(第一人稱,松本晴香視角)10Please respect copyright.PENANAr0sHW36aK8
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2021年5月17日。10Please respect copyright.PENANAQ44N09MFOL
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這一天,終於來了。10Please respect copyright.PENANAdMAl608XqP
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我從高聳的飛機上踏向地面,並跟著告示牌從陌生的機場內走出來。 10Please respect copyright.PENANA0nKXeRn54l
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在走出機場的瞬間,刺眼的光芒一瞬間照進我眼內,讓我直覺地閉上了眼睛。10Please respect copyright.PENANA5ryNvNyr8x
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等我嘗試張開眼睛,一個充滿著巨大高樓的城市出現在我面前。10Please respect copyright.PENANAHGjzjKnWkx
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這裡就是我夢寐以求的偶像之都,月花市!10Please respect copyright.PENANAflROpbNNHC
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雖然很想興奮的衝去事務所面試……,不過畢竟是來到新的地方,必須先冷靜才行。10Please respect copyright.PENANAagHG9g7UFc
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雖然來之前做了很多功課,不過還是得先適應、了解一下這邊的環境才行。10Please respect copyright.PENANAcvaIihri9Z
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畢竟不會有人蠢到一來到這邊就馬上在路邊跳舞吧? 10Please respect copyright.PENANAJip9e4gjAp
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我一邊想著這件事,一邊跟著人行道走向城市裡面。10Please respect copyright.PENANArIasc8xsOK
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官方介紹影片中似乎有推薦一家飯店,一開始就先住那邊吧!10Please respect copyright.PENANAkzJpPsVmpz
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我從口袋裡拿出了手機,並打開地圖搜尋著。10Please respect copyright.PENANAI1O1NO2pt0
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從位置來看……,似乎就在附近而已,就直接走過去吧!10Please respect copyright.PENANAmKCmXv2y1h
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在確定目標後,我將手機握在右手上,並往旅店的方向前進。10Please respect copyright.PENANA1tls0XRJ91
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在途中,我稍微觀察了一下這邊的景色。10Please respect copyright.PENANAKCtZC4rxmg
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許多人帶著「最愛OO」的頭巾、雙手拿著應援棒。 10Please respect copyright.PENANAZxx4DNWhJj
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不愧是偶像之都,感覺隨處都是偶像粉呢!10Please respect copyright.PENANA5UDQWNm6VK
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可以的話,我也想和他們一樣掛著頭巾,親眼看看「天使」的直播呢!10Please respect copyright.PENANAHQAB2GJnrX
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不過……,這個願望無法達成了。10Please respect copyright.PENANAvNEX51ao7p
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天使華音凜在2016年突然宣布引退,之後就沒什麼消息了。 10Please respect copyright.PENANAY5r6QITdhh
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雖然很可惜,不過畢竟月花市不是只有天使這位偶像而已。10Please respect copyright.PENANAuPFSoQUJo7
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今年出現了非常多新秀,前NO.1偶像「明月」望月光甚至被成為偶像不到3年的新偶像「星空」星川真夜取代了,可以說今年正好是月花市改朝換代的一年。 10Please respect copyright.PENANA27wS522L02
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其他偶像也為了能提高排名,大概也非常努力的在唱歌吧? 10Please respect copyright.PENANASEVPlo8TBC
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那麼……,隨便在一個會場逛一下大概也能看到一名偶像的LIVE吧?10Please respect copyright.PENANA66QLYlr8oN
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雖然不能看到天使的LIVE有點可惜……,不過稍微親眼看一下其他偶像的LIVE也不錯吧?10Please respect copyright.PENANAAOQskhNl3Q
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都來到月花市了,就不要隔著螢幕欣賞,而是親眼去見證吧!10Please respect copyright.PENANANnv0IPHLKn
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正好前往飯店的路上有一個會場,就順路去那邊看看吧!10Please respect copyright.PENANAjNsFy0xUgJ
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我一邊想著,一邊往前走。10Please respect copyright.PENANAgSKN6sgr85
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不過在我走到一半時,一個美妙的歌聲突然出現,並進入我的耳中。10Please respect copyright.PENANAeKMwh8HOcC
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「~。」10Please respect copyright.PENANAlNiosVCmEc
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聽到歌聲後,我環顧四周,非常的疑惑。10Please respect copyright.PENANAIA6DjHLQIz
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誰在附近唱歌嗎?10Please respect copyright.PENANAT5zZ63k5Fm
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最後我在後方一個路口的轉角處,看到一名金色短髮的女子站在那裡。10Please respect copyright.PENANAgjLUAm7ZOR
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女子拿著麥克風,獨自一人在路上唱歌和跳舞。10Please respect copyright.PENANAeGjsa3a14n
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周圍的民眾人來人往,並沒有一個人因為那名少女的歌聲而停下腳步。10Please respect copyright.PENANA9MuGkbN2Qq
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為什麼?我感覺她的表演還不錯啊!10Please respect copyright.PENANAjFCKdfAljn
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至少我沒有自信歌能唱的比她好,也沒有自信舞能跳的比她流暢。10Please respect copyright.PENANAvOcvzFvyWO
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但是……,為什麼沒有人停下腳步呢?10Please respect copyright.PENANAmCjChXgwlh
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我停止動作,並盯著那名少女。10Please respect copyright.PENANAhe1bXmsbFH
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我看著那名少女表演完,並停止動作,對著人來人往的大街上鞠躬。10Please respect copyright.PENANAja1u6oxj8b
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少女抬頭後,意外與我對上眼,並微笑地向我招手。10Please respect copyright.PENANAgfbQwAxTYb
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她在跟我打招呼嗎?10Please respect copyright.PENANA8mFAjOuZx4
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我疑惑的走到那個少女旁,想要了解她的身份與來歷。10Please respect copyright.PENANAU5RCPqfmTn
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「我的表演成功嗎?」 10Please respect copyright.PENANAGaIids4dXq
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那名少女開口,並一直掛著那甜美的笑容。10Please respect copyright.PENANAKEdNHOToNk
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「表演?在這個大街上嗎?」 10Please respect copyright.PENANAavp9tqNhob
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「你看不出來嗎?10Please respect copyright.PENANAfoKnqPuCn3
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剛剛我不是在唱歌跳舞嗎?這毫無疑問是表演喔!」10Please respect copyright.PENANA75YKe3A0BX
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「……,是這樣沒錯……。」10Please respect copyright.PENANARlAQBymFdV
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「……,難道說……。10Please respect copyright.PENANAQPqXsYlpNm
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你不是本地人?」 10Please respect copyright.PENANAY7oXrRK4UJ
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突然間,少女開始將問題轉向我。10Please respect copyright.PENANAxQeu9DBNSn
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從剛剛到現在她都一直帶著那個微笑,甚至讓我覺得她是不是只是有一個表情。10Please respect copyright.PENANASOi9bqzKXE
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不過她怎麼會這樣問?難道這件事在月花市裡是正常的嗎?10Please respect copyright.PENANAVcJ2UjafMB
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「對,我是今天才來到這裡的。」 10Please respect copyright.PENANACG3hAo6aFb
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「你來這裡幹嘛?觀光嗎?」 10Please respect copyright.PENANAU7bzRkGYlA
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「不,我打算在這裡住一段時間,我想成為偶像。」 10Please respect copyright.PENANAoMXwvaoJAn
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「成為偶像?」 10Please respect copyright.PENANAsAt427JSEv
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少女繼續掛著笑容,並疑惑的盯著我。10Please respect copyright.PENANAm7x4xDb2no
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突然被這樣盯……,總覺得有點奇怪欸。10Please respect copyright.PENANAlsWpn3Jdt6
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「怎麼了?」10Please respect copyright.PENANAZ46oe0fdF3
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「……,我想認識你!10Please respect copyright.PENANAajCRpclFmI
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我叫吉田陽菜,你呢?」 10Please respect copyright.PENANAFYzHCSJv3U
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「咦?那麼突然!?10Please respect copyright.PENANAOD3QATV8Fg
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那個……,我是松本晴香。」 10Please respect copyright.PENANAq0OwRx9uSf
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「松本晴香嗎?10Please respect copyright.PENANAROaIjPhdMU
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我問你,你是真的想成為偶像嗎?」10Please respect copyright.PENANANVUnbPO8hY
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「當然,我剛剛就這樣說了吧?」10Please respect copyright.PENANAkYtD34QMLf
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「嗯……。10Please respect copyright.PENANA9aYjpP4bNf
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我話可能說的有點重,但我姑且還是得提醒一下。10Please respect copyright.PENANAAizcOIFba8
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你成為不了職業偶像的。」10Please respect copyright.PENANA3yIYkzDEfB
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「咦?」 10Please respect copyright.PENANAWfL3lYFXt3
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我愣住了,我能感覺她是保持著「友善」的態度對我說這句話的。 10Please respect copyright.PENANADBRAnLEucl
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但即使如此,我還是對她的意見非常不滿。10Please respect copyright.PENANAhDTReSZTQD
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「為什麼?10Please respect copyright.PENANAYHSEsAIcHm
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你憑什麼用這句話否定我的未來?」10Please respect copyright.PENANAT0RgkQY2cv
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「我知道你現在可能很難信服……。10Please respect copyright.PENANAm2gSaOtUC1
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不過有一天,妳會了解的。10Please respect copyright.PENANAxY6PyQ7R2t
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我給你我的電話號碼吧!要是遇到困難時我會幫助你的。現在你可以不打給我,但遇到困難時,我是會真心幫助你的!」10Please respect copyright.PENANAe6WKsu29kT
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吉田一邊說著,一邊從口袋拿出一個小紙條,並強行塞到我的口袋裡。10Please respect copyright.PENANA4p3AgMqszI
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在給我紙條後,她便轉身離開了現場。 10Please respect copyright.PENANAWs3XSNDxvQ
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我則站在原地,完全不知道現在該做出怎麼反應。 10Please respect copyright.PENANAKGo3enQ53g
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這也太誇張了吧?來這裡的第一天就被否定了夢想……。10Please respect copyright.PENANAK70i9j00lm
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不過我都來到月花市了,怎麼可能就這樣放棄?10Please respect copyright.PENANAi5KCk9fN5l
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等著吧,我一定會成為一個厲害的職業偶像給你看!10Please respect copyright.PENANAlks5CksCTO
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我在內心這樣想著,隨後便轉身離開。10Please respect copyright.PENANAiIz4uQZaNa
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我按照原本預定的行程,在飯店路上的某個會場,並在寬快速的買了門票後,坐到觀眾席上準備觀賞LIVE。 10Please respect copyright.PENANArIQpto79vX
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我看了下四周。這個會場大概和我學校的活動中心差不多大,同時也有有許多觀眾和我一樣坐在觀眾席,等待著即將到來的表演。10Please respect copyright.PENANAKS6C3H1Zj6
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表演者是NO.78的職業偶像「金花」鈴木美惠子。 10Please respect copyright.PENANA3sJuGpRplt
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親眼見證職業偶像的表演究竟是怎麼樣子?我感到很好奇。 10Please respect copyright.PENANAy4j9aHRly6
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本來應該是很開心的事才對……,但是……。10Please respect copyright.PENANAfKpsx0hZQz
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……,為什麼?10Please respect copyright.PENANA5zJztG8W61
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為什麼我的內心那麼不安呢? 10Please respect copyright.PENANApJ2aJo0R2k
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不久後,隨著舞台上的LED燈暗下來,在主持人說了一些廢話後,LIVE正式開始。一名金色長髮的女子走到舞台上,一旁的燈光全部打在女子身上,女子也完全不廢話的開始了表演。 10Please respect copyright.PENANA4ZPWr1qQ36
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「~。」10Please respect copyright.PENANA5OcNdCGtTH
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「……!」10Please respect copyright.PENANAoCeffybqNQ
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在她開口的瞬間,我愣住了。 10Please respect copyright.PENANAwbGgOT2mBa
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這也……,這也……。10Please respect copyright.PENANApendegeVQp
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這也太誇張了吧!10Please respect copyright.PENANAs3eA2pvhkZ
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唱歌很好聽……,舞蹈也很好……,這真的只是NO.78嗎? 10Please respect copyright.PENANA9EiRfZJ3LQ
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就在這個瞬間,我深刻意識到了幾件事。10Please respect copyright.PENANADfXXGRm5hk
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為什麼那名叫做吉田陽菜的少女即使歌聲很好聽,卻沒有任何人停下腳步的原因。10Please respect copyright.PENANA9oEXQ6vG71
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鈴木美惠子從上到下都散發一種特殊的氣場,讓人不自覺的想盯著她看,不自覺的想揮舞手中的應援棒。10Please respect copyright.PENANA24yPt5Q9mU
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如果是天使的現場舞蹈,那一定更震撼,更難以置信……。10Please respect copyright.PENANA2iZtm4X7a2
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……。10Please respect copyright.PENANAVjPEcapbr7
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我……,能做到像她一樣嗎?我能成功到達天使的那個水平嗎?10Please respect copyright.PENANAzm11ApNwRZ
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「你成為不了職業偶像的。」 10Please respect copyright.PENANALR9gmAh2og
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我的腦海不自覺的想起這句話。 10Please respect copyright.PENANAJB5qLVcgLD
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一想到這點,我就握緊了雙手。 10Please respect copyright.PENANAyiKr1eCOcJ
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「……,可惡。」10Please respect copyright.PENANAen8RhE2Akc
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在LIVE結束後,我很快走到了飯店,並在經過幾個手續後,很快進到房間裡,並住了下來。 10Please respect copyright.PENANATc6k3qZQ74
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我毫不猶豫的平躺在床上,腦袋一直不停的轉著。10Please respect copyright.PENANAwrdJGWgU8e
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光是第一天的所見所聞,就超乎我的想像……。10Please respect copyright.PENANAcXjcpCJS91
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算了,只是第一天而已,而且我之後也會進步的吧?10Please respect copyright.PENANA5f4vNJu2Lc
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我說服著自己,並從口袋裡拿出手機。 10Please respect copyright.PENANAGYkbkmmY2O
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之後的時間,就陸續往各家事務所面試看看吧! 10Please respect copyright.PENANAxw0MkWy6Je
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在來這裡前,我就選擇了19家不錯的事務所。 10Please respect copyright.PENANAXLZ35nu58G
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先從好的事務所開始面試吧!失敗了就往下一家決定。 10Please respect copyright.PENANA7IN2yf0yqt
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選擇的公司足足有19家,不可能一家都沒進吧? 10Please respect copyright.PENANAKdob11LY15
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是啊!不管怎麼樣至少會進一家吧?10Please respect copyright.PENANAm4I7H2aMcD
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加入事務所後,成為職業偶像後……,我就會成為大家都知曉的大人物! 10Please respect copyright.PENANA2I1jm1tchi
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一定可以很順利的!一定……。10Please respect copyright.PENANAjtSRrRVo1b
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……。10Please respect copyright.PENANAi030j25Wly
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一定……,嗎?10Please respect copyright.PENANA10rlvD4oOD
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我沒有選擇思考太多,而是在幾天後來到了一家事務所,並開始了自己的第一次面試。10Please respect copyright.PENANASFeMHWJhP4
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第一次面試,考官只是看了我一眼就請我離開。 10Please respect copyright.PENANAIeFayGTkDj
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「你沒有成為偶像的天賦」,他是這樣說的。 10Please respect copyright.PENANAmv99T7msbt
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這句話對他來說也許只是平淡的一句話,但卻深深打擊了我的內心。10Please respect copyright.PENANAFzHds6daJu
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我回到家,並嘆了一口氣。10Please respect copyright.PENANAkuNTNkAJ1J
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雖然第一步就那麼不順利,不過沒關係!10Please respect copyright.PENANAyCyFPv76na
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反正只是第一次而已,之後會更好的吧?10Please respect copyright.PENANAiMigBJhRPL
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這樣想著的我,並在幾天後再次進行幾次面試。10Please respect copyright.PENANAlBPGRNUogV
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第七次面試,考官跟我說「你好像有一個口頭禪是【這也太誇張了吧?】,所以我覺得你離開月花市去當綜藝演員搞不好比較好喔!」 10Please respect copyright.PENANAkURbGmgGBD
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這句話一直在我腦內徘徊,甚至到家裡也一直想著這件事。10Please respect copyright.PENANAL4TzYlJyU5
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綜藝演員……,雖然也是可以成為大人物,但總覺得不是我想成為的樣子呢……。10Please respect copyright.PENANA9MCMleWmeA
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但是……。10Please respect copyright.PENANAhSs0OLv1rG
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已經第七次了,面試還是沒有上。10Please respect copyright.PENANAc0uAsrs8gg
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我是不是……,應該轉換一下跑道啊?10Please respect copyright.PENANAYn86xux8nq
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第十二次面試,考官和我聊的很開心,彷彿讓我看見了一線曙光。10Please respect copyright.PENANAV1t1PxpmyB
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但是,最後還是沒有把我選上。 10Please respect copyright.PENANA8EHJxHxxmc
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在得知消息後,我躲在我自己的房間裡,出乎意料的哭了一段時間。10Please respect copyright.PENANA6DCwdKdNy6
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為什麼?明明這次我很有把握的……。10Please respect copyright.PENANA9IU6NoicbS
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已經第十二次了……,為什麼我還是沒辦法成功?10Please respect copyright.PENANAKCpnidJK8k
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我難道沒有才能嗎?我難道……。10Please respect copyright.PENANA7Ei3TTcLdk
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根本不適合當偶像?10Please respect copyright.PENANA7PBNbhdkuB
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……。10Please respect copyright.PENANAIlO5XUWXDO
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雖然感覺有點痛苦,但還是應該繼續嘗試。10Please respect copyright.PENANANccQjYGEiP
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還有七次機會,不是嗎?10Please respect copyright.PENANAqXRDYrYme5
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於是,我振作起來,並持續的去面試。10Please respect copyright.PENANAKycMeXBcch
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十三次、十四次、十五次、十六次、十七次、十八次。10Please respect copyright.PENANANrEB8mP6Zg
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最後都毫無懸念的被淘汰,我終究沒能成為偶像。10Please respect copyright.PENANAXTpRig5foU
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剩下最後一次機會了,我必須把握才行……。10Please respect copyright.PENANA0xoC1LgAVN
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我不能放棄、還有最後一次機會,不要放棄。10Please respect copyright.PENANAvHrtx58Im0
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振作起來,振作起來,振作起來,振作起來。10Please respect copyright.PENANARevFeCblHF
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第十九次面試,我換了一個方向。10Please respect copyright.PENANA4EO59xCmZd
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台詞、動作、神情,我從前面十八次的經驗中得出一個最佳的樣貌。 10Please respect copyright.PENANA2StUAJYRGx
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更何況這家事務所也不是什麼有名的事務所之類的,這一次總應該成功了吧? 10Please respect copyright.PENANAWcmBpI1n0b
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……,但是,最後還是失敗了。 10Please respect copyright.PENANAikFlR4vIRB
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理由是:「你的眼神太假了。」 10Please respect copyright.PENANAZgXcPjFeY2
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我聽到這句話時,我反駁道:「我知道我在偽裝,但這是因為我只能透過這個方式」。10Please respect copyright.PENANAiBDq4l6VR1
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然而考官告訴我:「你沒有成為偶像的才能,這個缺點是無論怎麼偽裝,都沒辦法隱瞞的。」 10Please respect copyright.PENANAF5va7ZuWZd
10Please respect copyright.PENANAkGTeFXf1fy
最後,第十九次面試還是沒能上。10Please respect copyright.PENANAjtL4bTq8vu
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在得知這一切後,我感覺我的內心有什麼失去了一般。10Please respect copyright.PENANAOoInsCf7Wg
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全部的機會,就到此結束了……。10Please respect copyright.PENANA944h30RKmx
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等到我意識到這點,已經到了2023年了,我如今也已經20歲。 10Please respect copyright.PENANAZtUAoGvDMi
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偶像排行榜的前十名已經連續兩年沒有變化了,象徵新的偶像時代正逐漸進行著。10Please respect copyright.PENANAApn8YFULPw
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相對的,此時的我住在一個髒亂的房間裡,泡麵餐盒快疊出一個高塔,外套和衣服散落一地……。10Please respect copyright.PENANAZuiWp7ae0V
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即使如此,我房間還是有一個空位,那邊靠牆的地方有一個大鏡子,我偶爾會在那麼練習跳舞。10Please respect copyright.PENANAb0dm4z1ooJ
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但是都落選了,事到如今跳舞還有什麼意義?10Please respect copyright.PENANARXUbkDFaXr
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我真是狼狽啊……。10Please respect copyright.PENANA8y1CLEiwhD
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在這裡生活其實也沒什麼困難,為了賺錢一直有接各種打工,也成功租到一個住宅裡面,三餐吃泡麵也沒有問題……。10Please respect copyright.PENANAAYHSIEEumZ
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但畢竟一直在打工,漸漸的也沒什麼時間整理房間了,一段時間後就變成了現在這個樣子。10Please respect copyright.PENANA0frMD4SHqe
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還記得之前,我會一個禮拜會和母親打通電話,兩人聊著在月花市的趣事。 10Please respect copyright.PENANAMrpmQqhyMT
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但是漸漸的,我不再打電話給她,也已經很久沒聽到媽媽的聲音了。10Please respect copyright.PENANAWHK4OOqz7X
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我該怎麼向母親說明我現在的慘狀? 10Please respect copyright.PENANArJZrxfNT8b
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我躺在床上,無聊的看著天花板。 10Please respect copyright.PENANAkz6R3upmz5
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已經沒有跳舞的心了,反正不管多努力都還是會失敗。10Please respect copyright.PENANA6lM1hZHooZ
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也許,自己終究也只是一個不會被歷史記住的失敗者而已。 10Please respect copyright.PENANAfJEDqtonA3
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不過仔細想想,至少我住在月花市對吧? 10Please respect copyright.PENANAPmA0JTrmYr
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畢竟生活都可以繼續過下去,不要奢求太多比較好吧?成為大人物的夢想不過是孩子的戲言罷了,其實在賽跑輸掉那一天我就知道了。10Please respect copyright.PENANAuy7dXLPxeD
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我,不是成為大人物的料。 10Please respect copyright.PENANALjjnkjF6GN
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這幾年,我不過只是一直在掙扎,一直在探索不存在的希望罷了。 10Please respect copyright.PENANA1YrZhkPj7k
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差不多該向現實妥協了。 10Please respect copyright.PENANAAkHSOr3wLK
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想著想著,感覺有點累了,打算就這樣睡著。10Please respect copyright.PENANAgJ28XZzh2M
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如果這一切都是夢,那該有多好? 10Please respect copyright.PENANAIw4iAUGV1i
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「現在你可以不打給我,但遇到困難時,我是會真心幫助你的!」 10Please respect copyright.PENANA5QWq8S10Pt
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在意識模糊時,我彷彿再度聽到這句話。 10Please respect copyright.PENANAsv0oM7jDxC
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啊……對了,在兩年前,我來這裡的第一天有遇到一個叫吉田陽菜的人。10Please respect copyright.PENANAl6xahJ7NSs
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我慢慢從床上爬了起來,並從雜亂的房間中尋找東西。 10Please respect copyright.PENANAbs4vN26fJz
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最後,我成功找到一個小紙條。 10Please respect copyright.PENANAcLG38bv4Z0
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兩年了,紙居然幾乎毫髮無損。 10Please respect copyright.PENANAzOPBQt6zz5
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這是最後的希望了,必須嘗試看看。 10Please respect copyright.PENANA2XC1OcR61P
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我再度拿起手機,默默撥打了上面所記載的電話號碼。 10Please respect copyright.PENANATJUhwc3Vc6
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隔天,我來到了一家便利商店,並在坐在一個椅子上等待著她的到來。10Please respect copyright.PENANAxpmLkBeAsL
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很快,在自動門的音效傳出後,我注意到了她的到來。 10Please respect copyright.PENANA3iXr8E9cZC
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「好久不見,松本晴香。」 10Please respect copyright.PENANAf0bdhMGe82
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吉田看到我後,馬上走到我面前,並坐在我的對面。 10Please respect copyright.PENANA5lb6aLIBft
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僅是一面之緣,但雙方都記得彼此。 10Please respect copyright.PENANAv3chpTUX2w
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她依然是掛著笑容,似乎沒什麼壓力一般。10Please respect copyright.PENANAhMcQIYkbly
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「感覺你沒什麼變呢。」 10Please respect copyright.PENANAWBOgr0dNB5
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聽到我的話,吉田也點了點頭。10Please respect copyright.PENANAZZDCOsU5ol
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「你倒是感覺變很多。 10Please respect copyright.PENANAZh62c1QTyY
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沉重的眼神、沒整理的頭髮、隨便亂配的衣服。10Please respect copyright.PENANACzZPCTCaHg
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這些年,你過的不是很好吧?」 10Please respect copyright.PENANAJJA6DopKLG
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「畢竟經歷這兩年,要不變都難吧?」 10Please respect copyright.PENANAPVXxCSSwcW
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「我想也是。 10Please respect copyright.PENANAJxJThuEOCV
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讓我猜一下,你沒有成為職業偶像,最後才變成現在這樣子對吧?」 10Please respect copyright.PENANAaUEdMkdFRZ
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「嗯……。 10Please respect copyright.PENANAVwh34VutpJ
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我已經不知道現在我該怎麼辦才好了。」 10Please respect copyright.PENANAEtpyPkNzwS
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「我有一個想法,你想聽聽看嗎?」 10Please respect copyright.PENANAJN3JgMuwqg
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「嗯,我就是為此叫你來的。」 10Please respect copyright.PENANACbpaTkgWWJ
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「你有沒有考慮要當業餘偶像的打算?」10Please respect copyright.PENANAT9RuIbJxjc
10Please respect copyright.PENANAQCP49RWDrh
「……,業餘?」10Please respect copyright.PENANAxf43w6DRB4
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對啊,仔細想想,吉田就是一位業餘偶像吧?10Please respect copyright.PENANAMmiPUULKmo
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所謂業餘偶像,顧名思義就是沒有任何事務所,以自己的名義表演的偶像。10Please respect copyright.PENANAbGWD8CKb6P
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雖然能繼續作為偶像表演不錯,但是……。10Please respect copyright.PENANAMXt1NkFyZC
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「我現在沒有時間想這些了。 10Please respect copyright.PENANAkrdlXnzsNa
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要是放棄其中一個工作,我可能連正常生活都沒辦法。」10Please respect copyright.PENANA8b8VaUQpvb
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「正常來說是這樣沒錯……。10Please respect copyright.PENANAp8FpPZP3ea
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但假如說,你要當的是有收入的業餘偶像呢?」10Please respect copyright.PENANA4LmIqI5YPd
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「有收入?10Please respect copyright.PENANAadBt3LLsRc
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這是詐騙集團嗎?聽起來很可疑欸。」 10Please respect copyright.PENANAnEgaQnXsEY
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「當然不是喔!」10Please respect copyright.PENANAr7Vd0q7Fus
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吉田一邊說著,一邊從口袋拿出一個名片。10Please respect copyright.PENANAZvApDaQEtj
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「Amateur Light」上面這樣寫著,這是一個偶像團體的名字嗎?10Please respect copyright.PENANA4fGMvTDthv
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「Amateur Light是由業餘偶像組成的團體,成立的人正是身為團長的我。10Please respect copyright.PENANAvs5J0sBk8o
10Please respect copyright.PENANAzR7NxfxFMe
每個沒有加入事務所的業餘偶像都可以加入我們,並透過完成一些小公司指派的委託並賺取薪資。10Please respect copyright.PENANAe1oICFiv3F
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雖然我們沒有偶像事務所那種強大的號召力和人脈,不過也是個不錯的方法吧?」10Please respect copyright.PENANA4B5yEoydqR
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「Amateur Light……。」10Please respect copyright.PENANAElTHkiULyx
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如果她說的沒錯。成為業餘偶像能有收入,又可以唱歌、跳舞,那應該不算太差吧? 10Please respect copyright.PENANAuJ3zurLWLd
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雖然成為業餘偶像絕對不能像職業偶像那樣在大會場跳舞……。10Please respect copyright.PENANAntKqVy956I
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……,算了吧?事到如今我還要求那麼多幹嘛?10Please respect copyright.PENANADChh4J375r
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「不是沒有考慮的價值。」 10Please respect copyright.PENANAxvehlg9jZh
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聽到我的回應,吉田也點了點頭。10Please respect copyright.PENANAouN8r8So6u
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「確定嗎?要不要再給你幾天思考……。」10Please respect copyright.PENANAylmHlzeYwE
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「不用了。」10Please respect copyright.PENANANO78Zcp7s1
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「連懷疑一下都不用嗎?」10Please respect copyright.PENANAHcJPy35UH2
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「你能從我這裡得到什麼?」10Please respect copyright.PENANAI9jFamZCwP
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聽到我的回應,吉田則嘆了一口氣。10Please respect copyright.PENANAXoIShbxJu7
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「好吧,既然這就是你的選擇……。10Please respect copyright.PENANAHzti7LBSur
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歡迎加入Amateur Light!」10Please respect copyright.PENANARJmaLgFRUZ
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聽到吉田的回應,我也點了點頭。10Please respect copyright.PENANArwX61uCuLK
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我知道,接下來我的路途將完全與眾不同。