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翻閱前陣子、加起來連一幅九宮格都還拚湊不起來的貼文後,突然發現一直在紀錄過去很久的瑣事……剛好遇上節日,增添些快樂的氛圍或許也不錯。81Please respect copyright.PENANA4XE0Uao43M
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大家總習慣這麼說服自己,不是嗎?81Please respect copyright.PENANArNAK02xHJl
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聖誕節——西方流通過來的節日,不知從什麼時候開始,跟風的亞洲人們開始不明緣由地擅自跟著慶祝起來,斷章取義成單純騙騙小孩童年、大家快樂就好的節日——不過轉念一想,非虔誠教徒的西方人大概也是這麼認為。81Please respect copyright.PENANA0Bh9XtJfv9
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誰知道?反正我也沒認識什麼外國人。81Please respect copyright.PENANAjB93bCuewy
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「我回來了——」今天他比平常早些到家,是早於一般下班時間的三點二十分,就像一種以自我為中心的體貼。81Please respect copyright.PENANAezxori5Scy
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通常這時段我都會在主臥附設的小陽台上作畫;畫著因婚姻而再也無法觸及的那片大海。而現在就連這份短暫的寧靜,都會隨時因突發狀況或者日常瑣事拖延、打破、不了了之。81Please respect copyright.PENANAHf8DldYWKe
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「爸爸回來了!歡迎回來——」81Please respect copyright.PENANA0KwKZxQgtd
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「歡、歡迎回來……」81Please respect copyright.PENANAj3vnupAvdj
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「乖,你們在家有沒有聽媽媽的話?」81Please respect copyright.PENANAOSOgnGLaj8
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背對輕靠房門靜靜聽著,從語句和聲音就能想見我的兩個兒子從客廳的玩具堆裡起身,歡欣雀躍跑去投入他的懷抱。而一向溫柔可靠的丈夫此刻也會蹲下身來迎接他們,為了一視同仁而放下公事包,也不擔心明日我該如何處理他那身被孩子們弄皺的西裝,一手一個環抱住,父子深情不言而喻,總能搏得外人一口一句完美爸爸的頭銜。81Please respect copyright.PENANAgzZYPsbmg3
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人們常說一個人越缺乏什麼;就越容易渴求……或者設法要求自己必須做到,看來這句話在他身上同樣應驗。81Please respect copyright.PENANAKiSL4wO1iD
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但說白了,他也的確是個好父親。81Please respect copyright.PENANAsMl7GhGUUo
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「……你回來了啊,老公。」在深呼吸幾口氣調節自己語氣;手指揉按臉頰確保唇角上揚後,我扭動門把走出,笑容姿態顯得溫柔賢良,設法博得外人與他口中一句完美妻子的頭銜。「今天特別早?不是說最近案子多嗎?」81Please respect copyright.PENANA3OU1lmcKTB
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「今天陪委託人開庭,比預期還要早結束,但要是再回事務所又差不多下班了……加上今天聖誕節,上頭的讓我直接從法院回家。」81Please respect copyright.PENANAJ0JqjM8RTv
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讓黎真和晚真先把帶回來慶祝的蛋糕拿去冰箱,我習慣性伸手想為他脫下上班穿的黑西裝外套——卻被丈夫一個側身閃過動作。81Please respect copyright.PENANALGKuHPEvXt
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「顏料。」81Please respect copyright.PENANAoSQxOYFZq6
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僅僅平淡的兩個字,便讓我的雙手凝滯於半空,隨後只能摸回自己作畫時才會穿的工作裙使力抹淨。81Please respect copyright.PENANAchVoUIEAWL
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「……抱歉,這時間我通常都在畫圖你也知道的,所以才……」81Please respect copyright.PENANAirmd1XGBKw
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「沒事,我不會限制妳的愛好,但記得別讓顏料沾到衣服或是家裡其他地方,事後很難清洗。」81Please respect copyright.PENANAnen2zQyHeP
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「……嗯。」我很想跟他說,那是水彩顏料,只要用水就能輕鬆從很多地方抹去。81Please respect copyright.PENANAhnfoAYhmkJ
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但最終這些解釋依然沒有出口,而是隨我拖拽室內拖鞋的腳步一同帶回臥室裡的小陽台;那副還未完成的畫作前,以免成為銜接認知誤差的導火索引爆新一輪爭吵。81Please respect copyright.PENANA0IGwg2J3Gb
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不能在孩子們看得見的地方爭吵,這是我們共同約束彼此的底線,誰若觸犯了——這場爭執就注定由誰道歉作結。81Please respect copyright.PENANAbw0iDHNQTy
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「不要拖著拖鞋走路,下頭鄰居會抗議的。」在進來臥室拿換洗衣物時,他又補充了句。81Please respect copyright.PENANAC8Gftm56GP
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我不想道歉、不想在發洩情緒後還必須妥協,所以很垃圾地選擇了事前卑微。81Please respect copyright.PENANAXhdfkWfFXV
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「知道了。」這次我應答地很快,丈夫也在一句簡短的「愛妳,老婆」後,去外頭的浴室梳洗了。81Please respect copyright.PENANAhnKMGfFWGH
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那天晚上我們帶著孩子們在木製餐桌上,共享由廚藝甚好的他準備的豐盛晚餐;Merry Christmas 相關的歌謠圍繞切開聖誕蛋糕的刀刃分成八片三角,幸福彷彿在這一瞬間成了我們一家四口最合適的代表詞。81Please respect copyright.PENANAH9zvbuDint
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如果,不看陽台那副被潑上水溝般骯髒洗筆水的畫作的話。81Please respect copyright.PENANArBLklo1XTO
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哦對了,我的丈夫……叫權時宇。81Please respect copyright.PENANApYp9Jq9W0p
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「聖誕快樂。」81Please respect copyright.PENANA4CPIy2FXsa
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