Can you ever imagine it? You're the bestest of all the bestfriends out there but with just a blink of an eye you're like the strangers of all the strangers? Actually that message composed of screenshots about a convo of my ex-friend talking to her friend about someone they've been back-stabbing and well that's me. I feel hurt and again, betrayed. I've been neutral all this time. I chose not to talk to her cause I didn't want to be plastic and act like I'm okay with her actions. Silent treatment is the only thing I can think of as a solution. As if I could talk to her and tell her how I feel. Her pride is bigger than my ego so no, she won't. She always feel like she's right all the time. There's no room for agument.887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ987fgIf6Bv
But yeah I may not be able to tell you why we are in this situation, maybe in some other time but for now I'll just focus on how I want to pinch her nose for being so two faced person.
She acts like an angel to people but I know how evil she is. It's hard knowing the truth when everybody antagonizes my point. But again who cares, we're all going to die anyways this will pass. Scratch that, I just want to shout and tell the world how depress and stress I am over some girl who acts like a saint.
The moment I received the message I feel like crying, I actually cried but not much, my tears are too precious for a scum like her. How can she even do that? Her smile makes me puke, her voice makes me screech in distress. Ugghh she's making my life a living hell.
Actually I tried to disregard it but yeah stupid mind and heart of mine, feeling guilty to the things I didn't even do at the first place.
One day when all of these are starting to calm down I'm going to send her a long ass message, she may laugh and disregard it but at least I've done my part right? I'm going to make her realize how her attitude is so fowl and I'm going to point out how our friendship was ruined.
I made a poem actually when I'm too stressed about some event it's titled
'Fuck Up Friendship' I'll post it. Enjoy.
"Words we unleash,
Is like a vine of suffering
Be it be good or bad,
It's up to us to cherish.
You said it's okay
But deep inside you're thought's decayed,
What must be done,
For hatred to be gone?
So dire aren't We?
We say good things,
Yet we thought bad things,
It must be awful, to act in glee.
Isn't it tiring?
For you to act willing?887Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfVlcasoCKu
Innocent smiles littering
But evil thoughts skittering.
I really regret everything,
Being your friend is so tiring,
You drain me up,
Until I'm nothing but a shriveling mess.
Your words bend you up,
It goes in the wrong way,
It shies away from you,
Until it turns into a word hypocrite.
What a rusted friendship,
What a wasted hardship,
As I'm typing this with you in front.
I feel like puking up.
Being your friend is hypocrisy,
blinded with your identity.
Fooled by your smiles,
Deceived by your cries.
I'm sorry if I changed,
I cannot live in charade,
I'm being honest,
So let's end it up.
You make my heart bleed
You make my heart break
You make my heart shake
With so much atrocity.
Despite that, thanks for the memories
I just hope they're not fake."
Ps: I wrote it while she's actually sitting at front of me. Damn imagine the feels.
