根據童逸洋給予的資訊,醫生替楊亦桐做了腦部檢查,果不其然在他的腦部顳葉位置發現了異常腫塊。只是更詳細情況還需要更進一步檢查,才能得知更多消息。44Please respect copyright.PENANAaArjY45k0q
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當結果告知楊氏夫婦時,兩人如遭雷擊,臉上的血色瞬間褪去。即便他們對醫學知識知之甚少,但『腦瘤』這兩個字的分量,他們再清楚不過。在這個時代中,那幾乎等同於一紙死刑,尤其是腫瘤生長在如此關鍵的位置。44Please respect copyright.PENANA1LwyDEA7O7
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夫妻倆開始不斷追問細節。童思琳的聲音急促顫抖,明明期待著一絲安慰,但每一個問題的答案卻像是無情的巨石,將最後的希望逐漸壓垮。最終,她掩面哭泣,身體微微顫抖,淚水從指縫間滲出。44Please respect copyright.PENANAmqr5uwt4Bq
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在場年紀最小的童逸洋無法理解什麼是腦瘤,但也感覺得出來氛圍異常嚴肅,以此判斷出楊亦桐的並不是什麼感冒發燒的小病。不知是害怕還什麼原因,平時最為吵鬧歡騰的他突然什麼也說不出口,只是坐在一旁沉默不語。44Please respect copyright.PENANAgwBMpxFb0G
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「醫生,我兒子還有救嗎?」44Please respect copyright.PENANANqjAqVp8Ep
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楊守生終於忍不住發問。他的聲音壓得很低,卻不自覺地顫抖,像是在對命運祈求最後一絲寬容。醫生微微一頓,隨後陷入了漫長的沉默。44Please respect copyright.PENANAwMURlxg4cQ
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「我只能說,請你們做好心理準備。」44Please respect copyright.PENANAg2ws32jLOs
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三人懷著沉重的心情來到病房時,已經清醒的楊亦桐正在四處摸索著自己的眼鏡,殊不知眼鏡就在床頭櫃上,而本人已經距離落床只有一步之遙。楊守生連忙上前,一把將眼鏡塞進他的手中,又將差點落床的兒子抱回床上。44Please respect copyright.PENANAgcZqdBeC0d
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「哎,小心啊。」44Please respect copyright.PENANAKwMIUHLQDX
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在清醒之後,楊亦桐腦子仍有些混沌,模糊一片的視野又讓不安如潮水般湧上心頭。直到戴上眼鏡,世界重新變得清晰,他的內心才再次獲得平靜。望著熟悉的家人,他乖巧地輕喚了他們。44Please respect copyright.PENANAoEGeIZeP2H
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環顧四周,映入視野的是清一色的白,家人們臉上也帶著不同程度的悲傷與絕望,厚厚鏡片後的雙眸閃過一絲了然,頓時理解到自己正身處何處,甚至能猜測出前因後果。44Please respect copyright.PENANAciCIdLTXfY
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「爸爸,我得了很嚴重的病,對嗎?」44Please respect copyright.PENANAbkRPDHStF1
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楊守生身體一頓,垂眸深思片刻,決定先不告知兒子醫生的檢驗結果。44Please respect copyright.PENANAg71wfpr8r3
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「怎麼會,只要好好接受治療,一定有救的。」44Please respect copyright.PENANAEUq40nKSJj
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「爸爸,您知道您說謊時右手總會不自覺抓脖子嗎?」44Please respect copyright.PENANAThToro4Et1
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楊守生正在抓脖子的動作一僵,尷尬地把手放下後,正考慮說些什麼圓過去時,自家兒子的下一句話直接讓他繳械投降──44Please respect copyright.PENANAjFuQuhMkpq
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「而且如果病得不重,您怎麼會說『好好接受治療一定有救』呢?」44Please respect copyright.PENANAufMm7quQ3X
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雖然楊守生知道自家兒子非常聰明,但他可沒料想到他居然可以從這兩個細節推測出自己在說謊。父子倆大眼瞪小眼好一陣後,最後敗下陣來,選擇告知真正的情況。44Please respect copyright.PENANAi2Z0r7RhwQ
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楊守生在腦中斟酌了詞句,盡可能平和地、委婉地道出兒子的病情。在那一字一句中,楊亦桐垂下了頭,瀏海擋住了厚厚的鏡片,看不清他的表情。44Please respect copyright.PENANAZNOKcgv09V
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童思琳覺得兒子正在難過害怕而心疼不已,趕緊上前安撫他的情緒。而始終保持沉默的童逸洋看著坐躺在病床上的哥哥,眼神有些閃爍。44Please respect copyright.PENANAC7jieeZfRB
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本來醫生的建議是讓楊亦桐進行進一步的檢查,隨後持續住院觀察接受治療,但身為病患的楊亦桐希望能回家,楊氏夫婦又不願逼迫兒子,只好答應先帶孩子回家。44Please respect copyright.PENANAPBt3niyrej
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對此,醫生沒有多言,只是告知他們會加急處理影像,最快明天就可以知道詳細結果。44Please respect copyright.PENANARadtv1WEqU
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兄弟倆感情深厚,即使上了小學,依然共用同一個房間,同一張床。夜幕低垂,本該是眾人入睡之時。平時早已呼呼大睡的童逸洋難得失眠,黑白分明的眼睛睜得大大的,其中沒有半點睡意。44Please respect copyright.PENANAsKxi6uxItc
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輾轉難眠的童逸洋翻了個身,看著睡姿端正、沉沉入睡的兄弟,內心百感交集。44Please respect copyright.PENANAo5QJ44hmKN
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在楊氏夫婦眼中看來,哥哥的沉默是在擔心害怕自己的病情,可他卻覺得並非如此。兩兄弟之間的雙胞胎感應告訴他,自家兄長現在的內心毫無波瀾,平靜無波。44Please respect copyright.PENANAPfvV11z1si
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彷彿,早已知道自己得病的事實。44Please respect copyright.PENANAsB8taQw4Rz
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可如果楊亦桐真的早就知道自己『生病』了,為什麼……不早點說出來呢?44Please respect copyright.PENANATPQfRqmY31
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童逸洋無法理解,卻也問不出口。44Please respect copyright.PENANAAEcYSQYH7J
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今晚,註定是個無眠之夜。44Please respect copyright.PENANAlx94XeLsSw
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隔天醫院的電話如期而至,除了不得不去上學的童逸洋,其他三人一起驅車前往醫院。路途上三人心思各異,緊張的氛圍彷彿一根隨時崩裂的線,沒有一個人開口打破這沉默的氣氛。44Please respect copyright.PENANAj2wsalKGaQ
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而這根線,在醫生將診斷書交付於他們時,徹底斷裂。44Please respect copyright.PENANA62U8bn8ElS
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楊亦桐腦中的腫瘤是惡性的。44Please respect copyright.PENANAdDTdwv7xBM
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不僅如此,因為生長位置極糟,進行手術切割的風險太大,成功率無限趨近於零,沒有一個醫生會建議動手術。以現在的技術而言,只能保守治療。44Please respect copyright.PENANANPag9011rN
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──也就是,盡可能延長壽命。44Please respect copyright.PENANA3vYWhpWBAl
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無法接受這個結果的童思琳忍不住掩面痛哭,就連楊守生也紅了眼眶。他的兒子才堪堪十歲,還是個稚兒啊,生命居然已經進入倒數計時。上天,何其不公?44Please respect copyright.PENANAgvDg4s1LI4
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沉浸在悲痛之中的二人沒注意到,僅僅只有十歲的男孩在聽到這個結果時眼中沒有任何震驚恐懼,這晴天霹靂的消息彷彿只是飄過湖泊的微風,甚至無法引起一絲波瀾。44Please respect copyright.PENANAk1JIk40XaU
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童逸洋的猜測其實對了一半。那次的情緒失控,讓楊亦桐意識到自己身上出了問題。他上網搜索,甚至提問自己的症狀,得出的答案都不太一致,小則壓力問題,大則腦瘤。44Please respect copyright.PENANABHcIQhD8PS
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腦瘤……44Please respect copyright.PENANAHm1l1ab4ou
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鬼使神差地搜索了更多腦瘤的症狀,越查越是心驚──因為症狀,與自己的情況太過相似。當時的他慌忙清除搜索紀錄,關掉電腦,獨留自己一個人繼續胡思亂想,卻硬是沒有告訴任何人。44Please respect copyright.PENANAwMixbxLiy1
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不知出於什麼心態,他沒有選擇告知父母,而是選擇自己一個人慢慢消化這份情緒。每日每夜的痛苦難耐使他輾轉難眠,卻沒一次想過坦承自己的病情。44Please respect copyright.PENANAUFXHCPyEpL
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他害怕去醫院,恐懼於自己的猜想成真。可當成真的猜測化為一張薄薄的紙,呈現於自己的面前的時刻,那些情緒卻詭異地全部消失了。44Please respect copyright.PENANAHdzwS9Z0lg
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反覆看著診斷書上黑白分明的字句,楊亦桐的雙眸閃爍著不明的光,心裏不知在想什麼。若不是夫婦倆提到要辦理住院治療的話題,恐怕他還可以繼續沉浸在自己的思緒之中。44Please respect copyright.PENANAsGlvE6Pcd4
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眼見楊守生已經離開,男孩只能將期望放在旁邊哭紅了雙眼的母親身上。44Please respect copyright.PENANAmcbllPCLHO
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「媽媽,我可以提出一個請求嗎?」44Please respect copyright.PENANAmXTVPYvcM9
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「說吧,只要是媽媽做得到的就一定答應你。」44Please respect copyright.PENANAIzgiBuefS0
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「我不想住院。」44Please respect copyright.PENANAGSXiwaT2Wm
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童思琳愣住了。44Please respect copyright.PENANAu3PZOJIBSC
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這十年來,楊亦桐幾乎不會主動提出要求,唯一的一次,就是要求在房裡放一架電腦。因為自家大兒子生病心痛不已的童思琳本就打算答應他任何要求,可這……44Please respect copyright.PENANAygv5EJz8di
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「可是大亦,醫生說你的情況……」44Please respect copyright.PENANA2oJA44dOdt
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「求求你們。」44Please respect copyright.PENANAeVwIEdT5Fa
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他何嘗不知道自己該住院?可是住院就意味著遠離家人,今後都得孤零零地待在那白得壓抑的房間裡,等待家人的到來。44Please respect copyright.PENANAM1uHyBeWmG
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那是一種無法逃避的孤寂,像是被迫進入一個空洞的世界,無法再感受到一絲溫暖。44Please respect copyright.PENANAvR4WRESe9z
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直至……死亡的那一天到來。44Please respect copyright.PENANAdjBuMG6Tgt
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那樣實在太孤單了。44Please respect copyright.PENANArxtil7tJAm
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如果可以選擇的話,他必定會選擇留在熟悉的環境中,即使會失去自由也在所不惜。他無法忍受遠離家人,無法忍受那份深深的孤獨感,甚至比死亡本身讓他更加恐懼。44Please respect copyright.PENANAwfWMMZLlA5
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或許他更願意在親人的陪伴下面對未來,無論那份陪伴能維持多久。