My mother was never a mother to me, she never stepped up she wanted me too she'd push people away, because she came first and her booze and parties before me and food, she was to selfish to do that. She Blackmailed me to be who she wanted me to be as if property, for her heart is cold as ice.
When I was a teenager she'd manipulate me, used my name and my money and when I was drained of my rights and had no self esteem in me, hardly any hope..I tried to leave and she looked me in the eye and told me she would kill herself...
love isn't always security and warmth your heart, It can break your heart too, it hurts to love her... I wish I could forget her and all the memories that are to painful to relive, and with time I blocked them out my heart break thinking of it because she taught me one thing its how not to be a parent.
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