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於是楚襄冉只是靜靜的站在官玄默的身旁,陪著他仰頭,看那片沒有月亮也沒有星星的黑色天空。12Please respect copyright.PENANAAQAv7NE2Rx
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醫院的窗子是封死的,沒辦法打開,所以他們無法吹到自然的夜風,只有中央循環的空調單調且枯燥的響著。12Please respect copyright.PENANAVNEWmDJUXA
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站了許久許久,官玄默的聲音才有些突兀的響起,帶著點沙啞。12Please respect copyright.PENANAGFR9R2QZh3
12Please respect copyright.PENANAYBiaiQR07X
「我和冬陽搬進去了你說的房子,冬陽很開心。」沒什麼組織條理,官玄默只是說著。「我說要節省點,然後要找工作,可是冬陽卻堅持著要先把日常生活用品買齊了,說是要好好開始,才會有好的未來。我拗不過他……」12Please respect copyright.PENANAYMji60V8aI
12Please respect copyright.PENANAxljG9x6XyM
第一天搬家,第二天整理打掃,第三天去開通水電瓦斯等生活上的必須用度,第四天熟悉環境,然後是第五天……12Please respect copyright.PENANAQOATCLQp5M
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原本應該是甜蜜的採購,然後回去布置兩人的新家,卻叫一輛闖紅燈的卡車破碎了所有。12Please respect copyright.PENANAmbtrTTvhDb
12Please respect copyright.PENANAnDM7irBW5h
就好像是鵝媽媽的黑色童話。12Please respect copyright.PENANAQTOgzxJKkE
12Please respect copyright.PENANAu4YaqGkj3h
一切還沒來的及開始,就已經消失。12Please respect copyright.PENANAWFC9l1keZ3
12Please respect copyright.PENANAGnsobt3VJB
「是不是,如果我堅持留在家裡,那麼現在冬陽還好好活著?」官玄默最後的結論叫楚襄冉心驚。12Please respect copyright.PENANAYt91J1C3wS
12Please respect copyright.PENANANxN2pAqJ5Q
「你不能這麼想。」楚襄冉扳過官玄默的肩,強迫他把視線從窗外收回,看著自己。「向冬陽和你在一起的時候是他人生中最幸福的時候,如果你對此有所懷疑,那就是背叛了他。」12Please respect copyright.PENANAE2KJXAZvzD
12Please respect copyright.PENANA90pFbkhsip
官玄默牢牢的看著楚襄冉好一陣子,然後默默的垂下頭:「我有些累了。」12Please respect copyright.PENANAgFIV6rkHbS
12Please respect copyright.PENANABGeaUh0sZu
「累了,就好好休息。」楚襄冉牽著官玄默回到病床旁,看著他躺上床,閉上眼睛,然後替他塞好被角。12Please respect copyright.PENANAGRaRUGBtc6
12Please respect copyright.PENANAvFyokTRD8Z
可是坐回沙發,楚襄冉卻再也睡不著。12Please respect copyright.PENANA9r4Dm09Pz6
12Please respect copyright.PENANAhj1kCwmLQq
若要說向冬陽的死是官玄默把人帶走造成的錯,那是不是他給他們的幫助才是造成一切的主因?12Please respect copyright.PENANA8MtzJFOO9Q
12Please respect copyright.PENANAEDMbysFinA
所以其實,他才是那個最罪不可赦的人。12Please respect copyright.PENANA1sQIGF2tEo
12Please respect copyright.PENANA694EMp9Lzc
沒有後悔,卻更覺得自己罪孽深重……12Please respect copyright.PENANAGs5H1s3oiz
12Please respect copyright.PENANAJdlFa2N8ZH
12Please respect copyright.PENANAntJqkCqLSd
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兩天後,官玄默出了院,醫生雖然還是有點擔心他的精神狀況,但是在楚襄冉一再的保證他會好好看著官玄默的情況之下,終究還是開了出院單。12Please respect copyright.PENANAtISeTEXrjv
12Please respect copyright.PENANAOr1j2D9IDm
他知道醫生的決定其實並沒有錯,可是醫院中關於死亡的那一份氣息太濃厚,每次救護車的聲音響起,不分白天黑夜,他都能清楚感受到官玄默清醒過來,雖然可能只是躺在床上沒有動作,但是楚襄冉卻可以從呼吸中知道,官玄默正在傾聽著那一聲一聲的刺耳聲響。12Please respect copyright.PENANAfGrjuRhwNZ
12Please respect copyright.PENANAj6e0GtG2Qh
再這樣下去,對官玄默一點好處也沒有。12Please respect copyright.PENANA2aLEeB2NO9
12Please respect copyright.PENANAKI5h9tMbgp
所以楚襄冉堅持離開。12Please respect copyright.PENANAOZriyJIeN8
12Please respect copyright.PENANAIVISOTkq2H
把單子拿去櫃檯繳了錢,一回頭,官玄默已經走出了醫院大門,楚襄冉連忙追了上去。12Please respect copyright.PENANAWtEi5viLx9
12Please respect copyright.PENANAlNQXbPcSmT
清晨的陽光對於連著幾天都沒踏出建築物的兩人來說顯的有些刺眼,楚襄冉抬起一隻手遮住陽光,然後想起他們兩人離去的那天早晨,似乎也是這樣明亮的陽光照射著世界。12Please respect copyright.PENANAWbgMxEr2Yn
12Please respect copyright.PENANAGai6zezluv
「接下來呢?你想去哪?」他問官玄默,因為他不確定官玄默會想回家?還是想去那個他和向冬陽一起生活了五天的屋子。12Please respect copyright.PENANAK7WKGJZk2z
12Please respect copyright.PENANAUB7pdyYgQJ
「……回家。」猶豫片刻,官玄默選擇了回去自己從小生長的家,楚襄冉也沒多說什麼,招來了在醫院外頭排班的計程車。12Please respect copyright.PENANAMzYWbvN1m1
12Please respect copyright.PENANAHoTUCrHWCG
官玄默坐上了計程車,楚襄冉也跟著坐了進去,然後一直到回家,兩個人都沒有再次開口交談。12Please respect copyright.PENANAqmAo1gxLAm
12Please respect copyright.PENANAyPmbV36Ngf
12Please respect copyright.PENANAr7prezNqT3
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「學校……你想回去嗎?」吃著叫來的晚餐,楚襄冉問道。12Please respect copyright.PENANALLVswIJRdG
12Please respect copyright.PENANABordH5q1sZ
官玄默出院已經很多天了,這段時間楚襄冉只回過一次學校,本來是想把向冬陽的東西收拾一下帶回來,可是等他到了學校才發現,向家的人早就去學校把所有東西都清空了。12Please respect copyright.PENANAJK4hJi3Dzm
12Please respect copyright.PENANACGANeMo7sO
楚襄冉知道這個消息以後,馬上跑去了向家,他想請向爸爸或向媽媽能把一兩件向冬陽的遺物給他跟官玄默做個紀念,可是等他按了半天門鈴也沒人來開門,然後才從另外一位鄰居伯母的口中知道,向家已經在前兩天搬了家。12Please respect copyright.PENANAYGvXYm2goU
12Please respect copyright.PENANAGqPF7HNQHn
一切消失的是如此之快,快到讓人措手不及。12Please respect copyright.PENANApL4yuYALmB
12Please respect copyright.PENANAtasrN1vrMY
明明是一起長大的三個人,當鄰居已經當了十幾年的家庭,卻在轉眼間,一個死了,然後一家搬走了,再也不會回來,也永遠找不到了……12Please respect copyright.PENANAzpIHIyHt9t
12Please respect copyright.PENANAlrT5vrR8Xd
「我父母希望我轉學。」中規中矩的回答,然後是和以往相同的清冷表情,官玄默像是回到了過去不曾改變,可是楚襄冉知道刻在他心上的那道傷痕會永遠在那裡留下疤痕。12Please respect copyright.PENANA2QYBPHUnWh
12Please respect copyright.PENANAd4m1Vy0gE9
「啊……是嗎?」雖然明知道官玄默在發生了這些事情之後,還會回到學校的機會是微乎其微,楚襄冉還是忍不住的失落。12Please respect copyright.PENANAefGa4qopSY
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終於,就這樣要散了嗎?12Please respect copyright.PENANAYd4kbmMrfN
12Please respect copyright.PENANAoMKyKKZVR6
這次和上一次不同,看著幾乎沒怎麼在進食的人,楚襄冉知道這一次的分離,會讓他再也找不到對方。12Please respect copyright.PENANA66quHBD38k
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如果他可以再自私ㄧ點,或是再任性一點,或許他會開口請官玄默留下。12Please respect copyright.PENANA0LhiVR1asY
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但是他做不到自私,也明白離開其實對官玄默是最好的選擇。12Please respect copyright.PENANAebCxa96W0z
12Please respect copyright.PENANAHA5julhJSR
很早以前就明白了天下無不散的筵席這個道理,可是明白跟接受畢竟還是兩回事,尤其是楚襄冉曾經一度認為,或許他們三個有機會能當一輩子的朋友……12Please respect copyright.PENANAIFLFmyJZsE
12Please respect copyright.PENANAHACO8n8i3H
很快的感到了食不下嚥,楚襄冉只又隨便扒了兩口飯,就把整個餐盒扔進了垃圾桶。12Please respect copyright.PENANARPDgZi9eNf
12Please respect copyright.PENANAWtL7DtB4uG
想必官玄默也會搬家吧?於是又只剩下了他一個人。12Please respect copyright.PENANAGHsHZZd2uU
12Please respect copyright.PENANAAjrwzWr9oi
往後再也沒有人會和他一起上學,考試前熬夜唸書,也不會有人招呼著自己要記得吃飯,所有曾經擁有過的關心都即將從他的生命中失去……12Please respect copyright.PENANAFKGNYrkjFr
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可是,他還是伸不出想要有人握住的手,沒辦法告訴官玄默,其實他也很需要他。12Please respect copyright.PENANAzXLa46opfd
12Please respect copyright.PENANA8TNq4yYxSv
官玄默要能過得好……對楚襄冉而言,比什麼都重要。12Please respect copyright.PENANAXCdz0HFXeX
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「哪,要走的時候記得打聲招呼?」收拾好餐桌,楚襄冉微微一笑。12Please respect copyright.PENANA3jwSBs8aSv
12Please respect copyright.PENANAPR2q1M43Xz
自己的心傷是自己的事,沒道理用自己的傷口去祈求任何人的憐望,尤其是當對方的悲慟遠遠超過自己的時候……12Please respect copyright.PENANAiQNXoofxCi
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於是,只能微笑著說再見……12Please respect copyright.PENANAoFkNWmFoyQ
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楚襄冉眼底所蘊藏著的,近乎絕望的情緒,官玄默終究沒能察覺。
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醫院的窗子是封死的,沒辦法打開,所以他們無法吹到自然的夜風,只有中央循環的空調單調且枯燥的響著。12Please respect copyright.PENANAVNEWmDJUXA
12Please respect copyright.PENANA8SlFJzf7Bn
站了許久許久,官玄默的聲音才有些突兀的響起,帶著點沙啞。12Please respect copyright.PENANAGFR9R2QZh3
12Please respect copyright.PENANAYBiaiQR07X
「我和冬陽搬進去了你說的房子,冬陽很開心。」沒什麼組織條理,官玄默只是說著。「我說要節省點,然後要找工作,可是冬陽卻堅持著要先把日常生活用品買齊了,說是要好好開始,才會有好的未來。我拗不過他……」12Please respect copyright.PENANAYMji60V8aI
12Please respect copyright.PENANAxljG9x6XyM
第一天搬家,第二天整理打掃,第三天去開通水電瓦斯等生活上的必須用度,第四天熟悉環境,然後是第五天……12Please respect copyright.PENANAQOATCLQp5M
12Please respect copyright.PENANAe3LkR1U1Eg
原本應該是甜蜜的採購,然後回去布置兩人的新家,卻叫一輛闖紅燈的卡車破碎了所有。12Please respect copyright.PENANAmbtrTTvhDb
12Please respect copyright.PENANAnDM7irBW5h
就好像是鵝媽媽的黑色童話。12Please respect copyright.PENANAQTOgzxJKkE
12Please respect copyright.PENANAu4YaqGkj3h
一切還沒來的及開始,就已經消失。12Please respect copyright.PENANAWFC9l1keZ3
12Please respect copyright.PENANAGnsobt3VJB
「是不是,如果我堅持留在家裡,那麼現在冬陽還好好活著?」官玄默最後的結論叫楚襄冉心驚。12Please respect copyright.PENANAYt91J1C3wS
12Please respect copyright.PENANANxN2pAqJ5Q
「你不能這麼想。」楚襄冉扳過官玄默的肩,強迫他把視線從窗外收回,看著自己。「向冬陽和你在一起的時候是他人生中最幸福的時候,如果你對此有所懷疑,那就是背叛了他。」12Please respect copyright.PENANAE2KJXAZvzD
12Please respect copyright.PENANA90pFbkhsip
官玄默牢牢的看著楚襄冉好一陣子,然後默默的垂下頭:「我有些累了。」12Please respect copyright.PENANAgFIV6rkHbS
12Please respect copyright.PENANABGeaUh0sZu
「累了,就好好休息。」楚襄冉牽著官玄默回到病床旁,看著他躺上床,閉上眼睛,然後替他塞好被角。12Please respect copyright.PENANAGRaRUGBtc6
12Please respect copyright.PENANAvFyokTRD8Z
可是坐回沙發,楚襄冉卻再也睡不著。12Please respect copyright.PENANA9r4Dm09Pz6
12Please respect copyright.PENANAhj1kCwmLQq
若要說向冬陽的死是官玄默把人帶走造成的錯,那是不是他給他們的幫助才是造成一切的主因?12Please respect copyright.PENANA8MtzJFOO9Q
12Please respect copyright.PENANAEDMbysFinA
所以其實,他才是那個最罪不可赦的人。12Please respect copyright.PENANA1sQIGF2tEo
12Please respect copyright.PENANA694EMp9Lzc
沒有後悔,卻更覺得自己罪孽深重……12Please respect copyright.PENANAGs5H1s3oiz
12Please respect copyright.PENANAJdlFa2N8ZH
12Please respect copyright.PENANAntJqkCqLSd
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兩天後,官玄默出了院,醫生雖然還是有點擔心他的精神狀況,但是在楚襄冉一再的保證他會好好看著官玄默的情況之下,終究還是開了出院單。12Please respect copyright.PENANAtISeTEXrjv
12Please respect copyright.PENANAOr1j2D9IDm
他知道醫生的決定其實並沒有錯,可是醫院中關於死亡的那一份氣息太濃厚,每次救護車的聲音響起,不分白天黑夜,他都能清楚感受到官玄默清醒過來,雖然可能只是躺在床上沒有動作,但是楚襄冉卻可以從呼吸中知道,官玄默正在傾聽著那一聲一聲的刺耳聲響。12Please respect copyright.PENANAfGrjuRhwNZ
12Please respect copyright.PENANAj6e0GtG2Qh
再這樣下去,對官玄默一點好處也沒有。12Please respect copyright.PENANA2aLEeB2NO9
12Please respect copyright.PENANAKI5h9tMbgp
所以楚襄冉堅持離開。12Please respect copyright.PENANAOZriyJIeN8
12Please respect copyright.PENANAIVISOTkq2H
把單子拿去櫃檯繳了錢,一回頭,官玄默已經走出了醫院大門,楚襄冉連忙追了上去。12Please respect copyright.PENANAWtEi5viLx9
12Please respect copyright.PENANAlNQXbPcSmT
清晨的陽光對於連著幾天都沒踏出建築物的兩人來說顯的有些刺眼,楚襄冉抬起一隻手遮住陽光,然後想起他們兩人離去的那天早晨,似乎也是這樣明亮的陽光照射著世界。12Please respect copyright.PENANAWbgMxEr2Yn
12Please respect copyright.PENANAGai6zezluv
「接下來呢?你想去哪?」他問官玄默,因為他不確定官玄默會想回家?還是想去那個他和向冬陽一起生活了五天的屋子。12Please respect copyright.PENANAK7WKGJZk2z
12Please respect copyright.PENANAUB7pdyYgQJ
「……回家。」猶豫片刻,官玄默選擇了回去自己從小生長的家,楚襄冉也沒多說什麼,招來了在醫院外頭排班的計程車。12Please respect copyright.PENANAMzYWbvN1m1
12Please respect copyright.PENANAHoTUCrHWCG
官玄默坐上了計程車,楚襄冉也跟著坐了進去,然後一直到回家,兩個人都沒有再次開口交談。12Please respect copyright.PENANAqmAo1gxLAm
12Please respect copyright.PENANAyPmbV36Ngf
12Please respect copyright.PENANAr7prezNqT3
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「學校……你想回去嗎?」吃著叫來的晚餐,楚襄冉問道。12Please respect copyright.PENANALLVswIJRdG
12Please respect copyright.PENANABordH5q1sZ
官玄默出院已經很多天了,這段時間楚襄冉只回過一次學校,本來是想把向冬陽的東西收拾一下帶回來,可是等他到了學校才發現,向家的人早就去學校把所有東西都清空了。12Please respect copyright.PENANAJK4hJi3Dzm
12Please respect copyright.PENANACGANeMo7sO
楚襄冉知道這個消息以後,馬上跑去了向家,他想請向爸爸或向媽媽能把一兩件向冬陽的遺物給他跟官玄默做個紀念,可是等他按了半天門鈴也沒人來開門,然後才從另外一位鄰居伯母的口中知道,向家已經在前兩天搬了家。12Please respect copyright.PENANAYGvXYm2goU
12Please respect copyright.PENANAGqPF7HNQHn
一切消失的是如此之快,快到讓人措手不及。12Please respect copyright.PENANApL4yuYALmB
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明明是一起長大的三個人,當鄰居已經當了十幾年的家庭,卻在轉眼間,一個死了,然後一家搬走了,再也不會回來,也永遠找不到了……12Please respect copyright.PENANAzpIHIyHt9t
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「我父母希望我轉學。」中規中矩的回答,然後是和以往相同的清冷表情,官玄默像是回到了過去不曾改變,可是楚襄冉知道刻在他心上的那道傷痕會永遠在那裡留下疤痕。12Please respect copyright.PENANA2QYBPHUnWh
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「啊……是嗎?」雖然明知道官玄默在發生了這些事情之後,還會回到學校的機會是微乎其微,楚襄冉還是忍不住的失落。12Please respect copyright.PENANAefGa4qopSY
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終於,就這樣要散了嗎?12Please respect copyright.PENANAYd4kbmMrfN
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這次和上一次不同,看著幾乎沒怎麼在進食的人,楚襄冉知道這一次的分離,會讓他再也找不到對方。12Please respect copyright.PENANA66quHBD38k
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如果他可以再自私ㄧ點,或是再任性一點,或許他會開口請官玄默留下。12Please respect copyright.PENANA0LhiVR1asY
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但是他做不到自私,也明白離開其實對官玄默是最好的選擇。12Please respect copyright.PENANAebCxa96W0z
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很早以前就明白了天下無不散的筵席這個道理,可是明白跟接受畢竟還是兩回事,尤其是楚襄冉曾經一度認為,或許他們三個有機會能當一輩子的朋友……12Please respect copyright.PENANAIFLFmyJZsE
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很快的感到了食不下嚥,楚襄冉只又隨便扒了兩口飯,就把整個餐盒扔進了垃圾桶。12Please respect copyright.PENANARPDgZi9eNf
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想必官玄默也會搬家吧?於是又只剩下了他一個人。12Please respect copyright.PENANAGHsHZZd2uU
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往後再也沒有人會和他一起上學,考試前熬夜唸書,也不會有人招呼著自己要記得吃飯,所有曾經擁有過的關心都即將從他的生命中失去……12Please respect copyright.PENANAFKGNYrkjFr
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可是,他還是伸不出想要有人握住的手,沒辦法告訴官玄默,其實他也很需要他。12Please respect copyright.PENANAzXLa46opfd
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官玄默要能過得好……對楚襄冉而言,比什麼都重要。12Please respect copyright.PENANAXCdz0HFXeX
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「哪,要走的時候記得打聲招呼?」收拾好餐桌,楚襄冉微微一笑。12Please respect copyright.PENANA3jwSBs8aSv
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自己的心傷是自己的事,沒道理用自己的傷口去祈求任何人的憐望,尤其是當對方的悲慟遠遠超過自己的時候……12Please respect copyright.PENANAiQNXoofxCi
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於是,只能微笑著說再見……12Please respect copyright.PENANAoFkNWmFoyQ
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楚襄冉眼底所蘊藏著的,近乎絕望的情緒,官玄默終究沒能察覺。