尚妤婕把自己鎖在房間裡了。50Please respect copyright.PENANAjdkph8785j
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在那天之後,她就再也沒有去過學校。背包裡的手機恰好貼著空瓶子,來訊息和電話時震動的聲音在寂靜的房間裡顯得格外清晰。不知過了多久,手機沒有再傳來震動聲了,可能是沒電了。50Please respect copyright.PENANAC4552eFLEO
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尚妤婕全天躺在床上不吃不喝又沒怎麼睡,眼下淡淡的青色快成了濃厚的烏青色。她經常忘記眨眼睛,直到眼睛乾澀痛癢時才眨一下。50Please respect copyright.PENANABLTMphLLJI
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若不是還聽得到自己微微的呼吸聲,她都要覺得自己的知覺是否已經完全死亡。她的世界太安靜,安靜得彷彿全世界只剩下自己一個人,在這小小的房間裡等待恭候著死亡的到來。50Please respect copyright.PENANAYRwH0VDtvd
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期間尚母曾經來敲過門,也站在門口許久,才聽到她離去的聲音。尚妤婕的房間離玄關很近,隔音效果也不是太好。她有聽見有人曾經來拜訪,尚母似乎和對方吵架的聲音。50Please respect copyright.PENANAU0ZQVaJiSg
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不知過了多久,尚妤婕的身體動了。緩緩直起上半身,所有已經麻木的知覺都在這一刻回歸。50Please respect copyright.PENANAWxysuzVjXk
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久未洗沐的身體與頭髮傳來令人不是油膩搔癢感,身上傳來陣陣酸臭味。嘴唇乾澀疼痛,長時間未被滋潤過的舌頭有些遲鈍。輕輕舔過嘴唇,舌尖便傳來了淡淡的鐵鏽味。50Please respect copyright.PENANATEutYSNT5B
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缺水的喉嚨彷彿被火灼燒過一樣疼痛,胃中那名為飢餓的交響曲演奏得胃壁發疼,腫脹發疼的膀胱也在暗暗警告身體的主人必須如廁了。50Please respect copyright.PENANAFdJF5ijOkh
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自那天之後,已經過去多久了呢?50Please respect copyright.PENANA3AAgj2uBbq
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抬頭望向窗外,毒辣辣的陽光非常熾熱,天空晴空萬里,這個角度沒看到任何雲朵。從天色與太陽的位置來看,估計至少已經過中午十二點了。50Please respect copyright.PENANAUW1fh7dVSE
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她打算下床看看。50Please respect copyright.PENANAObzCUHSYsQ
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雙腳踩在地上,她想像以前站起來的時候,眼前微微發黑,飢渴交加又加上長時間沒有活動腳,腳已經失去了本有的力氣。無力的手腳撐不起她的身體,她踉蹌地跌撞上書桌,腰部又疼又麻。50Please respect copyright.PENANAyjWGhnTWbx
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以往的她一定會疼得臉都皺起來了,可這次的她只是微微皺了皺眉頭,似乎對痛覺有些麻痺。從書包裡取出已經沒電的手機,差上充電線並等待充電提示跳出,她推開房門走了出去。50Please respect copyright.PENANA9hB86hyGYN
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客廳十分寂靜,尚妤婕走到家裡的時鐘前。時鐘是電子計時制,上面還有標註日期與溫度。看著那日期的數字,她愣住了。50Please respect copyright.PENANAfXyeTSQA1Y
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三天了。50Please respect copyright.PENANARzkhFFXd5e
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她把自己關在房間裡不吃不喝已經快要三天了。明天,就是畢業典禮的日子。50Please respect copyright.PENANAesDMxg460Y
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在考完期末考並拿到成績之後,高三生無需請假,便可留在家裡不上學,等待畢業典禮的到來。由於期間夾著一個校慶日,所以校慶過後,就只剩下幾天就要畢業了。50Please respect copyright.PENANA1mEdyeSKsL
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如果今天她沒有起來查看的話,是不是就會在麻木中不知不覺地斷氣呢?她也不知道。50Please respect copyright.PENANA8UWM6rhw1p
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至少現在已經『取回知覺』的當下,她無法繼續無視忍受身體各項機能發出的警示。50Please respect copyright.PENANAP6jAV5J8zX
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──太難受了。50Please respect copyright.PENANA7LXcNtN6H4
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在進食與沐浴之間,尚妤婕選擇先洗漱。已經決定要起床了,她就不可能接受自己繼續『餿』下去。因為缺乏力氣,她這個澡洗了整整兩個小時,期間還差點在浴室裡滑倒撞到頭。50Please respect copyright.PENANAxQc7fCADvH
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走到廚房,顫抖著手盛了一杯水,緩緩飲下。冰涼的水滑過乾裂的喉嚨,喉間彷彿被火灼燒的乾澀終於得到了緩解。50Please respect copyright.PENANAHqAtle51MX
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補充了水份,她又稍微翻了翻,最後在鍋子裡發現了一盤用保險膜包著的麵條。食物沒有發臭,估計是今天才做的。不論尚母是想留給她吃還是打算保留到晚上自己吃都好,現在這現成的麵條是她最佳的選擇。50Please respect copyright.PENANAEnRKsHvCYU
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麵條又細又軟,沒什麼配料,看起來非常寡淡。尚妤婕也不嫌棄,用叉子叉起涼麵,慢慢將其放入口中。50Please respect copyright.PENANA3lMXHwjxLF
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「咳!咳咳!嘔──」50Please respect copyright.PENANA2qVvFJsQPr
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三天未進食,喉嚨將那些麵條視為異物,引起了乾嘔反應。口中嚼爛的麵條被吐在一旁,她急促地喘了幾口氣,拿起旁邊的水杯,小口小口慢慢喝水。滋潤過喉嚨後再次進食時,她還是有一點想嘔吐的感覺,但還是強忍著將其忍了下去。50Please respect copyright.PENANAqzs7LzIx4W
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吃完隔了三天的第一餐,尚妤婕清理好碗碟杯子還有那些穢物,回房間將被自己躺餿的床單換了起來,拿起已經充滿的手機,開啟。50Please respect copyright.PENANAmEGWVYQWHE
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手機螢幕出現熟悉得開機畫面,進入主介面後,那些在關機時未能接收的訊息和未接來電通知一口氣湧入,手機瘋狂震動。尚妤婕的手機品質本就不太好,這個情況直接把手機程式震得死當,完全無法做任何事情。50Please respect copyright.PENANA9Elz1Fojgs
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在將近五分鐘的震動後,手機終於回歸平靜。50Please respect copyright.PENANAG036FMOnWV
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999+的訊息,三位數的未接來電。除了一封是校方聯絡她是否要在畢業典禮上致詞的訊息以外,其他全部都是樂團組的成員傳的訊息和未接電話。50Please respect copyright.PENANAHEvbfXqLgO
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這其中趙奕菱首當其衝。光是未接來電就已經佔據了一百多通,訊息數量也和總訊息未讀數一樣顯示不完。點開訊息,訊息會自動顯示最舊的未讀消息,不用特地往上滑是件很方便的功能。50Please respect copyright.PENANAqtUSO1tO3o
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『小婕,他們都說好耶,到時候我們可以組團了!團體名字要取什麼好呢~你覺得DreamerS'怎麼樣?夢想家,不覺得很適合我們嗎?』50Please respect copyright.PENANASGMIaW5Lky
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『小婕,妳今天怎麼沒來學校?發生什麼事情了嗎?』50Please respect copyright.PENANAOtmQS0ycs4
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『小婕,尚姨不讓我見妳,妳怎麼了?還好嗎?』50Please respect copyright.PENANAa0CT0helqP
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『小婕,回我訊息,我好擔心妳。』50Please respect copyright.PENANAz4rrH1GLdA
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『小婕……』50Please respect copyright.PENANA8spfYqwkX2
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尚妤婕關上了電話。50Please respect copyright.PENANAdHspJ3NaeF
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趙奕菱還曾經抱怨過,他們使用的這個聊天軟體『維書』無法得知對方是否已讀,可她現在只覺得慶幸。因為這樣,趙奕菱就不會知道自己已經看過訊息了。50Please respect copyright.PENANAqPSUeoYaQs
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她已經不敢繼續看接下來的訊息了。正打算把手機放下,手機又傳來了一陣震動。已經熄掉的手機螢幕自動亮起,上面寫著最新的訊息通知──又是趙奕菱傳的訊息。50Please respect copyright.PENANAgKQp1vgvwR
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『明天是畢業典禮,妳會來嗎?……』50Please respect copyright.PENANAuGg7XJUMCQ
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後面更長的訊息成了省略符,但尚妤婕沒打算開起來看。被放置在桌上三天的光碟碎片已經蒙上一層薄薄的灰塵,她盯著光碟碎片許久,深吸一口氣,將光碟碎片掃進專輯盒中,隨後……50Please respect copyright.PENANAsgOanoezaI
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將專輯盒,丟進一旁的垃圾桶裡。50Please respect copyright.PENANATmVNWWSiDp
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硬卡紙作成的專輯盒插在垃圾堆置中,像死守著的最後一道信念般,拼命佇立著。垂下眸,尚妤婕將還未滿溢,包裹著專輯盒的垃圾袋綁起,提著垃圾袋,丟進垃圾堆之中,再也不見。