TANNER'S POV
I wanted to die. I'm tired of everything. I'm tired of being judged and bullied. Nobody understands me. Not even my parents. They favor my siblings over me. Why? They're smarter, more good looking and another fun fact, they're straight. Unlike me. Nobody knew that i'm gay. Only my closest best friend from middle school and my boyfriend, Collin Stanley. We've been together for only five months now, but we already know we love each other. We're secretly dating, but I want it to end. I want to tell the world, even my parents that i'm in love with Collin. I want everybody to know that he's mine and he will be mine till the day I die. Though, Collin isn't too happy about the decision I want. He's in the closet like me and he has no intentions of coming out because his parents are hella strict and believe in the bible.
I want everything to end. I'm bullied because i'm different and if I get bullied more for being gay then so be it. I just want to come out because i'm tired of hurting. It hurts me everyday to wake up and know that nobody will understand me and will continue to judge me. I've had enough. I can't see myself going on any farther, but I continue to push myself because of Collin. I know that if I tried to commit suicide, he would be hurting way too much. I can't do that. I'm not selfish like that and I care deeply about him. I wish someone would come up to me and tell me what to do about my situation.
I sighed deeply as I pressed my hands and forehead against the shower wall. It's currently after school and I just left soccer practice to come and take a shower before I head home. This is really the only time I get to think and not be interrupted. As soon as I closed my eyes, I can see Collin's face appearing in my head. Seeing that cute, goofy smile on his face makes me feel warm and fuzzy inside. I've been thinking about running away with Collin so we can be together and not worry about judgments, but I don't know where to start. I'm only fucking sixteen.
I was so into my thoughts that I didn't hear someone come into the shower room. The sound of the shower running was also a little loud. Right now, I wish Collin was with me. Standing here with me under the shower head. I wish to hold him in my arms and kiss him so many times until I run out of breath. I started to feel my chest tighten, just thinking about him.
Suddenly, before I knew it, I felt something hit me on the head. I collapsed onto the cold floor and looked up to see a group of guys standing over me. Then, all at once, they hit me with bats. I cringed at the pain as I tried to cover my head. I waited and waited till the abuse was over, but it was far from over. Finally, the leader of the pack stood over me and held up a knife. My eyes widen as he started stabbing me all over. I shut my eyes tightly, feeling my blood seep out of my body. Minutes later, I started to feel myself growing cold as I was slipping into unconsciousness. Right then and there, I wish I could tell Collin how much I love him. As I felt the darkness take over my body and mind...
I knew I was never going to wake up again.
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