天寶元年春日,藏劍山莊老莊主傳來消息,說是近期有一純陽宮真人旅經山莊後替之卜卦,竟明言葉家將有災厄降至,便私信命葉鸛速速歸莊承接其職責。96Please respect copyright.PENANAy3SMLfnHFa
男人顫抖指尖捏緊紙張,久久無法挪開視線。96Please respect copyright.PENANAJaW4XqzvlC
職責。96Please respect copyright.PENANAWgIxpXkjjC
這兩字如同烈焰灼燒其目。96Please respect copyright.PENANAHCKlDx3n3v
是啊,這幾年過得近乎平順,讓他忘記自己此刻姓葉的緣由。96Please respect copyright.PENANAA430Sipkhj
男人將書信壓至櫃底。96Please respect copyright.PENANAsdqOWcOJ4o
凝望眉頭深鎖的葉鸛,洪九安先沉默輕摸洪蒔的頭,少女立刻知曉母親之意、乖巧起身表示出去練習武學,接著女人疑惑開口:「你怎麼了?這幾天看你魂不守舍。」96Please respect copyright.PENANAUPWsdeI2U1
「我⋯⋯」渾身一震,葉鸛張口猶豫半晌才在女人視線下從實招來:「老莊主傳信來要我即刻歸莊,履行職責。」96Please respect copyright.PENANAqpC5WxQHT6
聽聞後洪九安也跟著沈默良久,她自然知曉葉鸛在山莊裡的為難處境,便問道:「你想回去嗎?」96Please respect copyright.PENANAvjWldCph9r
葉鸛目光停留在指尖。96Please respect copyright.PENANAQKjNtho1bE
想回去又或不想回去是如此簡單三言兩語能說清?96Please respect copyright.PENANAZ51Bvx3mTA
他並非莫願歸莊,畢竟那雖非其血親家族,卻也供其衣食與遮風避雨處。只是,這兩年在外頭有些自在慣了,若回去要面對的僅有職責與承受厄運,非但過去的恐懼與疼痛會自心底湧出,更參雜許多不甘。96Please respect copyright.PENANAcfjPNAx6L7
「我不知道⋯⋯」他喃喃低語闔起雙眸。96Please respect copyright.PENANALnAqXUP7Ly
見狀,洪九安似乎想握住對方的手卻在咫尺內停下,咬著唇思索後說:「若你要回去,需要我陪你嗎?」96Please respect copyright.PENANANW4keyPBJL
不掩訝異神態,葉鸛張開眼與洪九安對視。96Please respect copyright.PENANATnw2skORCP
他們在目光間遲疑試探彼此,或許是想得到某些承諾與肯首,卻終究沒能把話說出口,只怕連允諾都會改變熟悉的一切。96Please respect copyright.PENANANag3LjxBEM
最終,葉鸛還是搖頭。96Please respect copyright.PENANAOzP3zbXiDv
他必須自己回去面對。96Please respect copyright.PENANAcWGDwvmGOE
男人收拾簡單行囊便準備回西湖,道別時洪蒔貌似想拉住他卻沒動手,看了眼娘親壓在自己肩頭的手,僅是朝葉鸛揚起笑容。96Please respect copyright.PENANAenW7KqxU8e
少女的笑使葉鸛沒忍住出聲應允:「我約莫一月便能回來。」說完像是想確認什麼般直視洪九安。96Please respect copyright.PENANAqAOJ7ikxGD
而如此對視讓女人掌心收緊,許久後頷首。96Please respect copyright.PENANATfd3IP1Xhd
「我們等你回來。」
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久未長時留宿藏劍山莊,因此葉鸛無論面對不甚親近的兄姐、還是名義上為父親的葉孟秋都讓他略有不適,更莫提夜間被養父喚至房內、再三告誡責任。96Please respect copyright.PENANA8jwwbqNAOs
「你這幾年於揚州之事尚合乎家裡所盼,也算不愧與對兄姐照護、夫子教誨。」96Please respect copyright.PENANAsmeZFyNkdu
已顯老態的男人仍目光敏銳、丹田發聲有力。96Please respect copyright.PENANAxkkFAEGr1L
「你須護兄姐遠離厄運,便是對家族盡心盡力之舉,沒忘就隨道長去吧。」96Please respect copyright.PENANARxTBzDmQS4
葉鸛本以為自已能開口述其心中不願,未料在聽葉孟秋所述後仍是垂首接下指令,並隨旁側久駐的純陽道者前往與外隔絕的密室。只是,葉鸛跨出的每步都伴隨耳邊響起過去所聞。96Please respect copyright.PENANAv4yVW8pYVI
那些害怕再次憶起的一切。96Please respect copyright.PENANAAATubl2S3j
「羔羊尚知跪乳,養你多年就為吾兒分攤厄運。」96Please respect copyright.PENANAVvYHelEEpU
如無數聲響灌頂、於腦海竄流。96Please respect copyright.PENANArhX7Ji5hqw
「這孩子資質駑鈍,恐難成大事,成替災之人倒也不差。」96Please respect copyright.PENANAzL9Wx57dd0
無論是悲傷、憤怒、指責、批判,或鄙夷。96Please respect copyright.PENANAdo7uCHMYGk
「弟弟年紀小啊!你是兄長,怎捨得他們離家受苦?」96Please respect copyright.PENANAHev9YANJP1
還有被迫別離。96Please respect copyright.PENANAWNfy7oCX0k
「我們把阿火送去吧?葉大人給得起治病的銀兩啊⋯⋯」96Please respect copyright.PENANAz5Abm0C4bH
在這些話語下的葉鸛步伐逐漸遲緩,最終踏入密室前便無法支撐、雙腿跪顫抖跪下。他抬頭起來望見門內的鎖鏈與施咒陣法,引發手腕腳踝陣陣痛楚,趕忙挪開視線、不敢再看,深怕心底的恐懼又會將自己淹滅。96Please respect copyright.PENANAJdRoE91ZJe
直到某個熟悉嗓音響起。96Please respect copyright.PENANAWRHO7lDWRP
「需要我陪你嗎?」96Please respect copyright.PENANAdF4ruWbyoO
葉鸛猛然回首,本以為洪九安在身後,卻發現不過是空歡喜,僅能獨自撐起雙腿、邁入室中。96Please respect copyright.PENANAZLYvCbPmsc
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此次承厄做法結束後,葉鸛在山莊偏堂昏迷兩日、還發高燒不退,葉靚衣知曉後連忙派人送來些補品、葉暉也立即差了山莊內的大夫來診,卻無人能斷言是何病,僅能估量是嚴重風寒。96Please respect copyright.PENANAEcnjngShd1
終究未有人知曉真相。96Please respect copyright.PENANAKRZQHTgull
被厄運纏身的葉鸛呻吟不止,在詭譎混亂的夢裡他又成為張火,反覆被爺娘綁在懸崖邊的樹上。96Please respect copyright.PENANAHuU7jkYE1i
途中,他死命抓住娘親的手臂、衣袖,卻終究被她指指扳開,綑於盤根錯節的樹幹,讓生長於此樹巨大又不祥的鳥類將其包圍、被其以不解的目光審視。緊接著狂風作響、暴雨打下,不過是孩童的他毫無遮蔽,父母卻在遠處屋中抱緊幼弟凝望一切。96Please respect copyright.PENANAoJVePZfb3k
明明連娘親的長相都記不住,遙遠到成為褪色又殘破的肖像,然為何指尖堅決的分離之感卻那麼清晰?96Please respect copyright.PENANA0Th8Kg9gk9
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阿娘,不要走⋯⋯96Please respect copyright.PENANA6DkdidH7wq
我會當個好孩子,我不會惹你生氣,我會好好照顧弟妹。96Please respect copyright.PENANA44PA3isQZB
阿爺,不要走⋯⋯96Please respect copyright.PENANAXHzxCYaNpz
我什麼都願意做!96Please respect copyright.PENANAtkLuWn9CKe
不要賣掉我——96Please respect copyright.PENANA1Xrb6XWvGY
不要離開我!96Please respect copyright.PENANA67Ac3TBZ9A
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「阿娘⋯⋯」96Please respect copyright.PENANAbakmtPawpt
微涼的布條驅散葉鸛額間灼熱與暈眩,半迷茫中他好像感受到有隻手握著自己,伴隨他陷入沉穩的安睡裡,直到夢境雨勢逐漸轉為綿綿細絲,最後終於醒在微亮晨曦間。96Please respect copyright.PENANA7SvJj7m0eq
而他睜眼就看見洪九安坐在床畔,霎那愣住以為仍在夢中,直到對方開口:96Please respect copyright.PENANAa2rAPNnl1H
「呦,醒了?」96Please respect copyright.PENANA9bXRF6UPRC
女人看起來疲憊目光卻清醒,葉鸛環視後注意到洪蒔也正睡在另側的臥椅上頭,支嗚幾聲才找回聲音、以沙啞的嗓子問:「九安⋯⋯妳怎麼在這裡?」96Please respect copyright.PENANASElLW47YKZ
見男人思緒貌似混亂,女人安撫般低語:「你們家小姐表示你剛回來便久病不起,很擔心你,讓人請我來看看,現在如何?」而看著依舊莫敢置信的葉鸛,她忍不住笑出來,卻又怕吵醒女兒收聲表示:「不用勉強起來,想睡就再睡一會吧。」96Please respect copyright.PENANAESyJmx9F1b
「我會在這邊。」96Please respect copyright.PENANAm6IoLV96Lo
洪九安相當溫柔。96Please respect copyright.PENANAU1rm3J9eGU
認識多年後葉鸛依舊如此認為。96Please respect copyright.PENANA7EPT1Zj8Wf
儘管這說出口會被當成笑話,但他比誰都清楚,洪九安的溫柔並非若大家閨秀般地婉約可人,畢竟她豪放不拘、武功了得、也曾對自己怒吼喝斥,如同所有江湖兒女。96Please respect copyright.PENANAzEiXMjIyTF
其溫柔是知曉如何在下墜的夢魘中伸手拉住自己,是當自己傾吐軟弱時也不會出言嘲弄。96Please respect copyright.PENANAbnMtAEDc79
葉鸛凝望洪九安,內心浮現慾念。96Please respect copyright.PENANAa8BVJlgTDA
他一生未敢奢求什麼,然而今日卻想要⋯⋯得到她。96Please respect copyright.PENANAlNGplcGFQ5
要她永遠在自己身邊。96Please respect copyright.PENANAJWahuhfPdy
他忍不住想向女人伸出手抓住她,如同當初用盡全力攫緊離去的娘親那般。然而,男人尚未碰到洪九安便與其四目相接。96Please respect copyright.PENANAYWPX6lvCRo
在那雙眸子凝視下,葉鸛腦中驀地浮初見的她、與其發生爭執的她、現喝醉時欲泣的她,緊接是被無數口舌評價的她,霎時交疊。96Please respect copyright.PENANA3noKwrLgGN
我為什麼有這麼可怕的想法?96Please respect copyright.PENANAxDuKznbn4r
洪九安並非物品,他又何能得到她呢?96Please respect copyright.PENANA3O6yFGmSpQ
我到底真正想要的是什麼?96Please respect copyright.PENANAcaNRouIrMv
「傻甚麼啊?」洪九安瞧葉鸛怔著模樣如剛睡醒的洪蒔,便沒忍住如對洪蒔般輕拍男人頭。96Please respect copyright.PENANAzW6T2dr6qe
只是她才撫上男人的髮絲便愣住,葉鸛亦同。96Please respect copyright.PENANAcAFpz0V9JE
沉默蔓延,兩人皆下意識撇過頭,而洪九安本要抽回僵直的手卻被葉鸛握住。96Please respect copyright.PENANANDWLCTQgKl
其實葉鸛長久來都不清楚女人到底怎麼看自己,但此刻他知道那雙纖細又長年練武的掌心沒有騙人。96Please respect copyright.PENANAu7boKockuM
女人跟自己相同。96Please respect copyright.PENANA6a2majy1a2
想靠近卻又畏懼。96Please respect copyright.PENANAUA82C0ZLfS
「九安⋯⋯」96Please respect copyright.PENANAVjODmEK4tU
他有些膽怯,仍輕聲呼喚。96Please respect copyright.PENANAoDVMfy4vTn
「我⋯⋯」96Please respect copyright.PENANArAL85kNeqN
稍微掙脫被握著的手,洪九安打斷葉鸛接下來要說的話語,垂首沈思,良久起身到桌上拿起藥酒斟滿兩盞,並將其中一杯遞給葉鸛。96Please respect copyright.PENANAANH9TgNzZT
那酒味甚淡,是葉鸛能接受的濃度。96Please respect copyright.PENANAAA15CWyGYT
「阿鸛⋯⋯」96Please respect copyright.PENANAUA1oK43bn3
她忽然呼喚其名。96Please respect copyright.PENANAQzih4IzL3w
「突然很想說,這些年也謝謝你了。」女人邊講邊舉杯道:「有時候會覺得雖說爺娘走得早,但上天也待我不薄,讓我仍然擁有家人。」96Please respect copyright.PENANAb8WMuuVNRS
講到這,洪九安露出晴朗笑意,如同張鸛遇見洪蒔那天看見的朝陽,把他心中的海面染成金碧輝煌,炫目移不開視線。96Please respect copyright.PENANAwc8rPM8hNK
家人⋯⋯96Please respect copyright.PENANA1ybvj02hKB
那是其從沒理解的關係,更是未曾聽過的言語。96Please respect copyright.PENANAKq73nApdDT
生於張家開始,到被放棄賣到葉家成為姓葉的某人,葉鸛總覺自己無依無靠,如同大樹上的枯枝,即使遭蟲蛀或被風吹雨打落也不會有人在乎。96Please respect copyright.PENANA7bR76QlzMz
可此刻眼前的女子卻突然出現,將他從地上撿起、攜其同行、踏上朝向未知江湖的旅程,仿若於最幽暗之時提起明燈,指引迷津。96Please respect copyright.PENANA8HjkmRZbz1
因此即使有些惶恐,葉鸛仍伸出手托住酒杯和洪九安的杯緣相碰。96Please respect copyright.PENANAj2jBH8vzoe
「讓我們敬能共飲於這江湖中吧。」96Please respect copyright.PENANAwnEPc2UtDs
他不是很懂,但若與君共行或許某天能找到答案吧。96Please respect copyright.PENANAqPin9Q5clq
兩人雙雙仰頭飲下。
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泰阿姥仰望天幕。96Please respect copyright.PENANAqGeabKOlJn
雙星同生,能燒毀彼此亦能互相照耀。96Please respect copyright.PENANAW7sIYva9tL
她所擔心之事並未發生,看來果真否極泰來。思及此,老婦人露出欣慰又帶點哀傷的笑容拿起酒壺。96Please respect copyright.PENANA8PE34sGluf
朝天敬酒。
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