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突然這樣問好像有點唐突，但是我就只問一句：接下來，我還可以去哪兒？716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUVxrsB7OJB
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「嗡隆……」716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY7AstMBrwF
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月台的列車早已經消失在路軌的盡頭，那只是風聲在軌道間捲起的悲鳴，如哭泣，如哀號。白晝時是夢想王國入口的迪士尼站變得冷清，只剩下漸漸遠去的列車泛起的勁風餘浪清散在晚風間。716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvQThjapmLC
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錯過尾班車了…呢。716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3rRHDPBkCL
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdxZWxpGlu9
左顧右盼，空蕩蕩的月台就只有我一人。樂園早已關門，這只因樂園而存在的車站馬上變成了前不著村，後不著店的孤島。716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtXJAyJffev
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接下來，我還可以去哪兒？716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5xIhI7vXjL
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDRgLsXsQCp
真是的，解僱信有必要在下班後才給我們嗎？賠一個月代通知金就能為所欲為嗎？要我們即時收拾東西也不考慮一下迪士尼線的尾班車時間嗎？716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfh7xA0wrJ8
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMGzVPJmQoy
心情壞透了。716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYTOcUkdnaY
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbrxskER1XO
無可奈何地坐到月台上的長椅後，我看著路軌另一側的廣告燈箱發著呆。我沒有思索回家的辦法，這樣坐著也沒甚麼意思，我對那些減肥藥完全沒興趣，只是……716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIGHRt3nfen
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……抱歉，我也不知道。716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp3ZwMM1TVv
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdefo4AcLS5
開甚麼玩笑了，城堡要維修至少兩三年，所以接下來也沒煙火表演，於是把整隊煙火工程團隊解雇掉？外判職員就這樣可有可無嗎？還有為甚麼有人能留任到最後一次煙火後調去其他項目，我就能滾蛋？716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpntthdZaU3
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzTKhWMG9Kh
「唉。」716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPX5sIj3fpG
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyxgu7I77sz
抬頭看著月台的玻璃幕門，倒影中的我也看回來。716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhBuqjdlX95
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqCmePllzhW
溫年柏，廿四歲，失業，失戀，失敗。716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYl0C4SzRTT
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkI5gRL4Ca4
倒影中不堪入目的我實在有夠礙眼，所以我下意識地閉上雙目迴避，腦海中浮現的卻是一幀又一幀的回憶。716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFWN6yoQ8gb
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFbkmTpuAvC
「十優狀元確診胃癌 仍然不放棄醫生夢」716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7GkoqH2fYd
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8hWA0kJZq9
「跳級畢業 狀元完夢 抗癌之路不忘救人初心」716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3kqgDBZBrs
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡePyIZTNdhZ
「狀元醫生遺愛人間 心臟贈少年」716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0YxRRfJZQP
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7IQt7H4TaY
來，猜猜看那顆心臟被捐到誰身上？716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ4cG57Kc0K
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjflyi9NnI9
我指尖滑過自己胸膛，即使隔著衣服也能感覺到那道又大又醜的疤痕在，如在悼念著那個從未見過面的救命恩人。716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Q0FmfNhzQ
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfZw0quNvLN
先不說現在尾班車已經開走，我跳下去也不會有列車撞過來。這條命是借來的，我沒有糟蹋的權利。如果不是，我早就……716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMxoU52rb9t
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhiRzVizV42
活成這個樣子，真抱歉。716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmjrp2Eevlf
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzM6YlxPgP9
本來不應該是這樣子的，真抱歉。716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKBJzupxeLI
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2QuTCiSAQj
「先生。」716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBA5vOkfUKQ
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDcQcDnAlQ8
一個地鐵職員出現在我旁邊，打斷了我的茫然。716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZAkrcAeGBR
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm1jrL9keJI
「唔好意思，我地夠鐘閂站。」716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSQQy4UxMhC
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsYXoMetGhC
「閂…站？」716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH3SaIPCmSz
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAu7RI10wgJ
「嗯，閂站。」職員的眼神相當堅決，完全是在趕我離開。716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyf3CfktYtr
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz0ETlkzSbG
要不是這條命是借來的話……716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsa2yDoUkZ1
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgoskjSWVPG
「你知唔知仲有乜車呢個時間出市區？」716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA310c0ZcE4
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ujKjvSA31
「呢個鐘數……你試吓叫的士或者Uber？」716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeaVr4xaNa4
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfpOmNCtCzu
他其實很有禮貌，還硬生生擠出一個笑容。716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4oAcGT1e0D
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj54LAQwmFa
「咁……啊。」716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjnqNdu0mJc
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「再唔係你可以去迪士尼酒店瞓一晚，我哋聽朝頭班車係朝早六點二十分……」716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj30GWEhg2Q
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH5G42QO4Pu
「唔使，我喺邊度出返去？」716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgPydTH9ySQ
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「我帶你行。」716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMEcmykFXYF
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGBQbjdgpQi
領著我的職員步伐有點急促，當然是因為我礙著他下班。716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmSMv6SoOaG
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK8kHbYnyYb
「係迪士尼返工啊？咁夜仲喺度嘅？」716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTmKn0V5guv
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQfdKT90lUu
「呃……算係。」716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6NKZekzr15
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不再是了。716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJPjE7bPRpA
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6OBEE9Ypok
意識到我沒興趣聊天的他也沒趣地閉上嘴，領著我穿過職員通道後我們來到了迪士尼站的外頭。716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAZeID6hTv6
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwM3g8A5Elt
「好聲行啦，拜拜！」716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRIR2LWHAvw
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXAB7bJtJPK
夜裡的森林被風吹動如在搖晃，樹濤聲如在咆哮，昏暗的燈光瞬間就被夜幕一口吞下，環顧附近就只有我孤身一人站在彎彎曲曲的磚路中央。716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7SICVSXbHV
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd6zY73eJBm
抱歉，能載我出市區嗎？我始終沒有如此向那職員請求，即使我知道這時間在這兒下班的他一定有駕車。716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡirfpKBG5ri
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKWqaoXfGNm
接下來，我還可以去哪兒？716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuYY2C085mW
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR8H1JT9gbm
我不坐的士或Uber的原因不複雜，這樣夜深人靜根本沒有車能攔，再者現在我已失業，能省就省。716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk14q3u2EN6
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJkk532fdCX
按常理說，其他人在情況下早就叫自己的朋友或家人來接自己，但是我不能。716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaqwYl2xdoy
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh7ajHCLS13
因為我沒有。716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdIZwSlBRS2
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgwIKZPtZDp
我的心臟毛病遺傳自雙親，為了照顧換心手術後的我二人都積勞成疾而離世，只有一個姐姐與我相依為命。至於朋友……自從與她分手後我才發現不知不覺間我已是孤身一人。716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ6K70dyixt
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWhFnfNVGIj
活該。716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHI8BupAdFg
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPbNLbcMuWF
我活該。716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW2HAvK6Tkd
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5eifI9hP8C
正當我打算輸入「姐你能不能來接我時」，我在屏幕上幾毫米的指頭卻停了下來。716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1r0Lrga7By
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAFdgDzCBjX
不想。716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa7P4v2soLc
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwgXtTWfCJc
我……我不想找她。716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7neWRyQFce
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF1cu1hIOQM
不想告訴她我被解僱，不想告訴她我錯過了尾班車，不想告訴她我這弟弟如此窩囊。716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCZU5jBdn3B
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoMr9yJ3Y70
即使她會開著那台帥氣的車來接我，即使我知道她會告訴我沒事，即使她會帶我去吃宵夜安慰。她對我越是呵護，我卻越不想站在如此優秀的她面前。716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuknHtnZlQI
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSI5OtxtFKQ
我不想。716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoeJRuOUzsP
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIg5CvnhyNS
回過神來的時侯我已經走到空空如也的交通交匯處，沒有巴士，沒有的士，只有飛蟲圍著天花的螢光燈在飛舞。證實的確沒有交通工具離開的我終於把目光，投向了馬路——旁的行人道。716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQgHyTWIRt8
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVDgiozu14u
不就有了嗎？716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGmoaUt5ucE
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuRkLZd7nWr
掏出手機確認過，從迪士尼步行至東涌港鐵站需時大約四小時，絕非沒法步行的距離和時間。而且……716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5zNoJeYx7n
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEsXKWt1kcu
既然明天開始我就是失業大軍一員，那麼我也不用急著回家對吧。先不說實在沒有面目回去對著父母的靈位和姐姐，我其實大可以步行出去。716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMtaSRq5LBX
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqvpMyEuWmX
而且，我連地圖都不用。716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnESdRYyfGn
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr2hxsCzcGR
容我自誇，我溫年柏唯一擅長的就是「方向感」，只要我看過一次的地圖就能瞬間記住，身處當中範圍時更能套用到真實世界之中。就算沒有地圖，我也能一邊走一邊記下空間方向，自己從哪個方向而來，正在往甚麼方向前進。716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡESqK0ZqxrE
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU2DjzGXxHj
光是現在閉上眼，我已經知道如何走到市區了，因為我腦中浮現的地圖清晰無比。716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡykoW1b8Mp0
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwqdGWyJkky
出發吧。716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEtMGgnDgoa
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWijZzai6dw
下定了決心後，四周的晚風也變得舒暢了些許，我拐過角落走到公路旁的行人路，默默地向著遠方雲層下的燈火走去。716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyETeTchLJz
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmnTj7YWcup
漆黑的深夜，漆黑的密林，燈火通明的公路如某頭巨獸體內的血管般默默地湧動著。716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAXKcC9ia7L
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzisTcM1nLz
從這兒向山下挑望，萬家燈火把雲頂映亮，光污染這時候在我眼中如把天空染上色彩的極光，萬賴具寂的天地之間如同只剩我一人。716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr1GDP9Peou
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjEcv1F2MVB
步復步，步復步，前進速度緩慢得可笑，但我卻毫不在意。716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡifWNOpnJRq
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBbLaIG8PRu
「溫年柏。」716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj43A3cF6YM
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSpRNAaxHrW
拐過路牌的瞬間，我突然聽到背後有人叫自己的名字。716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPAGRTpdIMf
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgPuLT8j5V0
俗語有云：天黑莫回頭，這種時間怎麼會有人在背後叫我的名字？當我意識到這點時，我早已經反射動作地回首。716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdqRcMuLs5t
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaY6b33L6nF
沒有人。716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9WtvB1vror
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdGKnlw1nT0
空空如也的馬路，行人道，街燈，樹影，完全沒看到任何能叫我名字的存在。716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ191oZ1NSNc
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCLizTAAv6r
是幻聽嗎？我搔搔有點長的髮尾，壓下不安的心情，然後繼續往前走去。716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn3VWVFiwRh
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBJVeWTzlN7
方向是對的，路是對的，但是我卻馬上注意到一點：山下的燈，熄滅了。716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpJRFq3dzxM
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk1v1vbtTkp
要知道山下的燈是東涌市區的燈火，瞬間消失的可能並非沒有，但除非整個東涌停電，或整個東涌消失，不然從這高度這方向，我是不可能看不見東涌市中心的燈光。716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0e3lVIu15j
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP1wXz3dyeb
這到底是……716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsg1v0j5Nbm
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsmzifU6Hsk
我連忙抬頭看看馬路的路牌，卻沒有絲毫異樣，耳邊寂靜得有點耳鳴，但我還走在正確的路上，朝向正確的方向。716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy4Hpht5Wtn
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT8cm7AjYt4
是…霧之類嗎……？716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7AoGZyCO7K
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡctDXRyn6Og
強行說服自己後，我繼續信步向前走去。分辨方向其實沒有想像中複雜，路是兩點一線的構造，只要走在正確的路上，面朝正確的方向，便總能確定自己沒有走錯。716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSJw2uCC6zd
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡODv9tpGTfd
但以防萬一，我還是掏出了手機查看地圖。716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQHochCcZXQ
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrOwhPPnKYM
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很好，GPS顯示方向與座標都正確，如我所料大約再走一小時左右我便會到達欣澳，沿著海邊再走三小時就會到達東涌，剛好坐第一班車回家。716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP1xIXkt0tl
716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjVS8TIiNWR
「……」716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZgzyXYEBmD
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但望向遠方漆黑的夜，理應存在於那兒看東涌卻是消失得無影無蹤，實在使我心中感到不安。但我深知只要走到欣澳，就是沿著海邊的大直路了。716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNpR3iIRfwQ
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繼續走著走著，我發現事情不對勁。716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2TmTVGPmFS
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首先，我身旁的道路從不知甚麼時候開始，一架車都沒有駛過，即使是深夜，也絕不應該過了這樣久還是完全沒車子出現。716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGyi4DPA98x
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而且，欣澳亦消失了。716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ENY5cIXQy
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道路還在，路牌還在，但是山下理應存在於那兒的欣澳站現在只是漆黑一片。雖然我知道已經過了尾班車，港鐵站就會關站直到頭班車開車前的時間，但是……但是總不可能這樣一遍漆黑吧！那兒現在就只有一片密林，根本沒任何建築物存在！716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgWi5nQYnuA
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意識到不對勁的我掏出手機打算查看地圖，下一幕震撼了我的腦袋。716Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRsHM4QDuJF
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