Home tonight by Paul McCartney
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The world is falling apart315Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPUb4e523WA
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I read the bad news every day315Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpvyKj0mO2P
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I'm taking you home tonight315Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡap0dijLfoZ
So say yes tonight315Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6hSmzpawkP
Say yes if my suggestion is right315Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkRzRtqbMjz
Say yes to me315Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxlAXWT1hGA
If that's the way you want it to be315Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcuh2246X9d
Well, I'm taking you home (home!) tonight315Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvNmLmuKfZ3
I want to make sure that you're alright315Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡthH1ecaaZm
They say a cold, cold wind is blowing in315Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuYp8n0IuTM
The coat you're wearing's way too thin315Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj4rHQszB4g
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The Beatles 是我自童年便一直喜歡著的樂隊，今年剛好成軍30年，挺值得紀念的。這隊樂隊對我影響挺深，很多時候都是聽著他們的歌聽著聽著就過了。而自從樂隊解散了之後，樂隊各人都有自己的發展。Paul McCartney亦開始發展自己的音樂事業，到現在推出了不少單曲和專輯。而今天就想和大家分享Paul McCartney的Home tonight。
第一次聽完這首歌，內心好像沒什麼波動，但是卻感覺到有些東西沿著雙頰流了下來，原來我不經不覺流淚了。這首歌帶給我的感覺就像是在狂風暴雪中，孤立無援時，有人趟風冒雪過來找你，帶領著你回去；更是擔心著你的外套會不會太薄，會不會不夠衣服。這種被關懷的感覺良久未曾感受到，也罕見地被這個感覺擊中了內心柔軟的地方。
聽這首歌的時候，剛好是我的生活一團糟的時刻。找不到人生方向、懷疑自己的能力、失去讀書的動力、期終考試的失利，這些東西一點一點的壓垮了我，我那段時間每天都會經歷最少一次心悸，以及最少一次的panic attack，接下來便是無盡的焦慮情緒。我根本沒有辦法好好整理思緒，甚至連從哪裡著手都不知道。唯一能夠讓我稍微冷靜一丁點的，就只有這首歌的歌詞和Paul溫柔的聲線。睡覺時聽著這首歌，感覺才好像安穩了一點，起碼在暴風雪中有人陪著。
有時候我很想逃避，很想脫離正在研讀的課程，很想逃跑，但是對數學的熱誠讓我暫時驅散了那種想法。但這種不斷反覆出現的fight or flight情況很快擊潰了我的防線，不但身體出現了反應，甚至心理也開始變得更加焦躁，容易有極端的情緒，例如極度傷心、極度生氣等等。這首歌便是我在失控邊緣的一根救命稻草。每次一聽這首歌，雖然情緒還是很失控，不過卻有一種舒服了一點點的感覺。
其實我不太喜歡去分析某某歌曲的意境，因為這個舉動很「藍色窗簾」。因此我希望文中聚焦的是一首歌能夠帶給我甚麼感受。而這首歌給我的感覺便是陪伴，是一種無論你處境如何，都會在你身邊陪著你、擔心你的陪伴。的確，我們身邊其實有很多人在身邊，父母、兄弟、朋友都會支持著你。可是有時候，我們需要的是獨處下的陪伴，而這首歌正正滿足了我的需要，在只能獨自面對的情況下默默以旋律與歌詞陪伴著。
//I’m taking you home tonight//
這句歌詞直譯是「今晚我要把你帶回家」，但我卻感受到另一種意思。這個時期的我其實處於極度迷惘的狀態，找不到將來的目標，也不清楚現在的我該如何走。這句歌詞對於我便好像是告訴我總會找到路回歸初心的，也總會有人陪著你，帶著你回到最初那堅定的初心。
雖然不知道大家聽完這首歌之後會不會有類似的感覺，或著對我說的話有共鳴。不過仍然希望這首歌可以成為茫茫人生路上的一個小路牌，在迷路時提供小小的指引。也告訴自己，無論如何，總會有人陪伴著你、關心著你。
後記：隔了差不多一年才真真正正重新執筆寫作，感覺文筆都生疏了許多，不過放心，應該會鞭策自己以後多點寫文和更新的，也感謝各位朋友的支持和提醒，讓我把握些少的空餘時間重新寫寫東西。
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亡魂
12/12/2020
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