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I remember that fateful day it was as if I felt that my life had finally become one that I wanted to live.Being with Sarah finally gave me a true reason to live. It was in those short fleeting moments that I felt like I was brought into heaven to give me eternal prosperity. However when we walked into school I may have not known it just yet,but in a few moments I would feel as if I was pulled back down to earth to bring me eternal damnation. We walked down the hall to see the coach pacing with his face covered in complete and total despair. It was as if he was a man who saw someone die. "Coach what's wrong?"I asked as we walked up to him. "I...........................I don't know how to tell you two this"he said as he nearly began to cry "What is it"Sarah asked. A horrible event struggled on his lips as he struggled to speak the words "It's Max he's in the hospital and he's in critical condition"he finally said.
"WHAT"we both screamed as we could not believe what we just heard,we began to stagger our questions one after another "What happened"I asked "When did this happen"she asked "How long has he been in critical care"I asked "Are we ever gonna see him again"she asked,but the question we both wanted to know was: "IS HE GONNA BE OK"we both screamed. Coach still struggled to speak on the event as he had no idea on how to process it "I don't know why he was there,but last night he was at a party with all of those public people they were drinking eventually they became drunk. They then all decided to go on a joy ride while completely drunk. It looks like they were so drunk that they drove in front and were hit by a truck that sent them off the road as it rolled down a hill next to a road.
Everyone else in the car somehow they only had minor injuries,but Max was the one who received the direct impact of the truck. I...................I'm so sorry guys"he said as he slowly walked away. We stood there in complete in total disbelief of what we just heard, our hands clenched tighter together as we were completely unable to speak to each other. We began to hug each other tightly as we both began to cry. I kissed her forehead all while she buried her head into my chest as I tried to bring her comfort in this horrible atrocious hour. We both barely said a word that entire day at school as we became consumed in the dark waters of despair that is the void. Then just when I thought I couldn't be shocked anymore that day the day went on to prove me wrong, I sat down during lunch time alone as Sarah had a different lunch period in contrast to mine.
While I ate my food I was soon approached by all of those present at that party that claimed the life of my friend,the public people. I looked up to them as I sat at my table for them to see that my face had been completely drowned in the cold waters of despair. "Ummmmmmmmmmmmmm...........hi"I said "Hey man look we're really sorry about Max"one of the jocks said he was a boy in a tracksuit with black hair "It was our fault all our's we pushed him away from you and Sarah all because we just wanted someone close to pick on and do whatever we wanted" said one of the cheerleaders said she was a girl in a black skirt with blond hair.
"Anyway we just wanted to say if there's anything you and Sarah need just come talk to us"the Jock said as he extended his hand to me. I reached out and shaked it then they walked away. That day after school me and Sarah decided to skip fencing practice and head straight to the hospital. However, when we arrived I was once again shown how the day could get worse. When we entered the building we saw Max’s family sitting in the waiting room consumed in sadeness it was as if they had walked through several centuries of hell. I slowly approached Max’s mother a middle aged woman with brown hair in a brown outfit.
I dared myself not to ask her,for I feared that I already knew the truth, the horrible dark truth that I knew would add up to be my most second greatest loss in my lifetime,but I had to know. “Excuse me ma’am what happened” I asked as me and Sarah kneeled down in front of her all while she shed emotional heartbreaking tears,and struggled to speak as her grief was greater than anyone’s in that room “You two are his best friends”she asked “Yes” we both said. “It’s Max he…………….he…………………………….he just died”she said as her tears rushed down her face like rushing currents of a waterfall, the news of our friend’s death struck us in the chest we felt that we had been stabbed through our very bodies.
Our salty tears of sadness slowly rolled down our faces as we saw her in complete mourning. We left them in mourning as we entered the hospital room to see Max’s body covered in cuts, bruises,and broken bones. As I looked upon the recent remains of our friend I tried to be strong for Sarah ,but I couldn't, the grief consumed me and I dropped to my knees as my tears rushed down my face. Sarah came down and joined me as we grieved together, sharing in each other's pain. That week when we didn’t have class me and Sarah were never apart. We were so close together that not even a solid brick wall could tear us apart.
We never spent any time apart even at night when we slept as we constantly looked into each other’s eyes and shared a deep passionate kiss. That weekend Max’s family held his funeral. We were in attendance. The time of our relationship may have been short,but there will never be a time when we both squeezed our hands so tightly. When the funeral ended we stood over his grave “Come on let’s go”she said “Sarah”I said “Yeah”she asked. “Did I do this to him, was this all my fault”I asked as tears appeared in my eyes,she then hugged me “No No No………..it wasn’t your fault none of this was your fault”she said.
That night after the funeral I began to feel better,however the same could not be said for Sarah. As I watched her sadness manifest on her face I began to realize that she was trying to be strong for me while concealing her own guilt. That next week she hardly spoke to me. I wanted to give her some space until the middle of the week when I journeyed to her home. It appeared to be a blue house,but in reality it was a trailer. This was the very first time I met her parents, her father a man with a short brown beard with brown hair in a farmer’s outfit, and her mother a woman with blonde hair in a blue jeans outfit.
“Excuse me ma’am could I talk to Sarah please”I asked. I was nervous as well as afraid,but despite my fear I had to do this,because my love for Sarah was greater than my fear. "Oh you must be the boyfriend, she won't come out of her room. I've never seen her like this. Maybe you can help her"her father said as he allowed me to enter he then showed me where her room was. I walked down the hall feeling a sense of despair. It's almost as if I could feel exactly how she felt. When I finally made it to the door of her room it was as if I felt her energy, I knocked on the door only to find out that there was no response.
"Sarah please you don't have to talk all I'm asking you to do is to listen please"I said as I turned my back to the door and slowly slide down sitting on the floor while leaning on the door "I know you will feel like it's your fault about Max,but the thing is, is that it wasn't your fault it wasn't my fault''I said I once again began to cry "In the end he pushed us both away, and he made his own choice it wasn't your fault I'm sorry Sarah I'm so so sorry you feel this way,but it doesn't have to be this way please Sarah I love you you don't have to feel this way anymore,because I am here for you''I said. I soon began to hear the door that's when I began to rise to turn around and see her "I love you too"she said as she cried with tears of joy as we kissed each other,that night I stayed over and spoke with her parents while I talked to her I could feel that they placed their faith in me.
The weekend after this week while me and Sarah were spending together at my home finally returning to happiness in our relationship. We heard a knock upon the door I opened it to see the Max's mother "Oh hello ma'am"I said as Sarah came to join me "Hey I don't wanna hold you two up or anything it's just that the other day we were cleaning out Max's room and the nurse gave us this it was for you two it seems he wrote this for you two"she said as I took the note "Well I better get going you two take care now"she said as she walked away.
We both walked back into the house to open the note I read the not out loud. I remember every word of it and it is unlikely I will ever forget it said: "Dear James and Sarah if you're reading this it means they were unable to revive me from the accident. The reason I'm writing this is because I know that there's probably a good chance I won't survive this. However,before I die I want you to know that what happened to me the thing that put me here was me and me alone. This was my fault it was me who constantly pushed you both away, it was me who went to that party,and it was me who drinked then got into that car. You two have no reason to be sorry if anything I should be asking you for forgiveness.
Anyway I'll probably die soon,but before I do I just want to say that I'm sorry for all that I've put you through. I just wanted so badly to be like them that I lost track of who I really am. My one most greatest regret is that I won't be able to end this all on good terms with you guys,so with my final request as my dying wish I ask you, I beg you to forgive me.
With love Max, P.S.:You two will always be my best friends,"I said as I finished reading the letter. As his words were spoken through me we were finally able to obtain closure for his death. The next day we visited Max's grave "Hey buddy I want you to know that you were the one who set me on this path,so thank you"I said "You were the one who brought us together,because of you I was able to find the love of my life I will always be thankful"she said "We both forgive you"we both said together once we left we left behind the letter he wrote for us as a sign that we forgave him.
The day after that Sarah and I returned to our usual fencing practices it was almost as if things had returned to normal. Once we were done Sarah had something to tell me "Hey I'm gonna take a trip this summer and you are gonna come with me"she said as she smiled while looking at me "Do I have a choice"I said while smiling and laughing. She walked over and kissed me "Nope"she said as she smiled "Now come on drive me home"she said as she walked away while I began to stand up "Do I have a choice for that"I asked as I uncontrollably smiled "Nope"she said as I followed her out of the gym.
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