I clenched my teeth and balled my hands into fists in my jacket pockets. Annoyed of the day and what went through in school. At that moment the cold didn't bother me; after all I have always been one who barely froze and walks often around in t-shirt. Some in my class have to annoy me for some silly reason that is not even a reason to do that, mobbing or bullying is never a reason to do. No matter what, it never does any good, not even to yourself. I gave a sigh, trying to let that tensed emotion go. A cloud of vapor rolled out of my mouth. I looked up to see where I am heading although I could walk home blindfolded. I am at the bridge that has stood here for many centuries, making it easier to transport across a river. What the-! Am I dreaming or is there really a person standing on the railing facing the water? It is a boy with short, spikey, black hair and dressed all in dark gothic style. He even wore make-up around the eyes. Yet those beautiful shaped eyes appeared sad. Does he mean it serious? The Winter wind made his short, black leather jacket flutter about like a flag while his arms rested beside his hips relaxed. Although I am not a gothic fan but I have to say he looks cool with those clothes.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ44Y6pQJPpx
Suddenly those eyes looked to me. I realised I froze and stared at him. I quickly swallowed and then spoke. "Sorry to bother you but what are you doing on the railing?" I asked cautiously; hoping not to annoy him or worse make him jump.
He looked back down to the river below. "What do you think?"
My jaw dropped. He slowly moved a foot out as if stepping upon an invisible step or platform.
"Stop! Please come down. We can talk." I suggested uneasy and fast. Pulling myself together not to touch him or come too close incase he would grap me at the last minuet and pull me along.
He did not move as if he was frozen into ice. A statue of desperation and sorrow.
"Would you like to have tea or hot chocolate with me? My house is only 10 minuets away from here. To be honest I too had a terrible day. Please come down." I suggested nervously; hoping he would climb down upon the sidewalk and not jump.
Slowly like a mechanic puppet the foot in the air was back on the railing and his eyes looked into mine. For a moment my cheeks grew warm. "You have no idea how terrible mine is and it's not just one day but my entire life. I want to end it." He spoke calmly.
I stepped a bit closer with caution. "Then to end it is not through death but you yourself can change it. You have the power to change it like moving away into a different country and start anew or change your style into another direction that you admired. I heared hippie can be kinda cool." Damn! What am I saying? This is definitely the worst day; I made a boy jump because of me suggesting hippie. I can imagine making the front page in the local papers. A boy jumped because one girl talked about hippie style.
Suddenly he jumped off the railing and stood before me with curious glistening eyes. They were deep blue like sapphire; special eyes for a special boy. "You mentioned I have the power to change. How?" He wondered skeptical and cocking the head to one side.
I sighed of relief and gave a friendly grin to him. "Come with me and have some tea or hot chocolate." I invited with a grin.
He accepted my invitation with a nod and walked beside me. First then I realised how tall and good looking he was. "Well before I can explain how to change; first of all you need to tell me what is the situation you have difficulties to deal with and a bit about yourself." I answered honestly. Ops! That can sound threatening for him. He will surely turn round and take the dive. I bit my tongue.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQGnd1yaKvN
He gave a sigh. "Very well but after tea or hot chocolate." And faced to the ground; putting his hands into his jacket pockets.
Good idea and some biscuits that I baked yesterday! With a full tummy and chocolate gives you more courage and better humor. I will give him a large cup so that it will be easier to tell. "I'm Helen." I introduced and offered my hand to shake.615Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzHITNBf1lG
"Allan." He responded short and shook hands with mine. His fingers were cold as ice. Is he freezing?
"Your hands are cold as ice. Are you freezing?"
"Only my hands but nothing more." He said and gave a small grin.
Soon we were at my door, knowing my parents are working late today so we will have plenty of time for ourselves. I quickly explained to him where the bathroom was if he had to go and led him into the kitchen. "What would you like to have? Tea or hot chocolate? I even have lactos-free milk because my dad is lactose intolerant."
Allan grinned. "Whatever you will have."
"Hot chocolate then. Are you lactose intolerant?"
He shook slowly his head. His hands still in his trouser pockets.
I heated the 'normal' milk. We both waited in silence for a moment in the kitchen.
His glance wandered around and then to me. "Is there something I can help?" He asked friendly.
"Afterwards enjoying with me some hot chocolate and some biscuits that I baked yesterday." I responded highly motivated with a smile.
He gave a short chuckle.
Soon we sat at the table in the living-room; sipping silently our warm, large mugs of chocolate and enjoying few biscuits. The living room table stood at one corner with big French windows, providing a beautiful view of the old city Berne (Switzerland) and the alpine mountains beyond. Everything had a white coat of snow while the sun shone bright on the never ending crystal blue sky. I looked across the table to Allan. His eyes were fixed at the view and a small grin was compose upon his pale thin lips. His head rested upon one hand.
Soon he turned to me with the same grin. "Thanks." He sighed relaxed and contented.
I smiled and gave a nod. It worked! It turns out my day today is not so bad as I thought.
"I didn't have the courage before to tell you of my problems but now I feel up to it." He paused.
He is changing already by opening himself to someone and I am eager to listen what he has to say.
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