小世有一瞬感謝阿何也開始為相思所苦,幫他出主意時顯得更積極且廢話很少,多了點同情心。兩人再三討論後小世掏出了他那一千零一件正式套裝,大學面試時那件,還用便利商店的服務燙好襯衫。64Please respect copyright.PENANAXmG0jjoU1g
當郝醫生以不亞於相親那天的正裝出現時小世真的是謝天謝地,感謝老天爺自己沒有穿得太休閒。餐廳的確也如兩人的猜測,滿高檔的,但不到貴得離譜,小世出得起自己那部分。64Please respect copyright.PENANAKc7CZpaNEy
實際開吃後小世發現料理非常好吃,相較之下價錢便宜到離譜。64Please respect copyright.PENANAPBg18Af18R
用餐期間小世跟郝醫生自然的交談。郝醫生一如往常的冷著臉,不殷勤的態度讓小世竊喜,愉快地享用餐點。64Please respect copyright.PENANAzLKMnGCA9V
小世等到呈上飲料後才開口詢問。64Please respect copyright.PENANAK9YT8g3WiB
「怎麼突然約我?」64Please respect copyright.PENANARv7uH6UBiF
「嗯。」郝醫生在咖啡裡加了驚人份量的糖與牛奶。想到郝醫生來便利商店只會點黑咖啡,小世暗自讚嘆這個人的自制力。64Please respect copyright.PENANAYWRvBquSyL
郝醫生放下湯匙,但沒有碰攪拌均勻的咖啡。64Please respect copyright.PENANA3xs30SVbpD
「以後別再見面了。」郝醫生直視小世,一字一字說得清晰明白。64Please respect copyright.PENANAVQPAkUZBgt
小世有心理準備。好的心理準備跟壞的都有,而他跟阿何都理性不悲觀的同意,壞的可能性比較高。64Please respect copyright.PENANATjgdadb6nv
縱使如此,小世內心還是一片空白,像危險的無風帶、異常寧靜的汪洋。64Please respect copyright.PENANAkRoNuagDSa
「郝醫生──」64Please respect copyright.PENANARkKrNyV9Gz
郝醫生打斷了小世精心準備的應對台詞。64Please respect copyright.PENANAZ6NfdiCFXp
「我快辭職了。」64Please respect copyright.PENANAH013ZpEf7I
「欸?」天外飛來的消息像雷。「辭、辭職?」64Please respect copyright.PENANAPbNyIZFV9V
「辭職。」郝醫生喝了口咖啡。64Please respect copyright.PENANAGRTgE6lVtT
「要去別間醫院?」小世轉起腦袋,設法讓自己的語氣不太過凌亂。「自己開業?會變很忙?」64Please respect copyright.PENANAwxSAGB8p72
「抱歉,讓我說得更清楚點。」64Please respect copyright.PENANAVgYL5GRilc
在這瞬間小世難得的覻見郝醫生的猶豫。但他到了好久好久之後才懂。64Please respect copyright.PENANAeGo83NmKK3
「我不當醫生了。」64Please respect copyright.PENANAt7IWKJuwHY
遠天彷彿有驚雷迅速逼近小世頭頂。64Please respect copyright.PENANAGFNhiTXuyi
「欸?所以──」64Please respect copyright.PENANAPyYQTdrXT8
郝醫生豎起手掌,堵住小世的漫天猜測。64Please respect copyright.PENANAQHsXEouBxN
「下個月中我會離開臺灣。」64Please respect copyright.PENANAlyhVGea0TM
晴天霹靂。小世真是驚呆了。離開臺灣?欸?欸?他本來是真的認為不當醫生很好,一個救人還要被被救的人揍的鬼行業。高薪工作這麼多,小世不認為郝醫生只能靠當醫生過活。64Please respect copyright.PENANA6VGjbpVemu
但離開臺灣?什麼意思?64Please respect copyright.PENANAVestAZOdzi
「離開⋯⋯」腦袋被情緒卡死的小世只能重複關鍵字。64Please respect copyright.PENANA5VnblLXlh6
「去義大利。」郝醫生用談論天氣的語氣講著驚人的事實。「留學。」64Please respect copyright.PENANA9ued4SofBz
「進修⋯⋯?」64Please respect copyright.PENANA1Db0R50PAJ
小世剎那間想通了很多事情。64Please respect copyright.PENANAdBNbFVdkJ8
郝醫生刻意挑釁林小姐的話。要帶他去療傷時經過的那個人,被郝醫生叫學長的人;小世後來知道那人是郝醫生的主任,他當時看著郝醫生了一句什麼?64Please respect copyright.PENANAEp08HppPoV
──「你不要因為這樣就⋯⋯」64Please respect copyright.PENANAzfhVl0TLcI
所以那句話完整版本是,「你不要因為這樣就辭職」?64Please respect copyright.PENANAAPVAzGDdbj
郝醫生睡迷糊時抱著他說,時機不對。64Please respect copyright.PENANAzvppmbZzKq
極度節儉的生活,各種省錢。64Please respect copyright.PENANAqynHinju5m
下個月中。小世混沌的腦還是想得到,那是開學前後。64Please respect copyright.PENANAvq7pcukpa0
阿腦醫生叫自己學義大利文。所以阿腦醫生無所不用其極的在湊合他跟郝醫生,是因為想留下郝醫生?不贊成?64Please respect copyright.PENANAMJUHy6ZDZs
很難贊成吧。不,是怎麼可能贊成。64Please respect copyright.PENANAdbMZsowlua
離開相較穩定的工作,離開故鄉去異國。64Please respect copyright.PENANAPKxIdjck5w
對當事者而言一定也不是輕鬆的決定。阿腦醫生是走投無路才幫自己?聯合小可安排相親?追小可又是為什麼?該不會想藉此威脅郝醫生?這麼中二──⋯⋯64Please respect copyright.PENANAdHtl98tZU4
中二?幼稚?64Please respect copyright.PENANAoJRlMQmWaO
要多絕望,才會讓一個出社會已久的醫生出這種無腦的下下策?64Please respect copyright.PENANAqvl544OIdg
「不是進修。」郝醫生喝完了咖啡。「Accademia di Belle Arti di Bologna⋯⋯藝術學院。我會先去讀語言學校。」64Please respect copyright.PENANA1g5dfyKoKT
「藝術?耶?」64Please respect copyright.PENANASrfnRVD8Si
郝醫生簡潔有力的做結。64Please respect copyright.PENANAza6UJ6flne
「學插畫。」64Please respect copyright.PENANA6kYGCXk4yP
「留學的話幾年?」焦躁染上了喉頭。「我可以等──」64Please respect copyright.PENANA7rVjkIb0nQ
郝醫生沉默。64Please respect copyright.PENANAr3t3zY5Aus
那雙好看的眼就這樣看著小世,直到小世顫抖的吐出明擺著的事實。64Please respect copyright.PENANAmvR26X5s6v
「⋯⋯你不打算回來了?」64Please respect copyright.PENANAtHyguzI9U9
「目前沒有打算。」64Please respect copyright.PENANAT4PEJSh9Yo
「家、家人呢?」64Please respect copyright.PENANA0tbV3wvpPq
郝醫生笑了。笑的好為難,用笑容讓小世知道自己的問題越界了。64Please respect copyright.PENANA9Z3YSrhHg4
小世的雙唇無聲開闔,像離水的魚。如果越界就能讓郝醫生回心轉意⋯⋯64Please respect copyright.PENANAspOeVP7Djs
前一秒還覺得阿腦醫生幼稚的想法早就蕩然無存。64Please respect copyright.PENANAHfeuIbazwA
不要走。64Please respect copyright.PENANAvBdoKdKUgr
「不可能。」64Please respect copyright.PENANAD14wGCPANM
郝醫生像是讀懂小世所有的心聲,淺淺的嘆。64Please respect copyright.PENANA6ZFZKK4Wjq
別歎氣。64Please respect copyright.PENANAJhJ4u3h5GA
「我該更早告訴你。」充滿歉意的淡笑。「不應該讓你懷抱任何希望。我很抱──」64Please respect copyright.PENANAyPiPoEkqVI
別道歉。64Please respect copyright.PENANA5GJsj5qd9m
「為什麼,」小世從很遠的地方找回自己的嗓音,打斷郝醫生。「插畫?」64Please respect copyright.PENANALThKKvvlyT
郝醫生頓了一下。64Please respect copyright.PENANA7tcNqdUila
「我想走自己的人生。」64Please respect copyright.PENANAptx99j3cHc
小世感受得到這句話後頭包含著無數的故事。或說只有一個過去,深沉的故事。64Please respect copyright.PENANAuvKkYjrtgI
郝醫生不打算告訴他的故事。64Please respect copyright.PENANAOOqLmdFngp
說不出話來,小世愣愣的看著郝醫生,他怕眼淚當著郝醫生的面直接奪眶而出,但更怕垂下眼就少看郝醫生一秒。64Please respect copyright.PENANAlgrwRiIWQW
「世先生,你覺得我們現在是什麼關係?」64Please respect copyright.PENANABSbpyiW7fQ
含著笑,郝醫生正襟危坐,雙手交疊在膝上。64Please respect copyright.PENANAzvI4VEPSr2
「⋯⋯炮友?」在這節骨眼小世仍然不甘心回答朋友。「曖、曖昧對象?績優股?」64Please respect copyright.PENANATz6M1BwxLt
「在說什麼呢。」郝醫生笑得好優雅,也好無情。「都可以。現在的我,不需要炮友,或曖昧對象,或績優股。」64Please respect copyright.PENANAtNMYoea0CK
全盤否定。64Please respect copyright.PENANAfqWpC0pPxp
「剩下的上班時間不多,但我不會再去便利商──」64Please respect copyright.PENANARa8R4XQkFs
「郝醫生,你不接受我⋯⋯」小世扯起了個比哭還要難看的笑容。「跟你是不是要辭職,無關對吧?」64Please respect copyright.PENANAg8wx6FhQQb
單純就是,對小世沒感覺。64Please respect copyright.PENANAkC6CioNK9v
而接下來不想再見面,是因為忙。所剩時間不多,沒有多餘的時間能撥給小世。64Please respect copyright.PENANAhqPzXBByEj
郝醫生要出國,還是郝醫生還不喜歡他,兩件事情小世不知道哪個比較絕望,小世只確定,當兩件事情重疊在一起,成功地擊沉了他,消滅了所有希望。64Please respect copyright.PENANAfvmu1BSK5W
「世──」64Please respect copyright.PENANAOWbdGayvVi
「明天。」小世終於忍不住低下頭。一滴淚打在桌面上。好險只有一滴,他迅速抬頭,故作輕鬆。「明天再拒絕我,好嗎?」64Please respect copyright.PENANAwpDJDq0g5E
64Please respect copyright.PENANAoZE0GTJMxL