I am dreading growing old.91Please respect copyright.PENANA8dvCeI52Ge
I was looking on Craigslist, at their jobs and domestic gigs,91Please respect copyright.PENANANPESWlhMaA
everyone asked for a young female.91Please respect copyright.PENANAPgLddqRSu2
what happens when I grow old,91Please respect copyright.PENANAdBfyMU9o8C
what happens when my tits sag 91Please respect copyright.PENANAV4ukeOVqSZ
and wrinkles are ingrained in my skin,91Please respect copyright.PENANAj2zVbtGoYK
will I no longer be wanted?91Please respect copyright.PENANAsTFgdD8S64
No longer desired or admired.91Please respect copyright.PENANAscbhiFj2NY
will I just be old?91Please respect copyright.PENANA3ukrjPbBvN
With nothing to show for it, no children no husband. 91Please respect copyright.PENANAAYtJ1rxXVC
Just91Please respect copyright.PENANA4gaVago5Bv
Old.91Please respect copyright.PENANADfbk7uptn7
91Please respect copyright.PENANAoipiX2GGBG
What then will I have to offer if not my body or my face?91Please respect copyright.PENANAeNrzw9SgNB
I'll have to be good at something,91Please respect copyright.PENANAorfp7SKr86
I’ll have to find a trade, I'll have to have marketable skills91Please respect copyright.PENANAI9dZQ8VR9A
I can't just get by being shallow and selfish and vain91Please respect copyright.PENANAbLsFZznFEB
I'll have to be somebody91Please respect copyright.PENANAtRdjC5I8ub
or I could be miserable, clinging to the last shreds of my youth91Please respect copyright.PENANA7HXNQUUBJS
but I know I can't keep it.91Please respect copyright.PENANAHmSxuJ2OL9
Good things never last.91Please respect copyright.PENANA6pBKBJUC7A
91Please respect copyright.PENANA4GYz1RSkg5
I don't know when youth became so important to me91Please respect copyright.PENANA5DsRLYZyf9
but now I understand the quest for the Holy Grail91Please respect copyright.PENANAsA5i190gbP
and why so many people died over it91Please respect copyright.PENANAMvmcVdFB1g
Cause if I had the chance to go after something to keep me young and beautiful forever,91Please respect copyright.PENANArSLNz5CNKf
I would.91Please respect copyright.PENANAcU5jfBJJpk
perhaps that makes me a bad human,91Please respect copyright.PENANAkRcvfflmwK
a bad feminist91Please respect copyright.PENANAU7pdP5vODE
bad person,91Please respect copyright.PENANAXkAsuuQvXj
but all I know is it's the truth91Please respect copyright.PENANAZexlRmdugk
and I would do it,91Please respect copyright.PENANAhmcYrVmz0c
91Please respect copyright.PENANAnutX0UuV4q
I would give up so much to stay desirable.91Please respect copyright.PENANAzmcPuKOm7z
Because I've never been desired before91Please respect copyright.PENANA7KUrzGQbif
and I can't imagine living without the feeling of somebody wanting me,91Please respect copyright.PENANA3cw7sbMuet
but who would want me when I'm old and ugly?91Please respect copyright.PENANAspFVP6itKc
and my skin sags from my bones91Please respect copyright.PENANAd6MS7LqAou
and there's fat bulging out of my stomach91Please respect copyright.PENANAKEZTE67nc7
my neck doubling,91Please respect copyright.PENANAATGijB8mNb
When my eyes are hooded and bagged and so very sad91Please respect copyright.PENANAkIYotTxzGo
91Please respect copyright.PENANA1cohZcd9HS
some people think when you get older looks matter less91Please respect copyright.PENANAOoXKOlUAFP
But that's not true, nobody wants that91Please respect copyright.PENANAIr4r6wELyV
they always go after young childlike innocence and naiveté.91Please respect copyright.PENANAuszcWtbK08
What will I be?91Please respect copyright.PENANA6M7W6x5sM3
Chopped liver I suppose.91Please respect copyright.PENANAQZbVBcxzHP
This is no self-pitying write, just a sharing of truths between fools91Please respect copyright.PENANAyfMTyfclD8
91Please respect copyright.PENANA5Mt7an0cD4
I'm so afraid I've wasted my life91Please respect copyright.PENANAzaBJYkLtbF
I'm young91Please respect copyright.PENANA8TSMPnjMHV
I have done nothing time is flying by91Please respect copyright.PENANAbXlZUEGD3R
I don't know where it's going but it's leaving me too fast91Please respect copyright.PENANAP452fMA4TD
Keeps slipping from my fists.91Please respect copyright.PENANAxQpMIbjuH3
I can't keep up (c’mon, keep up).91Please respect copyright.PENANAmL9FUinePI
I just keep on running and running after it but I can't keep up.91Please respect copyright.PENANAsG07NEMfFZ
I can't keep up i can't keep up i can't keep up i can't keep up91Please respect copyright.PENANAFJQts5QKzC
Hoping to get somewhere but I stay stagnant.91Please respect copyright.PENANACFhwV9raRj
91Please respect copyright.PENANAqhGKX5tJ3E
now that I'm appealing, my whole life has been consumed by vanity91Please respect copyright.PENANACIwg3JTpEq
I feel it closing in on me91Please respect copyright.PENANA1flyfqg6zO
I must be this horrid beast like in Dorian Gray,91Please respect copyright.PENANAgZ4snlrgT7
looking in the mirror I see my painting.91Please respect copyright.PENANAj9ny8AH87E
my maggot-infested flesh staring back at me through those wretched, rotting yellow eyes,91Please respect copyright.PENANAZkalXNSygp
I know they're going to be my demise.91Please respect copyright.PENANAZWROUoZrNt
91Please respect copyright.PENANARyFiXQiM1G
But I just lay here in bed letting the crinkles around my eyes deepen91Please respect copyright.PENANAKMQAr2qBq1
the lines around my mouth stretch cause I smile too much.91Please respect copyright.PENANAovh3Uj8Sio
Letting the sun dot my skin in a dusting of freckles. 91Please respect copyright.PENANA7hrOrRDELt
my hips, and how they widen. Childbearing wise. 91Please respect copyright.PENANAS51otUyWxj
91Please respect copyright.PENANAH3vP4G8F3r
People say when I get older I'll have children and a husband to keep me occupied but I will have neither91Please respect copyright.PENANA4rUijMwZ6M
because I know myself if not anyone else91Please respect copyright.PENANAXVdAsii5U1
and I know I can never hold on to anything that long.91Please respect copyright.PENANAQQrUlwae2G
91Please respect copyright.PENANAP1q92QBxHF
i don't want to grow old i don't want to grow old i don't want to grow old
I am dreading growing old.91Please respect copyright.PENANAQqlk5hpPHa
I was looking on Craigslist, at their jobs and domestic gigs,91Please respect copyright.PENANAnJlRMs7cvL
everyone asked for a young female.91Please respect copyright.PENANARRPrezTMEO
what happens when I grow old,91Please respect copyright.PENANAjobDxQ4rDI
what happens when my tits sag 91Please respect copyright.PENANAgWi82tMm9m
and wrinkles are ingrained in my skin,91Please respect copyright.PENANAfRF07Mgxru
will I no longer be wanted?91Please respect copyright.PENANA3uf4IZnBUn
No longer desired or admired.91Please respect copyright.PENANADrbce0EZQx
will I just be old?91Please respect copyright.PENANAMsbhrdzHVD
With nothing to show for it, no children no husband. 91Please respect copyright.PENANArXIN3jXVVi
Just91Please respect copyright.PENANANwsVyzSUFW
Old.91Please respect copyright.PENANAJJBKstKZoy
What then will I have to offer if not my body or my face?91Please respect copyright.PENANA78ptZxjkjv
I'll have to be good at something,91Please respect copyright.PENANAgUsdGWhGnn
I’ll have to find a trade, I'll have to have marketable skills91Please respect copyright.PENANAFcFiJGhK0C
I can't just get by being shallow and selfish and vain91Please respect copyright.PENANAM9OaJzCvM7
I'll have to be somebody91Please respect copyright.PENANAgy81oH3CgI
or I could be miserable, clinging to the last shreds of my youth91Please respect copyright.PENANAt4wtbAqfDE
but I know I can't keep it.91Please respect copyright.PENANAOgMkljqiw4
Good things never last.91Please respect copyright.PENANAjgvItx9FXr
91Please respect copyright.PENANArRyPlVoR3Z
I don't know when youth became so important to me91Please respect copyright.PENANAZJTCohSoZM
but now I understand the quest for the Holy Grail91Please respect copyright.PENANAo6on2lNXsK
and why so many people died over it91Please respect copyright.PENANAi0c9hsrAf8
Cause if I had the chance to go after something to keep me young and beautiful forever,91Please respect copyright.PENANAKKvQmi74Lx
I would.91Please respect copyright.PENANAYjSHTFAgsR
perhaps that makes me a bad human,91Please respect copyright.PENANABWcYpDpKQH
a bad feminist91Please respect copyright.PENANAkTWuDXrocq
bad person,91Please respect copyright.PENANATui6NGCodn
but all I know is it's the truth91Please respect copyright.PENANASG7YrVL0qr
and I would do it,91Please respect copyright.PENANAJRvKr5z5Fq
91Please respect copyright.PENANA7poiczUFsA
I would give up so much to stay desirable.91Please respect copyright.PENANAamyO810FjC
Because I've never been desired before91Please respect copyright.PENANAWul13nauhu
and I can't imagine living without the feeling of somebody wanting me,91Please respect copyright.PENANA7410qc3Q9X
but who would want me when I'm old and ugly?91Please respect copyright.PENANAOgfgDq4mB1
and my skin sags from my bones91Please respect copyright.PENANADd1kAiGUgn
and there's fat bulging out of my stomach91Please respect copyright.PENANAP4P3B9IRIf
my neck doubling,91Please respect copyright.PENANA2MH4LnMDdU
When my eyes are hooded and bagged and so very sad91Please respect copyright.PENANAOn6aXY4zBY
91Please respect copyright.PENANAzKw6WMMe2q
some people think when you get older looks matter less91Please respect copyright.PENANAynNwL8uxHC
But that's not true, nobody wants that91Please respect copyright.PENANArHoBuYbfdY
they always go after young childlike innocence and naiveté.91Please respect copyright.PENANAQKLBUhCz2V
What will I be?91Please respect copyright.PENANAbVkKT1WKZe
Chopped liver I suppose.91Please respect copyright.PENANAsoNHsIMvoc
This is no self-pitying write, just a sharing of truths between fools91Please respect copyright.PENANAgSgYfsfxTA
91Please respect copyright.PENANAO5WlBjjyK2
I'm so afraid I've wasted my life91Please respect copyright.PENANAxxSnZpeH3f
I'm 2091Please respect copyright.PENANAe9gjuSihMS
I have done nothing time is flying by91Please respect copyright.PENANAzGp2MnwqE7
I don't know where it's going but it's leaving me too fast91Please respect copyright.PENANAwLF1DqYs1K
Keeps slipping from my fists.91Please respect copyright.PENANAO4XfG6Rqp4
I can't keep up (c’mon, keep up).91Please respect copyright.PENANAJE0zft8n33
I just keep on running and running after it but I can't keep up.91Please respect copyright.PENANAc4DjQZOOGj
I can't keep up i can't keep up i can't keep up i can't keep up91Please respect copyright.PENANAg4hiHxlRHq
Hoping to get somewhere but I stay stagnant.91Please respect copyright.PENANA8DY9qgcpWQ
91Please respect copyright.PENANAXAkRnGsS83
now that I'm appealing, my whole life has been consumed by vanity91Please respect copyright.PENANA6kDaNPaXOe
I feel it closing in on me91Please respect copyright.PENANAGX8kCflgPS
I must be this horrid beast like in Dorian Gray,91Please respect copyright.PENANAkCNAVtqZmj
looking in the mirror I see my painting.91Please respect copyright.PENANAf5ZsOjbRiH
my maggot-infested flesh staring back at me through those wretched, rotting yellow eyes,91Please respect copyright.PENANA11m7Sf6kCh
I know they're going to be my demise.91Please respect copyright.PENANAjXbxp9KrXM
91Please respect copyright.PENANA3e4CBSvowZ
But I just lay here in bed letting the crinkles around my eyes deepen91Please respect copyright.PENANAzrkbjafKWx
the lines around my mouth stretch cause I smile too much.91Please respect copyright.PENANAwvHS17qQ0U
Letting the sun dot my skin in a dusting of freckles. 91Please respect copyright.PENANAhp9GZd1IOQ
my hips, and how they widen. Childbearing wise. 91Please respect copyright.PENANAJw3t5n8lGs
91Please respect copyright.PENANA9Tp1JyvRsi
People say when I get older I'll have children and a husband to keep me occupied but I will have neither91Please respect copyright.PENANA1qPrsdvv73
because I know myself if not anyone else91Please respect copyright.PENANAp7LgXAtLQj
and I know I can never hold on to anything that long.91Please respect copyright.PENANAYCvPxCG2Q6
91Please respect copyright.PENANAh86sU9JxXJ
i don't want to grow old i don't want to grow old i don't want to grow old