My Future Death Love

Author : Ihsan Iskandar

Every human kind has their own characteristic and appearance. But, there is one thing that make me so special from other human being. I can see the future. That’s cool right? You must be think I will become rich people and surrounded by a woman. But I only can see the future of the death. And it’s just happen to someone I love.

I don’t really remember when I am started to have this abilities. But, when in senior highschool. I falling in love with my classmate girl and we are couple for 2 years. When near of our graduation. In my sleep, I am always has same dream, the cruel dream. In that dream. I was standing in sidewalk, watching a scene in front of me, approximately 5 feet from me. I saw a bodies lying in the ground. When I look closely, it was my girlfriend. I’m starting crying and suddenly wake up from my dream. I don’t know what’s wrong about this dream. But, I think is just a dream, perhaps.

In Prom night, me and my girlfriend go outside after dancing session, my girlfriend said she want to tell me something, but after I can catch her. I just agree and start to catch her. In that scene, we like a child who chasing each other, it’s a funny moment of my life. But, when we near of city road. I stop for a while, because it’s just like a scene from my dream. I shouting to my girlfriend to stop. But, when she stopped in the middle of road, the car from opposite direction came and the crash happen. I saw same scene like in my dream, and I’m started to crying and everything suddenly fade away.

After I woke up and knew that my girlfriend has passed away because several injuries. I have been interrogated by the police because I’m the only witness there. I came to her grave after several months and sit down beside her grave for an hour and started to crying.

5 years has passed and I have become policeman. After my girlfriend incident, I promise to myself that I will not allow the same incident happens again. Second, I promise to myself to not falling in love with any girl again and will life alone from now on.

After 2 years become policeman, I get the disciple from my superior to train her. Her name was Lucia. She was a cute girl with blonde hair and has 170 cm tall. I need to teach her the basic of policeman for 4 Next months.

When I’m in duty to help my disciple to know her field work, I invite her go to the city in midnight for patrol. In the middle of patrol. I saw something strange, 2 man with black mask trying to get in the house. That must be a thief. I told to Lucia to stay in the car and I’m get out from the car with my stick stun gun. I sneak and attack them from behind and make them paralyze, but suddenly I saw Lucia has been caught by another thief. “Shit!” I said loudly in my mind. I’m trying to convince the thief and walk slowly to them. When I saw the chance, I take out my gun and shoot thief hand and paralyze him immediately. Lucia who was sit down and trembling because that’s incident starting to crying. I want to calm her down with pad her hair. But suddenly she hug me tightly. For the first times after several years. No, in my first life because my past girlfriend never hug me. My face become redden and I just start to tremble just like her. Lucia who looked my face and recognize it start to laugh and calming down. After that scene, I brought the 3 thief to the jail. Me and Lucia in car and make a patrol again. The situation became awkward because “The hug Scene”. But, after 1 hour without dialog, I ask Lucia about her condition again. And her reply with a warm smile to “can you make me your wife?”. I’m started to silent for entire night. And my leg can’t calm down from trembling.

 After several months and Lucia always trying to catch me to marry her. Even I’m always said “NO” and “NEVER”, she just didn’t want to give up. Geezz, but when a week without her, because she has another duty to do. I felt lonely and just looking the moonlight. I lying down on my roof car. I begin to speak to myself with low voice “I’m afraid to marry her, I’m afraid that dreams comes again and take everything away. I bet, there is none of any girl who want to love someone like me who will make them die. Ha ha ha…” when I said that and close my eyes. I feel a warm feeling on my forehead and open my eyes. Blonde hair and black eyes that even darker than night sky. It was Lucia. Lucia just staring at me and said “Please marry me, and I don’t care about anything else, I want to be with you forever” I want to said NO, but, there is something strange feel in my heart. My brain and heart make a contradiction. And after that fierce battle between my brain and heart. I unconsciously said “yes”. Lucia hug me tightly and after 2 weeks, I marry her.

After 10 days become husband and has beautiful wife, I never expected that I can feel this feeling again, this happiness. I even happier than before with my girlfriend. Always spend my time with my Lucia, talk and watch film together. It’s make me so happy, and I’m started to feel love again. But that love feeling become a sharp knife.

After a months. That night, I began to dreaming, I standing in sidewalk, and look a bodies lying on the ground. This scene just same like 7 years ago, but with different area. I suddenly wake up from sleep and my cloth wet because my sweat. I saw Lucia beside me sleep with happy face. I go to the toilet and started to crying. 

After that dream, my behavior become strange. I warn Lucia to work and pay bodyguard in my house to keep her there. Lucia ask me what is really going on? But I didn’t answer her. But, that night I dreaming the same again, woke up and go to the bathroom try to crying and calm myself, just like always do. When I want to go to the bathroom. Lucia standing there and ask me what happen. I still standing there and said “Nothing” without looking her face. Lucia suddenly hold my face with her both hand and ask me once again. I cannot answer her. Lucia start to saying “I don’t care what will happen to me, sharing with me everything, both of us has said our promise to keep and there is no secret between us”. She’s right, I has a promised to keep, I said everything about my pass and my dream. After when I couldn’t hold my tears. Lucia hug me “I am not willing to die for you, that so dumb. I will try my best to life, so I can life with you and die with you in old age” my tears come out and I’m crying in her hug, that is my first time I felt so relieve and happy because Lucia is the woman who become my wife. I hug her tightly and said “Please be alive” Lucia replied with warm smile.

After that night, my behavior to overprotective Lucia has gone and once again, I felt the happiness of newlywed. That night, in new years night, I spend my time with Lucia in park. We eat ice cream together and make a little chitchat. I need to go the bathroom and leave Lucia for a minutes. And when I back, Lucia has gone missing. I tried to search her in that park for 15 minutes, but there is no sign where is she. But 5 minutes later, I saw Lucia was trying to be kidnaping by 2 men wear black mask in side road. I run to her, but one of that men trying to stop me, I punch that men chin and he collapse. I saw Lucia still struggle to run from the kidnapper. I take my gun and aim his leg. I directly shot his knee and Lucia run away from him and across the read. At that time, I saw the area just same like my dream. After recognize that, I suddenly shout Lucia to stop but the car from opposite direction come with tremendous speed. “I will not let that happens again!” I said it and run to Lucia, it’s only 0.01 per-second, I can save her from the crash, Lucia and I make it. The destiny has been change. That what I thought. Me and Lucia trying to get up. Lucia position is in the sidewalk and I’m still in the road. But, suddenly from opposite direction, the car with fast speed come directly to me. I saw my old memories for a second “at least Lucia safe and her future has changed.” I close my eyes, but someone push me away. I open my eyes and that was Lucia. Lucia save me from the crash, but in exchange, Lucia get crash by that car. I saw the same scene just like in my dream, saw a bodies lying on th ground, I don’t know what I have to do, I can’t think again, I want to die, I take my gun from my pocket and aim it to my head with blank face. When I want to draw the trigger. Someone hand stop me. It was Lucia. “I has told you, I will try my best to life for you, so don’t you dare to do it” Lucia said that to me. I dumbfounded for a second. But, I’m started laughing “ you alive, but the car-? it’s just a dream right? He…he…he” I’m started to laughing like mad guy. Lucia hug my head tightly. 

With warm hug from her, I am laughing even harder, while I am crying too. “thank you to still alive for me Lucia and wake me up from this nightmare dream” I look Lucia face and kiss her forehead.