Maybe it's just me, but I feel as though the rest of the world is behind.
Behind on many things. There are kids at my school who are utterly stupid. They hangout with girls who they know are fake, forgiving ever so easily. My friends get mad at me for the simplest of things.
My anxitey can go unnoticed. I'm always on edge. Even if I'm by myself, I wonder if people shame me for that. Sometimes it feels as though I'm the only one with common sense.
Or at least one of the few. I could be popular, but what exactly is popularity anyways? People have tried to look up to me before, but I failed them, and they ended up being fake friends.
I struggle with math. I'm pretty sure I have dyscalculia, but I haven't gotten tested yet.
Whenever I see numbers on a page my head starts to hurt. It feels like the equivalent to trying to learn Chinese or Russian.
What the teacher says never makes any sense and I don't know how to explain that to anyone.
Some days I just want to cry. I don't know what about; feeling fear.
When I'm super tired, I can never go to sleep. My mood is always low, even if I never show it. Bags are constantly under my eyes.
Acting overly postive is tiring. Im sick of everybody right now. People think they know me, but the don't know me. They've only seen 10% of me.
I wouldn't call myself an open book. If you open up to me, then I'll open to you. But, it can't be a one way situation.
I often get paranoid wondering if my bestfriends still like me. I mean, they don't respond to my texts, maybe they're busy.
I act like I don't care, but I do. I've been through a whole lot for a kid my age, and I just want to say, do better.
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