.PENANAUeqGbbDthF
「沒事,要搭的公車是哪一班?站名叫什麼?」10Please respect copyright.PENANA09FxCKEunT
10Please respect copyright.PENANATmULvbOqGw
他轉身過去像是在研究公車的班次時間,並且不停地詢問如何坐車到官玄默的學校,絲毫不給對方追問的機會。10Please respect copyright.PENANAFTyOHalMaH
10Please respect copyright.PENANAURdDsH0gLS
雖然牽住了楚襄冉的手沒有放開,官玄默一瞬間卻感到心驚,和強烈的不安。10Please respect copyright.PENANAUMOaYNDWJ9
10Please respect copyright.PENANAureZ3UB6vu
感覺就像是他其實一點也握不住這隻手,無論牽得再怎麼緊,抓得再怎麼牢,終究還是會隨風飄散在空中,最後什麼也不會剩下。10Please respect copyright.PENANA0EMW0uMJMI
10Please respect copyright.PENANA3uW5E1oQKj
10Please respect copyright.PENANAzIph0eTFEr
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10Please respect copyright.PENANAIdP93CU3tl
10Please respect copyright.PENANA5FZ7PaxgzG
而後,楚襄冉終於知道為什麼十一點半的約,官玄默要提早那麼多時間出發了。10Please respect copyright.PENANA4VczKtGBHI
10Please respect copyright.PENANABCq9A16EXj
光車程和等車的時間就花去兩個多小時,楚襄冉站在一旁,看著官玄默和早已經等在學校門口的友人交談,心裡頭五味雜陳。10Please respect copyright.PENANALKmXMlgEcR
10Please respect copyright.PENANAB0Fy7lxhnr
每次、每次都要花那麼多時間,走那麼多路,才只為了短短不到幾個小時的交談?10Please respect copyright.PENANAtZxGUM8ALJ
10Please respect copyright.PENANAMGLzZeZAtm
搭第一班公車的時候,他還覺得懷念,這幾年來每次出門,他不是讓有車的法恩載,就是坐法恩朋友的車,幾乎沒有自己搭公車的機會。10Please respect copyright.PENANAIrUQdG3DPt
10Please respect copyright.PENANAdpxeilq8Ao
一下子,他有點想起高中時,和另外兩個人一起出門,一起等校車,然後在車上說笑的時光。10Please respect copyright.PENANAhFasilLybM
10Please respect copyright.PENANAqytTi6Vcaq
甚至一直到半個多小時後下了車,他們轉過街角又走了一小段路,接著停在新的公車站牌下等車的時候,他還只是驚訝。10Please respect copyright.PENANAVFq3UHif79
10Please respect copyright.PENANAq0MZRuEv3p
原來不是只要一班車就會抵達目的地。10Please respect copyright.PENANAG2EOzqGipz
10Please respect copyright.PENANAmUvbomzbZr
可是等到又一個小時的車程過去,終於從晃得快昏的公車中離開,官玄默卻帶著他走下車站旁的捷運入口時,楚襄冉就真的愣住了。10Please respect copyright.PENANA12XIH68KPY
10Please respect copyright.PENANA201vv5nhvY
在人多又熱鬧的捷運地下街裡,他完全沒有心情去看一邊的店家擺了些什麼商品,只是讓官玄默抓住自己的手,然後跟著對方左拐右彎的穿梭在人群之中,買票,進入閘門,捷運雖然說快,但是搭得距離一長,也要花上二、三十分鐘。10Please respect copyright.PENANA6MmWZNbQ8J
10Please respect copyright.PENANARwAYc2SKga
他沒有念過大學,不知道大學上下課的時間,可是官玄默每次到「Find」的時候,都已經晚上七、八點了,他一直以為是大學的下課時間比較晚,卻沒有想過,原來官玄默的時間,都花在了車程上。10Please respect copyright.PENANA591gZ9PaBI
10Please respect copyright.PENANAHSMeLJbfsG
楚襄冉想起自己剛剛看過公車的班次,在他們等車的時候。10Please respect copyright.PENANAswpvndyuEA
10Please respect copyright.PENANA0EWpjLqRFP
最晚的一班也不過到十二點,官玄默卻每次都留到十點左右才離開。10Please respect copyright.PENANAH9qr510gph
10Please respect copyright.PENANAb87IyzrzzW
從「Find」走到公車站就要十幾分鐘,他要回學校還得在下車後走一段路,然後再轉一班公車才能搭上捷運……10Please respect copyright.PENANAe8kVrfnj0j
10Please respect copyright.PENANAIbLUsLK2yF
「襄冉。」10Please respect copyright.PENANAvV2KEXFluF
10Please respect copyright.PENANAjlmnjZA9AX
像是和同學的交談暫時告一段落,官玄默回頭叫著那個一直沒有靠近過他們,只是遠遠看著的人。10Please respect copyright.PENANAExJTEBRENa
10Please respect copyright.PENANA3lMH1jT0w0
楚襄冉沒有回應。10Please respect copyright.PENANAcNqHxPWTZC
10Please respect copyright.PENANAGVb2MqNPbI
他想,他終於明白了為什麼官玄默始終沒有愛上他。10Please respect copyright.PENANAkRaiGUMQup
10Please respect copyright.PENANAUCWdbPIPrP
他以為他自己喜歡官玄默,愛著官玄默,所以盡自己所能的替對方著想,做自己以為對方希望的事。10Please respect copyright.PENANApcxzLFAOQh
10Please respect copyright.PENANAEAphvTZDRv
但其實,或許他愛的人,從來就是自己。10Please respect copyright.PENANAkHMuaj0uJi
10Please respect copyright.PENANAM6R6qQsNwH
就連當年自以為對愛戀之人的守護,或許都不過是種自我滿足而已。10Please respect copyright.PENANAPB5QLrXiyO
10Please respect copyright.PENANA5Yz2WN7BbI
因為愛自己,所以不想受傷,所以眷戀那份擁抱,所以想要依靠那份溫暖。10Please respect copyright.PENANAuK5q0Kz8BF
10Please respect copyright.PENANAf8K1F9okdG
他是這樣自私的人,於是最後,才會什麼都得不到。10Please respect copyright.PENANARfzeU7dmEO
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「襄冉?」10Please respect copyright.PENANAJ7g0RKS21Z
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官玄默又喊了一聲,聲音裡隱隱帶上了憂心。10Please respect copyright.PENANAn7sJU8bfkv
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這次楚襄冉總算有了反應,勾起微笑慢慢的朝著他們走過來。10Please respect copyright.PENANAJ481EcBg6x
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「他就是你找了很久的那個很重要的朋友?」10Please respect copyright.PENANAo6zZmgSHeQ
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手上拿著官玄默答應幫他整理好的社團資料,駱少凡忽然有種莫名的想法。10Please respect copyright.PENANA1cAbDf2Rnr
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「你該不會是因為他,所以才答應我幫忙整理活動資料的吧?」10Please respect copyright.PENANAKXzzEXqtbl
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之前把那堆雜亂不堪的文件和檔案塞在一個大背包裡讓官玄默帶走的時候,官玄默曾經告訴他,這段時間他不會回宿舍,會住在別的地方,所以如果要找他,只能打他的手機聯絡。10Please respect copyright.PENANAFIJBjUSfFx
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他那時候沒多想也沒多問,只想著終於有人肯幫他整理資料真是太好了,原本他只是問問,根本沒敢期待官玄默會幫忙收他社團的爛攤子。10Please respect copyright.PENANAOn8AXqcpeH
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沒想到官玄默竟然只思考了下就一口答應,現在說起來,怎麼想怎麼怪。10Please respect copyright.PENANAv5Jd5uVkvs
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「你們真的只是朋友嗎?」10Please respect copyright.PENANAfhj6MOLTHa
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「不是朋友會是什麼?」10Please respect copyright.PENANAx4ng1jhsGX
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只愣了很短的時間,官玄默低喊著反駁,直到把話說完了,才查覺到自己無論是情緒或是口氣都太激動了點。10Please respect copyright.PENANAyz6NXTAfIu
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幾乎是下意識的往楚襄冉的方向看,剛才還離他們有一點距離的人,現在已經站在了他們旁邊。10Please respect copyright.PENANArWXxY2HWdk
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「襄……」10Please respect copyright.PENANAAgOhUS5AKq
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「你好,我是楚襄冉。」10Please respect copyright.PENANAV8HDTGUuWF
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笑著的臉,帶著笑意,像是很高興能認識新朋友的聲音,楚襄冉截斷了官玄默叫著他名字的聲音,主動朝駱少凡打招呼。