they say "i love you" and then shove a table into my gut,192Please respect copyright.PENANAwk06wmMjYl
all in the same breath with no hesitation.192Please respect copyright.PENANAPkqXrOiixu
they apologize two hours twenty-three minutes later192Please respect copyright.PENANAxMR3JQpmct
but no "sorry" will ever hide the bruising.192Please respect copyright.PENANAOVDaITJxhD
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they repeat the same mantra over and over,192Please respect copyright.PENANATPM2L8qkpY
sounding like a broken record of "sorry"s and "i love you"s192Please respect copyright.PENANAgzRYNUxxFg
but in the end they still withhold dinner,192Please respect copyright.PENANAjuQlivfEV1
dangling it above my head like a cat does to a mouse.192Please respect copyright.PENANA2Vdy5jCNCK
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and they wonder, two years later, why i scarf down meals192Please respect copyright.PENANAl5kCGFvIxk
with all the grace of a rabid animal who hasn't seen food in months.192Please respect copyright.PENANApPtGYulSO0
and they wonder why my hands shake and i flinch192Please respect copyright.PENANAlBL8RZLJKu
every time they shout, shoulders hunched in like i can fold myself over.192Please respect copyright.PENANAIoi2yCRWg0
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bruises litter my skin, part of it from running into walls and desks,192Please respect copyright.PENANAQqOwSRqbLs
but part of it is from running from bitter faces and angry hands.192Please respect copyright.PENANAa74BvkUFGL
my skin is marked, iron-tipped nails ripping into flesh for relief192Please respect copyright.PENANASbQhuBVF9i
and blaming the left behind scratches on the dog.192Please respect copyright.PENANA3uqlL6k9sk
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they call it "dermatillomania" and "picker's syndrome",192Please respect copyright.PENANAVp9fsxrY2P
said it was all mental and to just stop192Please respect copyright.PENANAd1q1p9HfwM
but it was habits formed out of pent up192Please respect copyright.PENANAokboCxXouE
frustration and stress and sheer disbelief at the disregard they had for their own daughter's life.192Please respect copyright.PENANAyzMzHtnDuS
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they said it was all in my mind,192Please respect copyright.PENANAGoGBBzOwaq
the anxiety, the stress.192Please respect copyright.PENANA5dq3pKH5mq
that i had a happy, loving family192Please respect copyright.PENANAjtMW0qhcYw
and i was perfectly fine.192Please respect copyright.PENANAvLnAvKV8YV
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i'm not.192Please respect copyright.PENANApcNv9BJxYy
i'm drowning in my own blood192Please respect copyright.PENANA9JMg7kzjQO
and choking on my tongue192Please respect copyright.PENANAGsm6DEdiGj
when i try to say so.192Please respect copyright.PENANAs2eDI1osiS
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...192Please respect copyright.PENANAkLw2axnLBV
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(it's all in my mind.192Please respect copyright.PENANAyLnIr5Bd8p
every last drop of anxiety,192Please respect copyright.PENANAHb7TSOAEPv
i have a happy, loving family.192Please respect copyright.PENANA2rJveCXKQx
i'm perfectly fine.)192Please respect copyright.PENANAjkPVUZTWcI