Trying to Blend In as Usual...159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ14xyd7iS9U
At one time, I did end up going for a longer time without eating. I was so stressed and hurting on the inside that it started to show on the outside when I was starting to become just skin and bones.159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAFsGyIntUV
I felt extremely hurt on the inside, so I went on and popped many pills. I went and stood inside the crowd of people who were waiting to go inside the dining hall. I was looking quite pale and faint when the girl who was standing in front of me asked me if I was okay.
I did tell her that I was just tired, that’s all. And we walked into the dining hall. I didn’t have the appetite to eat anything, and I felt quite faint. I did go into the dining hall and came out still feeling weak and exhausted.159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcylXHtbUkH
We went back to the dormitories, and I tried to sleep the whole thing off, but sleeping did not cut it. It was in the evening, and it was dark. I was pretty sure no one would notice me sleeping and slippin' off into oblivion in our dark dormitory, up to the point when I started vomiting.159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcA0FXdoldm
Since I had nothing in my stomach for a while, I did feel like puking, but not much was coming out. I guess since no one knew what had happened, they just thought I had a bad stomach ache and a high fever, that’s all.
I had to sleep with a bucket under my bed because I was too weak to go and puke in the bathroom. I guess my body just puked most of the not-so-digested pills out. And the rest remaining were fought off by my white blood cells.159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo5TUq4oNUH
I then woke up the next day feeling drained with a low-grade fever, and I was told by our matron to go to the hospital for a physical, but I don’t remember going.159Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmfHLEH4kZT
