they say "i love you" and then shove a table into my gut,41Please respect copyright.PENANAszl0mncvMX
all in the same breath with no hesitation.41Please respect copyright.PENANA4ObsChMckc
they apologize two hours twenty-three minutes later41Please respect copyright.PENANAwZdB7PLqfz
but no "sorry" will ever hide the bruising.41Please respect copyright.PENANAaz27Vvhwen
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they repeat the same mantra over and over,41Please respect copyright.PENANABWcPgOswW5
sounding like a broken record of "sorry"s and "i love you"s41Please respect copyright.PENANATxIjQW9EtS
but in the end they still withhold dinner,41Please respect copyright.PENANAeWgg2JIcD0
dangling it above my head like a cat does to a mouse.41Please respect copyright.PENANA2yabI1vMqH
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and they wonder, two years later, why i scarf down meals41Please respect copyright.PENANANiZ3D6FoR3
with all the grace of a rabid animal who hasn't seen food in months.41Please respect copyright.PENANAOoahF9saH9
and they wonder why my hands shake and i flinch41Please respect copyright.PENANARqZz7RaVMw
every time they shout, shoulders hunched in like i can fold myself over.41Please respect copyright.PENANAQDZDCwV8sq
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bruises litter my skin, part of it from running into walls and desks,41Please respect copyright.PENANA4wbk8qPfSt
but part of it is from running from bitter faces and angry hands.41Please respect copyright.PENANAsY0pDp9KAF
my skin is marked, iron-tipped nails ripping into flesh for relief41Please respect copyright.PENANAXmcvriogQr
and blaming the left behind scratches on the dog.41Please respect copyright.PENANAlS2xiQ2BQ3
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they call it "dermatillomania" and "picker's syndrome",41Please respect copyright.PENANAxYeHhNUmUC
said it was all mental and to just stop41Please respect copyright.PENANAXvo5lLhcps
but it was habits formed out of pent up41Please respect copyright.PENANADZUvNQnFsu
frustration and stress and sheer disbelief at the disregard they had for their own daughter's life.41Please respect copyright.PENANAKN10RH24Eq
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they said it was all in my mind,41Please respect copyright.PENANAs4XANZcQ4W
the anxiety, the stress.41Please respect copyright.PENANAyywRvpddXp
that i had a happy, loving family41Please respect copyright.PENANAgwxrDF4Fb6
and i was perfectly fine.41Please respect copyright.PENANAwn2I4maWz3
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i'm not.41Please respect copyright.PENANAjgmuyzrjdh
i'm drowning in my own blood41Please respect copyright.PENANAqJslAQWzl2
and choking on my tongue41Please respect copyright.PENANAXkPVHfuyn9
when i try to say so.41Please respect copyright.PENANA5Jto05jhk6
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...41Please respect copyright.PENANAlyyQsPShB9
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(it's all in my mind.41Please respect copyright.PENANAYFPfnWQ1A5
every last drop of anxiety,41Please respect copyright.PENANAe6IAvUdbEn
i have a happy, loving family.41Please respect copyright.PENANAyAMgv1CCQ4
i'm perfectly fine.)41Please respect copyright.PENANAOPwlbiHBIu