I think I'm obsessed with the idea of living on a roof of a tall building.
But these two times I tried to go onto a roof, both have been locked.
I'm not sure for what purpouse, that one building in Block 63 had a roof that looked safe. Like the roof of that building in Casagrandes. That one show that Julia watches on Nickelodeon.
It all seems inviting, even though at one point I would jump off of one and regret it midway through falling.
Anxiety really can feel like depression.
And as I'm sitting here on my bed, contemplating life decisions with my overly cocky ego while eating a Capri ice cream...
This city seems all too depressing for my liking.
Why can't Belgrade be like Munich?
Doesn't Munich have some of its flaws?
Certainly less than Belgrade.
I guess that's a story for another time. I'll just enjoy this day as is. And I should probably go outside... I shouldn't waste my time eating ice cream indoors while I could eat it outdoors, on some edge of a soviet bunker somewhere in Block 63...
alone.
Well, I'd rather enjoy the spotless sky on my own then a person that barely listens to me spoiling it... a.k.a. my friends.
I guess most of them just became a huge nuisance after a while... and most of the random people on the street seem mean.
I want someone who understands me, at least to some extent. Who's patient enough to hear through my complaining. But it seems pretty hard to find... as every other person I see has the 'stereotypical' Serbian look.
For guys:
Adidas vest, those Nike shoes with those air thingies on the back... I'm not sure, one time I tried them, they were really uncomfortable. Paired with a vape or loud shouting... there you have it.
They're generally obnoxious to be around.
For girls:
Tight clothing, (probably to show off their curves, but also I'm not the one to judge since I ain't into that 🫠) a, pardon me, sh*t ton of makeup, hair in a bun and heartless giggles.
Ugh...
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Actually, there was this one girl, Mila. She looked like a decent person.
She goes to German classes with me.
I asked her to hang out three, but she rejected every time.
So I won't try again.
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What now?
I guess I'll publish another issue soon.
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